Ma'ar goes back to his new bedroom (which is big and nice and all his, and Vanyel offered to help him decorate the ceiling with stars that GLOW in the DARK). He sits down on his bed and looks out the window; it's not as good a view as the one from Urtho's Tower but it's all right.
He's still trying to wrap his mind fully around what Good even is. He's not sure he has a clearer way to point at it than 'the way Vanyel is', but he has practice, now, trying to understand and predict people even when he can't read their minds, and Vanyel told him a lot of stories about his life.
Vanyel is - brave, he thinks. He doesn't do things because he wants to for himself; he's done a lot of things that were awful for him, because he's powerful, and - it seems like he doesn't even think of that power as his, he thought of it as belonging to the people of Valdemar, because he was a Herald and he was strong enough to save so many people and make people's lives better. Ma'ar isn't sure he likes that, it seems unfair to Vanyel, and somehow unbalanced, but it feels accurate.
Vanyel, he thinks, is someone who would never ever in a thousand– in a million years, care less about the lives of innocent people as he became more powerful. If anything he would care more; he sort of said that he did care more, once he became a mage, once there was something he was good at which could save lives.
He feels like he's going in circles now. Eventually he lies down and closes his eyes, and - isn't sure how to pray, exactly, no one really said. He thinks about Carissa, who Iomedae chose as her cleric, as the person who could help Leareth fix all of Cheliax, which has to be a Good thing to do even if Leareth isn't, himself, Good. He thinks about how brave and strong Carissa was, when she came to his world. How she talked to Urtho even though she was scared. How she never even considered giving up, even when she thought she might have erased Leareth from existence and would never be able to go home...
I want to talk to you about what Good is, he thinks. I want to understand what shape I should grow up to be, if I live here.