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Merrin working in Exception Handling
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By 3 am, Nerdel is clearly falling asleep in her chair.

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Merrin is ALSO tired but mostly in the sense that she is pretty impatient for it to be morning. She has the sense that Kalorm is actually appreciating his mother’s presence, whether or not he’s communicating this - is Khemeth agrees, maybe she can get Nerdel a (thicker and more comfortable) floor mat, to sleep next to him? 

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Yeah, no, absolutely agreed.

(Khemeth is also hitting significant exhaustion but is better at hiding it.)

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In that case, Kalorm will wake up around 3:45 am to his mother fast asleep beside him, her hand resting on his cast, and Merrin trying to keep her brain working by explaining the physiology of how vasopressors work to his brother. 

He wants a mouth swab and another cool cloth for his forehead and help turning over, and then - predictably - to try the minimum-ventilator-settings again.

This time he makes it to 8 minutes before subjectively feeling (or at least admitting to) fatigue, and 23 minutes before - honestly, to his intense relief - Merrin quietly informs him that his CO2 has been out of range for a whole minute and that means it’s time to rest. 

(Kalorm is quickly realizing that Merrin is at least as determined as he is that he will set a new record this time.)

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See, Merrin is aware that Kalorm is very good, which is why she believes in him. It’s definitely not JUST that 4 am is the worst time of day in existence and Merrin is really bored 

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5:30 am. The sun is rising. (The “window” on one side of Kalorm’s room is a screen, not a real window - there’s too much stuff around the Complicated Patient Area for it to be feasible to have an outward-facing room - but the skylight is real, and the screen is apparently convincing at least to Kalorm-with-impaired-visual-processing. He doesn’t ask questions, just looks at it with an expression of vague, tired longing.)

He makes it 9 minutes before flagging that breathing is starting to feel effortful. And then waves to get Merrin’s attention at 18 minutes and manages to communicate that he would like the normal settings back please, he actually wants to sleep. 

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Aww, can’t he just  That makes perfect sense, Merrin reassures him as she puts his settings back (to slightly lower ventilator support than he was on before.) He’s probably accumulating some muscle fatigue that will take more than a 90-minute nap to fully recover from, that’s not exactly the usual rest-interval recommendation for, say, serious resistance training, and it makes sense to model this project as closer to that than breathing would usually be. If he needs to get a longer block of sleep, that’s fine too, though if more than 2 hours pass then they’ll probably need to suction him, sorry, that seems to be pretty much the longest interval they can stretch it to right now.

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(Also, yes, it sure is 12.5 hours into a day-night-flip shift and Merrin sure is starting to seek instant gratification.)

She takes Kalorm’s hand. “Also, hey. I’ve been on duty for a while and I think the day shift is going to be taking over pretty soon.” At this point they presumably only haven’t stepped in YET because Merrin lost track of time and forgot to ask for relief.

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(Actually, they’re trying to stretch it out while people do their best to figure out what Merrin is even doing that seems to work so well with Kalorm, because surely it cannot literally just be “beat him in a wrestling match” despite the fact that his attitude sure seemed to shift around then.

Someone will communicate to Merrin, as soon as she’s no longer distracted, that they would like to discuss how to set up a handoff - ideally while Kalorm is awake to observe it - such that the interval until she’s rested enough to work again will go as smoothly as tonight did.)

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A flicker of distress passes across Kalorm’s face. 

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Khemeth has been awake as long as Merrin has, if not using his brain as hard - from midnight onward he wasn't really doing any cognitive work at all while Kalorm was sleeping, whereas Merrin was at least observing for any medical changes. His brain is fried.

Still. He saw that reaction. If Merrin didn’t spot that then Khemeth will have to -

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Merrin spotted it.

She is VERY DONE but she smiles reassuringly at Kalorm. “Not before you wake up next, but - at some point soon. I just wanted to make sure it wouldn’t be a surprise.”

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Kalorm nods. He isn’t doing a great job of tracking time, but even just putting together guesses at the sunset-sunrise time interval, in Default at the time of year he thinks it is, Merrin has been on-shift for a long time.

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...Also he's very tired and cannot, in fact, manage to stay awake longer. 

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Oh good he doesn't have to say words. Words became really hard at some point in the last hour.

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Merrin waits until he's definitely asleep per the EEG before letting herself sigh, and looking over at Khemeth. 

"...I am going to be pretty out of in in two hours, if he sleeps that long. Um, if you have advice on how to approach handover, I could use some planning help...?" 

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help she wants him to say words 

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Merrin blinks.

Waits a moment longer. 

.....Oh right it's been, like, thirteen hours, and Khemeth has been here the entire time. 

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Khemeth isn't that impaired. He still pulls the scattered pieces of his attention together in maybe five seconds, after Merrin is able to notice (and he can still pick up that she has noticed) but before she actually figures out what to say. 

"...I suspect your body language matters more than what you say? He's not processing words in much detail right now, especially when he's this tired. I mostly expect you to get this right on your own? And you shouldn't pretend, he can tell. Just, if you– to the extent you have any control over what emotions you're experiencing in the moment, by choosing what to focus on -"

Which, based on his internal Merrin-model, he suspects is 'more than average'...

"- I think you should - to be clear it's okay to feel tired, he can predict that and he should have that information - but it won't help if you're additionally frustrated with him? And - I think - it will help if you feel protective and at least slightly reluctant to leave him with someone else, even for some very badly-deserved sleep." 

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....Wow. Khemeth is really impressive. Controlling for relative stamina levels, Khemeth having been on-duty for 13 hours after an even-longer-than-that day along with her yesterday - and, wow, he probably had a less restful "break" than her, he could hardly have emotionally detached from the situation even to the extent she managed it - but anyway, that's got to be, like, the equivalent of Merrin pulling a – maybe an entire 24h-straight shift, and getting just barely enough time off to sleep and be capable of making herself work again, and doing it a second time? 

Consider Merrin very impressed. She noticed the hesitation, and the fact that he's restarting sentences in the middle more than usual, but she's herself - e.g. doing a less difficult thing than him - and her shift report is going to be so much less coherent than that. 

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Also she is, in fact, not frustrated with Kalorm!

Kalorm is great!!! Merrin appreciates Kalorm. He's impressively stubborn and competitive and Merrin is taking notes over here he's trying so hard and he's so determined and if he applies half as much effort to the rest of his recovery that he's applying to "proving he can breathe on his own" then he's going to do amazingly well and everyone will finally be adequately impressed. 

And she does genuinely feel really protective of him.

Not to an extent where she endorsedly feels reluctant about shift handoff - she has to do it, ideally soon, she's still basically functional right now but she can feel her brain in the early stages of completely crashing on her, that's at most 3-4 hours away and ideally she would give a handover report before that, because her ability to communicate information to other humans in a non-utterly-humiliating way hits a wall well before her ability to process patient responses and sensor data and respond accordingly does. 

(And, maybe weirdly, also well before her ability to interact socially with patients does. She runs that on cached scripts plus...what, reading facial expressions and body language? That doesn't take cognitive effort.) 

 

Anyway. Merrin - is still going to ask other people for advice on this, given how Khemeth is clearly barely staying awake - but if those are the basics that he thinks she needs to cover, then...she's pretty sure she's fine, actually? 

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She nods to Khemeth. 

"I can do that. I assume," given how you're the psychological modeling expert, "you already noticed, but - I like your brother."

Pause. 

"Anyway. I think we're probably going to be okay for it, if I," manage to stay functional until whenever he wakes up, "make sure he's alert and reassured first and then introduce whoever's taking over? I think it's a good idea if you go get some rest." 

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Khemeth DID already notice this! He isn't very surprised but he is nonetheless pleased! 

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Okay he's - smiling at her and also hasn't said anything for an entire two seconds? 

....Right, that would be the part where he's been awake and working for the-Merrin-equivalent-of-like-24-hours. 

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- there was a second clause to that, wasn't there. 

 

"That's probably a good idea. Especially if you may not - you might decide it's best not to go off-duty for multiple hours after this." 

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