Ohwowfuck secondhand orgasm wow. Yeah this seems like a go-for-a-personal-best kind of situation.

He's ruined. He is absolutely ruined. He desperately hopes Haru never leaves him because he is completely ruined for other men, now, for any other relationships, there's nothing that could possibly compare to what he has, now. It's pointless, pointless for him to get so hung up on words when they've practically gotten engaged already, when there's no one else and there will never be anyone else for him, ever again, so for his third orgasm of the night what he says is, "I like you so much, Haru, my Haru, I love you—" and he doesn't regret it, he can't regret it. He's lost, and he's won.

Haru was kind of on the fence about dropping the L word - partly because Jaeha was so timid about it, partly because he was really enjoying their entire narrative arc and an "I love you" is kind of a bookend and he wasn't sure he wanted to wrap it and move along to the sequel yet, partly because it's just so fast and he has heuristics about How Not To Get Divorced When You Are Barely Twenty Like Certain Parents He Could Mention, but right now in this moment with his capacity for introspection gloriously restored - yeah.

"I love you too."

Since Jaeha's still sharing his sensorium with him, he'll get to see firsthand the way it feels like his heart literally skips a beat and his flagging erection starts trying to come back to life and he's quite literally dizzy with joy. It's a good thing they're lying down, and a good thing they're still wrapped in each other, because Jaeha needs to kiss his Haru some more.

He has SUCH a good Jaeha whom he loves so much and kissing him is always delightful.

He actually can't go a fourth time, even though it would feel so appropriate for the situation, but it's fine, he'll have as many times as he wants, he'll have all of the times, because Haru LOVES HIM TOO he SAID SO and Jaeha can FEEL IT too, he's heard the expression "so happy I could die" before and he thinks it makes no sense because he's so happy he could live, he's so happy he could stay like this forever with Haru, his Haru, his own, forever.

"Myyyyy Jaeha." Yeah another time is not happening, that was exhausting, how about they lie here eternally being sappy.

They can do that. They can do anything Haru wants.

"I'm firing my therapist," he says apropos of nothing, later, when he's blowdrying Haru's hair after they've taken a nice relaxing bath together.

"...you are? Why?"

"I don't know, vibes? I mentioned that I thought she was homophobic but compartmentalised, right? I think I was right, and it's kind of making it hard to really want to dig deep into my issues with her."

"Huh. She gave you adorable homework but maybe that is a standard job skill."

"My subsequent sessions with her were somewhat less promising, probably my own fault for not feeling comfortable sharing but that's in itself a problem. I'm getting Quasar to send me some more recs and this time I asked them specifically for people who aren't going to be Korean about it."

"I wonder if they have expats available. Hopefully with enough choices you'll find one you click with more lastingly though." Mmm he usually just lets his hair air-dry when Jaeha's not doing the pampering thing but it is nice and warm and fluffy now.