Hi Calistria, it's Victòria! I still haven't worked out a good way for Jadon to bodyguard me while I pray without being in the same room, so I'm just going to think really hard at you again even though coming up with a whole hour of things to tell you about is kind of hard...

...I can't stop thinking about Chosen Artigas. I just keep thinking about the people he tortured to death, and I don't even know them but — I can't stop imagining him standing above an innocent person with a flaying knife, and sometimes it's a stranger and sometimes it's Valia and sometimes it's Tea and it's never, ever okay — and people keep acting like I'm crazy for being upset about it, like we should all just forget and pretend it never happened, only his victims deserve better than that, only, I don't know how, I haven't come up with any ideas better than yesterday and those ones were all pretty bad...

...I really really miss her. I know she'll come back someday but I miss her...

...maybe I could ask Laia about running self-defense classes here? When I looked into starting up my own classes like Alicia suggested I couldn't find a place to rent for it that I could afford, but there's lots of space here so maybe it would work, and she used to do something similar with her actors so she'll probably understand why it's something I care about...

...For my orisons please give me Create Water and Light and the spell for talking in people's heads. If you can't give me that one for some reason I'd like the spell for being better at things, unless the church here's going to need anything Mended, in which case I'll take that one as my third instead. I feel a little bad that they're letting me stay here for free and all I can do to pay them back is make water...

...I know I only just met him but his hair is so pretty...

...I should probably ask Raimon about some of the ideas the Family Committee's been discussing, only I'm pretty sure I'm missing a lot of what people have been trying to say there, the people there keep saying things that are really confusing. But Delegate Fazil seemed to think that some ways of writing the laws would be bad for whores, and I don't really have any idea how to tell whether they would or wouldn't be, but Raimon might...

...I know the azata would say it's Evil to take vengeance on him when he's stopped. And maybe that's true, but it feels wrong to let him just go around like none of it ever happened just because he's stopped now. It feels like it's saying what he did was okay, and it's not, it'll never be okay, he could spend the rest of his life serving Iomedae and that wouldn't make any of it okay.

And sometimes I wish it would turn out he hadn't stopped, it would definitely be right to hurt him if he hadn't stopped, only I don't want him to go around hurting people, they don't deserve to... be hurt just so that it can be Good to hurt him back? I'm not sure if that makes sense...

...Please ask Iomedae to keep an eye on Valia in Lastwall and make sure she's alright. I'm worried that Lastwall isn't as good of a country as I thought it was, and I don't know if she's going to be okay there. I guess maybe Iomedae's the wrong person to ask for this, but probably she wouldn't want her priestess to get hurt even if the rest of the country is — well, I'm not sure. If it's just that hardly anything bad ever happens there that's probably fine, unless they get mad at her for disagreeing with them, I guess. If someone attacks her and they get mad at her for defending herself because they think she hurt the attacker too much — I don't know what I'll do. Fight a whole country, I guess...

...I don't know if they deserve to die for it but it's not right for people to murder innocent babies...

...every time I hear him talk I remember the awful things he said at Valia's trial...

...I wish they would give us a list of all the things the floor is going to argue about beforehand. If I'd known there was going to be a big argument about Molthune I'd have tried harder to find out what Delegate Ardiaca did, and I'm still not totally sure what it actually was. Only today it probably won't be Molthune, it'll be something else that I'll wish I'd known about in advance. I guess maybe I'll be able to talk to other people in their heads and ask, if there's something I really need to know...

...it's a lot nicer to imagine hurting people when it's part of a plan for something I might ever do. Normally it helps a lot to think about how I'd do it, and I'd sort of gotten used to it helping, but it turns out that if I know I won't ever be able to avenge what they did thinking about it doesn't actually make me feel better, I just get more upset about how they're going to get away with everything forever. Maybe I just need to get more creative about figuring out other things I could do to them but I've already tried as hard as I can and I haven't come up with any good ideas yet...

...Oh, looks like it's been an hour! Huh, I guess priestesses don't get the spell for talking in people's heads, I wonder how Alicia has it. I know she's a weird sort of priestess but I didn't realize her spells were that different. Anyways, talk to you tomorrow!