Nodnod. She looks at the flowers.
"I spent ten years sleeping with a man not my husband. A pagan, the emperor of much of the world. I bore him six children. Five of them live. The oldest two were taken away from me when they turned six, and I must not have instilled the love of God in them very well, because both of them are pagan now.
"I think I hated him. The emperor. I know hate is as dire a sin as murder, but I think I would have wanted him dead if I could have found a way. He was a demon, I think, so I don't know whether that was wrong of me.
"Almost a year ago, as I count time, I ran away. I didn't mean to at first; I was walking in the forest with some other people - I wasn't usually allowed outside the palace, but I was this time - and - I happened on a fairy. My son did, really, but I followed him, and there was a fairy in the woods, and - he told me that he could kidnap me and then try to get my children back from the emperor. And so - I went with him, and I was a fairy slave, and I slept in his bed, and I let him kiss me, and I went with him to his people, and I lived with them, and that was where I was when Elizabeth brought us to her domain. And - he didn't marry me but he gave up so much, to be with me, settled all of his debts with his family and gave up his name and left his court to stay with me in a place he hated, and - I'm afraid I wasn't nearly as grateful or as good as I should have been to him. But I'm not with him now anyway, this morning - something happened with a mindreader and he yelled at me to leave him and never come back. So I suppose I can't very well hurt him further.
"I'm sure there were other things but I'm not very sure what they were now."