Agreeing to go into service is easy. No harder than signing up for the Marines. He's spent so long serving his country, it's a comfort to know he'll be acting in service again.
The way he's holding himself doesn't change, but there's something in his face that softens at Chris's tone.
"He responds very strongly to praise. I decided to keep that. It's a selling point among some owners."
He feels vaguely nauseous. He doesn't respond to the touch; he focuses as hard as he can on Chris.
Chris kisses his forehead. "You will do wonderfully and I am proud of you."
He leaves.
"Thank you, Chris," very quietly to the closing door.
Theres nothing to focus on now but Rachel. Marlo tries anyway, thinks over that last forehead kiss over and over again, remembers the tone of Chris's voice.
He doesn't know how to be pretty but he can make small punched-out ah noises when the whip connects.
If only Chris could see you.
He — Chris said to think of it as something he was doing to please Chris — the sounds don't get any louder but they do get more intense.
The sound he makes at You're his favorite feels like it was ripped out of him.
He — he can't, tell, what response she wants, and he can't think clearly for long enough to work it out — he's not sure he could be quiet if he tried — you're his favorite you're his favorite, he dotes on you, you he kisses —