"Trying to explain it definitely sounds easier. So, uh, I am experiencing the emotion of loneliness. Which I'm not used to at all, I'm introverted and have never been alone long enough for it to be a problem, it took me a bit to identify for sure. Sort of like a depressed person could continue to experience sadness even if they, like, got exactly what they wanted for their birthday, or if it was a really nice day out, or they saw a kitten, or whatever, I will continue to experience loneliness at roughly this level all week. But it's causing all the same impulses that normal endogenous loneliness would. I'm metaphorically scratching poison ivy here, turned up to eleven, it doesn't help the underlying emotional state at all but not doing it would take up an absolutely intractable amount of my concentration and I'd probably eventually fail at controlling myself, possibly in a direction that'd make me do something worse than simply snuggling people all week."