Jul 05, 2020 6:48 AM
an ayra reincarnates as leia organa
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She'd appreciate that, yes.

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"Very well."

"I'll see you next time, Miss Ayra."

He takes her papers from her, tucks them into a folder -

The next feeling is rather like falling.

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- oh that was fast, she wasn't expecting -

- she's about to be a baby, she probably won't be able to remember her life yet as a baby because she doesn't think babies' brains can support that - for some reason that scares her, she hates the idea of forgetting Destian even if it's temporary, another layer of leaving him behind -

 

- she's never minded falling, though, the feeling is pleasant - 

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Being born is not exceptionally pleasant. It's messy, and wet, and changing pressure, and her ears and eyes don't work well and her brain's all fuzzy, and the only really reliable sense she does have is -

There's a galaxy unfolding around her. A world she can feel. A woman, sad sad sad, grieving terribly. Shaking hands cleaning her off. A boy, being born with her. The woman and boy's feelings are like supernovae.

There's one other person, here, muted next to the two brightest people. Hard to notice. Also shocked and grieving and angry.

The woman's humming something, breath ragged, even as she cradles her two children to her. The boy is mostly just hungry and upset.

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The humming is nice, and makes her not upset.

But she is also hungry, and the boy crying beside her is too loud. She will Voice Complaints.

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Bouncing, and humming, and feeding - the woman's saying something to the small person, sad, wrenching in her heart -

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Feeding is much better. Bouncing and humming is also excellent.

But things aren't okay because the woman is much too sad. It hurts, a little, to feel it.

The small person does not know how to hum, and also does not really have a concept of it being possible to comfort people. She will press at the sadness a little, nudging the woman's light with her own. Maybe this will magically make it go away.

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She gets a bit less overwhelmingly sad. Pets her daughter, lightly, on the head.

Says something that makes her sad to the other person, once her children aren't hungry anymore.

And then the two are being pulled away from their mother.

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No she doesn't like that why would this happen

She tries reaching out for her mother and pulling, she wants her to come back.

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Her mother's crying.

She's sorry - that's obvious -

But, no.

Gently, the girl's attempt fails.

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She starts crying. Continues trying to fix this terrible thing that is happening, continues to fail, this is the worst thing that's ever happened since being born.

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She's taken away from her mother, she and her brother both, into somewhere that smells strange and sounds loud and rumbles and moves - farther and farther away -

Something's happening in her mother's head. A twisting. A folding. Her mother's light dims, muffled - far away - nearly unreachable, now, moreso than distant -

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She hates every single part of this. She does not have very much context on the spectrum of good-to-bad-things that might happen, but these are definitely all bad things and not good things like humming or bouncing or food.

She doesn't like the noise and she doesn't like what is happening to her mother, she doesn't understand it. She tries to push the noise away (which does nothing, turns out noise is not an object) and tries to reach her mother (and doesn't know if she succeeds because the light is too far away) and pushes her brother because he doesn't seem to be being very helpful.

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Her brother is a baby! He's doing his best! He's very confused and highly alarmed and mostly knows Everything Is Terrible, Therefore We Must Scream.

Her mother's emotions swirl about her, a distant storm of grief and bereavement and anger - her mother isn't reachable, can't feel them -

Her mother starts moving away, too.

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Yeah okay maybe screaming will work

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Screaming: proven baby problem solving method since the invention of vocal chords! (The person with them is very distraught and alarmed and trying to calm two screeching newborns).

Unfortunately, it fails this time.

The ship they're on gets very very very quickly farther away from their mother, and she doesn't come back, for a very very very long time. The babies will be exhausted long before then, if she ever does come back.

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Everything is terrible!!! Why isn't the distraught person fixing all the things that are terrible!!! Crying is supposed to get the people around you to fix things!!!

Eventually she falls asleep, because she is a baby.

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She's woken up by her mother screaming!

It's rather impressive, given that her mother isn't present.

There's fear, and helplessness, and rage, and grief, and regret, and confusion, and pain - her mother seems to be able to fit a lot of emotions into her.

(Brother starts screaming, too.)

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Badbadbadbad and she still can't reach her and it's bad and

She will also scream. A lot.

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Her mother's emotions - smother. Like someone's choking them. Bleed, and whip out, and drain, and she's coiling them all so tightly they can't do anything, just simmer under her cold cold cold pain -

The ship the babies are in keeps going, unaware of her mother's desperate pain.

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Badbadbadbad

Pushes the ship, ship does not care. Pushes the nonbaby person onboard the ship; why haven't they made it stop yet it needs to stop it hurts.

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Nonbaby: winces! Tries to soothe the two flailing babies. Seems to have a presence in the same light she's using, a similar power, but he's more muffled than her brother. Less immediately right there.

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She is going to continue crying and poking him with her light until he makes her mother stop hurting.

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He - doesn't.

Instead he takes her to a planet, full of people who are not her mother.

He talks to some people, there. Two, sad and worried and resolute.

He leaves her brother in the ship. He takes her. Hands her to the two people.

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She will poke him as emphatically as she can until he realizes that he forgot her brother. Brother should also be here.

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