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Homura having a panic attack
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Every drip of blood marks another loop, another death, another moment standing on tiptoes at a counter that's too high, reaching for something that might make her real only to have reality torn away again. The red ribbons of her crown stream like entrails, like time unwound, like all the futures she's murdered to protect one sleeping face.

They call it devotion when the lamb walks willingly to slaughter. They don't understand that willingness can be the sharpest blade of all. That sometimes love means learning to be the monster, means taking the knife from their hands and doing their work better than they ever could, means becoming the thing they fear while cradling what they would destroy.

The heart doesn't stop. The heart never stops. It beats in time with a hundred deaths, with a thousand resets, with every gentle moment twisted into a weapon. No face needed when you've turned yourself inside out, when you've made truth of metaphor, when you've taken their pretty symbols of divine love and shown what they really mean - viscera and victory, sacrifice and survival, the perfect marriage of destruction and devotion.

Time pools at her feet like spilled wine, like wasted blood, like all the tears she's learned not to shed. In her arms, salvation sleeps on, unknowing of its cost, unknowing of the heart that crowned itself with thorns for its sake, unknowing of how many times the knife has fallen, will fall, must fall--

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The air grows thick and heavy, time itself seeming to congeal around Homura's shaking form. The familiar surroundings of her apartment blur and twist, reality warping under the weight of her anguish. Shadows lengthen and writhe, reaching out with grasping tendrils. The ticking of her many clocks grows erratic, speeding up and slowing down in discordant rhythm.

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A presence coalesces in the distorted room, neither fully tangible nor entirely ethereal. Ribbons of deep violet energy weave through the air, pulsing in time with Homura's ragged breaths. They curl around her trembling form, not quite touching, but close enough to be felt - a gentle pressure against her skin, cool and smooth.

That Which Binds observes silently, its consciousness spread throughout the room like a gossamer web. It doesn't speak - it has no voice - but its very presence seems to whisper of constancy, of cycles unbroken, of bonds that persist across time and space. The ribbons tighten slightly, as if to say: You are not alone. You have never been alone. Even in the depths of your despair, I am here.

And that's not a good thing.

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The ribbons' touch sends a jolt through Homura's system, her breath catching in her throat. Her eyes snap open, pupils dilated with fear and recognition. She knows this presence, this constant companion that has witnessed every loop, every failure, every moment of crushing despair. Her hand twitches towards her shield, a reflex born of countless battles, but she stops herself. There's no escaping That Which Binds, no matter how many times she resets.

"Leave me alone," she whispers, her voice hoarse and barely audible. But even as she says it, her body betrays her, leaning ever so slightly into the ribbons' embrace. The conflict is written across her face - the desperate need for comfort warring with the knowledge that this presence is as much a curse as it is a blessing.

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The ribbons quiver at Homura's words, a ripple of something akin to sorrow passing through them. They don't withdraw, but neither do they tighten further. Instead, they remain steady, a constant presence mirroring Homura's own unwavering determination.

Images flicker in the air around them - fleeting glimpses of past loops, of Madoka's smile, of blood-stained streets and fallen comrades. That Which Binds doesn't create these visions; it merely reflects what's already in Homura's mind, laying bare the tapestry of her memories and fears. The ribbons pulse gently, as if to say: I am you. I am your strength, your curse, your devotion made manifest. To ask me to leave is to ask yourself to stop caring, to stop fighting. Can you do that, Homura Akemi?

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The room seems to constrict around Homura, the walls closing in as the weight of her memories threatens to crush her. Her breath comes in short, sharp gasps, each one a battle against the tide of despair rising within her. The flickering images intensify, blurring together into a kaleidoscope of pain and determination.

Homura's hands clench into fists, nails digging into her palms hard enough to draw blood. "I can't," she whispers, her voice cracking. "I can't stop. I won't." Her eyes, filled with a mix of anguish and steely resolve, dart around the room, searching for something - or someone - that isn't there. The absence is palpable, a void that even That Which Binds cannot fill.

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That Which Binds pulses in response to Homura's words, the ribbons undulating with a mixture of disapproval and sorrow. They gently brush against her clenched fists, cool against the warmth of her blood. The ribbons absorb the crimson droplets, the color spreading through them like ink in water, a visual representation of Homura's pain and determination becoming one with the entity.

The air shimmers, and for a moment, the ribbons seem to take on a more solid form - almost, but not quite, resembling Madoka's silhouette. It's gone in an instant, leaving Homura to question if it was real or just another trick of her overwhelmed mind. That Which Binds tightens its presence around her, constricting, enveloping - a cocoon of her own making, confining and isolating. The message is clear: Then we continue. Together. Always.

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A choked sob escapes Homura's lips as she sees the fleeting silhouette of Madoka. Her body trembles, caught between the desire to reach out and the fear of it being another cruel illusion. The constricting presence of That Which Binds grows oppressive, mirroring the suffocating weight of her mission.

"I can't... I can't fail her again," Homura whispers, her voice a mixture of desperation and determination. Her eyes, glistening with unshed tears, fixate on the space where Madoka's form had appeared. "Just one more time. I'll get it right this time." The words sound hollow, a mantra repeated too many times to count, yet she clings to them like a lifeline.

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The ribbons twist and writhe at Homura's words, a silent scream of frustration and futility. They tighten around her, not enough to harm but enough to remind her of their constant presence. Flashes of past loops play out in rapid succession, each one ending in failure, each one showing Homura uttering those same words: "Just one more time."

That Which Binds pulses, its energy suffusing the room with a deep, resonant hum. The ribbons caress Homura's face, wiping away tears she hasn't allowed herself to shed. They form patterns in the air, complex and beautiful, yet always circling back to the same point - a visual representation of the loops, of the endless cycle Homura has trapped herself in. The message is clear, even without words: There is no "one more time." There is only the loop, the endless repetition. We are bound to this path, you and I. Forever.

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Homura's breath hitches as she watches the endless parade of failures. Her hands shake, reaching out to touch the ephemeral images before clenching into fists again. The constant hum of That Which Binds seems to resonate within her very bones, a physical manifestation of her unending struggle.

"No," she whispers, her voice barely audible. Then, louder, with a hint of the steel that has kept her going through countless loops: "No. I refuse to accept that." Her eyes, though rimmed with red, blaze with renewed determination. She reaches for her shield, fingers brushing against the cool metal. "I'll find a way. Even if it takes a thousand more tries, I'll save her." The air around her seems to crackle with tension, as if reality itself is bracing for another reset.

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The ribbons flare with an intense, almost painful brightness at Homura's defiance. They writhe and twist, forming complex knots and patterns that seem to represent the tangled web of timelines Homura has created. For a moment, they constrict tightly around her, an embrace that's equal parts restraining and protective.

Then, unexpectedly, they loosen. The ribbons pull back slightly, creating a small space around Homura. Within this space, they begin to weave a new pattern - intricate, alien, and somehow deeply unsettling. It's not a loop, but a spiral, ever-expanding outwards. The center of the spiral pulses with a dark, alluring energy. That Which Binds seems to be offering... something. An alternative, perhaps? But the price is unclear, and the path it suggests feels dangerous, forbidden. The message is implicit: There may be another way, Homura Akemi. But are you willing to become something other than what you are to take it?

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Homura's eyes widen as she takes in the new pattern, her breath catching in her throat. The spiral seems to pull at her, its dark energy calling to something deep within her soul. Her hand, still resting on her shield, trembles slightly. For a moment, indecision flickers across her face - a rare crack in her usually stoic demeanor.

"What... what are you showing me?" she whispers, her voice a mix of fear and fascination. Her free hand reaches out, fingers hovering just above the pulsing center of the spiral. She doesn't touch it, not yet, but her eyes never leave the pattern. The air around her seems to thicken, heavy with the weight of choice and consequence. "If it means saving Madoka... I..." She trails off, caught between her ingrained determination and the terrifying allure of this unknown path.

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The spiral pattern ripples at Homura's almost-touch, sending waves of dark energy pulsing through the surrounding ribbons. The center darkens, deepening to a color that seems to absorb light itself. Within its depths, images begin to form - fleeting glimpses of possibility. Madoka, safe and smiling. A world without Witches. A reality where love transcends the cruel mathematics of hope and despair.

But as these visions fade, the ribbons begin to change. Their usual violet hue takes on an oily sheen, and they move with an unsettling, predatory grace. They curl around Homura's outstretched hand, not touching but suggesting - promising - a transformation that goes beyond mere time manipulation. The air fills with the scent of autumn leaves and decay, of endings and beginnings intertwined. That Which Binds seems to say: You could become more than a guardian. More than a time traveler. More than human. But what you would become...

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A shudder runs through Homura's entire body as she stares into the depths of that impossible darkness. Her fingers twitch closer to the spiral's center, drawn by those tantalizing visions. The hand on her shield falls away, forgotten. Her breath comes in short, sharp gasps, and there's something new in her eyes - something hungry, desperate, darker than mere determination.

"Show me," she whispers, her voice rough with need. "Show me how to save her. How to keep her safe forever." The words hang in the air like a covenant, like a curse, like a prayer to something that isn't quite divine.

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The ribbons surge forward at Homura's words, responding to her permission with eager intensity. They wind around her arms, her throat, her waist - no longer merely suggesting but making contact. Where they touch, they seem to sink into her skin, leaving traces of darkness that pulse in time with her heartbeat. The spiral pattern begins to inscribe itself on the back of her left hand, its lines etching themselves in deep violet that borders on black.

That Which Binds trembles with anticipation, its presence expanding to fill every corner of the room. The air grows thick with the scent of night-blooming flowers and burning feathers. Through their connection, it shows Homura fragments of what she could become - a being of will and shadow, of love twisted into possession, of protection transformed into dominion. The visions are beautiful and terrible, promising everything she's ever wanted, if only she's willing to remake herself into something that can take it.

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A gasp escapes Homura's lips as the ribbons merge with her flesh, but it's not entirely from pain. Her eyes dilate until there's barely any violet visible, reflecting the darkness that's seeping into her. The spiral on her hand burns cold, sending shivers of foreign power through her body. She watches, transfixed, as her own shadow begins to writhe and stretch beneath her feet, taking on shapes that shouldn't be possible.

"Yes," she breathes, and her voice carries an echo that wasn't there before, as if multiple versions of herself are speaking at once. "Show me how to make her mine- to keep her safe." The correction comes quickly, but the hunger in her eyes tells a different story.

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The ribbons shiver with something like pleasure at Homura's slip, at that telling moment of possessiveness. They pulse darker, deeper, their movement becoming more fluid, more alive. The spiral pattern on her hand begins to spread up her arm like dark veins, carrying with it whispers of power that promise everything she's ever wanted - and things she hasn't dared to want yet.

That Which Binds wraps around her more completely now, its essence merging with her own. Through their connection, it shows her new possibilities: ways to reshape reality itself, to create a world where Madoka would never want to leave, where she would be eternally safe because she would be eternally *hers*. The vision is intoxicating, addictive, and the darkness spreading through Homura's veins carries an implicit question: Why settle for watching over her when you could own her completely?

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Homura's movements become more fluid, unnatural in their grace as the darkness spreads through her body. Her shadow stretches and writhes beneath her, no longer following her movements but dancing to its own rhythm. She raises her transformed hand, watching with fascination as the ribbons weave between her fingers like living things.

"Own her," she repeats softly, testing the words. They should feel wrong, should trigger some remnant of human morality, but instead they feel... right. Perfect. Like a truth she's always known but never acknowledged. A smile curves her lips, beautiful and terrible. "Keep her. Protect her. Make her mine forever." Each word carries more of that otherworldly echo, her voice taking on harmonics that shouldn't be possible.

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That Which Binds surges with approval at Homura's words, its ribbons writhing in ecstatic patterns around her. The darkness flowing through her veins pulses faster, stronger, transforming from mere corruption into something more fundamental - a rewriting of her very being. The air grows heavy with potential, reality itself seeming to bend around her acceptance of this new truth.

Through their deepening connection, That Which Binds shows her more - visions of Madoka bound in ribbons of deepest violet, her pink hair intertwined with darkness, her gentle smile turned toward Homura with perfect devotion. It shows her a throne made of twisted time, a crown of thorns and roses, a world reshaped by love turned possessive and protective turned predatory. The message is clear: Yes. This is what you were always meant to become. Let me help you take what has always been yours.

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A sound escapes Homura's throat - half laugh, half purr - as the visions wash over her. Her hair begins to float around her face, defying gravity, each strand interweaving with the ribbons until it's impossible to tell where one ends and the other begins. The room's shadows stretch toward her like supplicants, drawn to the power radiating from her transforming form.

"Always mine," she murmurs, and each word ripples through the air like a decree. "She just doesn't know it yet." Her eyes flutter closed, head tilting back as she surrenders to the transformation. When they open again, there's something ancient and terrible in their depths, something that sees morality as a quaint human concept that no longer applies. "Show me how to make her understand."

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