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It doesn't seem ridiculous to her.

Anyway, she doesn't want to talk about it.

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This is new.

And he's pretty terrible for bringing this up, which he absolutely shouldn't have thought because now she can tell what he's thinking and feel obligated to do something about it, but now that that's a thought he's had she'll know he's expecting her to wow he was doing so well at not doing this.

Deep breaths.

okay.

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He's ridiculous. And cute. And ridiculous. She hugs him, just across the shoulders, still watching the fish, and works to calm down.

 

It's just - hard, having something so... personal... (and it is personal, this is part of what she is on an even more fundamental level than being a Sith) be so dangerous. It's not right, but I can't let myself forget for a moment that it's true.

(She loves him, she loves him, she loves him.)

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He loves her too. More than anything.

yeah.

it's not right.

but i guess we have to deal with it.

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Yeah.

 

I think we can heal the fish, if we go meditate for a few minutes. Want to?

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!!!

yes!

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Gosh she loves him.

The aquarium is surrounded at a bit of a distance by a ring of benches; they settle in.

I don't remember how this works exactly, but I feel like it probably does something to me, using the Force this way, like using it the Sith way does. But I'm sure it's not dangerous; don't panic, okay?

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okay. i won't.

He braces himself for any panic that might nonetheless arrive.

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And she meditates - still, calm, relaxed, releasing her emotions one by one, disconnecting from everything. She leaves her love for him for last, but eventually lets that go too: it's still a true fact about the world, that she loves him, but it doesn't matter, doesn't touch her at all.

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He watches her go.

It's – beautiful, something about it, but –

 

come back

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She pauses for a moment, unsure how to respond, and then habit takes over and her emotions flow back in. Sorry, Love. You all right? She scoops him into her lap; they could both use a hug right now.

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Hug.

please wait until I can go with you.

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Yeah. Okay. Love you.

She's a little different, now; more subdued, more vulnerable, more connected, though the change is already fading. She pets him, and looks up - oh, Daisy's still by the aquarium, and she twinges a little at having left her out. "C'mere, Love."

    "-ma'am?"

"If you want to, I mean. Come sit with us."

    "Oh. All right."

And then she can cuddle both of them.

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...okay. This is good.

They sit and are close and he watches the fish.

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Yeah.

 

"Are you okay, Love?"

    "...yes, Ma'am?"

"I know we've been leaving you out a lot. Are you sure you're all right?"

    "Oh. Yes, Ma'am. You don't have to pay attention to me."

...that seems wrong, but she can't put her finger on why. "I think I should. I think... I want us to be close. You matter. I want to be good to you. I don't... feel it, yet, really; I don't remember you. And that makes it hard. But you're important, and I don't want to hurt you, or hurt us."

    "Oh. All right, Ma'am."

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He waits.

This is...hers. He could learn to be a part of it but he’s outside of it, right now, and he doesn’t know whether that’s how it should stay.

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"So I want you to tell me, if something is going on that you don't want, or if you feel left out. Okay?"

    "Yes, Ma'am."

"Okay. Good." Hug. "And I want you to think about how you want things to be with him, too. Whether you want to be friends or whatever."

    "Whatever he wants will be fine, Ma'am."

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“...I don’t know either,” he says, paying careful attention to the pronouns. “I think...I want to like each other, at least. But I’m not sure about the rest.”

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Daisy nods. "Lord Pradnakt likes you."

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"And she likes you too."

He considers this for a moment.

"I think we're...probably going to end up liking each other anyway."

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"That makes sense."

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The two of you, Pradnakt sends, amused.

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what about us?

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You're silly. And cute. Of course they're going to like each other, they're delightful.

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