gxelo is having the kind of day that she's been having a lot of lately, where she wakes up some time in the late afternoon, spends the whole time looking at textnet or buying in shitpost markets, achieves a whole lot of nothing, and then falls asleep some time in the early morning, with a mood oscillating between highs of ok and lows of not ok.

she's tried a bunch of things to fix this. writing down what she did the past day didn't do much because it ended up being nothing and then she forgot to write things down. she can open her diary now and it won't help. 

she tried taking the usual drugs for this once and she felt absolutely great for about three weeks. the prediction markets said it was a good idea, ex ante. at the end of the three weeks she had fewer friends than what she started with and looking at the chatlogs she doesn't blame them. the prediction markets are not saying things so cheerful, any more.

what then of her life /future-observable. she guesses she just lives on basic income until eventually she stops being too scared of cryo to go cryo like a normal person. and then wakes up somewhere where things are better without having to experience a whole lot of nothing much the slow way.

sometimes she wonders if there's Anyone watching her who cares. she turns directly to the author and says that if they do care can she please wake up somewhere different. the break in consciousness gives a perfect opportunity to cut and paste her experiential thread /irrelevant-guess. 

and then she takes surprisingly long to get to sleep for someone who's so tired and does get to sleep.