Kib in Arda
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You're welcome.

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And thank you for the golem. I have it do my hair for me. 

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You're welcome.

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He can't get a smile out of him, though. That's frustrating. No smile and no slip-up, or perhaps one that he's been made to forget about - you sure everything's all right? Last time we spoke I was a mess, I didn't mean to scare you away....

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I would not describe myself as 'scared away'.

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He smiles again. Good.

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But I don't want to overwhelm you and there are any number of reasons not to take invitations to maybe do that at face value, each more horrifying than the last.

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I am faking, obviously. But I think I'd rather spend this hallucination being treated like a person than like a tragic loss who still happens to be walking around, and that means I have to act like one. And if it's real aside from learning too much I - think it's also better to act recovered. If you're worried I've found a way around the golem and are trying to lure you here to murder that's fair enough, but if it's just that your company is harder for me to cope with than the company of arbitrary strangers - well, it is, but a world without even fragile hallucinations of everyone I love turns out to be hard to live in, so I find myself reaching for the fragile hallucinations anyway.

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No, I doubt you've found a way around the golem, Kib sighs. Okay.

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I don't want you to feel obliged to spend time with me. But if you're avoiding it for my sake - turns out being avoided even by a version of you I am nearly certain is a fake is still painful -

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Then I'll stop. I'm sorry.

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I don't want an apology. As I said, I practically chased you out.

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Not what I'd call it, but it's true I did not just randomly decide of my own accord not to interact with you.

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I don't think there's any point in making this unpleasant for myself in advance of the point where it'll get unpleasant, and I apologize for making it unpleasant for you. 

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I do not in the least hold you responsible for that.

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Didn't think so. 

I'm afraid I don't have enough memories to get any farther than that, I don't know what we used to do. Other than.

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We played a lot of Governor.

I have notes, I have notes on everything, if you want more details.

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If you can't think how the Enemy'd use it, then yes, I would. 

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I'd have to redact it anyway, it'd be all in with my personal stuff, not like work notes where I can hand it to a scribe and give the copy to whoever wants it.

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Okay.

 

In that case I will not take any more of your time. I loathe being useless but actively being a burden's much worse.

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Okay.

I love you.

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Do you want a hug?

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Got 'em sourced, thanks.

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He smiles again. Alright, alright, I can take a hint. Good skill. Keep in touch or something.

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I'll get you redacted notes in chunks over the next while.

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