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Chen doesn't actually like tourney. Never has, probably never will. He joined the team mostly because he didn't know how to tell their coach no and he stayed —
Well, he stayed for a lot of reasons, but mostly he stayed because of Ben.
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"I guess. I'm just going to have to do my best. And if I mess up people are going to die."
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He puts a hand firmly on the back of Ben's head and doesn't say anything more.
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Once he stops crying, certain parts of Ben remember that having Chen hold him while he cries has been something he's been thinking about at night for several weeks.
Ben's penis. Ben's penis is the part of him that remembers this.
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Ben has had a really long and tiring and awful day and he does not actually have the willpower to... stop.
Being held by Chen is even more wonderful than he thought it would be. Chen is so solid. He feels safe, like he can fall apart on Chen and Chen will catch him.
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He should let go and apologize. If he were a better person he would.
But this is what Ben needs from him and Chen couldn't not give it to him if he tried.
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Later he is going to think about how he's sick and perverted and taking advantage of Chen when Chen thinks he's just comforting him, how he's using a serious crisis for Auradon in order to fulfill his twisted desires.
Right now he is happy and warm and so so relaxed.
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Later he's going to hate how much he enjoys having Ben in his arms, how he can enjoy something that hurt Ben this much.
Right now he pets Ben's hair and holds him close and lets himself feel warm.
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"I do. You have advisors, and your kingdom is conveniently divided into regions with their own governments and traditions and precedents, and you know a lot of people from a lot of different places, and you care a whole lot about doing a good job, and I think it's going to be okay."
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"Well, one advantage of being king is that you can appoint different ones. — what I meant is actually 'you aren't doing this alone, everybody has people to delegate to.'"
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"But even if I delegate it's my responsibility. And I have to figure out who to delegate to."
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"Yeah. But — you don't have to do it alone, and there are people there to help you who have experience with the thing they're doing."