So you can spend the rest of your time having fun.

I guess this is theoretically an option available.

You're doing enough.

Snuggle. I don't feel like I am.

Because you feel like you gotta do everything for everyone.

I guess so.

But you don't. Not all the time.

I guess not.

I feel like - all of the things I actually want to do are stupid or things I shouldn't do, and - I should at least be working on something, y'know?

I don't think the things you actually want to do are stupid.

I guess you wouldn't.

I don't think it's fair that you have to spend all your time doing stuff that doesn't matter in the hope it gets counted towards things that do matter and not doing anything you like.

Life's not really very fair. I think it would probably be better if I spent more time doing things that did matter, but - I'm not really sure which ones will give me good spells and I guess I'm kind of afraid of overextending myself and trying to help with things I can't do yet.

I don't really mean you should help people more. The opposite of that, I guess. You should only do stuff that is fun. Aside from helping the Valar move around.

I guess I could at least take a break. I don't remember how long it's been since I gave myself a metaphorical weekend.

Yeah! Good plan.

I dunno what I'd even do with it. Can't play video games very well unless we go back to Azalea's. ...I should maybe figure out how to give this place electricity at some point. In addition to figuring out plumbing.

Yeah. Maybe one of the other societies has advanced electricity that'd be easier to add.

I guess that's probably a sensible thing to ask someone else to work on figuring out. I know almost nothing about setting that up.

Yeah. And someone probably does.

Yeah. Probably.

I keep, uh - really wanting to have sex with you and then feeling like either trying to marry you really soon or deciding to have sex with you before I married you would probably be really stupid right now, because I am maybe not in a great mental space for making important personal life decisions. And - I don't wanna mess stuff up there.

I don't think I quite get what the thing about having sex while not married is but we could...use spells to imitate it in every way while not actually touching?

Snuggle. I don't think this actually solves the problem. 

Half the problem is that I don't even know if it matters, right? Like - you cannot actually safely leave me and there isn't actually a God with Catholic values ruling over our world who definitely cares what decisions I make here. And - I keep feeling like I should be conservative and do the thing that people mostly agree works, but I don't know if it actually matters at all, at this point, to do  a ceremony first? And if it doesn't matter then maybe it'd be better to do a ceremony when I'm less... sad. It's not like it'll make us much more or less stuck with each other either way.

But then I keep feeling like this isn't the sort of thing that I should make snap decisions about, and what if I make the wrong decision and regret it and can't go back and do it right, and stuff.

You could get magic that lets you go back and do it right?

Pff. I'm not really sure that's how things work, but I guess it's probably technically a possibility.

I guess I think - you are trying really hard to follow other peoples' rules. And you shouldn't.