Back to magic research, magic research is distracting enough she can enjoy it and set all of her thoughts about interpersonal stuff aside. She doesn't come back to it until she's stuck on how you'd derive Splendour from Cunning and Wisdom which she now has in front of her. She can see how she'd do it in a headband but artifacts have always made more sense to her, there are more sensible constraints there.
Once she's stuck she is back to worrying. Possibly she should have...run a tighter ship? Made people loyal to her and strongly inclined to make people who also have this property. She doesn't think she has the leadership skills to run an operation without people having that property and at some point they'll probably make a leader and then it won't be her which is probably good, since she's not even going to be that good at it and they can make someone who will be, but which is also scary because - she's going to have to put a sensible attitude about risk management and murder in the leader, even if everyone else can be very fairy-tale nice, and so if they're not her they might be a threat to her. Probably not. She is both useful to this project (as long as she stays several levels more powerful than its other members) and committed to it and not going to betray the person she designed to be in charge of it. But -
- well, she's done this now. She will have to learn to function among the kind of people her organization is realistically going to contain. And they're still - smart, careful, principled, lawful probably - they're just not as dangerous as Carissa, or as paranoid, and they are not loyal to her personally but to the project, which is a better loyalty for them to have as long as she can swing it, as long as it doesn't get degraded over subsequent generations of making-people - she can probably reasonably demand to be a stickler about that -
- and while she is not going to make herself a girlfriend or a boyfriend she does indulge a little fantasizing about them because maybe it'd be informative, because in hindsight 'I'm not very picky' had been the wrong attitude to have about Kytar even though she's in fact not very picky -
- they would be shaped for Cheliax. Dangerous, careful, paranoid, someone who doesn't trust things they cannot personally determine the outcome of. They would be protective of her, and it would mean something, because they would know how to protect people, it would occur to them that things you don't want to lose need protecting.
She idly tries to imagine what they are like in bed for a while and eventually is unstuck on reverse-engineering Splendour and gets back to work.