"Little bit? When I'm thinking of ways that things could hypothetically end up going horribly. Mostly like - I dunno, if you're hoping that marriage is a certain way and then it's... not, and you feel like you had a romanticized image of how things would be and when it falls through you're like 'hmm, that sucked, I now see that it's actually silly to hope for more than what I had before - '"

"It'd be pretty surprising if marriage were worse than the thing we are doing right now, and the thing we are doing right now is way better than the palace."

Snuggle. "Okay."

"Though if marriage were exactly like the thing we are doing right now I would not want to give up ever having boyfriends."

"That would be valid.

"I - am not sure how confident I should be that I will at some point consistently want to have sex? But - I am at this point occasionally reminding myself of the reasons why I should probably not try making out with you in a bed, given that I am, in fact, trying to err pretty far on the conservative side when it comes to not getting you to do anything you might later regret doing. If that's, uh, at all helpful for estimating where we are."

"I don't - that's nice. That makes me happy. I - I want to - be intimate with you, obviously. I don't ever want you to feel like, 'well, I said he couldn't have anyone else, so I'd better' - that's no good at all -"

Nodnodnod. Snuggle.

"I don't even know if that's a real problem people really have. I have heard it in marriage advice."

"People having sex when they'd rather not to placate their partner? Pretty sure that happens."

Nod.

"I think that would be pretty bad, but I obviously also don't want to end up in a situation where me not wanting sex means you can't have any? I guess logically this means I shouldn't care about - I dunno.

"Like you more than anybody else I've ever met."

"Gosh." Hug. 

"if we did do something and then I decided actually it was too close to a bad idea that wouldn't be on you, you know, I'm a grownup and can tell you to stop. - probably won't, but like, in principle."

"I think I selfishly want you to look back on most of the things we do later and think that they were absolutely good ideas."

"Ah. Well, you're doing well at that so far."

Snuggle.

"...I will probably want to make out with you before we get married. Just because - if this does not produce the desire to do other things with you then that seems like information I probably want. But I don't know that I particularly want it right now."

Nodnod.

"You're very good, y'know."

"Well, I'm definitely good. Dunno about very good, there's no spell for that."

"Very very very good."

Forehead kiss. 

Eee.

" - you know I kind of thought that would produce fewer warm fuzzies if I'd asked for it, but - I think it might actually produce more, just from, like - thinking about the fact that you like doing things I like - "

"I do! I could try to mix it up, though." He will kiss... her nose.

Giggle. She kisses his cheek.

Well he will kiss her...ear.

They're going to rapidly run out of unkissed body parts that are definitely not lapses in judgement, but that seems like a problem for future them. 

She kisses his chin.