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"The man I'd be, without Anwar, without Evaras... it's not just that I'd probably be a rapist and a murderer, it's that that's what felt right to me, it's - the way most people think 'I can't kill that guy, that's wrong,' I'd think 'I can't show mercy, that's wrong' - like, anytime I want to hurt someone, which is a lot of the time, it used to feel like I was betraying myself if I didn't do it."

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"That's--kind of disturbingly easy to imagine."

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Hug. "Yeah."

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"How do you do it? I have--some good instincts, like that, at least, I can play them off each other, when I see an Alliance officer I can tell myself it's more wrong to get myself arrested or killed--to do that to you guys--than to not shoot him in the face while screaming about everything the Alliance did--but--" she swallows. "Clearly that's not always enough."

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"There's a lot of 'what would Anwar do', and 'what would Cardea do', and... I want to be someone who's trustworthy and safe to be around, I want to be a true thane, I want to be the kind of person it's good to have as a friend... so I think about what gets me closer to those things and what takes me farther away."

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Nod. "I'm glad you met Anwar. I like the man you are."

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"Me too."

Hug.

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"I miss Cardea a lot. I feel like I can't talk about it because--Anwar's so much worse off--but. I do."

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"Me too," he repeats.

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"It's not fair," she hisses, squeezing her eyes shut as tears start leaking out anyway. "It's not fair, why her, she was--she was the best person I ever knew except maybe my mother--"

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"She was amazing," he agrees, hugging her. "She was - I loved her. I miss her. She was so good."

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"I hate our own fucking brass almost as much as I hate the Alliance. For surrendering. For making her death--and Evaras--and everything else--for nothing."

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"It's fucked up."

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"How does anyone in the Alliance sleep at night, knowing what they've done."

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"Maybe they all feel like they were in the right."

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"THEY MURDERED AN ENTIRE FUCKING PLANET!"

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"Yeah. I know."

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"I hate them so much."

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"Yeah."

Hug.

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Hug.

She cries on him for a while.

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That's all right.

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Eventually her tear ducts are exhausted.

"What a day."

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He snorts softly. "No kidding."

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"I hope Tina's okay. ish. It's probably unrealistic to hope for more than ish."

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"I could go find out," he offers.

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