Vanyel glances over at Rolan, who's watching with piercing blue eyes. "Oh, it's not secret now. It came out last year. Long story and mostly not relevant. Um, I should back up. We were talking, for years, and he kept recommending me books and teaching me things and - trying to persuade me of his whole way of thinking about the world, I guess. Which is really weird, but - I think some of it makes sense, in the context of him being two thousand years old and actually knowing the answers to a lot of really hard questions. Not that that means he's right about everything, of course. I - learned a lot from him. He...must've known it would give me a better chance of killing him, me being - stronger, but he did it anyway. I think in hopes he could eventually convince me to cooperate with him, somehow, try to find a solution other than war. Which we weren't making progress on, because I didn't know the actual reason he wanted Valdemar. But we got onto the subject of gods in this world, and - various things they do that he disagrees with, and at least slightly has a point about."