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Chen doesn't actually like tourney. Never has, probably never will. He joined the team mostly because he didn't know how to tell their coach no and he stayed —
Well, he stayed for a lot of reasons, but mostly he stayed because of Ben.
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If he were really as good as he pretends to be he'd apologize. If Ben knew that — some part of him shies away from the rest of that thought — if Ben knew about how Chen actually is, he wouldn't be here, wouldn't be smiling, wouldn't be saying he loves Chen —
— but Ben loves him, or at least Ben thinks he loves him, and it's not like Chen didn't know he was disgusting already. "I love you," he says, and lets himself be pulled.
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"It feels like as long as you're here things are going to be okay," he says. "I know that's stupid--"
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It occurs to Ben that he could put his hands up under Chen's shirt and touch his back.
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He should really really stop this. Chen just said he loved him and he's taking advantage and Chen would never agree if he knew and--
And it's been a long day and Chen is so warm.
"I love you," he repeats, and his hands are gentle on Chen's sides and his back and his shoulders.
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He should stop. Shouldn't let Ben be doing this, not without knowing, not without telling him.
He makes a soft little sound when Ben touches his sides and pulls him closer and says "I love you" into his shoulder.
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He moves away a little bit, touches Chen's stomach, his chest.
Chen's shirt is riding up.
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He touches Ben's back, his stomach, his sides, runs his fingers up the ridge of Ben's spine.
"I love you."
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no no no no no don't promise me that I am not as good as you think I am —
He takes off Ben's shirt, runs his fingertips over Ben's chest.
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He hisses, takes off Chen's shirt, and presses their bodies together.
"You're so warm."
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He's making soft quiet whimpery noises and touching Chen like he's something valuable and precious that might break.
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Good. Ben should keep making those noises.
Ben should keep touching him like that — Ben should touch him more — Ben should bite him, hard enough to leave bruises —
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He's so gentle, as if he's afraid of hurting Chen.
Ben wants-- Ben wants a lot of things-- he keeps his hips angled away from Chen's.
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Yeah. Chen is doing that too.
"You don't have to be so careful," he murmurs into Ben's neck.
