Quina is right. It doesn't hurt at all. It is just like drifting off to sleep.
"Because you did Evil things?"
"Maybe? I used to think what I did was probably Evil even if it was the right thing to do but I ended up here and so I'm not so sure anymore."
He is so curious what she did! But if she wanted him to know probably she'd say.
"I think they must have very low standards. Probably that's how they get people here at all, since Good is so hard."
"Hm, doing the right thing when it wasn't Good was much harder for me then doing the Good thing would have been. Maybe it's different in Cheliax cause people don't want you to do the Good thing there?"
"Yeah, my mom and dad and sister and cousins could always do the right thing."
Amina screws up her face, confused.
"What do you mean by the right thing?"
"Oh, you know. Doing well in school. Not being too attached to their kids. Arranging for their business's competitor to get shut down for poor safety practices and then jacking up their prices."
Amina makes variably horrified bird-faces at the different things.
"Those don't sound right at all! Doing well in school is okay I guess, but being attached to people is important and the business thing doesn't seem very nice either."
"Oh? What do you think is right?"
"Being nice and caring even when it's really hard. Especially when it's really hard."
"That sounds Good?" he says uncertainly. "But I don't know much about Good. I haven't been in Nirvana very long and I spent most of my time sleeping and eating grass."
"Some Good people and gods like Sarenrae think that part of being Good is destroying Evil and I think that bit of good isn't the right thing to do because it's not nice when it's hardest."
"I think Nirvana wants to turn everyone into perfect extensions of Sarenrae's will?" Ninio says uncertainly. "Except instead of doing that by torturing people it does that by turning them into baby bunnies and having them eat grass. And so of course Sarenrae wants to destroy Evil, she wants everyone to be Good."
Amina pauses for a moment to think - she used to be pretty confident about what Sarenrae was like but now she's not so sure.
"Sarenrae might want everyone to be made more like Her and I do think She wants everyone to be Good and to destroy Evil. But I think Sarenrae cares about keeping around the bits of a person that make them them when those don't get in the way of Her idea of what Good is. And that includes important things like friends and love, as long as those friends and love are also Good. And I don't think Hell wants to keep that when they torture people?"
Amina knows she isn't making Sarenrae sound as nice as she used to make Her sound.
"Also I don't think Sarenrae is the only person who controls Nirvana - if She was I don't think I would be here?"
Also her Shade definitely wouldn't be here, but she doesn't mention him cause he's scary.
Big eyes. "There are people rebelling against Sarenrae here?"
"I guess so? I think Sarenrae thinks that the way I am is wrong, but I'm not going to change just because She thinks that."