Finding where the gaps are is a little hard. I knew that one because Aydanci asked.

I can go over a loose outline of everything since I was rescued? I spent a couple months physically recuperating. At one point in that I - explained to you, the sort of games he plays in the hallucinations, and you told your golem to keep people away from me. We came up with the idea of having me read your notes. I liked that, a lot, but I was worried it meant the Enemy had them.

I don't know if he got them with me or not.

He didn't, they were buried in collapsed parts of the city, but I don't expect you to trust me on that. Anyway, you were working on Charp - since we'd been fooled by an illusion, you wanted something that could talk and see through them - and clinging to Findekano a little and avoiding Aydanci, he was still a child...I disliked doing nothing but sitting around, knew I'd never be able to live with myself for having done nothing but be a liability if this was real and that I was desperately unhappy to no end if it wasn't real. You and Findekano figured it out, had me swear to say a few specific words, loudly, if I realized an Enemy oath was acting on me, told all the golems to kill me if I said that. I took the Kingship back. You and Findekano looked over everything I did to make sure I wasn't sabotaging us.

Having Findekáno then was really good, sighs Kib.

Yeah. He's had a pretty rough go.

Yeah.

Not your fault. I'm looking out for that.

Love you.

The Moon rose, and then the Sun. You made sarcastic comments about it taking the Valar two Years just to accomplish copying the lost world's lighting system. We expanded trade with the Dwarves. You finished Charp. We found out there were humans, not servantmakers, and Thauron was messing with them. Sent some Charps. Wasn't much they could do. Aydanci started having dreams and you told him and he took it well. You were very happy.

I remember being really nervous about that. Don't have the conversation back.

You told me about it that evening but I don't know the details. I bet you could ask him. Thauron used the Men to kill a community of nearby Elves. We besieged Angband and made it so nothing could go in or out. Aydanci had a really good dream and threw himself at you. My father figured out weapon enchantments that could take chunks out of Maiar. You and Aydanci renewed your vows. We got long-ranged projectile weaponry working. Thauron tried to start a war between the Men and the Dwarves.

I remember the part where I got captured, sighs Kib.

Hugs. Our fault. I'm so sorry. We should have known - should have been prepared -

I remember saying something like that to you.

I'm the King, I'm supposed to be responsible for this kind of thing.

Sigh. I love you.

When I wake up in Angband I'm going to be so relieved.

The real Kib's safe and happy and won't live out the rest of his life without ever having another thought.

Sorry.

For what? Being a lie? I just said I'm glad of that. I wonder if this was even specifically meant to torture me or if Thauron just had a very hard time imitating you convincingly.

Love you, Kib. Night.

Love you. Night.