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Bella is allowing a book to be written about her. She's given plenty of interviews for shorter articles, but at this time she thinks she (and Slipstick thinks she) has the measure of this particular author well enough to expect even a book-length piece to be neither a hatchet job nor an inconvenient exposé. They are having regular meetings, in the journalist's home, talking about what Bella's willing to reveal about magic, the death date prior to which she won't resurrect anyone 'just yet', and the ground rules of Saturn.
Bella's personal life is, for the time being at least, personal. The author asks, but stays shut down when Bella shuts her down.
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bellfounding
tearingup
"I know, it's terrible, isn't it? I can and will do my best to stay away from him for my own sake, but I just don't have it in me to promise not to go near him again."
tearingup
He shrugs helplessly.
"I don't know. It's complicated. He was my best friend for a long time."
"I don't know. It's complicated. He was my best friend for a long time."
bellfounding
"I can forgive you for not telling me this time. If self-sabotage-by-means-of-Rayne becomes a habit I likely cannot emotionally afford to include you in my personal life."
bellfounding
"Isn't there anything I can do to help besides keep him out of this one little bubble? I could keep him off the entire planet. The ground rules would allow you to block him."
tearingup
"How do I..." he says, and trails off, and shakes his head. "My problem is that I can't trust myself around him. If I lock him completely out of my life with magic, that's not solving the problem. What I want to do is stop making such bad decisions when Rayne is involved."
bellfounding
"...That's fair. Do you have a plan on doing that, though?"
bellfounding
"I think - sometimes the best way to not make bad decisions about something is to make them in advance, in a way that doesn't invite later changing of mind."
bellfounding
"Well, in this case, if you want to not make bad Rayne-related decisions, and have no idea how to do that while he's actually in the room, you could decide to not be in the room with him, till you have that figured out at least."
tearingup
"How am I going to figure anything out without trying it? Not that I'm going to go looking for him, but..." He sighs.
bellfounding
"Well - the way I'd do it if it were me would be by thinking long and hard about exactly how he got to me. But I have perfect recall and when I didn't have that I had notes I'd taken about everything. Do you want perfect recall?"
bellfounding
"It replaces notebooks, for me. I can remember what I was thinking, and figure out what made me think it. But then, figuring out what we think and why we think it is a Bell thing and I don't think anyone else has successfully adopted our techniques."
bellfounding
"What does he even want with you still, besides the obvious, or is that it?"
tearingup
"He wants me back," says Ripper. "We were best friends, and if you ask him, we still are."