No he just had a Yeerk in him and it was one of the people he loves and trusts more in the world and it was still incredibly horrible.
<I'm fine> he says in a calm, steady mindvoice that reflects none of that. <This has nothing to do with the alliance or any events on Velgarth or on Earth. When we departed for Earth, my father made the decision to give me wrong coordinates for Earth, to give to Nerefir's fleet, because he didn't want - a larger force that didn't answer to him and disagreed with him on how to approach the situation on Earth. He didn't tell me the coordinates were wrong, I found out later, and I was angry.
I learned yesterday that they were - more wrong than I had imagined. Not just far away from the war, actively dangerous, the fleet lost a lot of ships when they jumped out there. I do not know whether my father did that deliberately. I - think I would bet not, though I acknowledge the odds of it occurring by chance to be very small. Anyway, Nerefir was understandably absolutely furious about this and wanted to verify that I had nothing to do with it, which I was happy to agree to because I in fact had nothing to do with it, and - I apologize for scaring you.>
This is all delivered very flatly but his thoughts are still mostly screaming, he feels like he's been - dipped in tar, or something, and it's sticky and everywhere and in the way of everything - <We agreed that Finleran, who I trust, would take an amnestic afterwards, so that strategic secrets could remain so, and for my privacy - can you stop shielding the door, please ->