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Mordred says that Lev is supposed to go off his medications and tell Mordred if he's not feeling well and needs to taper down more slowly.
Obviously, the thing this means is that Lev is supposed to taper down as quickly as possible and hide the tremors and headaches and sweating and light hypersensitivity from Mordred so that he isn't upset by them.
Lev manages to do this for almost two days.
The next day Lev has decided he is going to take Oswald out on A Date.
They will go to dinner and a movie.
Lev wants to take care of Oswald. He wants to open doors for Oswald and take his coat and light his cigarette and pull out chairs for him and pay for his dinner and then hold him afterward.
All the gay bars are closed and anyway Oswald doesn't like them, so after dinner they can dance to the radio in his hotel room.
Oswald doesn't know a lot about dancing, but he knows how to waltz, and Lev doesn't know current dances anyway.
But who will see. They are alone. At worst they will trip and fall and end up on top of each other in an undignified heap. And would this really be such a bad thing?
And then they do not strictly speaking have to get back up and resume dancing.
Perhaps they can even kiss.
(If what Oswald is scared of is unspecified sudden bad things and what he wants is unspecified things with Lev and what's keeping him grounded is feeling Lev is there then maybe the current solution is his arms around Lev's neck.)
Eventually Oswald falls asleep in Lev's arms. Half-asleep, he murmurs, "I love you."
Meanwhile--
Lev has been watching Mordred and Gale very carefully and putting things together. And then one night he is sitting on the carpet listening to Mordred read and then when Mordred sets the book aside for the night he says, "do you want me to suck your cock?"
"I'm really good at it? I mean I'm out of practice but I think I'll probably do fine."
Mordred has frozen up and is not going to produce an answer to that in words.
"...Uh I'm sorry. ...do you want... a hug? me to go away? I just thought-- You and Gale--"
fuckfuckfuckfuckfuck he is going to get murdered
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