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She freezes immediately, every muscle locking in place like she's a statue. Her palms are both turned towards the training dummy, at a slight angle from each other, one right above the dummy's left breast and one to the right of its center, only a few inches away from its surface. Her hits were sufficiently powerful that the sudden stop caused a small clap of air around her hands.
The Fist starts to walk between the apprentices in the yard, examining their form critically. He issues wordless corrections here and there, lifting someone's arm by half an inch or adjusting the angle of their stance by a degree.
Annika's form is perfect, as usual.
"Continue," he says, once he's done a full round of the yard.
The Fist usually leaves before all of the apprentices, ostensibly to let them unwind and socialise without the pressure of an instructor around, but Annika usually leaves right after him because she wants to do neither of those things. Still, she's surprised to see him waiting for her like that.
"Thank you, Fist Joo Tae-seo."
"You may."
It transpires that the location he's leading her two is one of the gardens, the one with the weeping willows. It's the season for them to flower, so the gardens are particularly pretty right now. He walks along the babbling brook, arms folded behind his back, looking up at the trees and sky, seemingly perfectly content to wait however long she needs.
She watches him for a bit. He's wearing the instructor's gi, loose around his body except for the belt keeping his trousers up. He's extremely muscled under the gi, the kind of person you might say "built like a house" about, and his head is shaved. That's someone who has spent decades honing their body until it became a precisely controlled weapon.
"...your footsteps, Fist-nim."
She quashes the instinct to make an annoyed noise. It'd be disrespectful. "There is nothing more important in the world. I don't want... glory or fame. And I'm not... I don't talk about it because everyone thinks it's childish. That I'm just saying it. So I don't say it. But I want to do it. It's only going to be people who want to do it that will do it, so someone has to."
"So the reason to learn your current forms is to learn your future forms. The reason to learn your future forms is to learn the ones that come after. And the reason to do it all is to drive Surt away.
"And the reason to seek perfection in your current forms, then, must be because they will somehow help you defeat Surt. But if they are already perfect enough, if your instructor is telling you that you should move on..."
"I see you understand, now. Do not focus on perfecting every single aspect of everything you do. Do not focus on perfection at all, except in service of your goal. In fact, seek to work as little as possible, while still reaching your goal. The necessary perfections will be achieved on your way there; you will know what to do next, not because it perfects you, but because it brings you closer to your goal."
Prontera, capital of the Kingdom of Rune-Midgard, is not as cosmopolitan as an Eden Group lounge but it's definitely aiming for something like it. It's by far the largest city in the Kingdom, and it is, to a large extent, "where it's all at". The palace, the guard and the army, the Cathedral of the Church of Odin, the Prontera Merchant Strip, Odin's Plaza, the Blacksmith Guild. Adventurers have Eden, but everyone else has Prontera.
And the St. Capitolina Abbey, where prospective monks can train their bodies and minds to razor-sharp points, is a short walk from it, and it's where Annika and Taharqi are coming from.
Even when not training she's still dressed like a monk: handwraps and footwraps and chestwraps and the loose trousers tied to her waist and ankles. The only concession to casualness she's made was a loose tunic and a satchel over her shoulder. "Where are we going?"
The restaurant is decorated like the owner wanted to cram in as many elements of Amatsu culture into a single place as they could: paper lanterns, cherry blossoms, tiny trees, ideograms painted in fake inkbrush, serpentine dragons, the whole shebang. It results in an atmosphere that you can't quite find anywhere else—certainly not in Amatsu itself—and it has its own charm.
Annika looks... curious. There's a spark of interest in her eye as she takes in the environment, her gaze barely moving but nevertheless looking at everything.
(She can't do the thing Fists can, where they only need a single glance at something to know almost everything they need to know about it, but she's been practising, and she will resist the urge to move her eyes every which way.)
"I didn't care about him, understand," he says, which is only about 70% true. "But I cared about my sister. My aunt. My friends. Everyone Surt took from me. From everyone else. And I don't want him to take anyone anymore. And I want to drive my dagger through whatever passes for his skull and watch the light go out of his eyes, even if just for a moment. And I don't want him to take anyone, anywhere, anymore. It's been too long."
She... doesn't think she's seen this guy be serious like this before. But it starts making sense of him, a little bit, of how he seemed to be... good. Driven. Skilled. She didn't understand what drove him, when he was coming off like a spoiled boy with nothing at stake, but this? She can get behind this.
"Why do you want me?"
"And that's why I want you. Because you didn't have a story, you didn't have a reason, you saw the biggest problem in the world and you decided that it could not stand and that if no one else was going to do anything about it you would. You looked at your options, you thought about it for a long time, and you decided on the path that was most likely to get you what you wanted and you went for it. Nothing will stand in your way."
...that's all correct, yes, and she's a bit annoyed that he knows so much about her but she guesses it might have been obvious? Fist Joo Tae-seo didn't think it was so obvious a few weeks ago when she told him about it but maybe it's obvious when you pay attention to the right things. "You could've said all of that earlier."
"I mean it. You have trouble trusting people, trusting that anyone else wants this as much as you do. You have a hard time connecting to people, when everyone else looks at the same problems you do and doesn't see what a screaming emergency it is and why we should all be pouring everything we've got into it. And so even if you believe my words with your head right now, I'll still need to win your heart. I want you to be comfortable with me."
Payon, the Mountain Village, earned its moniker from the fact that it's situated at the foot of a mountain (though people from the Republic of Schwarzwald would argue that it's more of a hill), which distinguishes it from most other settlements in the Kingdom of Rune-Midgard. That's far from its most notable feature, though: you can barely see the mountain, as the village is embedded sufficiently deep within a forest the trees and the canopy block its view, and the Archers' Guild is located there, too. The more relevant feature for Annika and Taharqi, though, is the cave.
Directly north of the village is a seemingly-natural cave that leads underground, but not into the mountain, and in recent times—the past two or three hundred years—this cave has been used by locals to bury their dead. Over time, they've had to go deeper and deeper, and eventually they found... a city. Or the ruins of one, an earlier version of Payon that got somehow buried underground and forgotten after centuries. And even before magic resurfaced in the world a hundred years ago, there were spirits and demons there, if only a few.
Magic resurfaced in the world, and now there are more than only a few.
"The seals are sufficient most of the time," the old priestess says, gesturing at the lip of the cave, which has a couple of pieces of paper attached to it with runes on them, as well as several more remnants of what were probably other pieces of paper that got burnt to ashes. "They get worn out, over time, and have to be put back up, but we have strapling adventurers coming over to train against the zombies all the time, and it's usually not a problem and they can hold the zombies back."
She sighs. "It's been... worse, recently. More zombies, reforming more quickly, being stronger. We've had to replace the seals three times over the last week, when it used to be once every month or two. The adventurers aren't enough to stem the tide, anymore. And we don't know what changed."
"It's... a delicate matter. Adventurers are not..." She is talking directly to two of them and should not be disparaging. "Most adventurers are not respectful of the dead, and we fear what they'd do, if they came in higher numbers for more than just training against some undead." Even that is disrespectful, in her opinion, "training". The point of it is to help those souls find rest, not becoming stronger. But she's too practical-minded to complain, and they don't have enough hands to deal with the problem without adventurers to help. "We want a lighter touch, and discretion and care." Which she doesn't know if these two can offer, but, well, it's probably still better than anyone who happened to see a bounty ad, that these two came well-recommended.
"Actually, yes. Do you happen to have a map, even if not totally accurate, of your best reckoning of what the cave is like? And may I have a look at your seals, as well as, if possible, a record of the rates of their decay over time and how many undead have been emerging? Also..."
"This is about as far as I can go," says the person Mother Ga-in got to serve as their guide. According to the map, every other path in this cave leads to a dead end, and this corridor is the only one that'll take them further down. And rather than just a few paper seals taped to the walls, a proper wooden fence and door were built there, with multiple seals hanging from ropes attached to the ceiling and walls.
All but three of the seals are completely burnt off.
She shrugs and turns back around to examine the door and the remaining seals. The undead they've dealt with so far have not been particularly dangerous, and while unlike some monks she is not particularly specced for Life- and Light-elemental attacks she can modify her stuff on the fly to include it and that makes her punches hit the zombies quite a lot harder than they otherwise would, which was already pretty hard.
They were really very numerous, though, and she can hear the vague echoing of their collective shuffling in the distance.
"These seals are more powerful than the ones outside."
She felt some of this when she stepped into the cave but past these seals she feels it a lot more keenly: a sudden drop in temperature, like she just got past some invisible barrier that was keeping the cold isolated from the outside. Except it's not cold—they were deep enough in that it had already been very cold—but rather something like the absence of a more fundamental kind of warmth, like the feeling of being surrounded by life.
Annika isn't surrounded by life, here. She is surrounded by its distinct lack, and her soul is pushing against its boundaries to try to fill the negative space left by it, and that feels... cold.
There are more undead here, shambling zombies and skeletons aiming for the adventurers as soon as they notice them. Despite Mother Ga-in's worries about the resting places of souls, it is deeply unclear if anyone's souls are still in there, with the way these creatures don't seem to respond to any stimuli and just mindlessly attack. And they go down easy, as easy as the ones closer to the surface, even if they're more numerous.
The first new thing down here is horongs: small floating purple balls of flame that often hang around haunted sites and cemeteries. No one really has an idea of why they exist or what they are—people have theorised that they might be ghosts, but most scholars and priests agree that they're probably not—and they tend to not be very aggressive—except when they are. But that doesn't mean they're harmless; even when they're not being aggressive, just their presence starts draining the vitality of any living thing around them, and spending too long near one will make you feel cold and lethargic and tired until you either waste away or (more often) are picked off by something more dangerous nearby.
Okay that's more concerning. Actual ghosts are actually reasonably rare, and the seals used in the burials are most often meant to keep dark influences away from the dead rather than the other day around. The dead are supposed to find their way, on their own, and it usually takes rather a lot to keep them here.
(The image that comes to mind, then, is that of the Lord of Glastheim. If something like that found its way into this cave—or maybe was buried here all along—the whole village might need to be evacuated. She hopes it's not that.)
And Annika's main job is making sure they can't do that. She does this by being right up in their faces and distracting them with inescapable blows, while being able to soak up a lot of damage raw, in addition to having decent self-regeneration. Plus, she's less affected by the psychic aspect of the ghosts' attacks, inhabiting a nearly unshakable meditative state of mind.
There are more undead, and dead, and spirits. Every now and then, they hear a bell, and they follow its sound. And as they do, these ruins become stranger and stranger.
The ceiling is high—very, very high—their path goes further underground, and the ceiling doesn't follow, until they can't see it anymore. There are trees, petrified somehow, their leaves gone. The buildings get less and less ruined and dilapidated. These lanterns were probably not lit by the living.
It's like a whole village got teleported underground, unchanged, and preserved in stasis, except for all of its inhabitants.
"What's up?" he reappears to ask. He's trying to project his usual aura of cheer but he's clearly being affected by the spiritual pressures a lot more than Annika is: there's this tension in the corners of his eyes, and a vein in his neck is pulsating, and he's doing his best not to wet his lips too often even though his mouth feels dry.
Annika hasn't managed the trick of maintaining five spirit spheres up, but she can do two, and that'll have to do. She closes her eyes, breathes in, and finds her center. This isn't difficult, as she's been maintaining close focus on it in order to resist the influence of the demon or spirit, but now she needs to look directly at it and it takes some concentration.
Then she splits two pieces off her soul and externalises them. It's about as unpleasant as it sounds. They'll regenerate, eventually, and they're being propped up by mana, but she can definitely feel the lack. They take the shape of small blue spheres floating lazily around her, available for her to eventually use when needed and useful.
...he's wide open. Anyone could sneak up on him.
She guesses the thing she's feeling but multiplied a hundredfold might explain it? But it seems like a very maladaptive reaction, to become worse at surviving when he needs it most.
Still, she can wait for him to get over whatever it is he's going through, and watch his back for him.
If he were on his own he wouldn't have let his guard drop this far. It's only because she's here that he's allowing himself to show this much vulnerability.
Being visible... helps. Annika having visible reactions to his presence helps. He had been starting to feel intense amounts of unreality, like he didn't exist and the world was just moving on without him, like he died at some point and didn't notice and his soul just kept walking. This, here, feels more like he's part of the world, even if there's still constant external pressure to convince him otherwise. There's another person right here and it. Helps. A lot.
The silhouette does eventually resolve into a young teenage girl, sitting cross-legged on the ground.
...a teenage foxgirl sitting cross-legged on the ground.
She's holding a long wooden stick with a bell at the end, and the bell's jingles happen whenever she adjusts her sitting position. Her chin-length, golden hair hides the spot where ears would be on a human, but a furry pair of fox ears poking out of the top of her hair suggests there wouldn't be any. There are various patches of golden fur on her body, and her hands and feet are replaced by digitigrade paws (with opposable thumbs in the case of the hands). Her eyes are red and slitted and reflect light like a cat's.
She has nine fox tails, each about as long as her whole body.
Taharqi seems to have, if anything, dropped his guard completely, seemingly completely ignoring that this might become a fight. He slows his steps, too, and extends his hands slightly out, palms forward. This of course doesn't make him any less dangerous, it takes a fraction of a blink of an eye for him to have his daggers in hand, but it's the thought that counts.
The girl is hugging her knees and staring off into the distance, rocking back and forth slowly and looking very distracted. The mounting pressure of unreality morphs into sharp spikes pushing against the skin of their souls, almost turning into physical pain in their hearts and lungs, making it feel like they can't breathe.
And then the girl notices them and spins around, dropping to all fours and baring her teeth. Her ears press flat against her head and her tails stick out back, taut. A high-pitched sound comes out of the back of her throat, a long continuous whine on the verge of becoming a scream.
"Easy, easy," he says, in a low voice, not showing his teeth, and spreading his hands a bit farther away from his body. "We're not here to hurt you, we're not enemies." The previous tension he'd been showing has almost entirely evaporated, though he's still sweating. The feeling isn't gone, but he's focusing on something more important, now.
It also gives him time to readjust himself, psychologically and spiritually. The foxgirl's strong reaction is also grounding, though perhaps less than it could be, since she's the source of the feeling and if anyone would be able to perceive someone who doesn't exist it would be a fox spirit. Still, he can try to, as Annika does, find his center, and ground himself in his body.
After several minutes of watching them she does start to relax, hiding her teeth again and slowly letting her ears perk up and point at the two of them. Her tails are still mostly held rigid, but there's some give, now, a couple of them being a bit more relaxed than others, their tips flicking here and there.
So... this is meant to be the temple? Taharqi looks around and, yeah, he can see the open area being a temple's garden, now that he thinks about it. There's a dry pond with a petrified tree over there, there are walls or fences roughly surrounding this area, and the main temple building would probably be farther into the cave.
"And you don't know who the attackers are?"
She pulls the stick with the bell closer to her body so she can hold it between her leg and her shoulder and looks at her other hand. Then she looks down at her feet, and notices the various patches of golden fur.
She notices a tail, awkwardly flapping next to her.
She reaches up and finds her fox ears.
"...how... did this happen?"
The spiritual pressure starts to rise again, immediately around her, as a golden-blue aura slowly begins to swirl.
Another wave of pressure stronger than anything they've experienced so far hits him all at once hard enough to make him stagger, and he turns around and empties the contents of his stomach on the floor. The psychological pillars he built for himself are shattered just like that and he loses all ability to hold together, zero to a hundred all at once.
His vision is going dark, but seeing isn't really a thing he does. Other people see. Not him.
Other people? He isn't people. He isn't here.
And if he were here, he shouldn't be. He should be somewhere else. If he were. Which he isn't.
He throws up again, but this time it's just bile. If he existed, he would know that he's on his hands and knees, but he doesn't.
T̸̨̟̃ȟ̴̲͇e̷̺̅̕ ̷̘̜̊͂f̶̨̰̊̾o̵̙̒͘x̶̥̃̊ ̵̢͓̄̀s̵̻͗p̴͙͂͑ī̴͇r̷͈͋ͅĩ̷̳̋t̶͍̝̆ ̸̲͆͗i̸̳̖̽̌s̷̢̥̈̈ṋ̴̈́'̸̟̱̊̏t̵̫͒͝ ̵̡̂d̴̗̊õ̴͔i̷̗̇ṉ̸̑̄g̴̛̼̣̽ ̸̻͚̈́á̶̟̹͐n̸̘͂͊y̷̡̥̐̕t̸͙̐͜h̸̨́ḭ̷́͌ń̵̮g̵̑͌͜,̶̭̘͒ ̵̺̈́̉h̵̬̀̎é̴̟̗r̵͔͖̕s̵̼̻̊e̸̗͝l̵̗͑͗f̵̛̳̲͆,̵̪͉̈́ ̶͎͈͑ê̵̩x̶̙͝c̴͈̃e̸̪̅p̶̘̮͑̇ț̶̩͛ ̶̫͂ṯ̴̗́͝ȁ̶̙̘͗l̵͈̋͝k̶̺̟̈́́i̸̪͔̓͑n̷̉̍͜g̶̯̻͒̋ ̵̼̓͆t̶͈̊̏o̸͚̭͑̓ ̵͎̙̈h̴̜̟̆e̵̻̩͘r̶̩̤͊s̷̘̈́ę̷́l̶̩̕f̴̱͓̏,̶̞̟̑ ̴̧̍b̴̦̼̐̃u̷̱͋͌t̵̖̰̓ ̸̝̜̔̌t̷̡͂h̷͚̿͊ǎ̴͚͍̂t̴̥̃ ̴͎̀̎s̵̙̬̓ẽ̵̩̯̕ȅ̷̝̚m̷̭̪̎̉s̵͕̍ ̶͍͒ẗ̵͇́̃ơ̸̥̩̊ ̸̮̞̓b̶͇̃e̴̖͗̏ ̶̟̪̋̊e̷͔̎n̶͓͆ő̷̢̑ǘ̵͖͕͘g̷̮͊̕h̷̺̄̎.̶̤̙͗̐ ̵̩͇͋M̵͉̟͆̓ḙ̵͑͂m̶̭̺͒ô̷͍̳̐ř̷̼̮i̶͎͖̍e̸̛̺̟͠ś̴̜̮ ̸̯͛̎f̷͕̻̀ḭ̶̰̓g̷͙͍͊̈́h̶͔̳̀ṱ̵͕̈ ̸̗̄t̶̙͍̓̇h̵̹̺̓ȅ̵̝ï̵̬̥̕r̴̲̀ ̴̡͆͠ẅ̴͉̤́ą̶̧̒̿y̵̯͔͊̌ ̷̩̄t̷̥͔͌ỏ̶̳ ̸͎̦̃t̵̻̟̾͋ḫ̴̇e̶͙͝ ̸̞̦̈ś̶̗͊u̸̟̇͠r̴̛͍̬̅f̷͕̂ả̸̲̞̚c̷͚͕͊͝e̴̫̹͛͛,̶̟́͘ ̶̠̤̚o̵̭͒̚f̷̟̰͆͑ ̴̖̙͆t̶̝̺̐̓h̶͔͇̐e̷͉͓̎̒ ̶͎̯̏̍p̵̛̣̰̽ę̴̉o̴̝̳̚̕p̴͉͓̀̿l̶͕̥̍͘ḛ̵̆̈́ ̵̧͕̍̓w̶̜̣̉͘h̷͖̒͜ō̶͚̋ ̷̜̤̑̚n̴̛̠̬̐o̷̡͋ ̵̛̼̼l̴͕̈́ȯ̶̠ň̵̦͓g̴̙͠e̶̼͋ṛ̷̚ ̴̛̼̮̉ẹ̵͍͐͛x̵͙̂͛ỉ̶̲s̷̓̕ͅt̸͕͚̿,̷͍͍̋͘ ̵̛͍̲͗b̷̬̭̒̉ë̷̼́ͅc̶̐͛ͅa̶͖̮͗̉ǔ̵̦͍̈s̸͇͗é̴̬̥ ̵̧̅̂ṱ̷̐̽h̴̺̿é̷̥͚ ̴̤́f̶̣͙̽́ȍ̸̞̈x̶͉̘͛ ̷̬̟̔ṡ̵̼͖p̴̠̈́̏i̶̡͗r̸̺̽ì̷̤ͅt̴͇̃͘ ̴͇̂m̵̮̃ͅa̴͇̓ḍ̴͙̓̐ę̸̈́͝ ̶̰͉̄t̶̠̫͝h̷͓̄̈́e̴͓̓m̷̻̽͘ ̶͚̝̊͂ṋ̶̜̈́õ̶͓̒t̴̢͕̓̈́ ̸̺͉̋̀é̸̘̔x̸̭̬͗ĭ̸̙̤͛s̶̟͚̎t̵̼̚.̷̠͐̍ ̵͓̠͗̊Ļ̴̎e̴͕̍̉͜ś̸̭́ș̴̫͋͐ ̴̩͉́̎ť̸̯̪̍h̶͙̲͗̍a̷͈̾͝n̶̤̿ ̵̮̓g̶̢̙̚h̴͎̻̽͘ò̸̬̍s̸̫̾̂t̷̥̐s̵̞͘̕ͅ,̸̪͖̾͋ ̷͇͙͌̅b̷̰͂̂ę̸͠c̷̢̥̐a̴̝̗̍̊ũ̷̻s̴̮̉͠ȩ̵̓͜ ̴̜͆g̵̠͛͋h̸̲̄̂o̷̢̹͛̾s̸̤̗͂t̶̬̦̋ṡ̶̛̰͇ ̷̫͊š̸̫̕t̷͚͉̏̀i̸̮̔l̷̦̦̓̔l̷͇̀̀ ̸̭̺̌͘ā̶͚̥r̸̖̳̋̏ë̶̢́ͅ,̶͙͔̈́ ̶̡̄ȃ̸̩̮͝n̶͉̊̃d̶̩̞̆́ ̸̛͚͊ṫ̵̟̝ḥ̸̌é̴̳̐y̵͚̫̏ ̶̳̕w̵̻͖̾̓e̶̖͔͋̆r̶͖̍e̸͎̍̓n̷̦̈́̕'̷̱̃͝t̵̥̎.̶̼̉̋ͅ ̷̳̒̄ͅN̵͉̈́͋o̸̦͆͜ ̵̘̇ǫ̸̜̎ṉ̶͐ẽ̸̤̞ ̶͈̋s̴̻͝h̴̠̥͘o̴̙̐̊ū̵̘̗ḷ̸̑d̶͕̓͗ ̴̬̼͌͂b̴̝̀͂e̸̖̤̍̔.̸̺̭̂̒ ̵̳̑̚N̴͖̤̍̃o̵̠̓t̵͎͝h̴͎͠͝ị̴̇n̶͖̊͝g̴͍̪̑̿ ̵͚̃̍ͅs̴͍͐̕h̶̢̾̔ͅo̶̪̿̕ù̸̞̻l̶̘̈́̑d̷̻̽̈ ̸̲̎b̶̫̋͌e̷̞̩̍̌.̵̢̓
Ş̴͕̪̜̂̓h̷̟̅̄̓́̏e̴͈̮̣̭͒̈̎͜͝ ̸̫͔͐r̴̤̒͌̓̽͠ȅ̷̫̙͂̎à̶̡̢̰͔͍̏̎̚c̸̡̯͔̀h̶͍͓͛̋̾̋͒ë̷͔͔́̈́̄̆̈́s̸̗͊̆͂̾ ̴̧̰͔̌̔̀̂h̷̛̭̜̯̞͑͗͛̇i̸̯̥̋͂m̸͈̩̬͚̋,̸̠̈́̀̓͗̀ ̷̬̃͋̾f̸̘̩͙̒͗͒̚i̴̘̝̝̐̒ṉ̶̳̹̿̚͝a̷̡̖͕̩͓̔l̷̹̪̲̍l̸̢̳̇̅̎̓̋y̵̡̱̲̙͕̋̄͛̕,̸̢̣̙̱͓́ ̶̨̠̲̤̫̇̎͝à̸͈͙̱̅͂̇n̵̙̜͓̈́̏̕͘͜d̴͕̩̈́͐̂ ̴̖̦͙͙͐̓͗̎a̴͓̞̅ṡ̸͖͗̋͆́ ̷̯̽̆̓s̶̡͉̝̒̕̚ö̵̖́ȯ̶̹ͅn̴̘̊̈́̀̅͠ ̸͕̽̓͠a̷̤̝͇͛̇͊ͅs̷͎̉̄̚ ̸͉̯̻̿̓̅̉̕s̴̬͛h̵̯̭̙͔͑̉̊͜e̷̼̅̈́̅ ̵͙̖͆̓̈́ḥ̷̞̅a̷̛͓͔̘͎͋̽͠s̸̛̼͓̫̋ ̶̗̤̋͂̈́h̵̢̠͆̊̌͝͠ḛ̸́̐̐ṙ̷̨̯̳͚͚́̇̐ ̷̩̮̲̤̆h̷̛̳̼͚͍͕͆̇a̸̢̤̣̫͍͒̑̌ṉ̶̡͛̑̎̉̌d̴̨̥̈́̎̎̌š̷̡̥̻̗̌̈̾̔ ̶̬̱͛̏ô̶̭̲͚n̶̳̥̟̰͈̈́ ̴̱͓͕̮̓h̵̜̪̳̔̓̀͑͠i̷̧͕͊͐͆m̷̡̭̙͎̽̀͆͐͝ ̷̧̠̠͈̱̓͗̀t̶͖̟͑̆h̶̛̬͕͓̥͚̀͂͝ē̴̠̺̣̘̔͂r̶͙͖͚̎̀̍̂̚͜e̷̥̺̣̹̍̃ͅ'̷̟͊̾s̷̱̦͉̓̀́̍̕ ̶͍̝̦̪͎́͒̐̑a̷̰͔͌̈́̅͋ ̷̫̄̃f̵̢̂ī̴̪͚̘̫̻g̴̯͍̻̲̩̉͋̈́͝͝ȟ̸̪̞͠t̴̨̮̠̫͉̅ ̶̼͝ͅo̶̻̝̒̉f̴̭̈̊͋́ͅ ̷̺̲́̐̕b̵̢̧̡̺̥͂̂̓̌l̶̪͎͚̀͌̎ű̴̡̜͇̲̠͘e̶͚͊͊̉͘͜͝ ̶̧͔̤͕̒̚͝ĺ̶̬̟̥̩̺̓̊̎í̵̟͕̠̐̚g̶̖͗̄͜͝ḧ̷̭͙́̔̅ť̷̻ ̷̟̽a̸̩̳̐̈́̀n̶̨̢̙̫̽̔̾d̵̙̺̜̦̓ ̷̨͓̣̔̿͂̽t̸͓͋͊̽̕͠h̷̭̫̃́e̷̜͈̺̜̾͛͊̓̊y̶̬͓̎̐͒̉'̵͎͇͉̈́̾̽͝r̷̛̞̹͓̪̓e̸̞̮͒͌ ̸̡̙̳̝̏̓́̇e̸̖͚̰͖͠l̴̞̳̼̎̌͒̀̏š̷̨̼̙͓̰e̶̬̻͍̹̾w̵̢̢̯̭͛̉͝h̵̺̓̕e̸̤̥̦͖̅͌̊r̷̖̹̬̟̬̆̌̽ẻ̷͕̤̎̕.̵̱̝̪̋͝
There's a flash of blue light and he collapses onto Annika, breathing in a sudden gulp of fresh air that makes rainbow pinpricks appear in his vision. But it's also bright, the sun is out, even though it's setting it's out and it's so much brighter than anything was just now, and his clothes are soaked through with sweat and his eyes are bloodshot but that all means he exists, he's alive—
"Ow! You motherfucker!" he cries, pulling the shuriken out from where it had almost gotten to bone and throwing it out. The wolf looks up at him and whines a little. "N̵͉̦͉̼̻͇͖͍̞̦͊̚ͅͅỉ̷̳̽͑́̇̉͐̊͐́̑͑͋͘t̶̨̻̞̦̪͈̟͇̥̜͚̦̪͈̀̿̉͌̓̏̍̀ͅa̵̡̞̖͍̱̣͌̏̓̈̀̾̏̀̃͝͠, bite her," he says, pointing at the ninja, but the wolf ignores it and leans back into the scritches.
Taharqi sits up, all at once, then has to catch his weight on the mattress after he's overcome by a sudden wave of dizziness and nausea. His stomach is completely empty, though, and throwing up bile again would just be really unpleasant, so he holds it back and waits a few more seconds until he's feeling stable again before he opens his eyes. He sees the tea and lifts it to his lips and burns his tongue and the pain feels so good he could cry.
(What was that dream? It felt really vivid, but he doesn't remember anyone's names, except that shouldn't be surprising, except for some reason it is and he's feeling kind of mad about it?)
(It's probably just woozy recently-woken-up brain talking.)
"Don't take stupid risks. Don't throw your life away. Surt is more important." She takes a deep breath, because this whole feelings thing is not something she's super used to. "But being kind to a lost child isn't throwing your life away, and it worked out in the end.
"Would you have done the same if I hadn't been there?"