"...I'm not good enough to fix everything and maybe I never will be and everything in the multiverse is sort of my fault because if it's not then that means I don't matter at all so it's better to just feel personally responsible for all of it, every minute of Angband -"

"Oh no sweetheart," says Boots, as Cam quietly vanishes, "that's not how it works, there's a lot of room between mattering at all and mattering enough for the entire multiverse to be all up to you -"

"Did I make Cam sad I wasn't trying to do that, he was really nice-"

"I think he just thought he was intruding."

Hugs. "I just can't imagine ever - ever being in a place where I can look at my life and say 'I was good enough', I don't even know what that'd look like -"

Squeeze.

"Is anybody else good enough?"

"You are! T'Mir is, Cam is, Gem is - I haven't really met any of the other yous but I bet they all are -"

"But none of us have solved all the problems in the multiverse either."

"Yeah but you have less to make up for and you do a ton with what you have. I don't."

"...I think Cam would disagree with your assessment that you have in any sense more to make up for than he does."

"If I'd noticed the time-slide right away and told you about it right away we could have had interdimensional transit twenty-five years ago, we would have found Revelation and figured out how to parameterize looking for alts -"

"I could've noticed the time-slide as soon as I landed and I didn't."

"Do you feel sad about that?"

"It's frustrating but it doesn't bother me in quite the way your not noticing it seems to bother you."

"I only count if I'm the smartest and most inventive person ever. Otherwise I just shouldn't exist."

"That's never really made any sense to me."

"It doesn't make any sense."

"But it's still there anyway making you feel bad?"

"Yeah."

Squeeze. "If you were a Bell you could just get rid of it. I don't know if you can since you're not."

"Me neither."

"But it is very nonsensical and I wish it would leave you alone."

Squeeze. "I kind of want demon wings so I can fly without mana."

"Wouldn't ones that would still work when you're grown up be really awkward on you now? Is there a way to make them grow with the rest of you?"

"No. You could have an angel fix them or you could cut them off and get new ones but Cam thought it'd be unpleasant."