I think that wouldn't be very safe, so no.

Is there a nice pretty place you know of where I can go?

Yeah. It's late now, so we'd have to come back soon, but we can go somewhere for a few hours?

I'm not sure how long an hour is but I would like that a lot.

OK. We can go when you're done with dinner.

He eats his dinner considerably more quickly and even occasionally peeks at it.

Poor kid.

When he's done, she scoops him up and tells Connor and Zana and her great grandmother that she'll be back in a bit. (Kate's already out. Kate works nights.)

She carries him until they get to St. Vincent De Paul church. Not her church, at all, but maybe the catholics are at least good for something.

Better? Best I have on short notice.

It looks really nice! he says delightedly. I really like it. This is good. Thank you so much.

Mhmm. Anything we can do to make the house less horrible for you?

I'm sure you worked very hard on it and it's very tall. No one I know knows how to build that tall without a Vala.

I did not actually build the apartment building.

Okay. Well, I want to remember that whoever did build it was impressive in some ways and knew some things that I do not know.

OK, that's very thoughtful and kind of you, but I don't super want to keep you somewhere that's going to give you panic attacks.

- you remember what we talked about, about it being easier to look after you if you would worry less about me and more about you? I don't know if I can make it better if you tell me what's wrong with it, but I definitely can't if you don't, and it would make me a lot happier if I could do something about it.

I don't understand the intended aesthetic at all and I think it may just not resonate with me.

...I'm not sure the apartment has an intended aesthetic.

Everything in it hurts to look at and when I'm looking at it I can't think about anything because there's too much and no principles organizing any of it.

I can try cleaning up the books and toys and things...?

That is very kind of you. I think it would probably mostly still hurt to look at. I don't know if it would be better. I have never had this problem before, except in that room at your work which was in the middle of a project.

I - guess it was sort of in the middle of a project, yeah.

It's normal for stuff to look messy while someone is in the middle of a project - though not that messy but it seemed like maybe some things had not worked quite right and mistakes happen - but it's not normal to try to live places that feel the way the project feels. 

Well, it is not normal for me. If it's normal for other people that is okay.

My apartment and the project room feel really different to me. If my apartment makes you feel the way the project room makes me feel, though, that's... really bad. 

I can try some stuff but I'm not sure any of it will work. I'm sorry.

I was thinking I could just keep my eyes shut all the time. Some people don't have eyes and they are fine.

Ok, well, that's a good plan if we can't fix the place up any. We'll see if we can improve on it.

Zana thought that if I worked hard and got good at something then I could have money and then I could spend the money on a farm and then I could grow things and harvest things on the farm and you would not have to work all day.

Yeah, that could happen when you get a lot bigger. But it'll take some time.

Like, technically she cannot quit Wolfram & Hart because they may or may not own her soul at this point, but this seems not worth going into, and in theory some people do earn money and buy farms.