Nov 27, 2022 4:14 AM
how Merrin came to the attention of Exception Handling
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.....Did Merrin not check what salary they're offering her to move to Default? 

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Ummmmmmm. No? Was she supposed to have had time to ask about that? She was, uh, sort of busy. 

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Hug hug hug. Irris is making an exasperated face but not where Merrin can see it. She manages not to make an exasperated noise. Has Merrin at least checked her performance incentive for whatever she just put herself through, it sounds like it was a lot and she almost certainly earned more recompense than she's giving herself credit for. 

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....It is possible that Merrin was overly focused on the hugs element, and forgot how her mom knows her and is going to make her ask the uncomfortable questions that she did not ask earlier because, well. Uncomfortable. 

 

 

No. She did not check that. She....can check it now? 

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Chances would have been 5% lower without Merrin, but they would have been lower subtracting a lot of other people too, like the Venture Capitalist or the woman who spotted a body in a river.  In the possible permuted orderings, call Merrin something like 15% responsible for saving 5% of the life of somebody who would then have had a 1/2 chance of doing something worth the lifetime incomes of 200 people to Civilization.  She would have gotten significantly more if he'd lived, less since he small-d died, because it's important to align the very last incentives of people who might know a little more than everything the prediction markets can observe.

Let's say it's about half as much money as Merrin was expecting to earn over the course of the rest of her life.

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Hug! 

"You shouldn't tell me anything yet, Exception Handling needs to finish deciding whether I'm trustworthy, but I'm so proud of you!" 

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"....What if I have to move to Default and work in the hospital there? I, I don't know if I want to do that....?" 

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Who said anything about having to do that? Did anyone literally say that, in words Merrin can quote back? As opposed to, like, assuming she would obviously want to get paid for all the value she can provide? 

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Irris hugs her daughter again. 

"Hey. It's okay. Listen, you definitely don't have to do anything that'll be bad for you, right? Even if the Chief Executive of Civilization tells you it's important, it's still your decision, to decide if it's worth it for you?" 

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....No, actually, Merrin is pretty sure she will always do the thing that's obviously correct even if, uh, it hurts her a lot. Because not doing that won't actually hurt less, at this point, when she already knows that - okay fine she doesn't really know anything yet -

(- she is holding some significant probability mass on 'the Chief of Exception Handling was trolling everyone' which isn't something she can actually tell Irris about - but she can't unsee that, uh, apparently it's....actually relevant and useful....that however stupid she is, she's at least capable of doing a thing stupidly for a lot of hours in a row? and this is sometimes important?) 

She can at least vaguely try to summarize the takeaway from that? 

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Wow. Irris loves her daughter very much, and also has no idea what to say right now! 

Hugs will have to do. Maybe she can....ask a Keeper to talk to Merrin about, well, stuff? Irris isn't sure what stuff. It seems well outside of her sphere of understanding. 

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Hug.

Merrin is remembering that she had sort of wanted to give the grandmother-gendertroped woman who found their patient in the river a hug. Probably she's left by now, though, like a reasonable person would have, and Merrin isn't sure how to ask Irris to look for her without saying anything she's not sure she's cleared to say. 

 

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Hug hug hug. 

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Merrin eventually disentangles herself. 

"I - sorry - I shouldn't be long but I, I want to make sure everyone else is okay..." 

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A narrow-eyed look. "90% odds less than an hour?" 

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That's probably fair but still. "90% odds less than twenty minutes, Mo-om!" 

And Merrin will leave her mother in the hallway for a little while and stick her head back into the command center to - well, first of all, look around and see if anyone, regardless of whether she actually knows them, looks like they might appreciate a hug? or at least Merrin walking past and maybe making eye contact? 

 

(If not, she's going to go log into a computer console and look properly at her performance incentive, without her mom right there staring over her shoulder, because she really does want more information on why they're paying her that much....) 

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A number of people have in fact cleared out; less is at stake, now, and the patient's fate is known.  The CEO and CFO and risk officer are clearing up some of the mess of the hospital having a sudden prospect of large income which then did not materialize - nobody staked life changes on that, obviously, it's just that the equity markets in which hospital shares trade are responding to the suspension of trading due to all the secrecy.  Night-shift Personnel is figuring out how how the impacts on various participants will affect the hospital over the next couple of days, if anybody needs to move shifts around.  (Mostly no; hospitals operate with a lot of slack when there's no area-wide emergencies going on.  But some people can shift schedules very easily and that will help to maintain the hospital's slack tomorrow, with other people going off-duty to rest.)

The morning-shift Personnel known as Personnel is here, actually specifically in case Merrin needs anything though she's not going to say that.  She'll totally make eye contact.

And the fourth-rank Keeper who works in the medical part of Exception Handling, because sometimes people find things easier to talk over with a Keeper.  It's not that Keepers aren't people, more like - they're reliably not the sort of people where they'll quietly judge you and then let that info leak out to their social network.  Keepers really will judge you less; there's a sense in which you are not their species, and not something close enough to their own psychology to be judged by their own standards.  Even to their friends, they're not likely to laugh about that thing you did wrong; of course non-Keepers do everything wrong, that's how things should be.  The universe is not so dark a place that everyone needs to become a Keeper to ensure the species's survival.  Just dark enough that some people ought to.  He'll make eye contact too, if Merrin looks his way.

The grandmother-gendertroped lady has gone home, to somebody she knows well enough to cry around them; she was old enough to have seen some sad things in her life, but she has not, in fact, been this close before to the sharp and bitter end of healthcare.

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Aww, okay, probably the lady who found the patient has gone home to the people who actually know her, this is unsurprising. 

Merrin spots Personnel, makes eye contact, doesn't smile because she isn't sure she's capable of producing a smile right now, and then lets her eyes move on. 

 

- aaaah that is definitely a Keeper making eye contact with her???

This is mildly terrifying, but - well, it would have been a lot more terrifying this morning. At this point, after everything else, Merrin is at least temporarily desensitized to social anxiety. And mostly the thing bothering her is that she's confused. And - maybe, probably - talking to a Keeper might help her feel less incredibly confused about what she, personally, is supposed to take away from all this? 

She will walk in the Keeper's direction. Slowly, and sort of mostly looking the other way, in case the eye contact didn't mean at all that he wanted to talk to her. 

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He'll wave in such fashion as to explicitly indicate that it's acceptable but not obligatory to talk to him.

(There's civilizations where you'd have to guess this fact entirely off of body language; this is not one of those.)

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Why is she doing this Merrin does, actually, want to resolve her confusion. It's really unfair how now she knows the final patient outcome, which should have been the last unresolved piece for her personally, but somehow the superheated villain monologue from the Chief of Exception Handling is still sort of echoing in her head, and she doesn't actually know how seriously she's supposed to take it? 

(Merrin would probably be able to get most of this just from body language, but it's a lot less stressful for her when she doesn't have to.) 

She shuffles over the rest of the way to meet him, and then.....has no idea what to say. 

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It's been told to him, by this point, and not least by Personnel, that he ought not to say 'hey hero' or anything of that sort.  Personnel has tentatively inferred: Merrin does not like thinking of herself as unusually good at things, and Personnel's best-found-strategy was acting like anything Merrin could do including running eight hours of emergency sims back-to-back was only normal and to be expected.

It's not unusually insane for a non-Keeper, really, just differently insane.

"Good work today," he says.

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Merrin ducks her head, and makes a face which might hopefully be interpreted as a smile. 

"I, um, I guess I still haven't thought of anything I could obviously have done better not-in-hindsight. For today, I mean."

Wow what an inane pointless thing to say.

"...The Chief of Exception Handling seemed to think it was bad that I hadn't already tried to apply to work at Default Hospital? Which, just - I don't think I could have gotten hired there before even if I tried, but, I, I'm not sure if I should have tried harder, if I - did something predictably wrong...?" 

(This is probably ALSO stupid in some way, Merrin is pretty sure there are wrongthoughts in there somewhere, but she's actually really tired at this point.) 

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