Unfortunately it doesn't seem he can do that right away; Lancir is waiting for them at the stables. "Abras, lad, it's good to have you back! Excellent work out there. And you must be Arina..." 

Oh, right, of course Lancir wants to meet the new Herald-trainee. "Hello."

Lancir chats to Arina a bit about how the trip went and what she thinks of Haven, but holds up a hand and beckons for Abras to stay. After a few exchanges, he sends Arina to get her Companion's needs taken care of. 

"Abras," he says, reaching to grip his arm. He lowers his voice. "...Are you doing all right? You look very tired." 

Abras waves a hand dismissively. "Too many nights in Waystations."

Too many nights being kept awake by worries about more nightmares. Too many thoughts about how Tylendel should have had his first mission a long time ago but now he never will. Too much remembering how he's only a Herald because Tylendel isn't because he's DEAD.

"If you're sure." Lancir seems kind of dubious, but after a few more seconds of peering into Abras' eyes, he pats him on the shoulder. "Go get some well-earned rest, then. We can debrief tomorrow." 

"See you then." He goes and gets Yfandes and himself settled, and by the next morning he's awake enough to be nervous about the debriefing meeting instead of groggily accepting inputs and throwing them out unprocessed. Which means he completely forgets about the morning Mindspeech relay.

Fortunately, it's not clear anyone was expecting him for it. When he runs into Tran in the bathhouse after the usual relay time, the other Herald gives him a hug and asks how the mission went and how many days he's planning to take off as leave after it. 

"It went--okay, I think? Is it normal to take leave afterwards?" It seems a bit backwards to be taking off right after being gone for a while. "Oh, and I don't know if you heard, a couple of people got Chosen while I was out there and one of them--Arina--came back with me yesterday."

"I did hear! Haven't had a chance to go welcome her yet, though. What's she like? ...Er, and yes, I always take a day off after. Missions are exhausting." 

"They really are." Oh good, it's not exclusively a him problem, except that's actually not good because other people being tired doesn't help anything. "Arina's nice. Smart and enthusiastic about everything and mage-gifted."

"Aww. Now I'm a little jealous you got to spend the whole week travelling with her." 

"I bet you'll get to meet her soon. I should head to my next thing, but I'll see you tomorrow morning?"

"Sure, see you then!" Tran hugs him again and heads off. 

Yfandes interrupts with a gentle mental poke. :Lancir's ready to meet whenever you are, Chosen: 

:Yes, sorry, on my way.: He's at Lancir's office soon after. Probably Lancir always meets with new Heralds after their first mission and it's not because anything is wrong. Probably.

Lancir doesn't seem at all annoyed or upset with him, at least. He ushers Abras in, tells him to take a seat, reaches for the decanter of watered wine. "Something to drink?"

"Sure, thanks. So you wanted to see me?"

"I did, yes. It sounds like you did very well out there, but it's still standard to get a face to face report after a big mission like this. And on top of that, this was your first, so I'd like to help you think through what you did right and what could've gone better, for next time." 

"That sounds good. Do you want me to give a summary first, or . . . ?"

"Yes, please." 

Summary time. He did this and Herald Jores did that and the guards did the other thing and Yfandes had such-and-such idea. He tries to avoid making any value judgements about any of it and just give Lancir the facts, but it's clear which bits he's embarrassed about (namely, all the bits where he mentions himself).

Lancir listens attentively and makes little encouraging noises and doesn't seem disapproving about any of it. He takes notes. 

"Thank you," he says, once Abras has recounted all of it. "To start - is there anything you think you could have done better, or that you would do differently next time?" 

"I think I should get better at keeping track of multiple things at once. There were points where I missed things until it was almost too late to do anything about them, and then only because someone else pointed it out. And I should get better at doing things without help in general; there won't always be a bunch of people to ask or time to ask them. And also nonlethally incapacitating people in a hurry."

Lancir nods, thoughtful. "Those are some good points, although - do keep in mind that you're a very young and inexperienced Herald, still, and if I'm doing my job right here, you won't end up in situations with no one to ask for help for a few years. It's very important that you have the support and advice you need now, so you can develop the kind of on-the-spot judgement that lessons don't convey. Does that make sense?"

"Yes. It's the sort of thing you can really only learn from examples."