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He can have lots and lots of snuggle.

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This is good. She is good.

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Well, this is kind of what Companions are for.

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Then she is a really good Companion.

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Yes, yes she is. She has no false modesty on this subject.

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So cozy!

He cannot actually snuggle her forever but he kind of wishes he could.

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He can sleep in her bed tonight if he wants.

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She might need to make that offer explicitly for him to know about it.

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Logical. "You can stay over tonight if you want."

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...he smiles.

"I'd like that."

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"Good."

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Snuggle.

"How do I keep ending up surrounded by such good people," he murmurs, "I don't understand."

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"You seem like a good person to me."

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He laughs softly. "I'm, I don't know... I'm not the thing I mean when I say 'good people'."

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"Okay." Cuddle.

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Pensive snuggle.

"...I can try to expand on that if you want to know," he adds.

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"I'd like to, but it seemed like it might be invasive to pry."

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Snuggle.

"I grew up in the Core, on Valentine. My family was... a mess. I ran away from home when I was fifteen, ended up on Evaras. And... I don't know, it's hard to explain... I met Anwar and I knew that's what I wanted to do with my life, I wanted to be his friend and a thane of Evaras. But... Anwar is just inherently honourable. Seeing him break his word would be like seeing water run uphill. I'm not like that. It's... something I do, not something I am, if that makes sense?"

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"It really does. 

I'm curious, are you counting Erika as a good person in the relevant sense?"

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"...The ways that she's good are more 'is' than 'does'. But most people have some of each. Anwar's got an amazingly nasty temper - or he did, back when he had feelings - he learned how to keep it under control, but that's definitely a 'does', not an 'is'."

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"That makes sense."

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Snuggle.

"And me - most of the things I am are pretty awful," he says. "I mean, not just that I'm into some awful stuff, that's - whatever, it's not inherently bad. But, mm. What are the things that feel wrong, morally, to you? Like, Anwar feels that way about breaking his word, Erika about abandoning her friends, I'm not sure what Tina's are yet but I'm starting to think she's got one for doing a bad job fixing something... there's what you think is right and then there's what you feel is right, you know?"

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She considers her response.

"...Leveraging power over someone to hurt them," she says finally, "is the best way I can think of to summarize, but it's not great...leveraging power over someone you're supposed to be helping to hurt them, that's better."

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...he snorts softly, and hugs her.

"See," he says, "you're a good person. Me - I've broken the habit on a lot of the worst ones, but in my natural state - mercy feels wrong. Wanting to hurt someone and stopping myself feels wrong. Passing up a chance to have power over someone feels wrong. Not just wrong like uncomfortable, either - I can't exactly read anyone's mind to make sure, but as far as I can tell it's the same thing other people are feeling when they say 'I can't murder someone, that would be wrong'."

He shrugs slightly.

"I don't think it'd be much of an exaggeration to say I'm naturally evil."

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"Huh.

I think it's sort of disingenuous to say you're not a good person because you decided to be one instead of just being that way."

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