You would think. 

None of them have made any yet. Unless I missed something. I think I'm missing a lot of things but I thought I was caught up on that.

None of them have actually gotten married but - man, I don't feel like that's the only big commitment out there? None of the mes'll leave.

I guess not. 

I don't know if any of them know that.

No? I would expect they've mostly said it.

I'm very bad at knowing things.

Huh.

I'm not leaving. Not - it's not the same thing they're doing but it's a more important thing, to me. 

Nodnod. Snuggle.

I think this is not a dream. I've had ones that went on for several sleeps but I think I always woke up in the middle at some point.

Squeeze.

Better than my dreams are anyway.

Will I make you sad if I say I wanna kill God someday?

Hmm. I think I'm not very mad at him, but I can appreciate the sentiment.

Would you be mad at him if he did it to someone you loved?

Hmmm.

I guess I would probably be mad if he did it to you.

- what, particularly? Why?

Well, I thought about if he did it to Azalea, or mom, or dad, or Connor, and I didn't feel like I'd be mad, because I think they all knew the rules and accepted their validity. But you always talk about how the whole system is awful, and somehow it doesn't seem as fair to punish someone who never would have wanted to accept the rules in the first place.

Getting people to agree to be slaves doesn't mean they deserve to be slaves!

I'm not a slave.

Right, it's just the closest analogy I could think of. Getting people to agree that they deserve to be tortured if they don't submit doesn't make you any less evil for the torture.

I still like the part where he made the world and put me in it.

If Elizabeth makes someone and then tortures them I'll be pretty mad at her!

What if Elizabeth makes someone, and they break the no murder rule, and she sends them somewhere worse?

She'd have to have a really good reason not to send them to the nice Arda or to Nirvana.

I guess so.

I don't think he's my God anymore. But I don't want him dead any more than I want my parents dead.

- nod.