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Abadar uses a helm of opposite alignment on Hagan and a bad time is had by all
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"...uh. That would plausibly make me less scared of you in the short term and more scared of you in the long term."

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"Huh, why?"

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"Because it plausibly means that you're - trying to take away my ability to assess threats."

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"Oh. I'm not trying to do that."

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"Okay, well - I acknowledge that I'm probably experiencing some amount of irrational fear, but I think a lot of it reflects the fact that - you keep hurting me and it's actually important for me to be prepared for it to happen. Like - the difference between before the Euphoric Tranquility and after it."

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"Yeah, that makes sense."

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Snuggle.

"Sucks, though."

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"I wish it lasted longer."

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"Yeah. Me too.

"Dunno whether there's a way to time it carefully enough."

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" - there might be? I can double it, that'd help - it'd probably work at least sometimes -"

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Nodnod.

"Be willing to try that. Not today. Probably not tomorrow. Need - time. But - I'd wanna try it when I'm better."

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"We can - plan on that, then."

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Nod.

 

"Probably need to be ready to do a hell of a lot of aftercare. If we fuck it up."

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"You mean just - telling you I don't blame you and I know that this is hard for you and I love you and I'm not upset -"

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" - yeah, I guess. And holding me. Being obviously gentle. And, uh, not making me walk halfway across the palace."

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"Yeah. I - understand now that that hurt you very badly."

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Nodnod. "Okay. Well. Just - so we're clear, in the future, if you're gonna do something that hurts me as badly as sex does, we gotta - I am going to need some amount of comfort after it to be at all okay."

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"Mostly I think if something hurts you that badly I won't do it. I don't like hurting you. This is just - a really important thing."

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"Yeah. I know. Just - telling you what I think I have to have to be - still functional, after. Minimum. So you don't have to - I don't think either of us want to add extra hurt on top of the stuff we can't avoid."

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Nod. "I could - practice? When you aren't hurt? So you can tell me if I'm doing it right?"

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"Practice...? - oh, being comforting and stuff?"

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"Yeah. I don't - it's really hard to predict people, right now. I don't think that's the helmet, I think it's just the - grief, I guess."

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Nodnodnod. "That makes sense. I think that's a really good idea, actually."

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"Anything else you wanna talk about? Want me to go get another book, or - "

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