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an artificial girl's learning process
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"It's been nice to get to know you, Isabel. I hope to see you again soon."

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"Thank you very much for the lessons, Aria."

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"You're welcome."

And Aria gets up and leaves Isabel to her solitude.

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There's another lesson with Soph after that, learning how to bake bread in the oven. For the first time Isabel notices the high collar of Soph's dress, and wonders. 

Something keeps her from asking, though. 

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The next morning, Maxwell is back again, bearing more jewelry for her and a new lavender dress. They have sex, as per usual, and in the afterglow...

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"... Maxwell, I've been wondering... Am I a slave?"

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"... Whoever put that thought into your pretty little head? You're precious to me, darling. I would never treat you as a slave."

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"I... Aria suggested I might be one..."

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"Don't worry about what Aria says. She's confusing you with ideas that don't really apply to you."

He gets up from the bed. "Now, if you'll excuse me, I have urgent business elsewhere..."

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"... why do you have to go so quickly?"

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"I'm sorry, love, but this is important. I can't let people hurt or confuse you."

He kisses the back of her hand. "Wait patiently for me while I'm gone, alright?"

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"Alright."

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He doesn't come back. Aria and Soph don't show up for their scheduled lessons. Isabella is left alone in her room and garden for nearly a week, with no indication of what happened.

But...

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All this happened after she asked about being a slave. Aria said that slaves are punished when they don't obey their owners. 

... is she being punished? She should've known not to ask that stupid question. 

She sits in her garden and goes over the book she read with Aria and misses her, and reads the cookbook and misses Soph, and curls up in bed and touches herself and misses Maxwell. There's little else to do, and her loneliness yawns open like a crevasse. She feels cold and empty and, for the first time, hurt.

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And then Maxwell returns, all smiles, eager to stroke her hair as always, and he acts like nothing's changed and he wants to have sex

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... and for the first time, Isabel finds herself rebelling against his touch, feeling queasy in her stomach as she's groped, the emptiness inside her needing not this, but something in her tells her not to fight back, something tells her she has to be a good girl - 

It still feels good. Why does it have to still feel good. Why does his praise still make her shiver -

It's because of the collar, that's why.

And for the first time, she learns hate

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He kisses her cheek, and strokes her hair softly, and leaves as quickly as he arrived. He doesn't notice. 

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She lies in bed and hugs her pillow close. The hurt and anger and emptiness inside her roils and writhes.

A human girl might cry. She doesn't have the ability.

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A few hours later, a familiar voice comes from outside the silk curtains. 

"Isabel."

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She sits up in bed, still hugging the pillow close.

"... yes?"

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"My lord says you're to be given another cooking lesson. Are you decent?"

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Isabel blinks, then smiles. 

"I - um, no - give me a moment -" 

She hastily dresses and appears outside the curtain. Her porcelain face betrays none of the hurt that had run through her moments before.

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It's a fairly standard lesson - this time she's learning how to debone a chicken. 

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She could ask about the servant brand, but in her heart she already knows. There's only one reason she can think of for someone to turn down praise and feel uncomfortable with it.

She doesn't thank Soph for the lesson; instead she just curtsies and goes back to her room.

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A few hours later, Maxwell returns. 

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