"And it is too late to be the kind of person who'd never kill anyone - I should have gone to Valimar for a millenium of chemistry after all -"

"Can still put you on a boat to Valinor. If that's what you want."

"This is a hallucination. If it were real I'd be less worried, because I do in fact still remember enough to know that I've been tampered with, and under those conditions I wouldn't ride out and murder people."

"...right."

"I'm worried about the endgame, not anything particular to this iteration. I haven't even figured out what this one's for, yet."

"If I'm never really going to escape and I'm never going to go back and he's not going to let me out until I'm perfectly misinformed into a mass murderer, what do you think the real Kib would want me to treat the hallucinatory ones like? I've been struggling with that."

"Whatever you've gotta do to be - maximally comfortable, I guess, I - if -"

"Hmm?"

"If you're positive you're always alone in the hallucinations," says Kib in a small voice.

"If the Enemy told me you'd been captured also, and then they tried to hurt me by making me watch them torture you, and then Findekano 'rescued' us both..."

"I don't have a discontinuity in my memories at all so you may assume that I'm either real and you're out, or that I'm a fake," sighs Kib. "Suggesting that possibility probably wasn't helpful, sorry."

"Do you want me to treat you the way I would if I thought you might be real and a prisoner with me?"

"I'm not," Kib says. "Just said that. I don't even know what that would result in you doing."

"...being miserable that you were in Angband, probably? Doing all kinds of things to try to protect you? Talking with you about ways of not ending up usable - 

I have considered swearing never to kill anyone or do things that I expect to cause people to die unless I remember this oath and the reasons I swore it, but that seems nearly guaranteed to get me in conflicting ones..."

"And you'd have to word it more carefully than that or anybody can just announce that they're making some lethal decision contingent on your reaction."

"Wasn't going to tell people that I'd so sworn, but yes."

"If you think you're in a hallucination you probably should not be swearing anything best sworn in secret," Kib points out.

"Can't keep it secret from the Enemy no matter what, and it's not as if I'll be able to talk once the hallucination's over, so."

...ah.

"I seem poorly calibrated on what's going to upset you, that's not even particularly bad."

"My imagination's running away with me."

"I won't help it along, then, sorry."

"It is not your fault."

"Second hallucination I worried about making it obvious exactly how bad you could make things for me before I'd prefer Angband and find a way to end the game, but I think there's some sort of script, you don't respond normally to incentives in these hallucinations..."