Agreeing to go into service is easy. No harder than signing up for the Marines. He's spent so long serving his country, it's a comfort to know he'll be acting in service again.
Chris is still smiling. It's fine. He can still feel his face and shoulders heating up. "Thank you, Chris."
He nods. "Yes, Chris. Thank you, Chris."
He gets clothes on.
He takes four minutes to lean against the wall and get his breathing and heartbeat back to normal. Two more minutes to press the base of his hands into his eyes and calm down.
He comes back out.
After dinner, Marlo has his hour of free time.
Chris is reading about accounting. He doesn't seem to be paying attention, but as Marlo has previously learned, Chris not seeming to be paying attention will not prevent him from giving you a twenty-minute explanation of all your inadequacies.
He has more nervous energy than usual; it feels like there's a live current just under his skin. He tries to continue reading the book from yesterday; after ten minutes he decides this isn't going to get anywhere, does twelve push-ups, and tries again.
He leans against the wall and closes his eyes and tries not to think too much. (He thinks anyway. About — the impact on his back, and nothing else.)
When he's done, the thrumming under his skin is quiet.
He never really feels clean after he's done that. This time is no different.
He's able to concentrate on reading, now.
Marlo isn't thinking about that right now. He's too focused on Chris's hands in his hair, on the way Chris is smiling.
But yes, it does.