Helen says, a little hesitantly, "He kind of had to. Somebody he cared about was in trouble, they were going to die, and the only way to save them was for Petaal to be a witch and fly to where they were and rescue them."
"Yeah," says Helen. "And he was really scared, he says, and it was awful and scary and sad, but then he rescued his friend and hugged Petaal a lot and everyone was okay."
"Yeah, it does," says Helen. "We pulled pretty hard once, and it hurt a lot."
"I don't really know what the thing does," says Helen. "Maybe it hurts me less to pull, or maybe it's just going to be - easier another way, less distance maybe? I don't know."
"Everybody does it," she says. "And they're all okay. We'll be okay too."
"You don't want to be mad at her, right?" says Kalavar to Nicoa.
"I don't know why either," says Kalavar. "But it's got to help if you don't want to be mad."
"But I guess I don't know if that works for this thing," says Kalavar.
When Nicoa does settle, Shura's almost thirteen. Her trip to the Waste is scheduled for the next day.
Kalavar turns into a chinchilla and gives him little poofy snuggles. Helen hugs Shura.
"Good luck."
"Thanks," says Shura.
She gets white silks, for the walk across the Waste.
She is back a day later, unseparated, Nicoa huddled in her arms, to rest for a few days before trying again.
"What happens if we don't," Nicoa says, "what actually happens, why don't we know any witches who just never did?"