"No, because I was not quite secure enough for my liking and my reaction involved turning Alice into a vampire. I mean, there were other reasons, but that one was in there."
Stella kisses Alice's cheek. "Sorry," she says, and it's not clear which of them she's addressing. "You'd think being able to read his mind would've done it, and it did, mostly, it jollied me along for months, I probably could've done with nothing but if I'd had to."
"I made you a vampire because I thought you'd like it," Stella repeats. "...It occurred to me in the first place because Golden seemed. Like she felt - safer."
"I probably should've. I probably would've if - no, I just should've, plain and simple," sighs Stella. "It's not like you were doing anything that made me feel unsafe."
"If you hadn't wanted it to be a surprise and there'd been a conversation about it first. We spent the next several days pretty distracted."
He hugs Stella.
"I love you," he says, less happily than usual.
Aurora's going to take a couple steps backwards now with a very uncomfortable look on her face.
"I liked that the hurting part was a surprise," he murmurs, "but maybe - not the rest of it."
Aurora thinks she has learned a potentially valuable lesson here. She leaves.
Stella's not so readily disentangled from the situation. She pokes at Alice's thoughts, when enough of a silence has elapsed to make her nervous.
But that's kind of the problem, isn't it? He loves her, and he can't ever stop doing that, and that is something she made happen on purpose, and when he asked her if that was why she made him think it wasn't, but then it turned out to be part of it after all.
[I know,] he says, hugging her gently. [I just don't know if—I don't know what to do about it, I don't know what you can learn from this, what you can do differently to make me not so sad about it, it's not like this is the kind of thing that happens twice.]
[It's - ugh - it's not logically impossible to stop being a vampire. If you want to stop your ingot power will probably help, even though we can't send you through Downside like Nathan.]
[...okay,] he says. [I - don't even know if I want to, but I kind of feel better knowing it's an option.]