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When she thinks she can see him without crying again, she holds her baby close and walks silently back to Rana's.
The room has been replaced with - something else. She has no idea what this means. She has nobody to ask but Rana. Everything she asks places her further in his debt, of course, but it hardly matters now.
She steps inside.
"I, uh, don't know what love means to mortals exactly and I don't know how anyone other than my brother successfully uses words for feelings and is sure they used them the same way as other people interpreted them but I -
- I liked the way you thought about me yesterday? And I don't understand what - made you decide it was wrong -"
"Yesterday I thought you didn't want to be with anybody else. Was stupid to think it, just - "
- she wants to believe it so badly. But it isn't true, it can't be, it - but fairies can't lie -
She doesn't mean to cry harder but she thinks she is anyway.
"- wanna matter to you - "
...pat pat pat?
"I feel like if you did not matter to me then I would've left when you wanted to stay the night in court. Because I hate staying the night in court."
"But obviously it's not the sort of mattering that means that you don't want to - I know I can't, I know it's not reasonable to expect you not to sleep with anyone else when I might never be able to, I know it was stupid to think you wouldn't go to other people, but I was stupid, okay, I thought I was enough, I thought you were happy with me anyway, I thought - "
"...among humans, is it normal to - like the people you're having sex with more than other people in your life, or something?"
Nodnodnod!
"I mean - not always, but - if you're already in love with someone, then - people don't just - "
"- there's some amount of liking someone where you don't want to have sex with other people?"
"Okay. That is not really how fairies do things. I know fairies who were - by all appearances deeply, deeply in love, had many children together, risked their lives for each other a hundred times over, so deeply entangled you might as well think of them as one person -
- and they'd still have sex with other people, same as they'd still talk to other people, same as they'd still listen to stories told by other people..."
"We are staying in this stupid horrible place where everyone hates me because there is a small chance they can make you immortal and I can have you forever."
Hug. Very clingy hug.
"'m so sorry. I just - it seemed really clear, when I heard, I didn't know fairies were different that way, and I've never met anyone who really loved somebody who was enslaved to them, and - I got scared, and I love you, and I want you to stay, and it hurt, thinking you didn't - "
"I was upset earlier because - because it didn't seem fair that you'd just leave - I wouldn't - if we wandered into some place with lots of other nice friendly humans I wouldn't just go 'well this is an even better deal than what I had going'"
Nodnodnod. "Don't wanna leave. Just - was thinking I didn't matter to you and was just a slave who'd gotten confused, and then everyone kept saying it at me, like it was obvious, and - I opened the door and waited for you as soon as I knew how, still, I was just - confused for a bit, and I'm sorry - "
"Haven't had a slave before. I didn't really think about how you're supposed to - feel, or what you're supposed to do..."
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