"You can touch me too," he says quietly.

He shouldn't he shouldn't he shouldn't. 

The skin of Ben's sides is very soft. 

He moves away a little bit, touches Chen's stomach, his chest. 

Chen's shirt is riding up.

He touches Ben's back, his stomach, his sides, runs his fingers up the ridge of Ben's spine. 

"I love you." 

Ben gently tugs on Chen's shirt. "Can I--"

"Yes," barely a whisper. "Can I—?" 

"You can have whatever you want from me."

no no no no no don't promise me that I am not as good as you think I am — 

He takes off Ben's shirt, runs his fingertips over Ben's chest. 

He hisses, takes off Chen's shirt, and presses their bodies together.

"You're so warm."

"You're so warm." 

He's still just barely brushing over Ben's skin. 

He's making soft quiet whimpery noises and touching Chen like he's something valuable and precious that might break.

Good. Ben should keep making those noises. 

Ben should keep touching him like that — Ben should touch him more — Ben should bite him, hard enough to leave bruises —

He's so gentle, as if he's afraid of hurting Chen.

Ben wants-- Ben wants a lot of things-- he keeps his hips angled away from Chen's. 

Yeah. Chen is doing that too. 

"You don't have to be so careful," he murmurs into Ben's neck. 

"Okay," he says, and his touch is firmer and he presses himself into Chen.

He makes a soft whimpering noise and presses back. 

Oh. Chen is-- oh.

Ben reaches up and starts touching his hair. 

Oh. 

Good ❤️. 

Ben presses his hips into Chen's and keeps touching his hair and says, "it's probably normal, right? A natural reaction to being close. Nothing to worry about."

(It's not, it isn't, he should stop this —) 

"Yeah," he says, instead of that, presses his head into Ben's hand. 

It's really not, for him. It's being sick and perverted and--

Chen's hair is so soft.

He's disgusting and taking advantage and Ben's hands are so soft.

This is such a bad idea, he knows it, but--

"When I was younger Asher and I used to practice kissing. So we'd know what to do when we met our true loves."

He should say no. 

He should say no and apologize for everything and get up and leave Ben alone. 

He leans forward and presses a kiss, very lightly, to the corner of Ben's mouth. 

Ben presses a soft gentle kiss directly onto Chen's lips.

"I love you."