He doesn't wake.

She continues to be very quiet. She teleports the soup to his tray, and a spoon. She fixes the fire, carefully, carefully, so it should last all night and so she can fix it again in the morning with teleportation. She goes.

All okay?

Mmhmm. She snuggles up again. Didn't wake, and I shouldn't need to do that again.

Oh, good.

Do you think it'd be okay for me to go talk with him sometime?

She freezes for a moment, but the answer is nearly instant. Not soon. Sorry.

Okay.

I can pass messages, if you like. I wouldn't be surprised if they're okay with talking to you via portal once they've had a few days to calm down. But actually being there isn't a good idea right now. She actually seems scared, for some reason, but not badly so.

Sorry. 

Not your fault.

Should I not ask, in future?

This appears to be a correct question to ask; she calms down considerably. About that? No, I think it'll usually be fine. To ask, at least, I'm kind of reconsidering whether just passing the question along is the best way to answer it. It's just right now that's bad.

Okay. Hug.

Hug.

Lean, sigh. There's a sort of - parallel question, here. Kind of. Came up earlier, about their siblings. Not - really parallel, mostly, just similar in how I should be handling things.

Oh?

I think I told you, they aren't really sure this is real? And that makes it hard for them to take things seriously enough, they've mentioned. And how they want to handle things with their siblings is, just... not let them know things, pretend they're fine, pretend they're keeping secrets for fun if they have to - that sounds really dangerous, to me, for them and for their relationships with their siblings both, but they think it'll hurt their siblings less than being honest with them and letting them support them through stuff - which might well be true - and that that's more important than the relationships, which I'm kind of skeptical of. And - under normal circumstances that'd absolutely be their call, it'd be very clear what I should do and that'd be to support them, but this isn't a normal circumstance, their judgement is impaired. And I'm not sure - where the line is, how much I should be using my own judgement when it conflicts with theirs, how much I should be pushing them them to do what I think they should be doing or at least not do things I think they shouldn't. I don't want to at all but I don't want them to get hurt, either, and knowing so little about the details of things doesn't help at all... this is really hard.

Yeah. 

Yeah, it is.

He's not going to damage his relationship with his brothers, for what that's worth. Fëanorians - there is quite literally nothing he could do to them, or ask them to do - I don't even think that's entirely a positive thing but he's right to be sure of it.

That helps. I still don't like that they're going to do it that way, but if they're right about it I shouldn't stop them.

He's also - not going to lie well? if that makes any sense? They'll know what's up but take cues from him about how he wants them to act, and if he wants them to act like nothing's wrong then they'll do that, regardless of how much they know about what's going on. And it makes sense that at this point he wants people to act like nothing's wrong, if he can't trust them to lean on.

That's really weird.

Fëanorians are really dysfunctional. But I also might have explained badly. Which bits are weird?

Being around people you can't trust to lean on. As, like, a normal thing that's not a problem that needs to be fixed immediately. Wanting to do that, especially. And that they'd play along - that they'd even be able to, really.

Angband - is too much to cope with. I'm not sure there's really anyone you can lean on to deal with Angband. He could and did lean on them for - things that hurt everyone they touch less than this.

Mm.

It is really weird to be glad that I tried to kill myself.

Squeeze. Most good things come from very winding roads.