"It has to be something I have meaningful claim to, I think, though that can be - something someone else gave me. I'm... Unsure if standing for someone would worth in the way I think you mean, though it's possible to sacrifice something of yourself to benefit someone else."
(She doesn't think his sins were Father's true downfall. There was a debt, a bill he'd avoided paying, foisted off on everyone around him... And in the end, the collector had come calling.)
"And my alchemy works on equivalent exchange. Which mostly means it's obnoxiously hard to cheat, but. Things go better when I don't actually try to cheat it, and..."
(Long ago, she'd seen the Gate for the first time - and she'd flat out asked her Truth if she knew what was beyond - and the answer had amounted to no, and so Bellona had taken the Truth's ephemeral hand and led it through the opening doors...)
"It's - in some ways the opposite of your experience, I think. The times I've traded recklessly... It rarely feels worth it at first, but... In the long run, I find I was given what I actually, truly needed." (El doesn't feel that way, she knows, and nor does anyone else who's seen the Gate except maybe Ling, but also El has a distinctly hostile relationship with her Truth, and most other people are bad at perspective.)
(Losing her body sucked, but it was useful in the long run, and the knowledge she received was ultimately worth the pain. And they fixed things in the end, through the gift their dad gave them. And she knows El would never regret the loss of her arm in exchange for Bellona's continued existence. (Equivalent doesn't, after all, mean equal in value; a work of art and a lump of unworked material provide the same equivalency.))
Tiny smile. "I might be able to trade memories of useless errata for useful knowledge, actually; I haven't tried that yet, but as long as it's the same amount and kind of information, the math should work out... The main problem is guessing the equivalency correctly; that'd be very dangerous to underestimate, and inconvenient if the errata turns out to be actually useful and I overstate the strength of the trade. And something like 'knowledge of other timelines' might function on a more esoteric and harder to measure substrate, like potential, which is something only the desperate trade in."
...But...
" - Though this might all interact very weirdly with time travel, especially if any of my other selves ever figured it out."