"I love you — I've been stopping myself from kissing you for ages —" 

"Me too-- I felt so awful, because I was taking advantage of you--"

"I kept thinking," kiss, "that if you knew you would never want to touch me — but you know, and you do —" 

"I think even if I could only love girls and I knew that you loved me I'd still want to touch you because you love me."

"You're so good." 

"Do you want me to hurt you?"

"Please." 

He makes a little whimpering noise at Chen's 'please' and slowly, tentatively tugs on Chen's hair.

He makes a tiny little "Ah," lets his eyelids flutter. 

Then he does it again, still so gentle, barely even pulling.

It's good but it's nowhere near enough — Chen makes another tiny sound and doesn't break eye contact. 

Ben very very softly and gently bites Chen's shoulder.

"You can bite harder than that," very quiet. 

"Oh," he says, and does.

His head tilts back and he moans out loud and his fingernails dig into Ben's back. 

Gosh.

What happens if he bites harder?

Chen's whole body goes loose and relaxed and he lets his eyes close and — doesn't keep himself quiet — 

Chen is so good!

He should probably tell Chen this.

He kisses the mark and says, "you're so good."

A sharp gasp at the kiss and a whimper at the praise and a barely-whispered "yours." 

"Yours," Ben says, and bites him again. 

He's — trying not to be too loud — 

He's not really succeeding. 

"You can be as loud as you want," Ben says, "no one will care."

Oh. Right. 

He digs his fingernails into Ben's shoulders and clings to Ben and doesn't keep himself quiet. 

"Can you hurt me?" Ben says. "As hard as you can?"

"That's a bad idea, joints are fragile, but I can —" and he punches Ben in the chest, holds back but not by very much.