She nods. "It sounds like you felt very isolated even before you ended up in the new world."

"Yes, I think that's generally what happens when everyone you've ever known and loved either dies or betrays you."

"Is it something you worry will happen again?"

"I think the odds my current family would betray me are somewhat smaller than the odds that a random donkey would spontaneously transform into the fairy Oberon."

"Well, apparently stranger things have happened. But that's good."

"Yeah. ...I'm less confident about us all not dying again, though."

"You worry about dying a lot?"

"I should keep telling the story. I haven't given the context that would make why I worry about dying make sense."

"Okay, go ahead."

So she tells the story of their time in Valinor up through wandering the continent with Tyelcormo and the time in Tirion to the banishment by the Valar.

"Was that especially hard for you in light of having dealt with something similar before?"

"It was...probably, yeah. I mean, it was way easier than last time--everyone I cared about was coming too--honestly I was more concerned about Melkor."

"Who had gone missing?"

"Yyyyep. I was not the only person who freaked out about that."

"I can imagine."

"So then we all head north, and build a new city called Formenos, and when that's done Idaia and Tyelcormo go south to see dinosaurs because that was something she wanted to do and we were hoping to leave Valinor altogether after the exile was over."

"See dinosaurs. Wow. Was it lonely, having your sister newly married at this point in all the unheaval -"

"A little bit? I was mostly glad she was happy again, she took what happened in Kilaiuossa worse than I did..."

"Oh?"

"I don't think I saw her smile once between when we got news of what had happened and arriving in Valinor."

"What did you do while they were touring Valinor?"

"Studied, mostly, and practiced magic, and socialized with my family..."

"At that point what would you say your most important needs were, emotionally?"

"...'I needed Melkor out of the picture' might not qualify as an emotional need...I needed support when I was feeling particularly stressed."

"And how did you cope with that?"