"--uh, other-Quackity's place? It's-- if you take the portal from spawn and then the nearest portal to that, that dumps you out pretty near it, it's in a desert but like a fairly cold one-- it's got a giant sign, it's kind of hard to miss? I didn't spend much time actually in the place, he really did not want me there." 

"I-- it's-- oh. Okay. I'll... go check it out, I guess."

--ah, shit, he has fallen into a pit of missing context again and this time it's personal. 

"I can go with you if you want--?" Is that weird? Well he can't take it back now.  

"No, it's fine, if he didn't want you there it's probably a bad idea. Sorry, you seem cool."

"No worries, man." He's being so normal. So, so normal.

Sapnap too. "Let me know if you want to see anything closer up? Or you can just come here on your own, I guess. I might jump you before I see it's you, though, so watch out." It's mostly a joke; he smiles.

He smiles back. It's not even fake.

Please, part of his brain begs the rest, please, please just shut up. 

"...can I stay here for a night even if I'm not sure if I'm joining long-term? I, uh, don't actually have anywhere... else." 

"Of course, man. Stay as long as you need."

"...thank you." 

Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck he needs to be alone right now is there somewhere convenient he can do that—

Sapnap's not stopping him from just walking off. Lots of empty buildings, corners, etc. Not to mention the ability to just dig a hole in the ground.

He is not going to dig a hole in the ground to cry in, that's stupid. He nods to Sapnap like a normal person and then he finds an empty building. 

And then he sits down on the floor and pulls his knees up close to his chest and just, fucking,

(everyone here is a stranger and sometimes they're unexpectedly kind given that but he can't rely on it and he's going to have to pay up at some point and, and he misses wil and sapnap and tubbo and george and karl so fucking bad, it's barely been a day since he saw wilbur but he misses him, he misses having anyone who knew him and he misses having any idea what was going on and also he just fucking misses them, misses them so desperately that apparently he'll cling to strangers who have the same names—)

(and it isn't going to be obvious to anyone that he didn't disappear on purpose, it's going to look to the capitol like he found a way out and it's going to look to his friends like he got vanished off the face of the fucking earth, and it's tubbo who's going to suffer for that and maybe sapnap too, and he doesn't want to think about this and he can't wrench himself away from it to think about anything else and—)

(and dream here is in prison and he still doesn't know why and apparently he is still in the sort of place where you aren't allowed to say even that there's things you aren't allowed to say, except he has no idea who's doing the allowing anymore, and he is so so so tired of constantly keeping his mouth shut and wil would get it but wil isn't here and—)

spends at least half an hour breaking down, and then another twenty minutes or so pulling himself back together. 

Quackity_V68 whispers to Quackity: you might have to have a conversation with sapnap soon

Quackity_V68 whispers to Quackity: it wasn't on purpose I just didn't realize he didn't know what las nevadas was

Quackity_V68 whispers to Quackity: so if there's a reason you weren't doing that I'm sorry

No response. 

Not long after he sends it, he hears yelling from outside. Other-him and Karl and Sapnap. (—what the fuck are you talking about? — sacrifices —  guys — what have you done for me — not funny — karl — what the fuck was El Rapids — bad fucking idea — murderer — not fucking joking — he blamed me — I don’t know — a murderer —)

Eventually, the yelling stops. 

Fuck. 

As the yelling is starting to die down he gets to his feet. Carefully, nervously, opens the door. 

Sapnap’s there and nobody else. His eyes are redder than they were. He smiles at Quackity anyway. 

"...is everyone okay?" 

Stupid question, maybe. It didn't sound like anyone got hurt, at least. 

…Shrug. “I dunno, man. I think something’s wrong with Karl.”

This is a fucking stranger. Don't make it weird. 

...but this is also a version of Sapnap, who has obviously been crying. 

"Do you want--" and then he cuts himself off. "Sorry. I don't know. You can tell me to fuck off, I won't take it personally." 

“…Yeah, uh, no offense, I don’t actually know you. Sorry. I guess it depends what you’re offering?”

"Yeah, nothing that wasn't gonna be weird. None taken." 

He goes back inside. 

There's a pair of headphones in his pocket and he's probably never going to be able to give them back, and there's a note reminding him to file some paperwork with the transport bureau as a promise to Tubbo that he's never going to be able to fulfill, and he will probably never speak to a Sapnap who knows him ever again, and his jacket is the only other thing left from anyone he has ever loved, and he has cried himself out already so how about instead he tries to get some actual sleep. 

Sure, he can do that. He has nightmares, but he sleeps. 

Yeah, he's had constant nightmares since he was sixteen. There's a reason he carries tranqs in his pocket. 

The next morning he's actually rested. Advantages of sleeping in a bed and not in a random place on the ground, he guesses. This house has a shower, which he uses, gets the two day old makeup off his face, washes his clothes by hand in the sink until he's satisfied he's gotten all the sand out, folds his jacket and leaves it neatly on the bed. 

He's still miserable but he's kinda numb about it. No time like the present, he guesses, to find out what's up with Dream. 

If he walks around the main area for a while, he will find:

- a small dirt hobbit hole of a house, built into the hillside and covered in flowers
- a couple abandoned shops
- a white quartz church
- a white quartz house
- an overgrown crater with an obsidian grid above it
- a very large prison. the main prison is a box, without any apparent way to enter, but there's another building a bit away from it in the same style.

Alternatively, he could talk to someone and find out things like "where the prison is", "how to enter the prison", and/or "how death works".

The last three times he's tried talking to a person it has been a mistake. Possibly the last four. How about that building a bit away from the prison in the same style. 

There's a portal inside, and a button.