Vanyel tries to think. (Thinking is hard.)
He'd hoped maybe the drugs would make this easier to endure. He supposes it's better when he's unconscious, but if anything it's worse when he's awake, and also he can't do anything.
The others might still be trying to get Tylendel back. Which seems like it should be a motivation to wait, but - right now it feels pretty impossible that it's going to even work, and if it does - well, is Tylendel even going to want him, if Yfandes has walked away, if he's not even a Herald anymore? Also it's kind of unreasonable to ask them to spend resources on it when he's so useless.
(Some still, quiet corner of his mind is trying to raise a flag, but with all the fog in his head, there's not really enough space for it to get anywhere.)
He spends a while staring at it, holding himself still and keeping his breathing even.
...This might be his only opportunity, while none of the people with magic are nearby.
Vanyel's limbs feel like lead weights. He spends a minute planning his approach to the window–
–and then sits up and tries to stand and immediately lurches into the wall.