In Love's name and for Love's sake, I assert that I will employ the Art which is its gift in Love's service alone, rejecting all other usages.
I will spread joy and ease pain. I will fight to preserve what loves and rejoices well in its own way, and I will change no object or creature unless its joy and love, or that of the system of which it is part, are threatened.
To these ends, in the practice of my Art, I will put aside despair for hope, and hatred for love, when it is right to do so-- Until Universe's end.
Y/N
This is... not what he expected to wake up to. He has spent most of his life without purple screens filling his vision, and he did not expect this to ever change.
It's a nice enough oath. It's all very good things to want, and things he wishes he could do.
...He shouldn't make promises he cannot keep. (He is already failing at some very basic promises.) But a small stupid part of him wants to believe that clicking yes will somehow make him able to keep it--
--So he does.
Wen Ning
"The Wizard"
LVL: 1 (0 / 200)
Stats
BOD: 19 (+)
LUV: 15 (+)
SED: 2 (+)
ART: 4 (+)
NOV: 3 (+)
WIZ: 10 (+)
Stat Points: 5
Money: $10,000
Status Effects: Innocent Virgin
Description: Wen Ning is the shyest, meekest, most obedient, and people-pleasingest person you've ever met. All of the limited achievements he has made in his life are due to the intervention of his family, all of whom except his sister Wen Qing hate him. Giving him a sinecure at Wen Corp is less embarrassing than having a Wen who's a failure at food service. But by taking the Wizard's Oath, Wen Ning has chosen to pit himself against the forces of ennui, boredom, and despair. Fortunately, his compassion, inner strength and courage are second to none, and he has what it takes to save the world.
Spells
Wizard's Body (Lvl MAX | Passive): The One has taken away some of the inconveniences associated with most physical forms. You heal from all injuries with a good night's sleep, ready for the next day's adventures. Absent certain boons and quests, disease does not exist for you; neither do refractory periods, erectile dysfunction, lower back pain, headaches, windedness from excessive exercise, or insomnia. You can't get anyone pregnant unless you want to. Arbitrarily large items can fit into any of your orifices. You are in the 90th percentile for your age of all standard fitness assessments. Other aspects of this spell depend on the BOD stat.
Wizard's Mind (Lvl MAX | Passive): The mental flexibility and resilience you need as a wizard. You are more able to accept the realities of your new world. You are able to bounce back from painful, upsetting, or bizarre experiences with relative ease. Rape, assault, or other regrettable violent experiences can be anything from a recoverable trauma to a Tuesday afternoon, but it won't ruin your life. Other aspects of this spell depend on the LUV, SED, ART, and NOV stats.
Wizard's World (Lvl MAX | Passive): Your world has just gotten a little more... magical. People are never too preoccupied to think about pleasure or love when you're around. Bystanders won't ignore what you do, but they're unlikely to ever stop you. Those who do intervene will find themselves changed. If you go far enough that an authority sees no choice but to intervene... they won't treat you as a simple criminal. Other aspects of this spell depend on the WIZ stat.
Boon
In Love's Name and For Love's Sake: You are recruited and empowered to fight the Lone Power that invented ennui, indifference, jadedness, boredom, and cynicism.
Manual // Stats
LVL/Level: The quantified totality of your power as a wizard. The effects of this characteristic go far beyond the five stat points you get per level and the one boon you get per five levels.
BOD/Body: Your physical characteristics, including but not limited to your physical attractiveness. As BOD goes up, your body will be able to enact more exotic events.
LUV/Love: You should love everyone, and the One isn't averse to giving you a little... push. Don't worry, it'll start out at a level you can handle.
SED/Seduction: Your ability to seduce others, pique their interest and arouse their desire.
ART/Art: Your ability to give others pleasure... or other sensations.
NOV/Novelty: There are many sources of love and joy. This measures how many of them you understand.
WIZ/Wizardry: The extent to which the world will bend-- or be bent by you-- to create situations in defiance of probability. Or, at higher levels, physics.
Manual // Stats // Level
At LVL 1 and 0% progress to the next level, you're at the very beginning of your journey.
You can increase your level by completing quests offered by your manual or by spreading love and joy throughout the world. The more difficult the challenge, the greater the rewards.
Manual // Stats // Body
Your BOD of 19 makes you one of the most beautiful people in any room, as long as the room isn't in Hollywood and doesn't have Lan Wangji or Lan Xichen in it. Yes, really. You are going to have to start believing positive things about yourself.
You can increase this stat through exhibitionism and other acts which invoke the beauty and power of your physical form.
Manual // Stats // Love
Your LUV of 15 is proof that you can't get rid of your high desire for physical pleasure and joy by repressing it as hard as you can because preferences might make people mad at you.
You can increase this stat by experiencing urges towards pleasure that are unusually intense or go on unusually long.
Manual // Stats // Seduction
Your SED is not 1, because there are many people who try to entrance others through crude harassment or violent physical assault. That is about as much as can be said for your social skills.
You can increase this stat by arousing the interest and desire of others and successfully pursuing them or being caught.
Manual // Stats // Art
You are earnest, enthusiastic, and eager to please. But your ART of 4 shows that there's only so much that wanting to make other people happy can make up for lack of skill.
You can increase this stat by developing your skills in bringing pleasure and joy to other people's lives.
Manual // Stats // Novelty
Your NOV of 3 is proof that you can avoid discovering which things bring you joy by repressing it as hard as you can because preferences might make people mad at you.
You can increase this stat by taking joy and pleasure in things you thought were painful or repulsive.
Manual // Stats // Wizardry
At a WIZ of 10, your world still mostly lies behind the dark cloud of the Lone Power. What happens to you may seem unlikely to others, but it won't break the boredom and bitterness they have about the universe... yet. Witnesses will reach for explanations other than magic, but they'll still notice the unusual events.
Manual // Status Effects // Innocent Virgin
Until you choose to lose your virginity, no one will force you to give it up.
Uh.
Um.
UM?????
...at least it is planning to help him achieve the preserving joy thing, seeing as it has made him a wizard? And it has a mostly accurate opinion of him which is... depressing, but at least it means it knows what it's in for. (He will agree that Lan Wangji is prettier than him. He is pretty sure he is not prettier than 90% of people. He is not in the top 10% of anything).
Also his virginity apparently matters? Is. Is he going to be spreading joy and love, uh, manually? (Even as a wizard, he's probably going to fail dramatically at that.) Hopefully the Lone Power that created ennui can be fought with... cake? He's never made a cake before but he's pretty sure it doesn't involve talking to people or getting them naked, so he might have a better shot at that.
So, LUV seems the most the most useful for his goal, but it's already one of his higher stats, so he probably shouldn't put point into it yet? Unless this is a game where you want to minmax. Hopefully it isn't. He was never good at those.
SED seems less useful if he plans to save the world through cake, but it is his lowest stat, so-- it gets two points, to bring it in line with ART.
He should probably put a point into NOV, too? He can be equally bad at most things that aren't being loving and pretty (supposedly.)
And that leaves two points for WIZ. It's one of his higher ones, but it looks pretty powerful? Seems like a good choice to be better at wizarding and get all the help he can get.
Agent X (1 point) (30 ≤ WIZ < 70)
When you come into contact with any intelligence agency of any nationality, they will immediately see you as prime fodder for willing recruitment (either as an employee or a contractor). This effect continues operating even if you are already working for one or more such agencies.
Animal Whisperer (1 point) (WIZ < 60)
Choose an animal family. You are extraordinarily skilled at handling (non-sapient) members of this family, and will experience yourself as being able to communicate nearly intelligently with up to (WIZ / 10) chosen familiars. At WIZ 40 you may grant your chosen familiars greater intelligence and other powers through the Familiar subskill of Bestow Ability.
Cal's Curse Compounded (2 fragments) (NOV < 60)
You may not have an orgasm without permission.
Once you plead with someone for permission you may not ask any other person besides them for one month. Each plea resets this timer. The permission-giver must know the rules of this curse; must know that you deliberately invoked this curse upon yourself; cannot otherwise be subject to your commands; and cannot be offered any non-sexual incentives for their response. They may choose to permit a ruined orgasm rather than a full orgasm. The permission-giver may give conditional permissions, including requiring you to obtain the further permission of others. Permission may be revoked at any time. You cannot lie to the permission-giver about any matter relating to your denial. You can try to remain silent, if you think you can get away with that.
All game skills relating to orgasm denial, whether of yourself or others, have zero energy cost.
Chaser 6 When. (1 point) (WIZ < 70)
You can have WIZ/2 independent selves running at once. You have access to all of your selves' memories and experiences, but actions taken by one self will never distract a different self.
Cinnamon Roll (1 point)
Triple all positive effects to others of having sex with you.
Curse of Dresden (1 point + 1 fragment) (SED < 80)
The first time you make full eye contact with someone, you learn which desires they have most embarrass them.
Curse of Tattletale (1 point + 1 fragment) (SED < 80)
Whenever anyone within visual range has specific sexual thoughts about you, you know what they are thinking about.
Dark Side (1 point)
At will, cause your eyes to turn visibly bloodshot or revert to normal. At WIZ 40+, you can opt to have your irises turn scarlet, and at WIZ 50+, your eyes can glow red.
Anyone witnessing this phenomenon is fully convinced that you are in the grip of an alternate personality, that your memories of a past life have assumed control, that you are lost in the demonic side of your half-demon heritage, etcetera. To whatever extent this naturally motivates people to forgiveness, your primary self will not be held responsible for your dark side's shameless misdeeds.
Dath Ilan (1 point)
Your memories are replaced with the memories you would have had if you'd grown up in the world of dath ilan. Your NOV is reduced to 1, as most of the most... interesting... ways to seek pleasure are considered infohazards. Your SED is twice as high when you are lecturing about game theory. You are no longer able to use your SED score to notice when people are maintaining elaborate webs of deception around you. You are now outraged about statistical methodology, most economic regulation, video games, mosquitoes, and chairs.
Diplomatic Immunity (1 point + 2 fragments) (30 ≤ WIZ < 70)
Everywhere you go, the computers are firmly convinced you are the child of a high-ranking diplomat from an important allied country. Police officers may stop you (possibly even using violence, if they catch you in the middle of something they really want to stop) but you are never arrested, never charged, and will never go to jail.
Enter the Wired (1 point) (45 ≤ WIZ < 80)
You may physically enter the Internet.
Everyone Knows (2 fragments)
People who spend time in your presence begin to form correct intuitions about your deepest desires, at least the parts their minds would willingly comprehend. They won't expect others to know too, but they will be sure of their own beliefs. This process is especially quick for any desires that currently embarrass you. It is extremely quick for desires that currently embarrass you and that interest the other person to fulfill.
Everywhere Erogenous (2 fragments) (LUV < 40)
There is no area of your body that cannot be used to stimulate you to orgasm, though this may still take time and work to do through your elbow.
Fairy-tale Masochist (1 point) (LUV < 50)
You will now enjoy and appreciate any intensity of physical torture, with zero warmup.
Grandmaster of Non-Demonic Cultivation (1 point) (45 ≤ WIZ < 75)
Receive 4 doses of Body-Tempering Elixir and 4 Qi Pills, enough to get you started. Dantians are now a thing. Warning: Wei Wuxian will be unable to resist the urge to invent an evil form of cultivation. The One makes no promises about whether you will wind up a sapient fierce corpse.
Home Base (1 point)
You possess an upgradeable fortress home, initially small and bare, but expandable through the infusion of money, certain offerings, or the completion of various quests. Electricity, water, and Internet access are always provided. Your home initially has an unobtrusive outlet in whichever part of your local territory is most useful to you. Further outlets may be added with underground expansion, or at higher WIZ, portals.
You may designate small personal areas within your base as not being invadable. You may place vulnerable family and friends in this area, and personal mementos. You may not use it to store prisoners, treasures, or objects of power.
Home Office (2 fragments) (WIZ < 50)
No matter how many times you skip work, you will not get fired.
Idol (1 point) (30 ≤ SED) (20 ≤ BOD)
You gain the talent that will let you to learn how to compose music and lyrics. Singing and performance is already based on SED.
All other aspects of becoming famous---such as actually practicing, assembling a band, and impressing, seducing or blackmailing producers---are up to you; but you will encounter good opportunities.
I'm Not Explaining This Again (2 fragments) (SED < 70)
After you have carefully, painstakingly, thoroughly explained a concept related to love, joy, or pleasure at least once (polyamory is not cheating, that is not where a clitoris is, there is nothing wrong with watching cartoons as an adult, how to cook delicious food that fits a person's dietary restrictions), anyone else you meet will understand it after only a couple of sentences.
In Nomine Status Quo (1 point)
Once per level you may roll against your WIZ*2 to have something undo the long-term consequences of an event perturbing your personal existence. You discover blackmail material you can use to get the prosecutor to drop the charges; your best friend forgives you for that nasty fight; you suddenly discover a new, better apartment if you're being evicted; your one-night-stand turns out to be a millionaire who pays off the incurred debt. Your chance of success when using this perk cannot exceed 90%, but you can still try to salvage the situation by ordinary means if it fails.
This perk may be used any number of times, without counting against the once-per-level limitation, to try to undo any addition or removal of a suitor in your love dodecahedron.
Home Office is tempting, but 'hiding from work because the experience is equal shame-producing and terrifying' is maybe not the most loving response. (Though he's not really sure what this thing counts as 'loving'. It seems to have some specific idea, but maybe that's just how other wizards specialise?)
Him becoming an idol is just laughable. Even if maybe it would be a good way for other people to spread love?
In Nomine Status Quo sounds nice, though.
Indubcon (1 point)
Your best guess never turns out to be an overestimate in regards to how much somebody wants you sexually, or feels okay about having sex with you, or is enjoying having sex with you, or is into some particular fetish.
I See You (1 point) (WIZ < 80)
You are able to perceive, remember, and communicate with anything that would ordinarily be undetectable by you, be misperceived by you, or slip out of your memory.
James Bondage (2 fragments) (ART < 50)
You are a master at tying people up. Your ties never cause unintentional pain, never come loose accidentally, and can be applied in less than 5 minutes, including to an unwilling subject who is otherwise being held down or restrained.
Legoland (1 point + 1 fragment) (50 ≤ WIZ < 90) (ART < 100)
You can detach body parts from their original holders, and then attach them to other people or just take them with you. People with parts attached receive sensations from that part. All sensations experienced by a part continue to flow to that part's original owner, unless an alternative part has been attached to the empty slot on the original owner's body. The usual functions of a part become unnecessary to the person while their part is detached. Detached parts temporarily acquire the protection of your Wizard's Body spell. Victims of this spell may take back and reattach their own parts if they can find them, but only to that part's original location on their body.
Examples:
- Removing Alice's hand and attaching Bob's foot to her wrist will cause both Alice and Bob to receive sensations from that foot.
- Further attaching Carol's ear to Bob's leg means that only Alice is still receiving sensation from Bob's foot.
- Instead attaching Carol's ear to Bob's thigh would mean that Bob is receiving sensation from both his detached foot and from Carol's attached ear.
- You can go on attaching additional parts to Bob so long as he has remaining exposed flesh. You cannot stack parts.
- Removing any non-native parts from Bob means that Bob immediately stops receiving input to them.
- Tiling Bob in clits and tossing him into a vibrator pit is not advised if you want to keep him sane.
Library of Sodom (1 point) (ART < 40)
You automatically know any detail of abstract knowledge that you want or need about any generally pleasurable activity that has been described in public writing. For example, directions for how to tie a shibari knot, that one ought to avoid striking the kidneys with a flogger, how to give a good massage, how to make bread, the chemistry of the Maillard reaction, how scansion works, themes of the works of Naomi Novik, and common techniques to solve recreational math problems. This knowledge does not convey skill.
Indubcon is so tempting. He could just ASK people, and know they would be fine with it... which is why he probably shouldn't take it. Too selfish.
Library of Sodom seems pretty powerful and useful, actually. Even if it doesn't give skill, knowing is half the battle is useful. He should put it up the top of the list of 'probably useful boons.'
Like Uber for Costumes (1 point + 1 fragment) (60 ≤ WIZ)
If you can find any manufactured fetish clothing (not a one-off creation, and you must not have been involved in inspiring it) that corresponds to a profession, you can act with the full skill of that profession while wearing that clothing. For example, using firearms while dressed as a sexy soldier. Clothing relevantly counts as fetish clothing if you want to wear it and feel embarrassed by this desire.
'Little Death' Note (1 point) (50 ≤ WIZ < 70)
The human whose name is written in this Note shall orgasm. Details of how the orgasm shall appear must be written in the next 6 minutes and 40 seconds.
Look Who's Having Fun (2 fragments) (LUV < 40)
Your pleasurable response to compatible stimuli is unhindered by other aspects of a situation that exceed your NOV. This does not alter other psychological impacts of situations exceeding your NOV.
Mad Inventor (1 point) (30 ≤ WIZ < 70)
You can create devices whose functions correspond to many wizardly spells and effects. These devices cannot be mass-manufactured, but can be loaned to others. You must wear steampunk goggles while wielding this perk.
Mad Scientist (1 point)
Your powers give you the ability to test hypotheses that conventional science cannot or will not investigate. Use all spells at double their base level whenever you are primarily seeking general knowledge. (Extracting the location of an enemy base does not count as 'general knowledge'.) You must wear a sexy lab coat while invoking this perk.
...he has probably sworn to be a sex wizard. This may be something resembling a mistake.
Too late now.
Though at least the fact he's embarassed by the idea of wanting to wear nice clothes could probably hacked to make him better at things? All at the low, low cost of wearing clothes he is embarassed at wanting to wear. ...
Meguca (1 point) (WIZ < 65)
You're a magical girl! Well, more magical, anyway. Let's be realistic here, you were probably going to serve time in a costume sooner or later. This perk gives you a head start and some extra freedom of choice over styles of fightable monsters and beautiful clothing.
If you are currently male, you may optionally opt for your transformed self to be a boy. Don't expect any fewer sparkles.
Mom/Dad (2 fragments)
Your horrible, abusive parent is replaced by a helpful, loyal parent who will not interfere with your wizardly business. You may opt to keep your memories of the old parent, or simply remember a happier childhood, in which case you will gain a small, unimportant additional starting perk and not remember that this true perk exists or that you selected it. You may also opt to retain the ability to tell this new parent about wizardry.
If you have an additional absentee parent or awful step-parent, they are replaced by a corresponding kindly parent who is dead due to a random accident. This operation leaves your family's finances unchanged.
Naked Before Me (1 point) (ART < 70) (WIZ < 80)
You may touch people as if their clothing and your clothing did not exist. Onlookers not clued in see your hand, shoe, or head resting quietly in the corresponding place---lewd, perhaps, but not obscene---and do not hear any sounds directly produced by the sex act, though they still hear other sounds made by your victim. Similar acts may be performed on you, including by accident.
No Comparison (2 fragments) (WIZ < 50)
Those who have experienced a relationship with you do not think to compare their past or future experiences to the ones they had with you. This perk applies retroactively to people you had a relationship with in the past and heals any prior psychological damage they have taken, but does not repair any of their relationships that have already broken.
Non-Excludable Public Good (1 point) (45 ≤ WIZ < 70)
The world treats your orifices as unsecured wifi. Nobody considers it odd for anyone to do anything to you at any time or place.
Omnisexual (1 point + 1 fragment) (LUV < 80)
You can at will decide to be sexually and/or romantically attracted to any person, or body type, or personality characteristic. This perk cannot remove attractions you would otherwise already have, nor does it expand your fetishes.
Perfect Sadist (1 point) (ART < 40)
Inflicting pain on others, no matter how severe, never causes any permanent damage you did not intend.
Perfect Subbing (2 fragments) (SED < 80) (WIZ < 60)
You can at will perceive subtitles in your native language for all speakers whose voice you can hear, and subtitled translation for all foreign-language texts. This does not enable you to speak or write other languages.
PhD in Social Circle Management (1 point)
Those among people you care about who would otherwise be hostile to each other tolerate one another's presence. This perk does not bypass quest-related challenges or produce actual friendship.
Pon Farr Lightning Round (2 fragments) (WIZ < 60)
You must have sex at least once per day with someone you find attractive. In the unlikely event of failure to meet this deadline, you could experience increasing levels of fever, sensitivity, mania, fatigue, fugue, loss of self-control, or stat bonuses.
Anyone you tell about this will believe you completely and see it as a mundane medical condition, regardless of what further opinions they form as a result. Nothing forces you to be truthful about whether you have already had sex that day.
By paying 1 full point you may take this as a boon refundable at WIZ 70, in which case this medical condition is becoming common across the world.
Prize (1 point)
Seven interesting people from around the world learn your identity, along with the true fact that whoever wins your heart will gain tremendous power.
Not Right Now You Don't (2 fragments) (BOD < 50)
Your anus no longer functions as an excretory vent in addition to its other uses. You simply never need to go to the bathroom for number two. Your sensitivity to other stimuli including enemas is unchanged.
Real Scientist (1 point) (30 ≤ WIZ)
Your unusual experiences have given you insight into open questions about the world, leading you to form new testable hypotheses. You instinctively understand experimental methodology and statistics. So long as you report your outcomes honestly, other scientists will discuss your results seriously; and overlook your lack of credentials along with any questions about the morality or possibility of your experiments.
If you simultaneously hold the perks Mad Inventor, Mad Scientist, and Real Scientist, you become able to develop reproducible technology, including the experimental apparatus required for others to further investigate and extend your discoveries. An actual PhD in a scientific field, acquired the hard way, can substitute for the Real Scientist perk in this trinity.
Secure, Contain, Protect (1 point)
You are a magnet for any person or sapient entity with a significant chance of producing global catastrophe. They will inevitably cross paths with you and seek out your companionship.
Shapeshifter (1 point)
You are able to shapeshift into a different form. Under the light of a full moon, you may shift in or out of your second form. Your second form may gain up to 40 additional stat points, distributed by you among BOD, SED, ART, and WIZ at the time of choosing this perk. You may not put more than 10 of these points into WIZ, or more than 20 of these points into any other stat. Your second form also gains both NOV and LUV each equivalent to half the total points you have so distributed, rounded up. Your shapeshifted form looks different from you and no one will connect the identities unless you tell them.
Something About Marry (1 point) (30 ≤ WIZ < 70)
You may at will choose to have been betrothed to someone as a child. The evidence for this betrothal may be discovered all at once or revealed gradually. Warning: Overuse of this perk may result in the results of overusing this perk.
Soulbond (1 point + 2 fragments) (True ≤ Love)
If your love for someone is true, and they return that love, this perk creates a symmetrical emotional and telepathic bond between your soul and theirs, which will deepen over time if your love stays true. Both sides of the relationship are automatically protected as if by True Love Conquers All.
Failure of this bond does not refund the perk and may have psychological consequences. Consider staying married for a couple of centuries first.
This perk may be taken more than once.
Subspace Explorer (2 points) (100 ≤ WIZ)
In certain altered states of consciousness, you can travel within it across vast distances of probability and possibility to visit other worlds. All alien societies connected can put you in a similar form of altered consciousness, ensuring that you can always return home.
Tastes Like Chocolate (2 fragments) (BOD < 50)
Freely control the taste and scent of any of your bodily fluids, so long as the result is more pleasant than the human norm.
Terminal Moe (1 point) (WIZ < 70)
A doctor diagnoses you with a fatal disease, giving you three months left to live---maybe two, maybe four. Your remaining lifetime is uncertain, but it won't be long now. Your occasional hospital stays are brief and painless, leaving you looking wan, sad, and beautiful in your hospital bed. Sometimes you get a piece of medical good news, giving you a little more time in which to say goodbye and experience all the things you never had a chance to do. No matter how long this continues, no one ever notices that the doctor always gives you around one more month of lifespan per month.
You may at will have a remission or relapse of your Terminal Moe.
To Boldly Go (1 point + 1 fragment) (ERO < 85)
You somehow get your hands on a starship, enabling you to visit nearby star systems and meet the many interesting life forms to be found there.
Transsexual (1 point + 1 fragment)
At will, but at most once per level, change to have been born male, female, intersex, or exotically gendered. This is a conceptual shift of world/self and gives you access to distant-feeling memories of having previously lived as your new sex. Some romantic relationships may shift to become friendships in the new world, as not all other people's sexual orientations may be easily reselectable in the target history. You cannot change to be exotically gendered while your WIZ is under 35.
True Love Conquers All (1 pt + 2 fragments)
If you love someone enough, nothing can ever permanently separate them from you. The only exception is their wishing to leave you---deliberately, voluntarily, and based on correct information. This applies to any type of love, not just romantic love. If you would undergo hardship and sacrifice to protect someone, if losing them would leave a scar on your heart that never fully heals, then in time you will always be reunited.
This perk retroactively includes everyone you have previously lost, but still love. If somebody you love is already dead (e.g. a beloved parent or grandparent), taking this perk automatically begins the Timeheart quest to revive them after your WIZ reaches 50.
Trust (1 point)
Whenever somebody honestly tells you that they love you, or like you, or admire something about you, or shows trust in you by confessing a truth to you that they would not tell others, you know that they mean it.
Urban Legend (1 point)
For any identities you maintain besides your primary legal identity, their existence never becomes common knowledge.
This boon does not interfere with first-order knowledge: People may readily observe or tell trusted others about the boy who disappeared into thin air while they watched. However, everyone believes unshakably that 'most people' would be as contemptuously skeptical of your existence as of an alien abduction. No one would ever dare talk about you in public as if they believed in you. It is possible for large populations to all be subject to this effect simultaneously, e.g. if you are seen on national television.
United Federation of Planets (1 point + 1 fragment) (requires To Boldly Go)
While roaming about in your starship, you discover a larger galactic community. First Contact is initiated between Earth and their ancient, sophisticated, incredibly jaded civilization.
Utility Monster (1 point)
Your experiences are a trillion times more important than the experiences of those around you.
What Are You Doing Here (2 fragments) (ERO < 80)
You can always find anyone you have previously kissed. All your attempts to be admitted to the school, bluff your way into the military base, pretend to be a hospital nurse, etcetera, have triple the likelihood of succeeding. Unless you otherwise blow your cover, nobody else takes your target or any other prior acquaintances seriously if they protest your being there.
What Dreams May Come (1 point + 2 fragments) (30 ≤ ERO)
You know when someone begins to fantasize about you, and know in approximate terms what they currently intend to fantasize. You may choose to enter their fantasy and gain control of your analogue-self within it, experiencing the events as real.
You may gain skill, stats, experience, and energy within the fantasy. You retain all knowledge you learn within the fantasy. Physical changes to your body or equipment do not carry over to reality. Only as much subjective time passes for you as passes for the fantasizer. This event takes place alongside and parallel to your main existence and does not interrupt it, but you cannot participate in more than one fantasy at a time.
You only have what capabilities the fantasizer acknowledges you as having. The fantasizer does not notice anything unusual about your behavior within their fantasy, no matter what you choose to do or say. You may not exit such a fantasy until it has terminated. This perk only works on fantasizers unaware of its existence and on fantasies you have not deliberately influenced.
Wizard Alone (1 point + 1 fragment)
At present, you are the only wizard on the planet Earth. (If you take To Boldly Go, you will meet other wizards in your adventures.) Wizard Alone allows other people of suitable mind to take the Wizard's Oath and begin to make the world a more delightful place. By default, all of your friends, allies, and companions will receive an option to take the Wizard's Oath.
Wizard's Inventory (2 fragments) (WIZ < 60)
Any portable items relevant to your work as a wizard that you legally own can be summoned by you at will, and dismissed at will to return to its former location. If your WIZ is under 50 and you are being observed, you must summon items to inside an unobserved container, or otherwise maintain deniability.
Wizard's Travel (1 point) (WIZ < 80)
At a moment of peak physical pleasure, you can teleport to any other point where you truly and sincerely long to be. (Without To Boldly Go, this will not permit you to visit aliens.) While your WIZ is less than 50 you must not be observed at the moment of vanishing, and any others present at the destination will happen to be looking away as you materialize, though they will be looking back very soon. At WIZ 50+ you may take along any number of people if you are causing peaks of physical pleasure in them as well.
You Couldn't Help Yourself (2 fragments) (SED < 60) (WIZ < 70)
Anyone who views a picture of you will sincerely not blame another person for having had sex with you, including the monogamous partners of those you have seduced.
You Didn't Hear That (2 fragments)
Once per level you may retroactively decide not to have said something. This perk only applies to utterances made while you were your current level.
Yousexual (1 point + 1 fragment) (SED < 50)
In addition to their normal sexual and romantic orientation, everyone is additionally sexually and romantically attracted to you. (This is in potential, and will not cause distress if you choose not to pursue it.)
Quest available: Sweet Twenty-Four and Never Been Kissed
Get your first kiss from someone you want to kiss.
Success: 250 xp; +1 SED
Failure: ????
Accept now? Y/N
Quest available: All You Need Is A Light Jacket
Be taken out on a nice date by someone that you want to have take you out on a date. They should plan and pay for the entire experience, so all you have to do is show up and enjoy it.
Success: 250 xp; new Ally
Failure: ????
Accept now? Y/N
Quest available: Secret Admirer
Figure out who has been in love with you since you were twelve years old.
Success: 2000 xp; new Ally
Failure: Your secret admirer continues to be a kissless virgin.
Accept now? Y/N
Quest available: Firm Boundaries
Identify at least three ways that people currently treat you that you would prefer that they not treat you. For a period of at least two weeks, when people treat you that way, calmly ask that they stop, then if they continue remove yourself from the situation.
Success: 500 xp
Failure: 'Pushover' status effect
Accept now? Y/N
Quest available: Preferences
Ask a stranger for a mildly inconvenient favor. It must be a favor you genuinely want.
Success: 100 xp
Failure: 'Pushover' status effect
Accept now? Y/N
Quest available: Some People Have Really Abusive Parents
Go a period of at least two months without your parents being cruel to you.
Success: 500 xp; ??? relations with parents; increased relations with Wen Qing
Failure: increased relations with parents
Accept now? Y/N
Quest available: My Sister Knows Everything About Me
Tell your sister you're a wizard.
Success: 100 xp; new Ally; increased relations with Wen Qing; begin ??? quest
Failure: 'Lonely' status effect
Accept now? Y/N
Quest available: The Way To A Wizard's Heart
Fine. You can save the world with cake if you want to. Bake a cake, and give slices to at least eight people, one of whom must be sad.
Success: 50 xp
Failure: A messy kitchen
Accept now? Y/N
This is... A lot.
He has a secret admirer(???) and he's said admirer's only option(???????). 'Knows him since he was twelve' narrows it down, but that's still quite a few people. (Also he stuttered even more when he was twelve and was just worse at talking to people, so someone picking him when he was twelve says something about their standards.)
Unfortunately the easiest one gives the least xp, which makes sense... And also his purple wizardly companion(?) doesn't seem to like it much.
Okay, go through the logically. Some of these quests involve him doing things, and others involve other people doing things. Other people doing things looks easier-- he doesn't have to do it!-- but. He'd have to convince them to do it. Somehow. Him doing things is terrifying but at least he can force himself to do it sometimes.
...He should tell Wen Qing. She should really know, anyway, even without the quest rewards? But also if he's having a psychotic break, she's probably the person who would be the best at noticing that and making good decisions about it.
He selects 'Y' and rings his sister.
"See you soon," and he hangs up.
So this is happening. ...at least 'schizophrenic' is an interesting new way to be the family disappointment?
...technically it did claim that he had magic powers, and he can test some of those claims. Testing the healing factor would be a bad idea because a) what if it isn't real and b) it would take awhile to check and c) it would look super alarming to anyone who saw it, ie his sister.
But mouths are an orifice. And he had a fairly good idea of what could fit in it yesterday.
The consequences of 'tried to fit whole hand in mouth, failed' are... Not good, but not that bad either.
So he tries that.
He can in fact fit his entire fist down his throat. It doesn't hurt or anything, and he's not gagging or nauseous. He feels a little stretch, a pleasant sort of full sensation.
The purple boxes are silent on why they thought this was one of the most important magic skills for him to develop right away.
Okay, so that's a thing.
1. Good news: he's a wizard, and not crazy.
2. That is exactly what someone who had lost all of their marbles would think.
3. HE'S A WIZARD NOW AND HAS TO DEAL WITH IT.
(Making him the only sex wizard in the world was a bad plan, but probably not a worse plan than making him the only wizard full stop? Or at least that's his best explanation for why he now has orifices of arbitrary size.)
"I didn't think you were psychotic before, I have no reason to believe you're psychotic now. I've seen many psychotic people in my emergency room and you don't have any of the signs I'd expect. And you have magic powers. --Why did it decide to teach you the spell to put your arm down your throat first."
"N-not much?" Which neatly answers both questions. "I'm more mentally resilient as well as physically, and my third spell is basically 'you are magical.' As is my one boon, which is separate from spells in a way I'm not clear on. If I do quests given to me by the thing that gave me magic, I can earn more boons? I could chose to become a shapeshifter or have limited telepathy or things like that. Also I have stats now, but I think the magical thing is that I know them objectively, not that I have them?"
He is eventually going to stop startling when those purple boxes appear. Goodness that's a lot XP.
And also a very bad failure state.
"There is a boon for that I can take when I earn one? ... also I just got a quest that implies I can do that without the perk, but it's vague on the... how..."
In Love's name and for Love's sake, I assert that I will employ the Art which is its gift in Love's service alone, rejecting all other usages.
I will spread joy and ease pain. I will fight to preserve what loves and rejoices well in its own way, and I will change no object or creature unless its joy and love, or that of the system of which it is part, are threatened.
To these ends, in the practice of my Art, I will put aside despair for hope, and hatred for love, when it is right to do so-- Until Universe's end.
"It really doesn't say much about making you a wizard, just that it's a possibility.
What it wants from the quests and the boons seem different? It wants me to have boundaries and find a secret admirer, and maybe bake a cake but I think it would rather I didn't?
The boons seem, more... focused on a very specific kind of joy."
"Joy seems like a pretty good thing to want?" He pulls up the quest menu.
"I have a quest for kissing someone, to go on a date someone else has organised, find my secret admirer, ask people to treat me more nicely, ask someone for a favour," he's skipping the parents one, for lack of a good way of summarising it, "tell you I'm a wizard, make you a wizard, and give cake to sad people."
Quest available: Even The One Doesn't Dare Disobey Wen Qing
Get a therapist. You must feel comfortable talking to the therapist and sharing your innermost feelings with them. (You do not have to tell them about being a wizard.) They must give you genuinely useful advice and not advice which is aimed at a slightly different person than the one you are. You should attend at least ten sessions.
Success: 150 xp; improved coping skills; the One has increased relations with Wen Qing
Failure: Unlock Rage Against The Psychiatric System quest
Accept Y/N
A quest will generally not automatically fail if you deprioritize it for a while. If a quest has a time limit, the time limit is a feature of the world, not the quest, and failing to accept it will not give you more time in which to complete it. No currently active quests have time limits. However, if you accept a quest, you commit to doing it at some point; if you do not ever do it, eventually the quest will fail.
"I could wait and prioritise other things as long as there isn't a time limit, but the time limit isn't a feature of the quest as much as-- if I had a 'Make John Doe happy' quest, and he's in town for a week, that would be time limited. If I don't do it for long enough, it will count as failed."
"I think it should have a to do list. So that you can keep track of all the things you're supposed to do and don't have to rely on scrolling through the absurd number of quests it gives you. --I suppose sometimes it doesn't want to tell you what the next action is but it's omniscient, it can track what your plans are at least."
You are now under a status effect! Your sister's actions have put you under the status effect 'Your Sister Fears Neither God Nor Man.'
Manual // Status Effect // Your Sister Fears Neither God Nor Man
When Wen Qing makes a feature request for the manual, the manual will at least seriously consider it. If she chooses to argue with the universe itself, it may also have... interesting... effects. If Wen Qing successfully causes the world to become more magical via reasoned argument, it will increase WIZ.
Manual // To Do List
[] Finish talking to your sister about being a wizard.
Enter to do list item: __________
"I just looked at the quests in the 'Others' category so far. It seems a bit early to try and do things in the 'World' category, and I don't want to try 'Ordeal' until I have a better idea what it is.' And picking 'self' would be selfish. 'And I decided to look at the 'self' category later."
Quest available: Haunted by the Duolingo Owl
Study the wizardly Speech until you can use it fluently to cast spells and communicate with nonhumans.
Success: 4,000 XP, Further Adventures of The Duolingo Owl quest
Failure: Severe limitation in your abilities as a wizard
Accept Y/N
Quest available: Everything Can Talk
Perform the meditation that the Manual will provide once you have accepted this quest, thus developing the frame of mind in which you can communicate with nonhumans. Communicate with at least three nonhumans.
Success: 250 xp
Failure: Severe limitation in your abilities as a wizard
Accept Y/N
Quest available: Everything Can Talk, But Some Things Are More Helpfully Talkative Than Others
Horses, marine mammals, and trees are all sapient. Talk to one member of each group.
Success: 350 xp
Failure: No idea what a tree would tell you if it could talk
Accept Y/N
The manual has helpfully popped up a box with a meditation description and a box with a language learning program, which he can easily dismiss.
In the Self category:
Quest available: Massage
Give yourself a nice self-massage.
Success: +100xp, Massage skill
Failure: Tense muscles
Accept Y/N
Quest available: Love Yourself
Normally you jerk off in five minutes because having a sexuality is embarrassing. To fulfill this quest, you must make at least a little bit of a production out of your masturbation session. Candles? Music? Making sure to select interesting pornography? Touching parts of your body other than your dick? Edging? Combining it with the Massage quest? Fantasizing about Wei Wuxian? Up to you.
Success: +100 xp, Driving A Manual skill
Failure: Mild sexual frustration
Accept Y/N
Quest available: Clothes Make The Wizard
Buy yourself some clothes that make you smile when you look at yourself in the mirror. (HINT: Wei Wuxian may be willing to help! You may also wish to google information about 'color seasons.')
Success: +100 XP, +1 BOD
Failure: 'Fashion Disaster' status effect
Accept Y/N
Quest available: A Wizard's Home Is Their Castle
Make your home a cozy, relaxing, inviting place where you love to spend time. (HINT: Pinterest.)
Success: +200 XP
Failure: 'Decorating Disaster' status effect
Accept Y/N
Quest available: Take Yourself Out On A Date
Plan a date you would like and take yourself on it. Try your best not to feel self-conscious about eating dinner alone in public. No one is watching you.
Success: +100 XP
Failure: The One will arrange for someone to take you out on a date and they will not take no for an answer.
Accept Y/N
Quest available: Reading Is Fundamental
Read ten books, or an equivalent amount of text in shorter-form writing, that you genuinely like. Poetry counts three times as much as prose, due to its density.
Success: +150 XP
Failure: 'Television Doesn't Necessarily Rot Your Brain' quest
Accept Y/N
Quest available: A Journey of Self-Discovery Begins With A Single Step
Find one new thing you like that you didn't know you liked before.
Success: +250xp, +1 NOV
Failure: ???
Accept Y/N
Quest available: Fun Is A Basic Human Need
Identify no fewer than ten things you genuinely enjoy for their own sake and not to make other people happy. Make a plan to do one thing you enjoy each day. Carry out this plan for at least two weeks.
Success: +500 XP, +1 LUV
Failure: Your poor self-care harms you in your battle against the Lone Power
Accept Y/N
Self care now having high stakes is definitely not panic inducing at all!
"It wants me to learn to massage myself," SKIPPING THAT ONE, ER DOCTOR OR NOT "get nicer clothes, make my house nice, go out to eat," because phrasing that as 'take myself on a date' is too embarassing "read some books, find a new thing I like, and do something nice for myself." At risk of imperilling the world. No pressure.
It is so many things, but at least for some of them he'll have... maybe not a lifetime, but at least a year? to try and do them all. "That's probably a good plan. --I could bake a second cake for you to take into work?" He does not say 'because you are more likely to run into sad people.'
...He should check what the Ordeal is.
Quest available: The Ordeal
The Ordeal is a wizard's first brush with the Lone Power. Each wizard is a force for joy and love and pleasure in the world, and the Lone Power seeks to destroy them before their full potential can be realized. At its best, the Ordeal is the site of our greatest victories against the Lone Power. At its worst, people die. Not uncommonly, both occur.
In lieu of conventional success and failure criteria, the Manual presents the following advice: don't be afraid to make corrections. Don't be afraid to lend a hand. And don't look down.
This quest will begin automatically at WIZ 20.
... he has time. He can do these things one step at a time.
He can bake two cakes (and hope box mix counts for the quest) and study the Speech while they're baking.
And then he can take stock of what quests he can practically do, and the best order to do them in.
Time for some shaky definitely-not-panicked cake making!
A spell family has been created by a special action! Baking a cake has unlocked the spell family Cooking.
Info // Spells // Cooking
"Cooking" is a family of spells that makes your food, as it were, magically delicious.
Never Burns: Passive. Automatically reminds you when anything you're cooking is ready to be taken out of the oven, off the stove, etc.
Seasoning: Active. Gives the caster an intuitive sense for how to season their food in order to make it taste best. This skill only applies to spices, herbs, and similar, not to other factors that affect the taste of the food.
And there is a series of words, presumably in the Speech, that allows him to cast Seasoning, with a thing he can press to hear the pronunciation and footnotes he can tap on for descriptions of vocabulary and grammar and how the spell can be modified for various more specific purposes.
The manual pops up some boxes, almost as if it were being run by someone with brainfog who had totally forgot what they were supposed to be doing:
Quest complete! My Sister Knows Everything About Me
+100 XP
Increased relations with Wen Qing
No Greater Love Than This quest unlocked
New Ally!
Manual // Ally // Wen Qing
Wen Qing. She/her.
4119 Kerry Way, Bell Gardens.
562-806-6658.
wen.qing@gmail.com
Wen Ning's sister.
No relations with other allies.
Linked quests: My Sister Knows Everything About Me (complete); No Greater Love Than This (accepted).
+ Food preferences
+ Clothing preferences
+ Media preferences
+ Music preferences
+ Hobby preferences
+ Relaxation preferences
+ Sexual preferences
You know what: good on the One for making sure he doesn't know about his sister's sex life.
And now he can (objectively?) check what she likes to eat. ... At the risk of finding out he's completely wrong.
He puts the cakes in the oven (it's a bit of a game of Tetris to get them in.)
He should probably get started on learning the Speech. He opens up the menu.
There is a little owl mascot! The little owl mascot would like to teach him how to make various phonemes. The Speech, it turns out, uses every phoneme human beings are capable of making.
The owl mascot wishes to intersperse this with teaching him:
-Greetings and etiquette for various people he might encounter and wish to talk to.
-Emotion words.
-Food-related words.
The Speech is extremely detailed and makes a lot of fine distinctions, and it's also quite precise. There's something... correct, about its ontology. This is the way that emotions are actually divided up among humans; these are the terms for the categories of feeling that Wen Ning has. There are words here for feelings he's never quite been able to name.
The food-related vocabulary is just as precise but perhaps in a less revelatory way. It does make him hallucinate smells and tastes so he can learn the differences.
This is too many phonemes. He's in a fight with his own mouth to make the ǂ sound.
But it makes sense if there's so many words, and so many fine distinctions.
He's going to miss the words for emotions. There is going to be a conversation where he's really going to want to use them, but no one would know what he meant.
Well, that's very convenient. He could get used to this being a wizard thing.
He pulls the cakes out, and puts them on a rack to cool.
He should probably start strategising which quests to do and in what order. He pulls up the to-do list (thank you, Wen Qing). Learning the Speech would probably work best doing a little bit each day, and the quests based on that are going to have to wait on him knowing it more.
Going on a date with himself or someone else, getting fashion advice, and getting kissed might have to wait for the weekend. (He has a plan for the kissing one. It's a stupid plan, but he doesn't have a better one.
He wants to kiss Wei Wuxian. Wei Wuxian is the person he knows who would probably be convinced by "I want to practice kissing with someone I trust but don't have feelings for." Wei Wuxian would laugh, but in a "haha what a funny plan" way and not a "haha Wen Ning is laughable" way.)
His secret admirer may also have to wait for the weekend.
There is one quest that would be very easy to finish today. (...no pun intended.) The Love Yourself quest. ... People manage this all the time. He can do this. Even if it is incredibly awkward to imagine. And it feels mean to plan to fantasise about someone who isn't into him.
... The cakes are probably cool now. Those are less awkward to think about. Does Seasoning think he should do anything with the packet icing?
He can do that! And now he has two iced cakes, all ready for sad people.
... He probably shouldn't be looking forward to encountering sad people, as a wizard of joy? Even if he's planning to help them?
And he should stop procrastinating on doing the Literal Easiest Quest. First step: go into the bedroom. Second step: take his clothes off.
--he probably shouldn't feel awkward and exposed being naked in his own bedroom, but, well, here he is.
It would be yeah. And presumably people doing porn are okay with people... masturbating about them.
... Unless they are doing it because they need the money.
Okay, surely there are some people who are doing it for the, uh, love of the game, instead of being to.
Is "amateur porn" the words for this? Hopefully?
That is so many subreddits. Maybe he should have expected this many, but it is just so many.
He clicks and scrolls around a bit. (Holds his own cock and half pretends he isn't, focuses on just finding the most appealing image.)
He finds one of a cute Asian man who definitely bears NO RESEMBLENCE to ANYONE HE KNOWS grinning at the camera while showing off a hard cock.
...okay so 'Wei Wuxian posts naked selfies for the enjoyment of the internet' is not that surprising, but it is Something To See It Happen.
Though maybe that particularly kind of sleeve is more common than he thought? Maybe a bunch of programmers have it and he just hasn't stared at their arms.
He clicks through.
... The vines are a surprise. (He'd have to go to a tattoo parlour and ask for those, get mostly naked for someone to ink those, all so he could have vines next to his dick.)
He should click away. This is probably breaking some boundary or another. ...but Wei Wuxian took this photo deliberately. Put it up deliberately, knowing what people would probably do with it.
It's fine. He doesn't need to look away.
ONE DAY THAT WILL NOT BE STARTLING ANYMORE
... If the One thinks it's fine, thinks it makes him more loving, then it has to be fine.
It's not like he's ever going to know.
(He's definitely not picturing Wei Wuxian finding out and being totally fine with it, maybe even offering to show him in person--)
It's very nice of him to take that picture, so everyone who finds it can see him looking at them like that, like he's so happy and wants them so much.
Orgasm hits him hard. It doesn't feel that physically different, but it's different in his head. He feels relaxed but also like he did the emotional equivalent of trying to run a four minute mile.
Quest complete! Love Yourself
+100 XP
Driving a Manual spell
Manual // Spells // Driving a Manual
This family of spells aids you in pleasuring yourself and other people by touching their dicks, cunts, asses, or other more exotic arrangements.
Unerring Intuition: Active. If you know that someone intends to have sex with you, you can cast this spell to gain an intuitive sense of in what way they like their dick, cunt, ass, etc to be touched.
This is followed by some more words in the Speech.
You have leveled up! You have five unallocated stat points.
He's braced for the purple boxes this time.
This would be a very useful spell, if he ever had occasion to use it.
...he could increase his chance to use it by increasing his SED. He probably shouldn't put all of his points into it yet, he should leave some for WIZ-- except the sooner he levels WIZ, the sooner he faces the ordeal.
He grabs a penny. Heads, he splits his points between WIZ and SED; tails, he just puts it into SED.
It lands in heads.
He puts three points in SED and 2 in WIZ.
So he's actually going to have to go into work today. As a wizard. Who has seen one of his co-workers naked.
If anyone asks why Wen Qing called in sick for him... He's going to say she was worried he was concussed. That seems like a reasonable explanation, and hopefully people won't question why he is back after a day.
He gets dressed, eats a breakfast of several granola bars, and leaves early to drop one of the cakes off at Wen Qing's apartment, before heading in to Wen Corp.
There's lots of reasons he might be in the kitchen. Maybe he's making himself a cup of tea or something (and definitely not following him.)
Wen Ning is a master of neutral facial expressions-- or, well, slightly panicked facial expressions. But Wei Wuxian has no way to know it's because he has recently seen him naked or, uh, done anything with this information. "Hi, there is some cake."
Quest available: Security Professional Enrichment Activity
Bake a cake, put it in a dungeon, and protect it from Wei Wuxian with logic puzzles and that cool laser thing. (NOTE: WIZ 50 and/or Home Base are recommended before completing this quest.)
Success: 50 xp - 50,000 xp depending on the elaborateness of the dungeon; increased relations with Wei Wuxian
Failure: The cake is a lie
Accept Y/N
He would like points for not visibly startling at surprise screens only he can see.
... That is very much an action he could take. He could do that. And so far the One's quests have been Sensible Sister Approved ideas, so it probably wouldn't turn out too badly? He'll... Think about it.
Lan Wangji has just been standing there, saying nothing. He should make sure he's included in the conversation. "Do you, uh, have any plans?"
Quest available: Bags of Sand
Margot Dubbin is thirty-nine years old and her birthday is in three weeks. She's quite horny, but even gender ratios aren't that much in your favor if you can't maintain a conversation about anything except programming and early-generation My Little Ponys. Make sure she doesn't turn into a forty-year-old virgin.
Success: 750 XP, a birthday party invitation
Failure: A very sad birthday party invitation
Accept Y/N
... He's not entirely sure how to go about this. He is willing, as a virgin slightly more than half her age, to help a fellow traveler. He is very capable of smiling and nodding about My Little Pony. He's just not sure how to turn that into a solution to her problem?
He'll accept the quest, anyway. (And Lev's as well, why not.)
"Feel free to take a slice."
"I-I won't say anything about my password to make guessing harder." (He's working his way through 'Bullet With Butterfly Wings," except only every 6 months when the company computer system makes him change it.)
If he was a better person, he'd point out cross-team rapport might prevent you from sexually harassing someone in front of a member of HR, except said HR person is too shy to say anything.
Please do not sexually harass the HR person. This is not that. Any feelings about this are him being weird and Having Reactions around Wei Wuxian generally. He's pretty sure he means it non-sexually anyway (... How would it even be sexual?)
"Uhthankyou."
No one can notice he's turning bright red if he's fighting with the coffee machine.
"Oh, I just didn't know if we had plans, and then I was going to forget about them, and then at eleven you'd be like 'Wei Wuxian, what about the parcheesi, I wanted to play parcheesi' and I would be like 'oh shit we were GOING to do that.' --We shouldn't play parcheesi. I don't know what it is and am not entirely sure that it isn't some form of delicious snack."
And out of the office they go.
"The good idea is that I want to wear clothes the are less--" he gestures at himself and the Office Appropriate but Uninspiring button up and slacks "-- and you know how clothes work and you could give me advice."
Okay, Wen Ning, you can do this. "The bad idea is-- you know the thing I, uh, mentioned this morning. I want to empirically test it, and thought maybe we could uh, be kissing partners and try it out. At least once? The kissing, I mean." Behold the power of SED 7, and thank the mercy of the One that we did not see SED 2.
Quest complete! You have completed the quest 'Sweet Twenty-Four and Never Been Kissed.'
250 XP
+1 SED
Quest available: Lose Your Virginity
It's pretty simple! Touch someone else until you, they, or both come. Or multiple people if you're ambitious.
Success: +500 XP, improved relations with ???
Failure: 'Technical Virgin' status effect
"It's spreading joy magic?" he says as he fights his way out of his trousers and underwear. Technically the quest specified it as him taking the photo and it ending up on a GoneWild subreddit, but this presumably has to count?
He does his best not to look surprised and tense and like he just talked himself into it. He smiles. (That's easier. Wei Wuxian's smile is infectious.)
Quest complete: GoneWildSmilesWenNing
500 xp
+1 BOD
Online Presence unlocked
+1 WIZ for shapeshifting in front of your crush twice.
You have leveled up!
Manual // Online Presence
You earn 10XP each time somebody comes:
- While looking at a non-retouched picture or video of you.
- While listening and paying attention to your recorded voice.
- While reading an erotic story you wrote.
- While looking at an erotic drawing that you personally drew.
- While watching a hentai for which you provided at least one of script, storyboards, or voice acting.
- While playing a VR game whose models and motions were captured from you.
- While interacting with an AI that was programmed by you or trained on data you generated.
- While playing an eroge whose character routes feature you and your companions.Only one orgasm per session will be counted. Repeated edging or ruined orgasms may qualify depending on circumstances. Incentivizing orgasms (e.g. as mandatory supervised daily sessions within a territory you rule) reduces per-orgasm XP gains, but does not eliminate them. Promoting or advertising your online presence carries no penalty.
For details of how you are currently doing online, check Info // Online Presence // My Metrics. Advanced ad-free metrics can be unlocked by paying $5.99/month.
To unlock non-sex-related aspects of Online Presence, you may acquire a joy-spreading online presence in some other way.
Sentience, philosophical views ofAnd so on and so forth.
Speech among nonsentient beings
Panpsychism
Sentience, evolution of
Sentience, moral views on
Sentience, history of moral views on
Sentient species on Earth
Magic use and sentience
Speech grammar for referring to sentients
Etiquette for creatures of unknown sentience
The Harkness Test
This opens up to a lengthy chapter which explains, in summary, that primates, parrots, horses, marine mammals, and trees are people; mammals, birds, and members of some other species such as octopuses are sentient and can be usefully talked to with the Speech but are not as sophisticated as the ones that are people; and literally everything else can be talked to up to and including thermostats and the air, but in most cases they don't have anything very useful to say.
He can try that, even if that's a very vague instruction. He stands a reasonable distance from the tree. (Do trees have personal space?)
And he looks.
Wei Wuxian is fiddling with his phone, and Wen Ning is trying not to be too distracted by it.
The tree is more or less alone, surrounded by grass of an equally mysterious species. The side walk is covered with cracks from the heat and rain and being more trouble to repair than its worth.
It's quiet, but not silent. There's constant traffic noise, and wind rustling through leaves and making clotheslines creak. And intellectually, he knew things were never silent-- but it's something to realise how much sound he was ignoring.
And how much visual detail, too. Each clump of grass is unique, the same basic shape and parts arranged in infinite combinations, spreading out and out until it's an undefined whole but really it's all individual, unique pieces--
<<Yes. Pheromones, defense chemicals, entangling roots with each other... it was vicious.>> The tree's leaves shake. <<Some of us worried that you hairless apes would destroy the forests... which you did. But the ones who won knew that we don't have hands and can't build starships, and you are the only ones who can plant our children's children on strange soils.>>
Wei Wuxian is getting so cuddled. "It's not that sex focused? It's a balanced joy diet. -- It's kind of video game-y? I have quests and that gives me experience points to level up, and when I level up I can increase my stat points and get boons? Stat points going up is what you saw when I shape shifted."
New Ally! Wei Wuxian has been added as an Ally.
Manual // Ally // Wei Wuxian
Wei Wuxian. Any pronouns.
3745 Bombardier Way, San Francisco
734-985-9446
weiw@wencorp.com; suibian@gmail.com
Wen Ning's best friend and possibly-unrequited crush.
Relations with other allies:
-Wen Qing thinks he should make better life choices
Linked quests: Sweet Twenty-Four And Never Been Kissed (complete).+ Food preferences
+ Clothing preferences
+ Media preferences
+ Music preferences
+ Hobby preferences
+ Relaxation preferences
+ Sexual preferences
Wen Ning scootches away out of politeness, and is thankful he is still wearing his work clothes. (Even if he may regret this tomorrow.) "I-it's not that good at social niceties. Unfortunately." (Not that he is against platonic cuddling and kissing, but-- he is having to be careful not to look too disappointed. He really does appreciate their friendship. He's happy with not having more, he just... wants it.)
...four people seems kind of many, seeing as it's only been one night? Or maybe it's one person four times, but still?
He has ten stat points, and should probably do something with them. If he puts four of them into SED, he can finally be above average. ART and NOV can get three each, so they aren't lagging behind.
He is so prepared to have things held up to him, and is definitely very comfortable with him.
...It's a strange feeling, slowly developing actual opinions. Letting himself think about 'is this technically professional and does it fit me?'
He likes dark colours. He likes intense colours-- reds and black and deep purples. He likes patterns. He likes, and he hesitates to admit Nie Huaisang got him in one there, florals.
Of course it all depends on what passes the muster of the one person here who knows about fashion.
...so far the quests haven't lead him that astray. The risk is probably worth it.
He waits until they're both in a quiet part of the store. Speaks very softly. "I was wondering if, uh, you'd be willing to." Nope, he's never going to finish his sentence like that. "I would likeyoutosuckmeoffinthedressingroom."
"Some people like having power over other people, or having other people have power over them-- giving orders, pretending to force them into sex, that kind of thing. Some people like being hurt or hurting other people, like biting or whipping. Some people like pretending to be something they're not, like an animal or a rock star or a Catholic schoolgirl. Some people like group sex or sex in front of other people. Uh, what else... some people like being teased and then not allowed to come?"
A spell family has been created by a special action! Ferocious teasing by Nie Huaisang has unlocked the spell family Edge Riding.
Manual // Spell // Edge Riding
This spell allows you to stay near orgasm without going over. Go as near orgasm as you are ordered. Stay there. Drop down. Back up. Right to the ultimate edge. Down slowly, up slowly. Good Boy. Now repeat that until you're told to stop. In its ultimate form, this skill becomes the final mastery and control of your own distance from orgasm.
Edge Self: When invoked, no matter what happens, you will not be able to come for the next minute. (This spell may be cast by thinking the relevant words in the Speech. Try not to think them by accident.)
Quest available: Matchmaker, Matchmaker, Make Me A Match
Find Nie Huaisang a compatible, devoted boyfriend who will take care of all those scary and overwhelming things in life like "bills" and "taxes" and "health insurance."
Success: 1000 XP, new Ally, Matchmaking spell
Failure: ???
Accept Y/N
For the next week, the Manual doesn't much bother him with new quests and instead leaves him to work steadily down his list of currently open quests.
He gets a steady drip of XP from his naked picture-- ten one day, twenty another-- never very many but always there. Every day, there is at least one person masturbating to a picture of him.
It's not much, but it's a useful drip feed of xp. (Might even be worth taking more photos, assumimg it doesn't, uh, dilute his audience.)
He keeps working on learning the Speech. Writes a truly ridiculous number of emails trying to find a therapist with openings. Tries to hit two birds with one stone by going to a restaurant by himself and eating a food he hasn't tried before to see if he likes it. (He feels so clever for doing it that way, before realising it was... Just a normal and sensible thing to do.) (Kabak mücveri is tasty.)
The quest with the shortest timeline is Margot's, so it makes sense to prioritise. Over the course of the week, he even comes up with A Plan. ...it isn't a good one, but it sure is plan-shaped.
Step #1: Ask her out for a coffee date. Maybe multiple ones.
Step #2: At some point, try and steer things to one of their homes.
Step #3: Hope she initiates????
He just has to... Ask her out. He can do this. He has slightly above average seductive abilities and is sneaking towards Hollywood level sexy.
He goes to find her during Friday lunch.
"It's fine. It was nice talking to you, too." On the one hand, plausible deniability is more comfortable. On the other, it's, well, deniable. She likely does not realise this could be a date? Which isn't a problem, just maybe not what he expected. "Do you mind if I really with you to your... train? Car? Applicable transport?"
"See you soon!"
Okay, so his first attempt didn't work. In fact, it didn't work because of Operation Plausible Deniability. But, it didn't work in a way where Margot had a basically nice time and would probably be willing to hang out with him again. He has three weeks-- which isn't a lot of time, but he believes in himself.
He heads back to his apartment.
Manual // Spells // The Invention of Lying
Active. While under the influence of this spell, people will be unable to lie, either through omission or commission. People will tend to share salient aspects of their experience, even if it is socially inappropriate or embarrassing to do so. This spell does not prevent people from using metaphors or making honest mistakes; it does prevent them from writing fiction. At your current level of ability, spell duration is ten minutes, and people will be aware that their behavior is unusual. You may cast it on yourself.
"You're really pretty and I like you and I want you to think well of me. --Whoa this is weird and kind of freaky and I am not used to this level of self-awareness and really hate it. I think it was important to my psychology that I was zero percent aware of anything happening in my brain."
"See, now I'm scared that you don't like me after all and are just letting me down gently. Wow, I really hope that I'm safe to drive in this condition. I wonder if this spell makes everyone like this or if I'm just really ADHD. Do you think dolphins are assholes? I'm really scared that dolphins are actually assholes and our whole trip is going to suck. I think I've been in love with you since I was fourteen."
"I want to have sex with you? I'll remember everything you do for me, even though I forget lots of other things! You're great! I like you. I love you? I want you. I don't want to leave you. I-- whatever you. I want to have sex with you every day. At least once. I want to slam you up against the wall and kiss you-- uh, is one of these the right button to press here, which of these is the love confession--"
"Are you going to use me for sex now? I would totally consent to it but I would be secretly miserable the entire time and make a lot of jokes about how I'm a playboy who's using you for your body in order to hide my embarrassing longing for love. Probably I would kiss you on the forehead while you sleep and then refuse to admit to myself why I want to do that."
"I think you should drive and I should suck your dick on the road and then you will be too magic to die in a car accident. I've never sucked a dick before. Do you think I'm going to be bad at it? I'm worried I'm going to be bad at it. I've tried to suck my own dick but I'm not flexible enough and also I can't commit to an exercise program even if blowjobs are involved."
"You're not pressuring me." He has maybe been a pile of Wei Wuxian specific sexual frustration since the time they got distracted talking to a tree. Just maybe. "-- a bathroom could work? Or you could pull over somewhere." (It feels weird and uncomfortable being so forward without the manual egging him on. But Wei Wuxian probably feels weird and uncomfortable being compelled to tell the truth, so.)
Honestly that seems like a good strategy for the truth telling compulsion?
It's not like Wen Ning would do any better with Wei Wuxian's dick.
If it was someone else, it probably wouldn't work all that well. But this is Wei Wuxian, someone who he has wanted to touch him like this for years-- it's more effective than it probably should be.
... Again, he can't be lying regardless of how implausible that sounds, but wow Wen Ning is going to have to reevaluate a lot of things that happened in high school because of that new information.
Also it seems only fair if Wei Wuxian is compelled to tell the truth, he should also offer some of his own. "--I was, uh, pretty distracted that one year we both had the same PE class."
He remembers the collection very clearly. He rapidly flipped between Wei Wuxian trying to use them, trying to suppress that image because it was rude, and being fairly sure they weren't compatible with human anatomy. (At least you don't have to worry about tearing something if you can't even fit it in you?)
"I could. --Would you like to see that?"
Wei Wuxian is very easily distracted with regards to blowjobs as well. Whether you enjoy this blowjob depends a lot on whether you like establishing a consistent rhythm more than you like him getting distracted and playing with your balls or flicking his tongue over the head of your dick or looking up at you with big blown-out eyes while he rubs your dick against his cheek.
A spell has been unlocked by a special action! Fucking in public has unlocked the spell Don't Scare The Horses.
Info//Spell//Don't Scare The Horses
Passive. So long as you're trying to be discreet, no one will notice you doing sexual activities in public, provided they are not actively looking, sexually aroused, romantically entangled, or interested in participation. When you're doing sexual activities in private, there is a 1 * LVL% chance that, if a person who would enjoy walking in on you tries the door, it will turn out to be unlocked.
This is a very comforting thought if he ever needs to bring joy via bicycle riding. Or other kinds of riding.
He's working fifty percent on intuitive sense and fifty percent on copying what Nie Huaisang did to him, with an added dash of "I can fit arbitrary amounts of stuff in my mouth and I will take advantage of this."
A spell has been unlocked by a special action! Swallowing Wei Wuxian's come has unlocked the spell The Nectar!
Info//Spells//The Nectar
Passive. You gain benefits from consuming sexual fluids you have personally extracted from others. (With the Mad Inventor perk: sexual fluids extracted via machines of your own creation that you personally operate.) Every person's precious bodily fluids convey different potencies, hinted at by tastes and sensations you may learn to identify. Mixing synergetic sexual fluids yields greater results, but the fluids must be mixed in situ.
Info//Nectars//Wei Wuxian
A. If a system has been designed by an intelligent agent to keep you from doing something, you have an instinctive sense of ways to exploit unintended consequences, side effects, incorrect assumptions, and seemingly harmless failures in order to get an undesired outcome. (6 hrs)
B. ???
C. ???
...one of the awkward things about having conversations with Wei Wuxian is you never if you don't know why something came up because you were distracted and confused by yet more magic and missed something he said, or if he just said something that was a complete non-sequiter.
"W-what?" Because that's an appropriate response to both Wei Wuxian and the manual.
Some part of him thinks he should break all contact with Wei Wuxian lest he bother him somehow, but that part is kind of silly and Wei Wuxian is perfectly capable of telling him to shove off, so he's going to use his lap as a pillow. It's surprisingly comfy and warm. "I guess that could work for a children's movie?" He's going to have to say this out loud with his mouth words. "Also your come has given me temporary magic powers."
"'If a system has been designed by an intelligent agent to keep you from doing something, you have an instinctive sense of ways to exploit unintended consequences, side effects, incorrect assumptions, and seemingly harmless failures in order to get an undesired outcome.' And I can do that for six hours. So I can-- be a magical pen tester?"
...so, hindsight is 20/20, but he thought the maid costume was because Wei Wuxian wanted someone to be wearing a matching costume.
(He was too distracted at the time by a)Wei Wuxian wearing a maid costume and b) trying to blend in to the background while wearing a maid costume, to put two and two together.)
And his boyfriend will turn bright red at this. In a good way though.
He never expected it to feel so nice? Like, he knew that people did romantic things for reasons, and that pining for people sucked-- but he never expected being referred to as a boyfriend while Wei Wuxian clung to him like a spider monkey to make his chest feel warm and fuzzy.
If Wei Wuxian didn't want him attached at the hip, he maybe should have picked a different strategy.
And one day he will be able to make love to a dolphin. Not sure if that's a thing he's looking forward to or dreading. -- which probably says something about his current NOV.
"--it I had to pick, I'd probably pick the first one? They all sound fun... But with that one I'll know what I'm meant to be doing. You could-- knock me up and tell me how good I'm doing?"
That is... a lot of dildo. A truly ludicrous amount of dildo.
But he believes in his sex wizard powers. He is going to get that thing inside of him.
(And even if everything does go wrong, if they pick the right ER, it will not be maximally embarassing, because it is, at least, an actual dildo.)
Wow, this is heavier than he expected.
He takes a moment to arrange himself so he can actually get at himself and fit that in between his legs. ... And also so Wei Wuxian can see.
There is no reason to expect this to go wrong, he is a sex wizard and a relaxed one at that, but he still presses it in slowly. If it hurts, he can back off, and if he doesn't he keep going.
He's melting a little bit, and he's not sure how much of it is the compliment or the hairpets or the stupid amount of silicone inside him.
...and he works out what the hard thing to describe was as he fits more and more in it. It feels like finally having something that was missing, like he was meant to be filled like this the whole time and only just found out.
Apparently he can pre-empt quests? That's useful to know. Though having a boyfriend is much better. Boyfriends are the best. ...though if he hadn't got a quest for it yet, that implies that his secret admirer is someone else? ...Who else could it BE? That insoluble mystery can be a problem for future Wen Ning though.
He's still not ready for the Ordeal yet, but making more people be wizards would probably be more possible to solve with a higher WIZ, so he puts two point into that, and then 3 points into ART.
He's finally earned one.
...he could ask what Wei Wuxian thinks he should get, and he can guess the answer. But he can get 'A Wizard Alone' as a quest reward, once he figures out how to.
And as a wizard who spreads joy through-but-not-exclusively-with sex, well-- there's an obvious perk to help. If he's attracted to everyone, that makes it so much easier to be... there, so to speak, for anyone who needs him to.
He picks 'Omnisexual.'
Omnisexual is a fairly obvious effect.
Wen Ning sees that everyone-- the cashier, the other people getting breakfast, the guy driving too fast who almost ran them over while they walked to the bagel store-- is surrounded by a glow of love. He finds himself reaching for sympathetic explanations for their actions: probably the guy driving too fast was rushing to the emergency room, probably the person talking too loud doesn't know how loud her voice is. He feels safe around them: he knows they'd never really want to hurt him. He wants them all, very badly, to be happy. It is almost painful to think about the possibility that any of them might be hurt.
He feels an intense, bone-deep craving to reach out and touch them. Their faces are distractingly beautiful; he loses himself in thought staring at the cashier and almost forgets his bagel order. It's like the first week he saw Wei Wuxian, but with everyone.
It's a weird mix of convenient and inconvenient.
Before, intellectually he thought that all people were worthy of love, all individual equal sparks of humanity. But now the heart agrees with the head. He can feel it. Coffee Drinker #2 being upset about something is no longer an abstract problem.
... Though it something that he's now found himself a little bit put out that Coffee Drinker #2 is drinking from a mug instead of a takeaway cup, and so his name isn't written on it. How can I moon over your if I don't know your name, sir???
He's also now having to pay more attention to his face, so he isn't creepily sparkling at everyone, everywhere.
He plans what he's going to say on the way. She's going to be pretty happy about the self improvement stuff. She'd be interested to here about the tree and the dolphin, though he is maybe going to have to censor the dolphin a little. ...she is not going to approve of him dating Wei Wuxian, but he should probably mention it.
"Hello!" she says, looking up from her phone, when he gets to their favorite lunch place.
(She is beautiful. She is so beautiful. He wants to touch her and to kiss her and to fuck her all night long-- he loves her, he has always loved her, but there's a different flavor to it now, has her hair always been that beautiful in the light--)
Wen Ning's mind wanders off into a fantasy in which Wen Qing has desired him all along, secret and furtive and passionate, and she chooses this moment to come clean to him because she knows his new wizardly self will accept him no matter what, and she'll be so grateful for this self-modification he made, to love her--
"What are they like?"
Thank you brain. (He should fix this, but he isn't even sure if he can, and there's no way he can mess with the manual during conversation without it being obvious.) "Trees are surprisingly okay with being cut down? They want us to plant more, and take them into space when we go there, and are okay with being turned into paper as a trade for that? Dolphins... The one I met seemed to think his zookeepers were his pets, but he seemed pretty content."
It looks like he can do this more than once, which is good! It means his first attempt at fixing it doesn't have to be perfect.
He still wants to be attracted to nearly everyone, he values that glow of love.Good thing he recently learned negative clauses in the Speech. He still has to think about how to make the grammar work, but he can do it.
He wants to be attracted to everyone except
- anyone under 18 (it's a blunter instrument than he'd like, but it will do, and there are worse things than accidental birthday detection.)
- anyone more than 12% related to him. (It should get rid of all the family he knows, and accidental long lost family detection seems straightforwardly good.)
"Part of me thinks I should assume it is omniscient and omnipotent and it's doing its best to improve the world-- it wants to invest in you and making you better-- and the other part of me says that people are dying and suffering right now and it is spending its time resolving your dating problems with Wei Wuxian. Which I'm glad about, he's going to be very good for you, a-Ning."
"I love you and I'm proud of you and I don't want to tell you to speedrun your recovery from your anxiety so I can get magic powers but please do that. I just don't think it will help. It's added pressure. But you should see about therapy. Is it possible to grind experience points to level up?"
"I can prioritise therapy more?" He definitely was not procrastinating on that. No siree. No association that make him hyperaware of how he talks that he's trying to avoid. "There are ways to... Passively generate more xp, if that's what you mean?" He is not going to give the details unprompted.
He wishes her a good shift.
So, he needs to:
A) try and generate more passive XP (ie post lots of naked photographs on the internet)
B) try more new things to see if he can get more spells to fall out
C) ... Actually attempt to get therapy, even if he would rather chew his own toe nails off.
He heads back home. 'A' is probably the easiest. Yes, he's done it before, so there aren't the benefits of trying new things, but he knows it works and he can do it.
... Maybe he could even take a video.
... Well, good to know he's on the right track.
Okay, he can do this. This is a baby step up from taking pictures. The consequences of failure, while vague, are probably not those bad. --And he's not going to fail! Because he can totally do this.
He flops backwards onto his bed. Actually no, he'd have to hold his arm right out to get all of him in frame, that's not going to work. Uhh... He's going to sit on the bed and prop his phone up on the dresser. That'll work. Mostly.
--And if he presses record now he can't wimp out. It's already on, so he may as well not leave a giant awkward pause of him sitting on his bed, staring at his own phone in terror. Okay, first step: clothes off. Sexily. ...he's just going to take them off slowly, and hope his body makes up for any clumsiness. According to the manual, it is an objectively hot body, and maybe he can make it work for him.
He just has to masturbate. On video. For anyone on the entire internet who finds it to see.
...
He actually isn't going to do that! He's going to record this, and then show it to Wei Wuxian to see if it is Internet Worthy. Then maybe he'll post it. He only has to make this something Wei Wuxian would like. Which... isn't a completely non-terrifying audience, but it's at least one that he knows what he would like?
He'd want him to tease himself a little, before he got really started. But not for too long, because if Wei Wuxian doesn't have one thing, it's infinite patience.
He'd want him to use Driving a Manual and Edge Riding on himself, over and over, until he was completely undone. Until he wasn't thinking 'I shouldn't hold back these noises' and those weird gaspy sounds were coming out of his mouth without any of his permission. Just keep doing that until he couldn't stand that anymore, until he couldn't even quite think the-- name of the spell he is deliberately not thinking-- and he comes so hard he's kind of surprised he still has all his bones still inside of him. (It really doesn't feel like it. Most of his muscles are considering going on strike, too.)
Hopefully the come splattered on his stomach is sufficiently Artistic Looking. ...not that Wei Wuxian, in the specific, would probably care that much.
He gives the camera a shy little smile before reaching over to turn it off.
I'd like your opinion on this, if it's good enough to post, if that isn't too much trouble? [please_burn_this_if_you_find_this_01.mp4]
(It's pretty, uh, naked, so maybe wait till you're not in public to watch?)
Future him is probably going to appreciate past him booking sessions with many therapists to see if he can find one he could... actually talk to and who would be helpful. Unfortunately, current him would rather go on a tour of maggot based cuisines, and current him is the one who actually has to do this.
...at least the worst case scenario is more like "and then I can say with confidence that I never want to see a therapist again" and less like... dying. Always good when an activity has basically zero risk of death, even if the risk of embarassment is more viscerally terrifying.
+1 NOV for considering the prospect of getting hooked up to a milking machine!
Quest tree available: Fucking Machines
Sometimes, even in the most experienced wizard's life, all their lovers are a bit busy. But there's no reason you can't have as similar a process as possible by yourself... and no reason that you can't share it yourself with those who are less fortunate.
Subquest 1: Research, purchase, and test out a fucking machine. +400 XP.
Subquest 2: ???
Subquest 3: ???. +5 ERO
Subquest 4: ???
Subquest 5: ???
Subquest 6: ???. Mad Inventor perk.
Subquest 7: ???.
Subquest 8: ???.
Subquest 9: ???.
Subquest 10: ???.
He can feel his sister's Waves of Disapproval from here ("I feel a disturbance in the Force... like my brother talking to someone who uses 'energy' for something other than ATP...") but also bailing on a conversation after two sentences is... probably rude? Not in future him's best interest? "I-is it possible for them to be disregulated since... birth, or thereabouts?"
... So, on the one hand, this does match with what he wants. He wants other people, as many of them as possible, to be happy, even if it doesn't make him feel better in any way.
But also... Things have improved for him? Even doing basic things? So it seems a bit... Premature, to assume things will suck as much as they do now?
"That's useful to know, thank you."
... There's a fifty percent chance this will be whatever the Unitarian Universalist equivalent of "past life regression to align your inner energies with the cosmos". But also, even if that happens, he can say he talked to every available therapist and also the UUs.
(And the urge to take a walk could have been nothing... But it might not have been.)
He may as well try contacting them?
Oh no, an open ended question that technically has no right answer but really does! His one weakness!
"A bunch of people recommended I go get counselling. And I've been looking and found people who weren't quite right, and-- I saw your sign and thought it would be worth trying with you?" Send help, that cannot be the answer the nice reverend was looking for.
He hands over a piece of paper that says:
Ethical Practice
1. I will never tell anything disclosed in spiritual direction to anyone, including under court order or if you threaten harm to yourself or others. I will not in any way imply that I know things that I learned in spiritual direction.2. I believe that there is no absolute truth. When there is disagreement, I strive to look for the kernel of truth in all positions.
3. I accept diversity and change as they naturally come about, and change my approach to problems to suit different people and different situations.
4. I observe my limits as a spiritual director and set boundaries to avoid burnout.
5. I search for a compassionate and empathetic interpretation of my own behavior, my directees' behavior, and the behavior of people in my directees' lives. I practice a nonjudgmental stance. I assume that everyone is trying their best and wants to improve.
6. I do not treat people as fragile. I believe everyone has the strength to handle their own life problems.
7. I am fallible and make mistakes. I will inevitably violate principles 2-6 at times. I accept criticism without defensiveness, looking for the kernel of truth, and strive to do better.
... These seem like a perfectly fine set of ethical practices? Whether there is no absolute truth doesn't seem like it would cause any problems, compared to 'you definitely have a problem with a past life.'
He likes the nonjudgment. Nonjudgment sounds very good.
He also appreciates that nothing is going to get out He probably doesn't need to say anything about being a sex wizard... But oh boy is that going to end up being a difficult topic to just constantly talk around. ("Recently I started improving my life, including going from a shut in to slutty, for... Reasons...")
He hands the paper back. "What would you do if-- hypothetically-- someone said they believed something... Odd, but not harmful?"
That's good! He has the official sisterly approval of "doesn't seem psychotic," but he is not going to be able to... prove that to the reverend.
"That's good to know." ... He should probably explain why he's asking. Even if it's like pulling rotten teeth, there's not much point if he can't... say things... to him. "I recently had something... strange... happened, and it's kind of important context? I'm glad I don't have to... talk around it." He says, as he cringes out of his skin and talks around it.
...he was going to accept that quest anyway, even if he would rather eat sand. Self improvement, and all that.
But if he's probably going to die of Ordeal if he doesn't
Aaaaaaaaaaa okay okay he's accepting.
He sends a text to his sister.
Just saw a counsellor today :)
I think we suit each other
She'd want an update, and if she is disappointed he's seeing a counsellor instead of a psychologist, that will be exposure therapy. It's... all... upside...
He has the cutest boyfriend, no one is allowed to dispute this.
He sits down on a convenient bale of straw. Practice makes it easier-- turning the world from objects into patterns of light and shadow and seeing it as it actually is and not the shape he expects it to be...
Hello? He says to the grazing horse. I'm not bothering you?
Quest tree available: But Do They Suffer?
An enormous number of animals are being mistreated. Accept this quest tree to set a goal to fix it. (Accepting this quest will have substantial effects on the world which were not caused by your own actions.)
Success: ???, a more joyful world
Failure: ???
So, they managed two out of three intelligent groups before any ongoing moral atrocities, that's something.
(He sets up a recurring donation for one of those little 'we buy horses at meatworks and give them vet care and a paddock and friends' sanctuaries. It's not much, but it's... something.)
He keeps chugging away at quests, and the not-officially-a-quest of exposure therapy.
He makes a habit of every day, as soon as he wakes up, he practices the Speech for 15 minutes, and then tries to pick one Thing On The Worst List to try. (He even managed to ask Margot out, on an actual date, using those actual words, and it was the most unpleasant thing he ever had to do, but he did it. ...and at least he got to brag to Reverend Chris about it.)
He spends time on Pinterest during work hours. Yes, yes, he is stealing his family's money, but he isn't stealing it... worse, by spending the day staring miserably at Outlook. (And Cathy is on facebook all the time, and she has actual work duties. It's fair play.) He keeps a little board of nice apartment ideas, and works on it bit by bit. Some nice duvet covers. Some potted herbs next to the window, for greenery and colour and the making the place smell like basil. A nice soap dispenser, because you need one and there is no reason it can't be nice.
...and after a week of starting the day by picking something off the Worst List, he makes a Nice Things He Likes List. It's not much to start with-- the list started with 'cake? sexy selfies???' but did eventually contain things like a short list of relaxing television shows and food that is not cake and the concept of nice socks.
He is much more consistent about doing things on the Nice Things list, but he's only human and... it's actually a big improvement? Even if it means sometimes he comes home from work and goes "oh no, I haven't eaten a croissant today," he's trying and.. that's much better than it was.