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None of them are thinking.
Stef can half-sense the pattern of the mistake they're making, and yet he can't step out of it either, any more than he can fly. He is, as usual, hovering and making himself forgettable as he sings away the King's pain, which takes quite a lot of effort these days and leaves little room for thought, and Vanyel's exhausted grief is sucking at him through the lifebond, and - they're making a mistake, it has the quality of itchy frustration that comes with listening to a ballad where the main characters are walking into their doom, looking only straight ahead and not sideways...
He needs to talk to Van about the afterlives, he didn't miss that flinch, but it feels impossible right now. There's too much weight over both of them.
Van is tense and miserable enough to hurt himself badly if he tries to Gate right now. Stef will walk with him and the letter to a Work Room, and sing safety and relaxation and nothingcanhurt until the Gate is up and then down and the letter is on the other side. At which point Stef, too, is almost too tired to walk in a straight line.
They can go to bed. It's not even that late, and tomorrow won't even be any better, but maybe things will just stop happening at least long enough to rest, long enough for Van to find the strength to keep going.