Ivan must be drunker than he thought he was. He could have sworn he knew his way around Vivienne's parents' house, since she wanted to introduce him last week and showed him the place, but maybe they have a... secret... upstairs... bar? where Vivienne's room is supposed to be? And most certainly was last time he checked? He's never going to find the sweater she sent him up looking for here, anyway. Why is there a secret upstairs bar in Vivienne's parents' house?
The next person to enter the bar has answers to none of them.
He is wearing scavenged hacked-down scraps of leather armour, the parts of his face not covered by his steel helmet are covered in bruises instead, and he has a sword in one hand and several sheathed daggers attached to his leather belt. His eyes are so bloodshot they're almost solid red. The sword is streaked with some sort of noxious black grime, which may or may not be the source of the horrible smell.
Half a step into the room, he hisses and flings his free arm over his eyes, cringing away from the not-especially-bright overhead lighting. His sword arm remains steady, keeping the blade between him and any moving bodies nearby.
"What?"
(He is peering up at Ivan from noticeably less distance than usual - whoever this is, he's a few inches taller than Miles.)
"There are three of you. Two was enough! One was really more than enough! I really hope you come with your own name. And, uh, don't want to assassinate anyone." Ivan backs away slowly. "And where did you come from, Vivienne cannot have invited you without noticing and that's not exactly a party outfit...?"
"I mean there's m'cousin Miles, and then it turned out someone cloned Miles, and apparently they did it twice because here's you, but you got too tall or something so they put you - wherever - but the other clone already took the spare grandfather's name - so, Stalas, that's very namelike - Linyabel's going to want a scan of you first opportunity, extra inches or no. What are you wearing?"
"I was trying to find my girlfriend's sweater for her -" Ivan looks at the window too. "...weird... And went up to her room to look for it, she's having a house party, but this room wasn't here when I got the grand tour so I don't know what's happened since I stepped into it. Where's Orzammar? You can't expect me to have memorized every out of the way little station and moon."
"I think we are talking at cross-purposes in some incredibly fundamental way," Stalas concludes after a moment's confused blinking. "Let me try to start from the beginning. I don't know what a clone is, but I'm pretty sure I'm not one. I'm a Prince of Orzammar, or I was. The second son of King Endrin Aeducan. And, assuming you're a human because you're too sodding tall to be anything else, and further assuming that your cousin is too, I'm the wrong species to be some kind of - created copy of him. Orzammar is a dwarven kingdom, located in the Frostback Mountains between the surface kingdoms of Ferelden and Orlais. And you're about to tell me you've never heard of any of those places, because I've sure as Stone never heard of anybody living on a moon."
"I mean I am not actually a human," he confirms. "Do you not have real dwarves where you come from...? I don't know much about humans, you're the first one I've met in fact, so I can't tell you if the humans where I'm from get 'short and scrunchy' sometimes."
"We do not have real dwarves! Unless someone on Jackson's Whole has been very busy manufacturing short people besides just Mark in an unncessarily complicated manner! And I've occasionally referred to Linyabel as an elf but she isn't actually! It's just humans and - tweaked or sick or something - also-basically-humans."
He sheathes his sword.
"Pleased to meet you," he adds. "Because - I know I keep coming back to this, but it's very important to me just now - you're not a darkspawn. In fact, there aren't even any darkspawn nearby, not for—" He breaks off, frowning. "Oh, that's weird. Oh, fuck, are we on the surface?"
"I don't know where we are. I'm supposed to be in my girlfriend's house, but I'm increasingly thinking that this is not my girlfriend's house. Possibly I've been drugged or something, actually -" He pats his pockets, and pulls out a black wand with clear round tips. He wags it through the air. Pictures appear in said air. "Damn, no service. Vivienne's parents didn't retire that far into the sticks."
"I really couldn't say. I still don't know anything about Miles except his name and that apparently he's a short, scrunchy human. Is he skinny, too? Does he bruise like an overripe peach? Does he bleed lyrium? Well, I guess if you don't have magic you probably don't have lyrium either."
"He looks like you but he's a few inches shorter. He... doesn't bruise, he breaks. I have no idea what lyrium is. I could find a holo." Pen woggle. "I might not have anything but wedding holos, though, and people who look like you are two for two so far on having, uh, strong reactions to Linyabel."
"...That sure does look like me," he admits. "Marrying a very pretty human. I guess. I don't know anything about human marriage ceremonies, if you told me they were playing some kind of arcane surface sport involving fancy clothes I wouldn't know any different."
Ivan inches his way towards the door. He opens it a little, then the rest of the way. "Vivienne's parents' house, second floor, that's the lav across the hall so you'd think this would be her room..." He waggles his pen a bit. "Aaaand I have signal! Let's see if Miles is available. You can Miles at each other." He opens his message-sending function and says to his pen, "Miles, I am not fucking with you, I found some kind of magic wormhole thing in Vivienne Vorville's parents' house and in it is a fellow who looks like you as a Time of Isolation reenactor heavy on the artistic license in high heels and a lot of foul-smelling gunk, here is a picture -" He takes a quick holo of Stalas and woggles his pen - "would you like to come investigate this fascinating phenomenon so I don't have to?"
The speech-to-text has to catch that, since Ivan didn't bring his earbugs with him to a party. "You expect me to know? Right, how could I have forgotten my copious magic wormhole expertise? Look, just tell Vivienne that there's some sort of family emergency, she won't give you a hard time, come up and look at this thing."
"Well," says Stalas, "that's definitely the first time I've seen somebody talk to my disembodied ghostly head."
"Not that I know what a seawall is, but that doesn't sound fun. My sympathies. You know, it occurs to me that if the door leads to the Deep Roads when I open it and this Vivienne's house when you do, your cousin might have an interesting time trying to get in from the other side."
"...that is a good point. And I don't have signal when the door is shut so he won't be able to call to be let in, either. I suppose I'll stand in the doorway and hope Vivienne forgets she sent me up and... gets less cold? I don't think she'd be at all amused if she followed me and found her bedroom missing." He opens the door again.
"Yes. Speaking of features that Vivienne's house should not permanently acquire, that stuff on your armor - at least I hope it's the stuff on your armor - smells repulsive. Since nothing is trying to eat you or whatever here any chance you could hop out of it and put it off in a corner somewhere far away from the door to Vorville and Madame Vorville's house?"
"...I mean, I'd love to get out of this crap, I'm just not completely sure I believe that things are done trying to kill me. Things trying to kill me have been a major feature of the past few days. I'm all in favour of cleaning it, though. Heh, I don't suppose your cousin has a spare set? Or does nobody wear armour on Barrayar?"
"As, what, a blend of stylish and practical? What would it be for? If somebody's trying to kill you on Barrayar, they'll shoot you with a plasma arc. Or a nerve disruptor. Or they'll do something else armor-irrelevant. I'm not certain Miles's clothes would fit you. I mean, you're not that much taller, but he gets things very specially tailored."
"Miles's clothes would fit me better than any other human's or any other dwarf's," Stalas says practically. "And they'd sure as Stone fit me better than armour I scavenged off dead darkspawn. The foul-smelling goo is dried darkspawn blood, by the way, I promise under normal circumstances I smell much nicer."
"They're about yea high and about yea wide," he says, gesturing to either side of his torso. "I'm the skinniest dwarf alive. I'm actually not substantially weaker than the next man, but you wouldn't know it to look at me. Are you normally this tactless or is it circumstantial in some way?"
"No," he says brightly. "In fact it is not. My younger brother had my older brother assassinated and pinned it on me, and as a result I was exiled to the Deep Roads to kill as many darkspawn as I can before they get me. I've been going three days so far, I think. Hard to keep time with no clocks."
"Common wisdom has it that if you don't hold onto something you'll fall in, but I think common wisdom is probably wrong because you never hear it from someone who's actually been to the surface. Still, though. Nothing above you but air? I'm a dwarf. The Stone is my home. Some of us can adapt, I just don't know if I am one. I've never tried."
"Well, you could live indoors. You could move to - not Komarr specifically, I think, that's one place where looking like Miles would get you in trouble, but on Komarr all the inhabited parts have roofs and there's probably other planets that have arcologies too. The roofs are transparent, though."
"Do... you not live on a planet? I am not sure how you'd get lava in some kind of... non-planet. Planet is a big ball of rock with stuff on the surface of it like trees and water and volcanoes, exact parameters depending on the planet. Planets go around suns, which are like stars, but nearer by."
"I don't live on the surface of a planet," Stalas reminds him. "I've heard of sun and moon and sky and stars, but I've never seen any of them. Unless you count whatever that is, I guess," this with a wave at the Observation Window. "So, yeah, big ball of rock, lava and optional darkspawn in the middle, surface-dwellers around the outside, I'm with you there. Rock, I understand. It's past that where things start to get iffy."
"I mean, we talk to surfacers, trade with them and so on, and we sleep on the same kind of schedule, so it's convenient to work with the same day cycle as nearby surface kingdoms. Seasons, not so much. Seasons affect what kind of fruit and other plant-stuff they trade to us when, and that's about it. We do count years and ages the same way, though."
"As in the kind that's not human, yes, we've been over this," says Stalas.
"You're taller than me," Miles says suspiciously.
"Yes, I've noticed that," says Stalas. "Let me guess, being a short human is a lot like being a scrawny dwarf?"
"I don't know, what's being a scrawny dwarf like?" inquires Miles.
"Pretty damn miserable."
"Yeah."
The two of them look at each other with remarkably similar expressions.
"Dwarves live underground and that's kind of very important to being a dwarf," says Stalas. "We can live on the surface, but it - does things to us. We lose our Stone-sense after a while. I don't honestly know what would happen if you took a dwarf somewhere there was no Stone at all."
"...When you say 'Stone'," says Miles, "are you talking about something other than what a - a human would mean by 'rock'?"
"Well... yes and no," says Stalas. "I mean, rock is what the Stone is, but it's more than that. When a dwarf dies, their soul returns to the Stone. While we live, we can sense it. Dwarves don't get lost, unless you take us up to the surface."
"Fossilized souls," mutters Miles. "Ivan, your magic wormhole is turning out to be very magic."
"Why not dwarves?"
"It's sort of a long story. But it's soul-related. - Hey, if you don't have magic where you're from, do you dream?"
"We dream," says Miles, puzzled.
"Weird," says Stalas.
"Your definition of weird is, itself, very weird," says Miles.
Stalas snorts.
"No," Miles agrees, fascinated.
"Huh. Where do your souls go when you dream?"
"They stay put, as far as I'm aware."
"Until I hear otherwise, I'm going to think of it as wormhole space," Miles decides. "Magic wormhole space."
"What's a wormhole, anyway?"
"...Uh," says Miles. "A... pair of spots in space that if you go to one and do exactly the right things you disappear and reappear at the other one."
"...Sure, okay, the Fade is analogous to wormhole space," says Stalas. "In a very weird way."
"Is there anything about this situation that's not very weird?" asks Miles rhetorically.
Stalas opens his mouth, and then frowns. "...How are we all speaking the same language?"
"...Damn good question," says Miles. "I have no idea."
"I'm pretty sure I'm speaking English," says Miles. "Which was invented by humans, not that there's anyone else around who might have invented it instead... so are we speaking the same language, or is there even more magic going on than I thought?"
"...I think I'm going to go with magic," Stalas says contemplatively.
"Well, I'm convinced," remarks Miles. "Also, is it just me, or are you and I kind of unnervingly similar in more than a physical way?"
"I don't think it's just you," says Stalas. "Your cousin's been complaining about it since he first laid eyes on me."
"The smell is darkspawn blood, it's not inherent," grumbles Stalas. "I would love to get rid of the smell. Anyway, what's a medical scanner?"
"A... device that looks at you and records things about your state of health and general biological makeup," says Miles. "Useful for telling people apart when they look identical but aren't quite."
"Great, sure, I wonder what it'll make of my fucked-up blood," sighs Stalas.
"Can't whoever that is just come and look at the spooky magic bar himself?"
"It wasn't here yesterday, I'm pretty sure; I would not be willing to place a large wager that it will be here tomorrow."
"You try spending three days straight scrambling through collapsed tunnels and fighting for your life every few minutes, see how good you smell afterward," Stalas says irritably.
"It means 'full of invisible intangible poison that spreads like light, goes straight through almost anything that's not made of lead, and can kill you or make you very sick or fuck up your ability to have children depending how much hits you where'," Miles summarizes.
"Why is there a word for that?" says Stalas, eyeing their surroundings warily.
"Because the universe is an amazing place full of wonders and delights," says Miles.
"You have my sense of humour," Stalas accuses.
"So it would appear."
Ivan waves her into the bar. She looks at the tableau of bar, Miles, Stalas, exploding stars, and door into the hallway of the Vorvilles' house.
"Well," she says, producing her medical scanner, "this is certainly interesting."
(Stalas makes a slight bow in Linya's direction.)
"The scanner," she says, peering at her forlornly beeping device, "tentatively agrees with him. It's not even entirely sure he's a mammal. It thinks he's got artificial bones which it unconfidently identifies as an unclassified ceramic, and that he has a preposterous amount of bruising, and that he is slightly, exotically, but not dangerously radioactive."
"Cut it some slack, it's never seen a real dwarf before," says Miles.
Stalas snorts.
"Anyway, dare I ask why you're radioactive?"
"I don't know," says Stalas. "I only just found out what radioactive meant. Maybe it's the lyrium. I have lyrium in my blood. It's a long story."
...Miles gives Stalas an appraising look. "And what whole business would that be?"
"Do you actually want the long story?" asks Stalas, glancing between the three of them. "There's politics involved and it doesn't end all that happily."
He takes a breath.
"The competition's pretty fierce, and the most successful noble hunters are the ones with rich patrons - the deal is, if she bears a noble child, the patron will claim to be her uncle or something and get in on the free ride to the noble caste. The Shaperate doesn't keep genealogical records of the lower castes, so there'll be nobody to say any different. Fortunately for my mother, she had a patron. Unfortunately, her patron had a rival, and as soon as she got pregnant the rival had her poisoned in an extremely nasty way."
"That is starting to sound familiar," murmurs Miles.
Stalas glances wryly at him. "Why am I not surprised? Anyway, she resorted to desperate measures to try to survive long enough to have me. Managed it in the end, but some of the treatments involved lyrium, and - well - there were side effects." He gestures at himself. "I guess it's not that noticeable to a human, but if you'd ever met another dwarf you'd notice I'm awfully scrawny as dwarves go. And, as you've noticed, I bruise. And if too much of my blood mixes with someone else's they get loopy. Or die, I guess, if they're not a dwarf."
"Try not to bleed on anyone, then," Miles advises.
"I do my best."
"As near as I can tell," she remarks, "this is not a holo screen, or if it is one, it's more advanced than the kinds available at home, I wouldn't even know how to custom-build this. But my medical scanner would have been much more excited if we were collecting radiation doses sufficient to worry about from actual supernovae. So this is more magic, or we're very shielded."
"Now I'm curious," says Stalas. "What's your story?"
"Well, my mother was only poisoned incidentally by somebody who was trying to get at my father," says Miles. "There was a civil war on at the time. And she's still alive. And the antidote to the poison nearly did away with my bones entirely, and she had to have me scooped out and gestated the rest of the way in an artificial womb so she could give my little fetal self enough calcium treatments to develop even the fragile twiglike bones I've got. But, all in all - unsettlingly similar, wouldn't you say?"
"No kidding," says Stalas. "Does it hurt?"
"What, when my bones break? What d'you fucking think?"
They exchange a look of wry understanding.
"...Uh," says Miles, when he reaches the bar and climbs up on a stool and reads the napkin.
"What is it?" says Stalas.
"A... magic talking bar, it looks like," says Miles.
"Well, that's sort of in keeping with how this day has been going," says Stalas.
Yes, appears another napkin.
"Grand," says Ivan, "because I'm not drunk enough for this, I'll have the... house... whatever. You're a magic bar, I expect magic bars to be good at drink recommendations, why I have expectations about magic bars I do not know."
Ivan gets a glass of something dark pink.
He picks it up and sniffs it and takes a sip and says, "Well, that's delicious."
"What sort of sensory modality does a magic talking bar have, anyway?"
I can in a relatively conventional sense see and hear. I have a lot of practice at identifying various species and can also tell where visitors are from, which helps.
"I'm curious now, what would you recommend for me?" asks Linya.
Oh, how about raspberry lemonade?
"Huh."
"And what do you charge?"
Reasonable currency-dependent prices. The spread I am inclined to offer Stalas if undirected would be thirty-one Barrayaran marks.
"I will buy him dinner, if you can take my credit," says Linya.
I certainly can.
"And how is that going to turn up on my statement from First Galactic?"
I couldn't begin to tell you.
There is a restroom to your right around my corner, and full baths associated with the rooms upstairs, which may be rented.
"For which you also charge reasonable currency-dependent prices?"
One hundred seventy-five marks per night.
"I will rent him a room at least long enough that he can take a bath."
It would almost certainly have returned the door to its customary state. However, while you are here with the door closed, time is paused in your worlds under most circumstances.
She asks the bar, "Are there more of me?"
Perhaps, but considerable amounts of subjective time erode my memories nearly as much as they might anyone else's. I would recognize more of you if they come in relatively soon, of course.
"Pity, I wanted to gather a small army of myselves."
"I dunno," says Stalas. "How do you feel about coming with me back to Thedas and trying to get back to Orzammar in time to stop my brother assassinating my father?"
"...What?" says Miles, blinking.
"Oh, that's right, I didn't tell you that story."
"I actually have a small army," says Miles, "but we'd have an interesting time trying to file them all in through Vivienne Vorville's bedroom door."
"It has crossed my mind that I could try to buy this house to maintain access to the door, but they'd probably object to being unable to retrieve Vivienne's belongings and to the house being continuously occupied by me and people I know during the negotiation for it."
"Aren't you maybe going to die of rock deprivation or something though?"
"Possible death by rock deprivation," snorts Stalas, "has much to recommend it over certain death by darkspawn." To Linya, he explains, "I don't know what happens to a dwarf in the horrifying void between planets. Every dwarf who was ever born has lived their whole life no farther away from the ground than walking around on top of it, and not many of us even that far, and we have a connection to it that's hard to explain."
"We know exactly where we are underground, and we can tell things about the rock around us - what kind it is, what pressure it's under, where the weak points are. It's not very ostentatious, but it's useful. Comforting. I'm kind of uneasy about being here, actually, because about all my Stone-sense can tell is that wherever I am, underground definitely isn't it. Although it is reasonably confident that there's ground under me."
If you go out the back, there is an outdoors, with a clear area, a lake, some forest, and some mountains, which is space-folded in on itself if you travel too far in any direction. The exploding stars are real, but people don't go out that way, and you are discouraged from trying to break the floor and will discover that it is impossible to locate a roof.
"Do you want to see how your Stone-sense does in the backyard here, then, to see if it's a world-specific thing or if it applies to arbitrary solid ground?"
"It's worth checking before we march you out of the Vorvilles' house and let the door close, I'd imagine."
He looks around, somewhat uneasily, for a second door. (And finishes the last few bites of dessert.)
"...This surface business really has you rattled," says Miles.
"A bit," says Stalas.
I can sell nonliving, nonmagical, medium-sized, harmless things like sunscreen.
"That is an interesting list of parameters."
I cannot sell you a kitten, enchanted necklace, continent, or plasma arc, even if you can afford their reasonable currency-dependent prices.
"Understood."
"Right. And then if we're going with the hospitality theory, and there are caves in those mountains, presumably they'll contain legions of alien mushrooms. Except that apparently there are humans where Stalas is from, so maybe his planet is full of Earth life too?"
"There probably aren't large animals of the non-waving variety, right? I don't know, do we trust the magic talking bar to be the sort of person who would've warned us if there were? Maybe we should wait for the well-armed guy with an underground navigational sense before we go poking our heads in. Well, for some values of 'well-armed'. He did give the impression that he knew how to use all those sharp objects."
Meanwhile, in the bar: Stalas comes down the stairs, thoroughly washed and not smelling even a little bit like darkspawn blood. Actually he smells like wildflowers, if anything.
He is wearing a towel. And his sword. And several of his daggers. And an incredible number and degree of bruises.
"I just couldn't face getting back into the armour," he says to Bar, "even though I managed to clean it pretty well. I don't suppose you sell clothes in my size? And... are willing to sell them to me even though I don't currently have any money?"
I can produce clothes in any size. And you may choose to run up a tab.
A thought strikes, and he turns to Ivan. "It occurs to me to ask, how old is Miles? And the rest of you? I'm finding it hard to judge human ages."
"Miles is twenty-five, I'm about a year older, Linyabel's four years younger but she'll probably look about like that for the next fifty years at least. Why, are you actually a hundred and seven or something?"
"I declare Stalas to be sufficiently me that he gets to know the things I know," says Miles. "In part because I think it would make the whole situation even more confusing if I had to watch my mouth around him, in part because I think trying to keep secrets from him in the long term is probably a doomed effort when we think so much alike that we could probably start finishing each other's sentences, and in part because - he's very me. I'm inclined to trust him the way I trust myself, adjusting for information barriers like the fact that you had to explain to him what a planet was."
Stalas comes down the stairs.
He is still wearing his sword and all of his daggers, but the armour is bundled up and tucked under his arm, and he's wearing the clothes Bar gave him. He looks... well, he looks haggard, underfed, and beat up, but also much better-groomed than he did before the bath.
"It's a long story," says Miles.
"Mine isn't," says Stalas. "My father made me a commander, I got a feast the night before my first expedition, and I never got the chance to command anyone because fucking Bhelen. Thus ends the story."
"My Stone-sense is working. Which answers an interesting philosophical question, actually, because I bet no dwarf ever went to rest in this Stone. So either the Stone-sense comes first, doesn't depend on the souls of our ancestors, or all Stone really is fundamentally one. Even across universes."
"Because he's Chief of Imperial Security and clones of me tend to represent an... interesting security problem."
"I'm not a clone of you," Stalas points out. "Wait, are you even a prince?"
Miles snorts. "No. I'm a Count's heir, though."
"Ha. Father couldn't have made me his heir if he wanted to, the deshyrs would've had screaming fits."
"Screaming fits were had," Miles says dryly. "Mostly by my grandfather. But—" he shrugs, "there wasn't an alternative at the time. And Father does not actually have to listen to anyone on the subject. Well, he sort of does, but considering that the Council of Counts once confirmed a horse as heir to a Countship, in practical terms there isn't much of an issue. Precedent's on my side."
"Miles was cloned in large part because he is third in line heir presumptive, though that going anywhere would be contingent on tragedy befalling Emperor Gregor before he reproduces - but the screaming fits resulting would probably suffice to deafen half the galactic nexus and my involvement would certainly not help. I'm from a different planet which belongs to a different empire that in living memory - albeit not recent living memory - attempted to conquer Barrayar, and on top of that the Barrayarans object to my having been genetically engineered."
"I can't be sure if dwarves work the same way - this brand of medical scanner doesn't do gene scans - but in humans, the reason children are similar to their parents, especially in appearance and heritable diseases, has to do with chemical 'instructions' present in each cell which tell the body how to grow. In my empire of origin, it is customary for my social class to exercise considerable creative license in rewriting those instructions to suit goals more complicated than 'generate baby human'."
"Right?" says Miles.
"But - what do you mean you don't have parents...? How does that work? I mean, humans have babies basically the same way everybody else does, right?"
"I'm pretty sure, yeah," says Miles. "Cetagandans... uh... do it differently." He gives Linya a 'please help me explain this' sort of look.
"...For one thing, even on Barrayar the use of uterine replicators is catching on, so the fetuses don't have to incubate inside of people who have other things they might want to do with themselves besides being good embryonic environments. And for another thing, once you know how the very earliest stages of gestation work, it's not that hard to assemble them from scratch, however you like, with the right equipment. I'm in the middle of making some modest changes to a future child for us." Pause. "I can show you sims of what he's going to look like at various ages but only if Miles isn't looking, he doesn't want to see."
"I... don't know how dwarves work, but if you're similar enough to humans - I suppose so? It would be hard for you to maintain the equipment without the underlying infrastructure, and I don't know yet if there's going to wind up being any way to keep a permanent world-to-world connection even if the door turns up somewhere more convenient, but it might be enough to give your population a jump-start."
"Yeah, that's - what I was thinking," he says. "I mean, the traditionalists would shit themselves, but let them, I would rather in a thousand years there be dwarves who think about caste and inheritance differently because they can pull babies out of thin air than no dwarves at all because the darkspawn are killing us faster than we can breed."
"I suspect doing something to thoroughly address the problem with the darkspawn before throwing large numbers of from-scratch dwarves at them hoping some will survive is the correct order of operations, here. Also, a uterine replicator is not thin air; it still takes the full amount of gestation time and some technically-tricky work to maintain it during that time, plus to decant the baby later."
"'Might be'," mutters Miles. "Is this what it's like to be someone else listening to me talk?"
"Reconsider what you're about to say," hisses Miles, recognizing the look on Stalas's face even though he's only ever experienced it from the inside.
Stalas shoots him a disgruntled look, but amends his incipient outburst to, "I don't know if we can evacuate. We probably can't convince every single dwarf in Orzammar to pack what they can carry and run through a magic door, and if we only convince most or even half or, shit, even a third of them, we'd be leaving the rest to die without us. And people would want to control who got to go through, and I might not have the sway to stop them. There'd be fighting. And then without Orzammar, the darkspawn would probably overrun the surface within a century. So even if I could haul every single man, woman, and child in my kingdom out here and set them up in these mountains, there'd be the surface dwarves and the humans and elves and qunari and the dwarves of Kal-Sharok left with the shit end of that stick. If you want to go try to convince every single person on my home planet to evacuate it, I won't stop you. But you'll fail. And to the extent that you succeed, you'll be throwing every single person you leave behind to the darkspawn. We're holding out, right now, but not by a whole lot, and it won't take much to bring that down. Evacuation is not the answer."
"I'm not planning to try to prevent you from coming to Barrayar, and once you're there, I can't reasonably stop you from - I don't know, writing a bestselling series of fantasy novels about your world and using the money to buy lots of uterine replicators and teaching yourself to use them, and I have no control over whether Milliways offers you another door in such a way that you can bring them back with you to do whatever you like. But if the problem is that there are some people who are under constant attack by monsters, I will not render assistance should you choose to address that situation by adding more people - not unless I think the monsters are a soluble problem, and if I think the monsters are a soluble problem I would like to solve it via a method other than babies."
"If you do want to wander into the cave looking for him, you could try leaving a trail for yourself with your pen - the same spatial memory drawing program I made for Ekaterin's gardening application should work fine for spelunking; you can draw yourself a path and it will reappear if you get closer to it. What I'm not sure is if I trust that to work with the space-folding Bar mentioned."
"And I think the problem he is actually trying to solve might be low fertility," says Miles, "in which case you are sort of looking at an entire society of families who want to add bundles of joy but can't manage it by themselves. I'm not sure, he wasn't tremendously clear on the details before he stormed off, but that's what I think."
"I think we are probably agreed that if something can be done about the attacking monster hordes then that should be done first thing, and he was clanking around in distinctly ancient armor, so it could be that adding some galactic tech other than uterine replicators solves the problem very promptly."
"Well, there's a lot of them and there's probably, I don't know, historical and possibly geological interest. If I was guaranteed not to get lost in caves I'd spend a lot more time in them than I do. But yeah, he'll probably be driven out onto the surface by boredom eventually. Hah, maybe he'll become an ImpSec analyst, that bloody building has no windows and plenty of basement."
Few rules about Milliways are absolute regardless of all possible interventions, but generally speaking: people, of any species that uses doors but most typically humans, open a door that normally leads to a room in conventional space, and find that instead it leads here. Time in their world is almost always paused while they are here with the door closed, unless they are never going to return, will return contingent only on events that require the passage of time in their home world, or, occasionally, if the door is presenting itself at multiple locations in the same world. When someone departs Milliways, the door leads to wherever, in addition to whenever, the person exiting came from; a person can only hold the door to their own world, but may allow others through to visit.
Some people find doors only once in their lives. Others may find them more frequently, or on a nearly regular basis, or reliably on certain occasions, or with a greater or lesser success rate when deliberately seeking doors, or according to other patterns. Holding the door with an inanimate object tends not to work, although not for any systematic magical reasons I have observed. Very occasionally, for reasons of which I am thoroughly unsure, the door will cease to exist for a period of time usually not exceeding one or two subjective days and often as brief as a few minutes. It has never kept anyone permanently.
Unconventional situations, such as the possibility of people being born and raised within Milliways and then trying the door, or people opening the door together in such a way that neither could have been doing it alone or could be said to be the primary opener, have unpredictable effects. By and large harmful atmospheric conditions on the worlds the door visits do not bleed into the bar environment, although the same does not consistently apply to milder differences in temperature, pressure, odor, etcetera.
Assorted superstitions, the veracity of which I can neither confirm nor deny, suggest that getting doors is more likely if you have a tab running, if you have your tab paid up, if you steal a saltshaker or other object, if you seek employment with Security or the cleaning staff or the infirmary, if you leave objects buried on the lake beach in the back yard, if you rent a room, or if other conditions prevail.
Most people find that when they visit there are other people who are interesting to them here, although usually the door appears to go somewhat out of its way to help Security enforce the no-violence rule by keeping generally hostile parties out of Milliways and avoiding inviting patrons with vendettas at the same time. And of course arbitrary amounts of time may pass in Milliways, not necessarily at the same rate between various sub-portions, between instances of a given visitor's arrival, though while my memory isn't literally perfect I'm very good about passing along messages to people when they come in.
"...Ouch," says Miles.
"I wasn't actually going to," says Stalas. "The thought did cross my mind. The fact that he apparently read it there isn't helping."
"If you go off and play chess with me while being unsettled and not wanting to play chess with me, just because the alternative is watching me find out how much needling it takes for Stalas to try to kill me, I will be upset about that," he says. "And I don't know you well enough to know I would catch it right away, the way I would if it were Miles."
"She'll have to do something to make it learn your alphabet if you want to write things, though. Whatever your alphabet is. Actually I don't know how we're going to handle talking to you once we leave here and we're still speaking English and you're speaking, wosscalled, your dwarf language. Maybe Linyabel will just park in the cave with you for two weeks and come out fluent and rig up a translation earbug."
"I bet you wouldn't do too badly with Mark, either, but we are not bringing him back with us," says Miles. "I like him, sort of, but that's a headache I do not need right now."
"Suits me."
"'Power tools', as a category: drills and saws and so on cleverly designed to do more of the work for you than the versions you're used to," says Miles.
"Nice," says Stalas. "So what if one is neither eight years old nor feeling sophisticated and adult?"
"Whatever a lava pit is, no, you cannot have one on Barrayar," says Miles. "Not soon, anyway. You will have to convince people other than me to give you permission to construct a lava pit."
"That shouldn't be too hard."
"Many of them are wise to my tricks."
"Do you let that stop you?"
"...Not usually," Miles admits.
"Utterly. Considering going back to the party, but if I understand right I'd just get about a step or two down the hallway and then somebody would stick their head out, and more likely than not that would be for reasons more like 'Ivan, come do a thing' or 'emergency, everybody run for your lives, the giant squid's gone mad' or something than anything conducive to me actually getting down the stairs and talking to people and necking with my girlfriend. So."
"I would like to retain permanent access to this door and be able to march anybody in and out at will, but most proximately, possibly Simon Illyan. In the context of him being able to remember the translations of books that are not in English, but I suppose his presence would have other ramifications for you unless you want to tell him to stop having you followed yourself."
Ivan might or might not be able to usher the party guests to an art show within a relevant time frame, and probably we'd be unwelcome to remain after such a move. And earlier Mark mentioned that he wanted Simon told to stop having him followed and he has a very peculiar look on his face in reaction to the idea that if Simon were here he could pass on this message directly; I'm not at all sure it's a good idea to have Simon in while Mark is still here.
"No on sweater-guessing," says Linya. She writes to Miles: How do you feel about the possibility of climbing in Vivienne's window to fetch her sweater so Ivan can more easily usher her away if we go with a plan in that vein?
I think I'm going to take his despairing laughter to mean that no underground guerrilla forces are likely to be available to him at home. Well, maybe he can join the Imperial Service instead. His luck with commanding officers can't possibly be worse than mine. Then again, his species might be a sticking point...
"A charming little fairy tale, wherein a girl goes to visit her grandmother with a little basket of baked goods, only to find that the grandmother has been eaten by a wolf who is now impersonating Grandma. The little girl becomes suspicious and starts asking the wolf pointed questions about the size of its ears and teeth and so on, to which it responds formulaically, and when she reaches 'teeth' it says 'The better to eat you with!' and springs at her from Grandma's bed."
Admittedly not all visitors interested in consuming human products want the meat.
"Or vat whatever. Such as..."
Blood, for instance.
"Blood."
"If you want fillet of Red Riding Hood she can provide," says Linya, "she just wouldn't sneak it in if some human said 'surprise me'."
"They look sort of like people. Some dwarf-size, some human-size, some fucking huge - we call that last kind ogres. But they're kind of grey and horrible-looking and you have experienced what they smell like. And they come from deep underground and kill anyone they can find."
Indeed not.
"But would you sell me enough parts and tools for me to put one together myself?"
Well, I might if I didn't know what you were doing.
"That's not particularly fair as a reward for my transparency."
There isn't a rule against having weapons in the bar, but I do try to avoid supplying them.
"If sufficiently bored or concerned that you will have inadequate ability to rejoin the paused timestream if you stay too long. If, for example, Ivan feels that he's in danger of forgetting people he was introduced to 'half an hour ago', he might want to bail out early."
"Yes I am," says Miles. "I, unlike you, grew up around Ivan. My reflexive reaction when he starts talking about his girlfriends is more bitter jealousy than friendly interest, even though I have been married for several years now and don't have any reason to be jealous anymore."
"Oh," says Stalas. He grins. "My sympathies."
"Your mockery, more like," says Miles. Accurately.
"Anyway, Vivienne's a brilliant dancer, and she's got very soft hair and purrs like a kitten if I pet it, and she gets along with m'mother well enough that they don't have arguments if they run into each other but not well enough that Mother's nudging me to marry her, and she doesn't go off thinking I'm cheating on her if I'm only looking, and she's comfy to be around, fills silences."
"This is unsettling to behold," says Miles.
"Hey, I'm a prince of Orzammar. My problem with women has always been feeling vaguely awkward around noble hunters because they and I have conflicting opinions about whether I should have children yet."
"She can make holos predicting the appearance of our unborn child because she's designing his genome. I haven't wanted to look at them because things other than one's genome can determine one's appearance and that is kind of a painful subject for me."
"Oh," says Stalas. He exchanges a look of extreme mutual comprehension with Miles, then shakes his head. "No thanks, Lady Vorkosigan."
I am not a doctor, although one picks up a few things, being a bar.
"And can you account for allergies?"
Yes.
"Which would certainly be a consideration if someone wanted to try otherworldly drugs on Miles."
I can do dosages. I would be a fairly irresponsible bar if I couldn't do that at least with alcohol, and the skill extends.
"All right, can I get a hypo of eumorine?"
And there is a hypo of eumorine. "Do you want to self-administer? This bit here just gets pushed firmly against any part of your skin."
"'A Miles'? Why are we naming us after him, exactly?"
"People who are more familiar with me out of the two available examples have you outnumbered," says Miles. "Also, if it's me, we can be a league of Mileses."
Stalas snickers.
"...Wait, did that pun translate?"
"Apparently!"
"That's weird."
"ImpSec has been having me followed. I counter-followed the latest agent, broke into his hotel room, straightened up his bed, and carefully covered it in neat rows of dried beans. Unfortunately I had no way of intercepting his report. Have you read it, any of you? Was it good?"
"To confuse the hell out of him and everyone who heard about it. And make Miles laugh. And demonstrate to Simon Illyan both that I can run rings around the kind of agents he's sending after me and that I don't plan to do them any actual harm with this power. And entertain myself with the thought of the look on his face. And because I could."
"Well, either I'm trying to get something out of them, or I'm moved to comment on something for genuine reasons. First case, I am deliberately trying to be as unmemorable as I possibly can, and it works fine. Second case, I rarely get beyond five sentences exchanged before saying something that makes someone uncomfortable. Sometimes I don't get past one. It's rather discouraging."
"If I felt like it, I could walk around as Miles and charm people every bit as much as Miles does. But when I stopped, I would still be the sort of person who wonders if he can order a glass of human blood at a bar. Miles does not have to deal with being that sort of person; I can't generate advice from him on the subject. I can learn not to talk about cannibalism, and learn not to laugh at anything that involves people getting hurt, and learn to lie creatively and innocuously every time my childhood comes up, and not to make any jokes about that either, and individually discover all the hundreds of things people aren't supposed to notice about each other or talk about if they do, and then move on to another planet and do half of that part over again because of the differences in cultural norms, and at the end of that I am just about capable of saying one nice thing to a stranger and then walking away before I do anything to make them regret meeting me. Most of the time."
"What I'm getting at is that most of the basics of social acceptability - although not anywhere near all of it, admittedly - has logical reasons of some sort behind it, and since you have access to a socially acceptable behavior set it might be reverse-engineered, but maybe not."
"If I were to boil it down... I have trouble talking to people without horrifying them because there is almost nothing about me that's not horrifying. Pretending to be someone else - on whatever level - solves the problem, but at a very real cost. And it doesn't get me any closer to having what I would call an actual friend. So there's your answer to why it's meaningless to ask if I prioritize friendship, I guess."
"I don't mean that you should pretend to be Miles. I very much prefer if you do not pretend to be Miles. But people have entire conversations about things other than themselves all the time, and if you could figure out how to do that without scaring them away you might develop enough rapport to bring up cannibalism or whatever else is on your mind. Since most of the time you don't find a door to a magic bar with any of us in it and your availability of people informed about your horrifying childhood are thin on the ground."
"That's... kind of a broad request," Miles says cautiously, trying not to openly wince at the lost and vulnerable look on Mark's face. "Do you mean I should try to figure out what you meant that Linya isn't getting and then explain it because you don't think you can?"
He mentally reviews the exchange. Something becomes obvious. He's not sure if it's the right thing.
"You didn't just mean talking about yourself," he guesses. "You meant - the things that you think of to say, in general, weird people out. You weird people out. Am I on the right track? And have I mentioned recently that you have a depressing life?"
"Surely the giant squid isn't going to take exception."
No, not the giant squid. More along the lines of whoever controls the door.
Now and then someone comes in with only a small amount of money and few to no resources at home, and thinks of it, and then, especially if they manage to sneak a few iterations past me anyway, I will help them out if they keep it to a reasonable quantity, no more than quintupling their value and making final purchases in favorable currencies.
"Aww."
"Imagine, as is in fact the case, that maple sugar is three times as expensive on Tau Ceti as it is on Barrayar. This is stable because it takes a lot of hassle to get maple sugar from Barrayar to Tau Ceti, and the people involved in that hassle mark it up. Now imagine that," she pats the bar, "the economies of Tau Ceti and Barrayar are right next to each other, and you have an intermediary who doesn't cheat you at the currency exchange, and further that there are several trillion other economies also right next to each other, and quintupling your money starts to sound trivial."
"Unfortunately, there seem to be rules about that sort of thing. So unless we can get Mark in on a scheme to smuggle valuable objects between Barrayar and wherever he's currently holed up hiding from ImpSec... and manage to sneak said objects in and out of your girlfriend's parents' house... nothing doing."
"Oh, when I travel for business I bring a case of maple butter with me to give to various people as gifts. It's a nice blend of personal, usable, and expensive. But I don't sell it. Arbitrage is the sort of thing you need to do at scale or with special advantages of some kind to get much of anywhere."
"Vulcans are a humanoid species originally from the planet of the same name. Hybrids like me tend to mostly look like Vulcans to human observers, to the point where you'd be unlikely to tell the difference if a full Vulcan walked in next to me, but the same is nearly as true in reverse."
"The origins are in general paranoia about harmful mutations due to a population-wide dose of radiation that made them a serious concern during a period of low technological access, but it contaminates attitudes about positively unusual genetic backgrounds like mine and visible physical conditions that aren't genetic in origin, too."
"We don't really have - mmmm - Okay, if you only have humans, you might consider psi magic, but it's not conventional to refer to it that way. Some species, Vulcans included, have more or less telepathic abilities. Mine only works at touch range, although I can block scans from stronger users. But Lalita's modifications are nonpsychic in nature."
"Miles's family, whence both the name 'Aral' and 'Vorkosigan', has a bad reputation on the planet Komarr, for historical reasons undeserved by the original name holder and still more undeserved by his descendants; genetic engineering generally and Cetagandans generally, and most especially the intersection of the haut, have a bad reputation for reasons aforementioned on Barrayar, which sits sovereign over Komarr and a more recent colony. I go around with a bodyguard when I'm in public on Barrayar and sometimes omit my married name on Komarr."
"Well, I used to be a deep space surveyor as cover for delivering warp equations to plagiarists so that more planets could be admitted to the Federation and benefit from the post-scarcity, but then I spent several years as a political refugee and now I make speeches."
"The Federation won't admit any societies which can't break the warp speed barrier, but will invite any society it catches producing a warp signature. I got caught, but it was very efficient before that. Although I'm glad not all the planets I visited decided to join the Federation, because then when Lalita broke me out of prison we had somewhere to go that was kindly disposed towards us and disinclined to extradite me. I miss priv..."
Blink, blink.
"Uh, Bar. Do alts have to look the same? I mean, beyond things like elf ears and - height and stuff."
They do not.
"Ah-huh."
I can't, confirms the bar. The list of items on your ship's library does not count as 'published' even if each item of its contents does.
"I'm slightly tempted to seek help from the other haut, on the immortality project if not my personal curiosity about alts project, but there are some drawbacks to that plan. Maybe if I manage to rule out enough factors and anonymize the sequence enough that I can be sure there's no way they could outright clone Lalita - usually haut don't go in for clones, but this would easily tempt an exception. Doing it myself would probably take long enough to make it impractical to get even a plausible prototype into our children. I might just acquire geneticists the way I acquired a neurologist."
"I do not plan to clone you. It wouldn't even help - here's a live you, as immortal or close to it as you are, cloning you wouldn't add new information. I would be somewhat inclined to trust a promise from the haut Empress Lisbet that she would not allow any cloning of you to happen but less inclined to believe that she could guarantee that no one would do it without her catching them. The scenario I envisioned was figuring out as much as I can on my own, removing everything about your genome that definitely isn't making you immortal because it's busy making your eyes brown or what have you, and sending that along - but I'll probably just hire my own geneticists; I can afford it."
"One hopes. If I do my own office cryptography and don't keep any wetware equipment around I can be sure none of them run away with enough of the sample to clone, and we could hope to figure out how you manage to be immortal, if the biology cooperates enough - if your world doesn't have humans who are just slightly too different to be useful to us, or something. And in that case I suppose I could live in hope that I'd find the bar again and at least get my results back to you, although you'll have a harder time doing anything with them if genetic engineering is illegal and most people are non-humans."
"Well, maybe we can give you useful things to at least partially compensate. Let's start with medicine, I know some medicine." She has some medicine on her pen, even. She calls up her textbook list and skims it. "If you have a doctor handy and neither of you is one that might be useful for figuring out what I know that's novel."
"I changed my mind. I do want to clone you. It is possible to do single-organ cloning, including just blood. I can wrap it up in every intellectual property law that exists, and if it retains these miraculous properties afterwards I can shred the DNA in the product before it ships, and I can dye it purple so nobody suspects it's blood unless I can't find a dye that cooperates with the effects, will that do?"
"It's lucky you have a hope of being able to use a thing like this. I'm planning to shift more of my activism attention to the issue after I'm done being shot at for advocating Federation admission for warp-incapable species, but I don't have a realistic hope of getting much of anywhere."
"Ship artiller is ship artillery," says Miles. "Unless it's amazing ship artillery far beyond the capacity of anything we could build, somehow, in which case it's also ship artillery that will take a long damned time to proliferate. I'm not absolutely intent on getting some, but it would be nice."
"Not with conventional ship artillery. It definitely wasn't something in common circulation. The public story blamed a small crew of Romulans acting alone and said that with their ship destroyed there were no more instances of the weapon. But the Romulans are not that much more advanced than anyone else. Vulcan's destruction was dramatic, but completely depopulating a planet would be well within the purview of large phasers or torpedos."
"The possibility nonetheless weighs somewhat heavy on my mind. It was only nineteen years ago. I would have been on that planet if it had happened a few months later, I lost my father regardless, and recently endured some unpleasantness motivated by his species' scarcity."
"Ah, yes. We don't have any nonhuman sapients, so we've been limping along without that kind of inspiration, but we have some things. I am not a doctor, but I have a master's in neuroscience and thorough non-degree training in human genetics and some background in allied fields of both and should be able to help poke along through relevant sources."
"Yes. So, I'm her, and you're apparently Asterion who I know only by secondhand report, and Lalita is half of my husband's clone Mark, and my husband has his own alt Stalas - Mark and Stalas are both are elsewhere at the moment but may be expected to reappear eventually - and Ivan over there, my husband's cousin, is an innocent bystander, at least for now. So far only Lalita and Mark are the exact same species; I'm a human, albeit a heavily genetically engineered one, whereas she's a hybrid and rumor has it you're admixed."
"Well, that barely counts, there are ba with cephalopod-derived eye anatomy designs, they're still humans - there is nothing else for them to be, unlike Isabella who clearly has something else to be. Speaking of all this, Dr. Hall, would you object to my taking a gene sample? I have no intentions whatsoever of cloning you."
"So," says Miles, "I can't help noticing..." His eyes flick to Mark and Stalas's joined hands.
And up go the two of them, Isabella with a bowl of much-missed priv, Linya with her pen and a few PADDS and a kit of stuff to take them apart with that she's been accumulating.
"Oh, hell... Uh, the garden is... temporarily missing," says Big Ivan. "There is this. Restaurant. Instead. Just for now."
"Oh," says Tiny Ivan.
"...How old are you?"
"I'm six," says Tiny Ivan. "Is your name Ivan too?"
"...Yes. My name is Ivan too."
"I'm playing solitaire. It's pretty boring. D'you want to play whirligig?"
"Yeah!"
Tiny Ivan goes over to Big Ivan's booth and Big Ivan deals them cards and whirligig ensues. Tiny Ivan cheats once. Big Ivan lets him get away with it.
"Who's that?" Tiny Ivan asks, pointing at Miles.
"...m'cousin."
"Oh." Cards.
"How about that," says Big Ivan.
Tiny Ivan makes no effort to follow up on this interesting serendipity. He beats his elder alt at whirligig instead and bounces up and down happily in his seat when this has come to pass.
"WHAT THING," calls back a girl's voice.
"IT'S JUST A THING, C'MERE."
"OKAY FINE JUST A SECOND."
Tiny Ivan waits patiently for somewhat longer than a second, and then in toddles a cute little Asian-looking girl. She trips on her way in.
"Where'd the garden go?"
"It's missing," says Tiny Ivan.
"Gardens don't go missing," says Nika. "They aren't socks. Who are these people?"
"They're named Ivan and Miles!" says Tiny Ivan. "And they're cousins, too!"
Nika squints at the people thusly named.
"N...o," he says. "Not personally, let's say. This place made part of my cousin Ivan's friend's house go missing the same way it made your garden go missing, and he got me to come look at it, and now here we are. But I know I can't be time-travelling from exactly your future because I never had a little sister, basketed or otherwise."
"It's not exactly the running around," he says. "It's more like... he's very, very disappointed that I didn't turn out the way he wanted, so he doesn't want to have anything to do with me. But he'll get better about it later. He still gave my horse a silly name, though."
There, that's just about the maximum kid-friendliness he can inject into that story.
Hello to you too, replies Bar.
Nika peers at this napkin. "You write instead of talking!"
Yes, I do.
"That makes sense, because that's also making a thing appear."
Exactly. Can I get you anything to drink?
"Uuuuuum hot chocolate."
And Nika receives a hot chocolate.
And... let's just not think about Bothari. Let's just. Not think about Bothari at all.
"You're his Ivan, right? So you don't have a Nika, either."
"Uh - yes," says Big Ivan.
"What happens to you?"
"Nothing much, really. I get dragged along on Miles things sometimes but often I can go long periods avoiding that."
Nika sighs at him. "Do you like it that nothing much happens?"
"Yes," says Ivan, "actually, I do."
"Well, okay, then."
Mother, Father (and Simon, and miscellaneous ImpSec analysts I'm sure):
Hello from the year 2998 standard. How's the Komarran Revolt going? Is David Galen dead yet? If he is, assuming these events hold true in your world: (a) he isn't, and (b) shortly he's going to scurry off to Jackson's Whole and clone me for nefarious purposes. Lord Mark turned out astonishingly well, given his childhood. I can only assume he'll do even better if you manage to rescue him nice and early, although given Lord Mark, that may not be a perfectly safe assumption.
By the way, if David Galen's son should grow up and one day decide to join the Imperial Service (approximately thirty seconds after you started letting in Komarrans, as far as I can tell), he will be an impeccably loyal officer. You couldn't ask for better. No need to worry about activating your retirement, Simon. You are right in this as in all things, Da.
What else should I tell you...
It would be a very, very good idea to let me know who Elena's mother was, and how, before any trips to Beta Colony I might take when I'm seventeen. You might consider telling her, too, but I'm the one whose stupid decision will be averted by this knowledge. Around the same time... have a care for Grandda's health. Not that I think there's anything much you or anyone could have done differently.
I am safe and well, having survived all of my miscellaneous childhood adventures and then the ones that came after. You may not find this an adequate reassurance after little Miles learns to run, but it's the best one I've got.
There's more I want to say, but I'm hesitant... I have no more secure method of communication available to me at this moment (sorry, but who memorizes what the standard ciphers were when they were five? Not even you, Simon, I bet) and a lot of the things I could tell you will do more harm in others' hands than they will do good in yours. Also, I have a moderate suspicion that this letter will be read by a four-year-old before it reaches you.
Not to mention that I have no idea just how much of my past will closely resemble your future, because in my own world, I have never had a sister.
All my love,
Lieutenant Lord Miles Naismith Vorkosigan
After signing, he gets out his grandfather's seal dagger and imprints the Vorkosigan seal in blood next to the signature. That should get them to pay attention. It should be a match for little Miles's, but little Miles's handwriting, vocabulary, and knowledge base would not be up to producing this document, not to mention the fact that little Miles has probably never been within spitting distance of his grandda's seal dagger.
"Nobody did," sighs less-little Miles. "It just sort of happened."
"And you're all grown up and you can walk! How old are you?"
"Twenty years older than you."
"Well... well stop," says little Miles indignantly. "I'm not twenty years older than me yet."
"I want a grownup me," says Nika. "If you don't want yours and I want one that isn't there that's just very silly of this magic thing, but at least it's a magic thing. And it has hot chocolate."
Which means he has to: pick up the letter (check), climb down from his barstool (check), and... approach Bothari...
...and hand him the letter. Check, check. All done.
"Oh dear sweet fu- fulminating God," breathes the elder Ivan, and he goes over to Bar and says, "Say it ain't so."
Nika is an alt of Isabella and Linyabel.
"I require," Ivan tells the bar, "a pink thing."
The bar gives it to him. It's been a while since he said he needed to be cut off for a while.
"Who're Isabella and Linyabel?" demands Nika.
Ivan declines to try to answer this question.
Miles is very, very close to throwing up his hands, declaring that he is out of his depth, ordering a pink thing, and walking out to go get drunk with the lake squid.
But he feels an obscure urge not to set that kind of example in front of his five-year-old self. Little Miles should remain convinced for as long as possible that he will grow up universally competent.
So he gets out his pen, and sends his wife a text message, angling so that no one else can read it:
More alts for everyone! If you have any idea how to handle a four-year-old you who is five-year-old me's adopted sister, please come down here immediately, because I sure as hell don't. Also, they brought Bothari. Bothari is standing in front of me holding a five-year-old Miles who is looking at me like I have personally wronged him by experiencing twenty years of life he hasn't had a chance to get around to yet. When this is all over we are going somewhere where I can crawl into your lap and cry.
I'll send Isabella down first to sidestep the awkward familial relations business while she has a looksee at the little us, unless you need me there for emotional support immediately. Isabella would like to know whether five-year-old-you is more likely to be impressed or insulting about her being half-human.
Noticeably different. Not quite as different as Lalita from Mark, but definitely not the same. Apparently she showed up on the doorstep of the Imperial Residence in a basket, and they adopted her. I'm assuming it was Mother's idea. I'm also mildly worried that they apparently never found out where the basket came from.
"I hear I have a new alt."
"Me! Are you Isabella or Linyabel?" asks Nika. "You don't look like me."
"I'm Isabella. Sometimes alts don't look that much alike," she says.
Having been presented with an alt, Nika doesn't seem to have any immediate idea of what to do with her.
I imagine you would have said so if she were haut? Four would be old enough to, I think, take my existence reasonably calmly after an explanation - I can't speak for your own little one - if she were. Isabella's best guess for a non-haut one is six but we aren't sure how much Vulcan aging rates might be confounding her guess for an heirloom human.
"That's a pretty name," says Isabella.
"Nika Madeline Vorkosigan," elaborates Nika.
"My full name is Isabella T'Mir."
Less Little Miles writes to Linya: My little alt is probably going to take our marriage as further proof that I am some kind of degenerate. I think he's having a massive case of sour grapes over the fact that I get to walk around under my own power. He's still stuck in that bloody brace.
"Where's our other one?" Nika asks Isabella.
"She's in the middle of something upstairs, but she said to tell you hello. Grownup Miles can send her a - holo, of you, if you want to let him take one, and then she'll know what you look like."
"But she looks like you?"
"Mostly, yes. She's taller and so on."
"Is she older than you?"
"No, younger. She's twenty-two and I'm almost thirty - standard."
You know what, I am very tempted to go knock on Stalas's door and ask Lalita to donate some blood. Even knowing what I'm likely to find there. Maybe it'll redeem me in Little Miles's eyes. I'd have to talk my way past Bothari with it, but I don't think that'll be all that hard. Especially if he gets to watch me make the experiment first.
"She's taking apart a piece of technology from my world so she can see how it works. She's an engineer."
"Ooh. What are you?"
"I used to be a deep space surveyor, but that was cover for bringing some technology to people on planets that didn't have it, so they'd get to join a big federated government we have in my world and use all its stuff. Then I got caught and now I can't do that anymore, so I'm a political activist."
"Ooooooh."
The dim hope that he'll turn up of his own accord, I suppose. Also, I can be down there with my medical scanner to evaluate the effects once Isabella thinks that our little one - what is her name? - will be able to live with it. I'm not sure whether to worry more that she has Barrayaran prejudices about my origins or that she'll explode when she finds out we're married.
"Ooooh. Next time I play pirates I want to play faster than light pirates."
Isabella winces.
"What?"
"Nothing, really. I ran into some people who were unpleasant but weren't pirates, once."
"Me?"
"Yes, you. You're little but you must still do things, mustn't you?"
"I... read! I read. And I ride horses. Well, I have twice, but I'm going to do it more. And I play that I'm a magic fairy."
"Are you?"
"Probably not," shrugs Nika. "But it's fun."
"That's as good a reason as any."
"Whatcha gonna get?" challenges Little Miles.
"It's a surprise," says Less Little Miles, and off he trots. Heading up now, wish me luck.
"No. He didn't tell me." Isabella hmmms, and judges that it is a reasonable time to introduce the relatively safe fact that she's not just some ordinary human. "And I always get permission before reading minds."
Nika gapes at her.
"I usually don't," says Isabella. "It wouldn't be very nice to just go around doing it all the time, don't you think?"
Nika nods. "But is it magic?"
"We don't usually call it that, but it might be a little bit magic. It's the only thing that might be magic that I can do."
Goddammit Less Little Miles hurry up.
He flomps his head onto her shoulder.
"I don't know what to do," he says. "I mean, I know what to do, obviously. Go downstairs with you and your med scanner, test the miracle cure, give it to Little Miles if it works. Hooray. I'm just having serious trouble carrying out this plan."
Fuck it. Forward momentum, right?
"And I brought my surprise," he says. "See, Miles, we met somebody earlier who has magic blood that heals people. I've had a lot of my bones replaced by now, so I didn't jump all over it right that second... but if it fixes the rest of mine, I figure maybe it'll fix yours too. How's that sound?"
Little Miles stares. "You mean I could run around and fall down and not go to the hospital?" he says incredulously. "Yeah!"
"Well," says Less Little Miles, "I'll go first. To make sure it works."
And dose number one of magic blood.
"And now we wait, I guess. Sorry it isn't very exciting-looking magic."
"You better not be fibbing about the magic," says a scowling Little Miles.
"I don't know for sure about it, but as far as I know, there's no good reason it shouldn't work," says Less Little Miles. "My word as Vorkosigan."
This actually succeeds in shutting Little Miles up.
"You better not let me win," warns Little Miles.
"I wouldn't dream of it," says Less Little Miles.
"All right," says Little Miles.
Less Little Miles procures the game from Bar, and - knowing that Bothari won't want to put the kid down for a second - sits at a table, where Bothari will have room to sit down across from him with Little Miles in his lap.
And Nika's grownups (in between Linya's checks of her husband's medical progress) talk to Nika about various things and indulge her with another hot chocolate when she seems too likely to start asking personal questions of Linya that would lead to incriminating results.
Despite several close calls, the grownup Miles manages not to expand his younger alt's vocabulary in any unfortunate directions. But they definitely yell a lot of age-appropriate things at one another.
"That means it's working, right?" says Little Miles, leaning forward eagerly.
"It sure seems to!"
"Awesome," says Little Miles. "Can we do mine now?"
"I don't think it's done working on me yet... might as well wait and see how good it's going to get," says Less Little Miles.
"Sure," says Little Miles. They go straight back to yelling at each other about Strat-O, but more happily.
Nika has whipped cream on her nose again. Her alts don't mention it. Nika eventually figures it out for herself and wipes it off.
Linya periodically reports on percentages, as much to keep Nika occupied talking about Isabella's world instead of wondering where Linya is from as to inform people of anything. "Fifteen percent. Eighteen. We're looking for a one hundred forty percent increase above its baseline reading before you're within normal ranges, although it's already substantially improved. This is a lot of metabolism to be doing without eating anything, aren't you hungry?"
"Because you were too busy getting your butt kicked," says Little Miles smugly.
"You wish, kid."
And back to their game. Perhaps someone should get Less Little Miles some food.
When Little Miles actually manages to win a game, he gets very excited and waves his arms in celebration. Grownup Miles sits back in his chair and glowers.
"How about we play something else now?"
"You just don't wanna lose again," says Little Miles, accurately. "Loser."
"Oh yeah?" says Grownup Miles, narrowing his eyes. "Fine. Let's play Strat-O again."
"So she's from Vulcan which is some planet that isn't a planet in my world. Where are you from?"
"I travel a lot -"
"But where are you from?"
"Don't interrupt."
Nika just stares at her intently.
"I live on Barrayar like you, actually."
"Were you born there?"
"...No."
"So where were you born?"
"Eta Ceta."
"But still," says Nika.
"Nika, all the things you've heard about happened long before I was born."
Nika scoots closer to Isabella instead. Isabella checks her ponytail half-consciously.
Grownup Miles sighs.
"'Bad' and 'Cetagandan' are not synonymous. On my word, she's fine," he says.
"Fine," grumbles Little Miles. "But you better not have more weird stuff you're not telling me."
...ulp.
"You do!" says Little Miles, pointing accusingly at his alt. "You do have more weird stuff! Tell me all the weird stuff right now!"
Grownup Miles winces.
"Try'n stop me," says Little Miles.
"No shrieking or I just won't tell you the rest of the things."
"...No shrieking," agrees Little Miles, very grudgingly.
"All right," says Grownup Miles. He glances over at the Linya-cluster to see if Nika's grownups verify her as ready to hear weird things.
"I'm a Cetagandan you. I can check just how not-related we are if you want to see. And we didn't know anything about alts or other worlds until today, so we couldn't really take it into account."
"But you're a me and he's a my brother."
"Nika, you're adopted anyway."
"But he's my BROTHER."
"Too bad."
"I'm married to her anyway," says Grownup Miles.
"Well... well stop!"
"Just like I should stop being twenty-five? I'll get right on that," he says, rolling his eyes.
"Get a divorce."
"I actually pretended to do that once, to save her from some people who wanted to kill me," says Miles. "They said they'd let her go if she got a divorce and promised not to rescue me. But it wasn't legally binding because Da wasn't there, and anyway we got rescued by other people before I could finish."
Little Miles is almost distracted by the impressiveness of this story.
"Are there any left?"
"Can't think of any," says Miles honestly. He feels that the exact occupation of Stalas, Mark, and Lalita upstairs is something his five-year-old self still wouldn't want to know even adjusting for his demand to be told all the things he won't like hearing. (And last Miles saw them, they appeared to be having a ticklefight anyway.)
"Then I guess I'm done yelling about them," says Little Miles. "Even though I didn't hardly."
"And now," says Grownup Miles, "you can go back to yelling at me about Strat-O." He makes a move.
Little Miles giggles. "Deal!"
"Well, yes, sort of," acknowledges Linya. "But -"
"I know, I know, I'm adopted. But who'm I going to marry?"
"You could skip it if you wanted, I imagine. Or find somebody else and then have to explain to a three-year-old you that it's okay."
Nika snorts.
"A pen? Like that thing you're writing notes under the table with?" says Little Miles.
"...Yes," says Grownup Miles.
"I want one too!"
Bar recommends a vegetable-laden pasta in a green sauce and a slice of cake and a cup of hot apple cider. Linya brings it over.
"You're bringing him his food," observes Nika.
"We are, in fact, really and truly, married," Linya says, and to prove the point she kisses her husband on the top of his head. "So sometimes I do things like that."
I don't control the door, but your Ivan is already not a human.
Nika blinks at this napkin.
"Ivaaan," she says, "you didn't tell me you weren't a human."
(Grownup Miles is impressed with his younger self's craftiness. That is some well-targeted outrage right there.)
"Am I a thing?" Nika demands.
Yes. You're a dragon.
"I'm a dragon!" crows Nika. "Come on, Ivan, find out what you are!"
Ivan debates with himself, then shuffles over to the bar and says, "What?"
Firebird, diagnoses the bar.
"Okay, so how do we get rid of our transform illusions?" asks Nika, clapping her hands.
That requires the application of magic objects I am unable to dispense.
"...Oh."
"M'lord..." murmurs Bothari.
"I wanna be a unicorn," says Little Miles. "...But only if I could turn back, though. I could turn back, right?"
"Magic books! I want all the magic books!" says Nika.
"Why," says Tiny Ivan, "are we things?"
I can't identify where you got it from without your biological parents present.
"...My birth parents are dragons?" concludes Nika.
At least one of them is or was, assuming nothing unusual is going on.
"...Da or Mama is a unicorn?"
Presumably.
The picture shows a bear. With scary eyes and ridiculously big claws.
"I want a dragons book," Nika says.
Bar gives her one. There are six different dragons photographed together on this cover, all different sizes and shapes and colors. This book is about three times as thick as the bugbears one and by the same publisher, though not the same author.
"The bugbear in the picture looks soft," opines Nika. "And big, I bet you could ride one like a horse."
"Well, give us the some, then," says Nika. "I am not learning to fly right now and that is not okay."
They're very advanced, but you could start here, replies Bar with handwriting that looks like it's trying to sigh, and there appears a textbook: Runecasting 1: Principles and Practices (Riddle Press, Tau Ceti).
(Bothari has that face he gets when Miles is being very Miles.)
"You have a project, little one," Linyabel murmurs to Nika.
"I do! I have a project and am a dragon!" crows Nika.
It occurs to Linyabel to ask: "Does one need to be a... transformatively illusionable creature... to learn this kind of magic?"
The Bar is slow to answer, but says, No.
"Have these books been published in a nice electronic format?"
Most of them.
"I would like my own set."
"Are we taking the books back now, m'lord?"
"Not yet. I still have to beat Grownup Me at Strat-O again," says Little Miles.
"I want my own ones," Nika says. "But, I don't care if they're flimsies or not."
"Bar, if I could get a converter to put my electronic forms on a pen charger for her..."
Linya receives the requested object. She starts converting the electronic books. "Well, this is a day of uncharacteristic expenditure, but I'm pretty sure I should put it all in the 'investment' column."
"Don't blame you," says Big Ivan. "Don't let your cousins give you any magic objects. Sounds like you get to be pretty much a normal human if you don't have one."
Tiny Firebird Ivan nods gravely.
There are no published books about unicorns.
"Huh. Why not?"
Perhaps they are particularly uncommon.
"Huh. Okay, but we do need a firebirds book."
She gets her firebirds book.
"...And the whole rest of that series? Please Linyabel?"
"You aren't going to break my budget with an entire libraryful of books, little one."
"Okay so all of the series of the history of whatever."
Nika receives her requested books. And returns to incredulity at her cousin. "Why don't you want to fly?"
"I don't know, I just, I want to be a human," says Tiny Firebird Ivan.
"Bar," says Linya, "who publishes these textbooks, exactly? I mean, there's names, but."
I don't know anything beyond what's contained in the volumes themselves.
"So you might not have to invent that many things. You might be able to go to - Tau Ceti - and find these editors and learn what they know."
"Oh, that makes sense," agrees Nika.
And she goes back to magic textbooks.
"Are all of your grownups besides Bothari somewhere you can't go?" wonders Linya. "We're sending you home with so much stuff..."
"They're at a," handwave, "thing. So's Gregor. There's servants? I guess?"
"Bothari satisfies the 'is an adult' criterion by himself; what I was hoping was that we could send you to fetch one of the people you're going to be explaining this to..."
Nika shrugs. "You could write them letters, too."
"I think I will. Here, we'll switch seats and Isabella will tell you the words you haven't learned yet while I do that."
There is reshuffling.
"They did it."
"My name and Isabella's both have the sound 'bel' in them, and 'mir' in our second names. If you wanted to find your dragon birth parents that might be a hint that Simon couldn't have found on his own, if you used to have a different name with that sound."
"Huh. Okay. I like my name now just fine though."
"It's pretty."
"Read me a story," Tiny Ivan says to his alt.
"Sure. What story do you want?"
"I dunno. Something good."
Ivan goes to the bar and borrows a copy of some adventure story he liked when he was seven, which tiny Ivan will not have read yet. He reads tiny Ivan the adventure story.
Cetagandan Grownup Nika checks. "About halfway done," she reports. "It would probably be safe to take you out of the brace now, although I suspect you'd immediately try to run around at top speed, and while you probably wouldn't break anything if you walked you might still do if you slammed into a wall."
When the food is gone, and his bones are done, and his sister has been informed by Bothari that she must wait to teach him to walk until it's clear that the results will persist beyond the magic bar, and various last-minute purchases for the little alts have been made and packed up for transportation, and Linya and Isabella have both picked up and hugged their little one and enclosed letters to her various grownups, and Tiny Ivan has had his hair ruffled and been advised against trying aged fish and in favor of being nice to Koudelka girls -
the small alts, and Bothari, and boxes upon boxes of stuff, go home.
It's Linya who produces the picture from her pen: her balancing Nika on her hip with one arm and taking the holo with the other hand, Isabella standing on Nika's other side, Nika gesturing expansively and beamingly. In the background, Mileses playing Strat-O and one Ivan reading to another Ivan are visible.
"The duffel bag in question would have to be fairly enormous," says Miles. "I don't really think you could plausibly claim that everyone just forgot they saw you bring it in. We could, I don't know, dress them both up as me and have us all leave as unobtrusively as possible by different exits. With somebody to shepherd Stalas. As long as no one actually sees all three of us in the same room, 'which way did he go and when' is the sort of thing people are pretty willing to have their memories quietly revised about. 'Was she or was she not carrying Father Frost's sack of presents when she came in a few minutes ago' is... less that way. I could easily imagine someone deciding that you were making off with the family silver or some damn thing, and demanding to see in the bag."
"There's a back staircase, leads to a door that goes out near the quail. I could show it to Stalas and he can meet Miles and Linyabel and the Armsman she brought after they go out the front, and then I can go up the back stair again, get Vivienne's sweater, and resume like nothing happened."
"I mean, we do have a a more or less complete accounting of all the obviously profitable exchanges between applicable worlds, or we wouldn't have sent the little ones home already, but I am concerned that the moment we step out, six more sets of alts with more fascinating trade goods are going to come in."
"I might be about ready to go, myself. I'm not in quite as good a position as you are to exploit what we've already got. After a certain point it amounts to narcissistic curiosity about all the myriad ways I can exist, and that's worth some loitering but possibly not a week's worth."