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A tired Sable gets scooped into Thomassia
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Another tired workday, eating the same boring microwave burritos, working for an ISP she hates, in a body she hates, with the only remotely cheering part being the cute skirt she's wearing. She spends her day charming the employees of the ISP as she solves their tech problems, spending her warmth on people she'll never speak to again.

Eventually it's the end of the shift. She clocks out, gets up, and walks out into the backyard, stretching.

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And, then, Sable finds herself stretching someplace else. The weather is still pleasant, and things look nice. But it's very obviously not her backyard! It's the roof of a billionare's row-esque skyscraper looking down on the ocean!!!

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What.

She's never been prone to hallucinations before, but maybe there's a first time for everything? She walks to the edge of the roof (further than the fifteen feet of backyard she has, interestingly failing to run into her fence) and looks down.

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It's a very nice and pretty, chalk-white beach! With lots of umbrellas and people enjoying the breeze and bubbles and the salty, crisp seaside air!

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She sits down on the edge and stares. That's a lot prettier than anything she's seen in at least a year.

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A tiny hint of a smile crosses her face.

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Well, there has to be a way of getting up here AND getting down, otherwise she'd see someone else just as stuck as her. And it only takes a few seconds to see what looks it HAS to be the door for the stairwell to the roof... until Sable can see that it has to be an elevator door, what with the white button shaped like an arrow pointing down.

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After a good while of staring down at the beach, she gets back up, finds the door, and pushes the down button. If she's gonna be stranded in a new world, she'd best find someone to get her bearings from.

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Stepping in, she can see that there's two rows of buttons, one for each of the two digits of the 63 stories that this building apparently consists of! Presumably, pressing "00" and "1" leads to the first floor?

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One would think. She'll try it!

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And the big elevator with room for maybe 15 people races down at a very noticeable speed, opening down onto a lobby seemingly consisting of a glass wall with a glass door in it and a bunch of thick marble columns containing elevators like the one that Sable just walked out of. There's nobody in the lobby, presumably because they're enjoying the beach too much.

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This is a pretty lobby. And a fast elevator. She heads out the front door, down to the street, and looks around.

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The street is made of some kind of special material that's super-nice to walk on. There are really, really big cars, like basically vans, driving along the narrow streets, together with people walking around or using Segways to move along the sidewalks. The skyscraper she just came from isn't the only one; looking up, she can see tons of skyscrapers so tall that it's hard to see their tops, almost forming a kind of wall together with the skyscraper currently behind her. People seem to just be ignoring her as they make their way past, although a few glance at her for slightly too long to be entirely comfortable.

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Huh. These people put a lot of effort into comfort. The next time someone looks a little too long, she waves at them. "Hello?"

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They wave back, curious about why Sable's appearance is how it is. One of them, a man wearing a pair of swim trunks, decides to start talking to Sable. "Your clothes look a bit... unusual, somehow. Can you tell me anything about them?"

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She blushes a bit. "My clothes are a hodgepodge that I picked out because they were very cheap but still provided some semblance of gender euphoria. I think I'm a bit lost, however, because this isn't anywhere I recognize. Where are we?"

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The man in the swim trunk listens and nods at Sable's explanation about her clothes. "Well, we're in Leakey Resort? If you don't recognize this, how did you even get where you're now?"

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She frowns. "I really wish I knew the answer to that question. Half an hour ago, I was standing in my backyard, in the city of Monroe, state of Louisiana, country the United States of America. Next thing I knew, I was standing on the roof of that building." She points at the building she just came out of. "If you don't mind humoring me, what country and region is this?"

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"Country? Well, Leakey Resort is its own country in terms of its own legal code and government. It's not part of another country! The region is the Leakey Island Chain, and that's essentially just Leakey Island and a bunch of beach resorts. I've never heard about Monroe or Louisiana. Maybe it's someplace very far away from here?"

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"Um. Um. I am reasonably sure there was no country called Leakey Resort on the planet I was on when I woke up this morning. And if you don't recognize America or Louisiana, given that America is one of the best-known countries on my planet, then... shit. I'm afraid I'm a very very long way from home."

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"So... you think you... teleported, is that it? Wait, that must mean you aren't registered for anything. So you don't have any money or any other kind of resources! We need to do something about that, fast! Please come with me." He begins leading Sable towards an anonymous looking building, taking up some of the lower floors of yet another skyscraper, with several people dressed in formal clothing waiting bored behind a counter. Something about them gives off a certain aura of authority. Anyone walking in will just know they're police officers. Or the equivalent, if this is a world that doesn't have Louisiana or police.

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"Hi. I think I am an extremely long way from home." She pulls her wallet out of a pocket — thank goodness she wore a skirt with pockets today — and opens it to reveal three forms of ID not issued by any nation on this planet, a debit card from a bank that doesn't exist here, and paper currency these officers will not recognize. 

"Do y'all recognize any of this?"

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One of the people behind the counter looks at Sable in total confusion. "...no, no we don't. I think that's quite overwhelming evidence that you're not from this planet. I... well." He takes a moment to regain his composure. "You can register for an account here, so you're able to receive money. We take 10 fingerprints and a retina scan to prove it's you." He starts walking over to a machine, looking quite similar to an ATM, with two pads for his hands and a camera on some kind of flexible cable.

"You just... put your hands on the two pads, and put the camera up to your eyes. And your account will be ready to receive your first basic income payment."

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"Thank you." She follows the instructions and gets her biometrics recorded.

"Does basic income include enough to pay for gender transition care?"

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"Well, yes. It's really not particularly expensive. And there's a charity founded by trans individuals covering quite a lot of it, too. Do you want to see a doctor about your needs later today? Or do you want to take some time to orient yourself and catch your breath, and think about things first?"

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"Okay, this world is officially better than my old one, calling it now. Let's go for seeing a doctor sooner rather than later, if someone's available. I have lived for years in a transphobic state and I'm rather excited about diving into your shiny opportunities."

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"Well, there's really one major doctor catering to trans individuals here. I can see when the next appointment is available? It can't be more than a day or two."

"I think you'd want a phone, it's really how you're supposed to pay for things these days." He hands over a card. It uses a special film making it impossible to see what's written on it, unless you're looking at it from a perfect angle. "This is a card with your account number and private key. Find a phone seller, and buy a phone with this card. Then you should have super-easy access to your basic income money for anything else you'd want."

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"I officially exist! Yay!" She bounces a little. "Last questions: should I come back here after acquiring a phone, and do you have any tips for an outworlder on location a phone retailer?"

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"There really is no purpose for you to come back here after getting a phone. You can ask for some extra foot patrols outside your building, if it'd help you feel safer? I don't see why you'd need that. When it comes to retailers, they're really all the same. And the closest one is a few blocks down that direction", the officer points away from the beach, in the same direction Sable went to get to the station. "So that's my recommendation."

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"Wonderful. Can you give me the contact details for the trans care doctor so I can call them once I have a phone?"

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"Yes, yes." The officer fumbles around for a business card and writes some contact information and a phone number (that includes letters, to make it a bit shorter presumably) and hands it back to Sable.

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She smiles a bit wider, her smiles having become more and more genuine — though it's hard for almost anyone to tell — over the course of the conversation.

"Thank you. Oh! Thought of one last question. Do you have any recommendations for finding housing for tonight, after I handle the other things?"

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"The phone has the most up-to-date directory of available long-term and short-term housing options. The phone guy would be happy to help you get started with the software setup for that app and all your other necessities, I'm sure of it." The officer smiles back at Sable, trying to be equal parts reassuring and encouraging.

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Her smile freezes for a second as she processes that. These people actually keep all their important contacts in one sensible place? That... is new.

Her shoulders slump just a bit, a bit more of her bone-deep fatigue showing. Her smile is a bit smaller still, but more genuine for it.

"Thank you. I think I'll head right over, unless you have any last advice for an outworlder before I do."

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"No, getting a phone first, so you can get the right pockets in your clothing, would be my advice. So, yes. A phone is the first thing you'd want to get, that's my advice. See you later!"

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"Thank you, truly. Off I go then."

And with a wave, off she heads to the phone store.

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It's got a huge selection of phones, with all kinds of cameras and in a wide array of screen sizes. Interestingly enough, the sizes get smaller as you get further from the entrance. They're also in a huge array of colors and materials, and have plastic backs that produce pleasant, tactile sensory feelings when touched. There's a slik-touch, a wood-touch, and even something slightly squishy. They also use some kind of super-stiff material that makes them feel very, very solid in the hand. There aren't any real ads in the store, just folded spec sheets on densely packed tables under each phone.

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.........A phone store designed by sane people? What?

 

 

She starts browsing the various options, looking into the durability first, but quickly realizing that these people apparently design their phones to a standard she'd only dreamed of back on Earth. At that point she starts exploring for features and comfort. She settles on a slightly larger phone, with something on the back (whether built-in or added accessory) to loop through her fingers and steady it in her hand. She picks a slightly squishy case material in a swirling inky pattern in dark violet. And then she makes sure it's crammed with plenty of storage.

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She finds a phone that comes with its own case with a folding part that she can squeeze between her hands to hold it steady. It also has a somewhat above average camera, presumably so the camera can be held steady using that folding piece. The largest storage option barely costs any more than the smallest, and it's capacious indeed.

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She sighs gently, smiling softly, and buys it. Having a local phone is quite the relief. She's not sure who this place shot to avoid becoming as insane about tech as her old world, but she's rather glad they did.

She heads off and finds a bench to start looking things up. Who should she talk to about trans care here in Leakey Resort? How does acquiring clothes work? What's the transition process like, how does it compare to Earth?

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Leakey's Report best trans-specialist is named Sylvania, she sticks to the hormones and self-identity part, but she's actually friends with many of the surgeons who've done 1000+ operations.

Clothes are acquired at "tailors". They're call them tailors even if they sell off-the-rack clothes, they're basically sole proprietors of clothing stores who have a real passion and interest in them, and that can extent do things like lingerie, diving equipment, snowsuits, PPE and other things that can be considered clothing.

The transition process is hormones/electrolysis/clothing first, with doctors mostly assisting with the hormones step, because there's a huge selection of different protocols to choose from. Any kinds of operation tends to happen following a relatively long period of social transition, and a relatively high % of transpeople don't do bottom surgery because they sort of like being "a gender of their own" and don't really feel the kind of dysphoria that warrants surgery. There is 0 gatekeeping for either hormones or surgery, but very, very few people handle their own hormone protocols or feel comfortable tracking their bloodwork without a doctor in the loop.

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She slumps in visceral relief. 

 

 

 

And spends a good few minutes like that. Maybe a tear falls. And then she puts herself back together and calls Sylvania.

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The phone answers almost instantly. "Hello, you've reached the office of Doctor Sylvania, how can I be of assistance to you?"

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"Hi! My name is Sable, and I was wondering if Doctor Sylvania has any openings for a new patient soon."

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"Yes, yes I have an opening in about 2 hours at present, if you want a same-day consultation. Is that acceptable? Most people like getting more time in advance."

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"Wonderful." She noticed a navigation app, so that should be easy. Is two hours enough time? "I'm rather new to Leakey Resort. Is two hours enough time to get there from the beach? I'm on..."

She looks around for a street sign and names it when she finds one.

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The street sign says "Vaccines Boulevard". "Well, yes. There's a subway station that can get you here in 20-odd minutes, you just need to find the entrance. It's next to the bakery". And looking around reveals a bakery with all kinds of cupcakes and chocolate cakes and bread on the shelves, right next to a door that blends into the omnipresent skyscrapers, with a simple pictogram of a subway on it.

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"Thank you so much. That time is perfect then. What info do you need from me?"

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"Well, you can tell me your age, expectations, and any prior experience with transitioning, whether that's hormones, blockers, or even just wearing affirming clothes. While we're on the phone anyway."

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"Thirty-one, expect hormones to produce gradual fat redistribution over months to years and breast growth determined by my genetics over a similar timespan, expect hormones won't do a thing about my voice or body hair, have some experience wearing a skirt around the house and self-identifying as female in text conversations with friends, no time on hormones or blockers yet."

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"Well, those are very sensible expectations. We'll see about the breast growth, but I think we can offer some good surgeries for that. Voices tend to be tough, yes, even if we're getting better every day. But I can share some good news about how well we can deal with the body hair. So you haven't done anything social, or in person, while female presenting? And 0 hormones or blockers yet, do you feel comfortable telling me why?"

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"How open are you to an extremely bizarre story?"

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"Completely open, I think that knowing my patients well is absolutely critical for being able to provide the best care possible. I think it's something you should really tell me."

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"Well. I think it will be noticeable in a lot of aspects of my behavior, many of which may imply odd questions if I don't tell you this story. So I think we'll have a much less confusing and frustrating relationship if I tell you this."

She takes a deep breath.

"I'm from another world. I know this is a typical delusion, but I have a wallet full of ID and currency referencing countries that don't exist, and will gladly show it all to you when I get to the office. And the region where I lived in this other world was much more transphobic than this lovely world I found myself in this afternoon."

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"Transphobic? I don't think I'm 100% sure about what that means, sorry. I'm struggling to guess the meaning of those words put together."

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"Wait what. You don't... Okay then! Estimates of how nice this world is are going up further still. So, transphobia is what my old world called the shaming and rejecting attitude many people had toward trans folk. The word was derived from an earlier word, homophobia, which was shaming and rejecting behavior toward people who are attracted to the same gender. The construction of the word using the -phobia root was likely from a combination of the frequent fear-mongering some people did about the non-cishet community, as well as the fact that this kind of shaming behavior is often rooted in fear deep down."

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"Oh, so trans in that way? I thought it must have something-else trans-phobic, if that makes sense?"

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"Yeah, my old world was not very accepting of differences. Realize you're a different gender than you were assigned at birth? Realize you're attracted to someone other than who you're supposed to be? Half of one of the most powerful countries in the world thinks you're weird and gross and possibly a predator now. Have fun."

That couldn't possibly be old bitterness seeping into her voice, could it?

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"Well! That must have been miserable. But at least things are getting better, here. I think you should try not thinking about bad things that aren't happening anymore." The subway train seems to have one fewer seat in width, to make each seat extra spacious and comfortable for Sable and everyone else. And the subway is almost uncannily quiet, as it races past the stops.

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She nods to herself and lets out a slow breath. "You're right. Dwelling on the dumpster fire of a world I came from is a good way to stress myself out. Better to dwell on the new opportunities here. Anyway, in short, yes, living in one of the most transphobic regions in the previously mentioned powerful country is why I hadn't transitioned yet. But now I'm here, surrounded by people who seem to do things much more sensibly and comfortably and pleasantly."

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"Well, we try our best! Let's think about what's next, not what's some day soon or some day then. Think positive!"

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"Yeah! So, next steps, I get to the office, learn about different courses of hormones y'all offer here, receive one, get appointments to deal with hair, and then go to a tailor and buy a few days of clothes to tide me over while I find someplace to live."

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"I mean, there's more than enough vacant apartments for you? You won't need to be tided over for a few days, unless I'm misunderstanding you?"

The subway stops are all open and bright, with minimalistic murals of blocks of colors painted onto the walls. There are many vending machines around, carrying small food items for travelers, and lots of seating. The train seats use a kind of office-chair like mesh, that's incredibly soft and nice and breathable in the warm weather.

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"Oh wow. This world actually builds enough housing? Awesome. I'm used to there being multiple days of steps to move into an apartment, and days to acquire furniture, and hauling the clothing back and forth between places being an ordeal, and just the whole process being overcomplicated." 

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"I'm trying to understand the idea of a world that doesn't build enough housing? I'm just confused, are there, like, sprawling, bombed-out wastes everwyhere? The furniture and clothing things are still an annoyance, though. But nothing here's overcomplicated, we take not having overcomplicated things very seriously!"

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"No, people are just very badly confused, confuse themselves worse with how the politics work, and then they regulate the wrong things and put economic incentives on different wrong things."

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"Well, I guess it'd be some complicated medieval systems with tons of parts and constituencies and a complicated mess of laws bumping into each other? I can see how those would be hard to deal with and cause big problems."

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"Yep, pretty much. Oh, and we use first-past-the-post voting. Which has been mathematically demonstrated to be garbage, but we use it anyway."

She sighs softly and looks out the windows. "Saner country in a saner world. Gotta remember that."

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There are a few more detailed murals, now. With various presumably-famous scientists in front of equations and scenes from their lives and illustrations of their inventions. There's one illustration of a man in scientific-looking glasses staring at a small, glowing orb, probably an LED. There's also an image of someone with a clipboard of some kind looking at a huge pane of glass, examining it thoroughly. And all sorts of other scientific achievements.

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"Oh wow, this world puts scientists on the murals in subways? Goodness. That's... so much better." The smile in her voice is audible at this point.

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"Who else could deserve it? Outside of people responsible for revolutions to introduce democracy, of course. But honestly, I think about those people kind of like scientists, and they said themselves that it'd probably be a bad idea to have murals built of them."

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"You'd think that would be obvious, but my old world mostly had politicians or civil rights leaders. Usually they were on there for doing something good, but sometimes it was for doing something confused."

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"Well, they're really defined by their times and their methods were really intended for their context, right? So what they did won't work next time, usually. But scientists sort of followed a process that'll work today as well, so admiring them results in less obsessing over how to stop those dastardly coal barons and their ingenuous abuse of the Common Infrastructure Investment Act of 1811."

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"Exactly. 'Take a guess, test your guess, take notes about how your guess held up, repeat' is a fundamental process that holds up in lots of places on lots of topics and in lots of time periods. It's a pretty great thing to grow up admiring. I think my old world would suck less if kids grew up admiring that."

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"Yeah, and that's something you'll need to keep doing during your transition, together with keeping up with your blood work to let you use the hormones safely while achieving the right dosages."

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She nods and smiles, getting off the train as she reaches the subway station closest to the doctor's office. Out into the sunlight she goes, looking for landmarks and signs.

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There's an absolutely gigantic park right across the street from the subway station, yet again hidden between the other doors leading into the skyscrapers. There are very few signs, although there are tons of statues in grayscale and bright colors in the park if Sable wants some landmarks.

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"Gosh, your world puts an awful lot more effort into things looking lovely than my old one does." She spends a moment getting oriented and checks the time. How long does she have before the appointment?

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She has just about 90 minutes, as a matter of fact.

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"It has been an absolute delight talking with you, but I don't want to take up all your time, and I should probably get some food. It was just before supper when I got unexpectedly transported, so I'm a bit hungry. Any recommendations in the area?"

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"Honestly, I just order anything that looks good from wherever. I like Indian food, and you could order some of your own? I don't really have a favorite restaurant, I honestly pick somewhat at random because they're all good."

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"Reasonable. Well, I'll pick someplace at random and give the food a try. Thank you very much, and see you soon!"

She looks around. Indian food would be really great, honestly, and she can afford to eat out at least once, given that she doesn't even have an apartment yet.

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"Oh, because you're unfamiliar here: we don't have sit-down restaurant outside of the most expensive and fancy high-end ones. The way that it works is that you can rent a seat in a cafe or bakery and have the food delivered to you there while enjoying their coffee, tea and pastries as well". There's a charming bakery, decorated in all kinds of woody tones, with a natural-looking interior. And there's a much more futuristic, but still charming and inviting cafe, with all-white interiors and mesmerizing, simple murals along the walls, giving the vibe of being the inside of the spaceship version of the Titanic.

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"That sounds absolutely delightful. I think I see a lovely little cafe to try this out in. Thank you!"

Off she goes to the futuristic cafe. Spaceship vibes look like fun.

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There's a bunch of bench seats everywhere, that work like super-nice and comfy armchairs. The constant aroma of delicious pastries and many different amazing teas fill the room, creating a fantastic sensory landscape. Finding an app to let Sable order some very promising-looking Indian food doesn't take much time at all. And everything in them is very, very affordable indeed.

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Well, then she'll have a nice green tea or something like it from the cafe while she waits, and order some garlic naan and maybe something with chicken. She's got a timer on her phone to make sure she gets to her appointment on time, and her phone's set to vibrate so she doesn't disrupt anyone, and she's got tasty tea and very shortly tasty food.

 

 

And she's definitely not feeling kind of brittle around the edges, no ma'am.

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A robot that's more or less a rolling table makes its way over to Sable, with a cup of green tea placed on top of it. She can just take the tea, and the colorful cup covered in big blue and green dots for herself.

15 or so minutes go by before the robot returns again, carrying a garlic naan together with a bowl containing a fantastic-smelling chicken-something-or-other placed onto the table that held the green tea previously, together with the necessary cutlery on a nice, square porcelain dish of its own. Taking a taste of the meal reveals that it's simply heavenly.

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She sighs tenderly, smiling. This is a world that clearly takes the little things seriously. Maybe... 

 

 

She'll figure out where that train of thought was going later. She doesn't feel like breaking down in a public cafe. Focus on delicious food and wonderful ambience. She looks around and sighs warmly and has another few bites.

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There are other people appreciating their own meals, from all kinds of different cuisines. Or just enjoying some croissants or hot chocolates while talking with their friends.

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They're all so... content here. Things are pleasant. And straightforward. And reasonable. She takes a steadying breath and smiles lopsidedly and sips her tea. Why couldn't Earth be like this? Why couldn't she have had this for decades already?

 

No. Breathe. 

 

 

She takes her time, breathes, and looks around, and smiles. It's going to be okay. It might actually be okay.

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Quite so! One feature of thomassian cuisine, that Sylvania failed to mention, is that portions are unusually large. There is something strangely-satisfying about finishing such a big portion, but it takes more time than a meal would typically take. The alarm on Sable's phone begins to vibrate right after she's done. And it vibrates in a very obvious, powerful way.

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Ooh. That's a very satisfyingly distinct and impossible to ignore vibration. And an impressively large portion. Satisfying, but she's possibly not in-shape enough to keep that up indefinitely. Guess she'll have to take up yoga. Or maybe they have some medical treatment that can fix her knees and she'll take up something with any impact to it. She looks around to figure out what to do with her plates. Was there something obvious people were doing when they finished their meals?

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They place their plates on one of the lower shelves of the waiterbot, avoiding putting any dishes or cutlery on the top shelf used for bringing food or drinks to a the tables, as it makes its way back to the staff counter.

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Aha. Convenient. Impressively so. She does the same, making sure everything's neatly in place, and then heads off toward Doctor Sylvania's office. She admires the park a bit more on the way. This world — or at least this country — puts an awful lot more care into aesthetics too. It's nice.

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It's not particularly far to walk before reaching Sylvania's office. It's in a clinic that's on the lower floors of a building overlooking the park, with a very nice two-story waiting room and lobby full of people. There are people lying down on patches of soft green material, or slowly breathing something in through a plastic mask over their mouths while nursing an arm or leg, and people reading some of the pretty PSAs attached to the walls. Looking around, Sable can see a bunch of doors with random-seeming strings of numbers on them. One of them has the phone number of Sable's new phone written on an LCD screen, together with Sylvania's name and a green square.

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Huh. Green square. Do other doors have other colors of square? Is that an "I'm ready for you to come in" signal? If it's mostly green squares and red squares-or-somethings, she'll try knocking softly on the door.

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It's about 90% red squares, although there are multiple doors that have a green square and "WALK-IN" written on their LCDs. When Sable knocks, Sylvania walks over, and looks at her with a mixture of curiosity and excitement in her face. "Sable, miss. Please walk on in! I think that there's much to talk about."

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She smiles and steps inside. "I think you're right. This is going to be a very interesting conversation."

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The office is unusually spacious, with a bunch of pretty PSAs and sterile stables placed against one of the walls. And every (both) chairs are basically ultra-nice armchairs. Sylvania sits down first, with an unusual posture with spread legs and her arms taking up much of the space in the room. "Sable, not to be cruel. But you're 31, and you have no experience of blockers or hormones. Do you want to... talk about why? I think it'd help for you to let it all out and to understand what the situation is now, and why that situation is what it is."

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She blinks, as she settles into the chair, and exhales hard. "I... yeah. I didn't know. I spent so long not knowing why I was ambiently miserable. I spent so long not even remembering all the little signs that I tried so hard to ignore growing up. There were no transgender people to see as examples, no available explanation for why I was suddenly filled with dread when I started growing visible leg hair and stopped wearing shorts after that. And I wasn't one of the kids who could derive the insight on her own. Puberty kind of broke me and I didn't know why. Didn't realize it until I was thirty."

She pauses, slows her breathing, blinks a few tears away.

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Sylvania lets Sable sit in silence for a bit. "Well, you don't have to live with any of that anymore. So we'll fix everything. Hair is the first thing you'll see, all my clients feel amazing relief at having their hair problems fixed, I can get you a real electrolysis session to fix that right up. The shorts... another thing that really helps, very quickly, is new clothes. Especially new, nicer underwear, with pretty lace, that makes you look how you feel and feel how you want. But I think those are surface steps. I think the real work, and the real reward, will come from you thinking about who you really are. And who you really want to be. So, do you feel comfortable trying to think about that? Just a bit?"

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She nods. "Yeah, I think I can do that."

She breathes slowly, a few last tears prickling around the corners of her eyes, and considers.

"I... I wouldn't mind pants again once I've got the figure to easily pass anyway, but they probably still wouldn't be my go-to? That's maybe getting ahead of myself? Um. I can give an answer in aesthetics and vibes, maybe?"

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"Aesthetics and vibes is really the question. I think the answer should also be about that, yes."

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"I don't know if all the aesthetics line up on this world, but... if you fused 'caring and sincere princess' with 'dashing and roguish pirate queen'? Maybe fill the gaps with a helping of 'magical girl'?"

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"I'm, uhh, quite sure I don't know what that would look like. But I'm not the one who has to know your true identity; you must do that."

"The third thing, beyond electrolysis and clothes, is the question of HRT. We've managed to end up at a really huge array of options, and we've made some real leaps and bounds in how well the transition goes, especially for anyone transitioning post-puberty. The new, advanced options also require more frequent bloodwork, which I'm assuming you'll be able to handle yourself? If that is an inconvenience, a more traditional choice of hormones and anti-androgens can still achieve perfectly acceptable results. Ultimately, there is no way around experimenting with the regimens, and I'm sure we'll make adjustments along the way. But I'm sure you can handle those."

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"Ooh. Shiny advanced options with more science and note-taking. Sounds like fun. Once upon a time I was scared of bloodwork or injections, but I mostly got over that. This is a pretty good reason to go the rest of the way. What sorts of improvements can those provide over the old-fashioned versions?"

She's getting a bit more excited as the conversation shifts to options, drumming her fingers on her thigh and wiggling a little bit in her seat.

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"A bit of everything? It means both faster results, and a better final outcome. The breasts tend to come out earlier and better. Fewer mood swings and other side effects, better for your general health, just incremental improvements in various areas. And the precise bloodwork helps even more in amplifying the advantages for both the pace of your transition and your safety during it."

"And, to get any fertility worries out of the way, do you want to do gamete harvesting to feel 100% safe about your fertility?"

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She bobbles her head back and forth as she considers. "I... on some level the idea of ever having a kid is a viscerally terrifying level of responsibility? I can't rule out that I'd ever want to, but... hmm."

She looks down at her hands for a long moment.

"The smart thing to do would be to set some aside. It's not like it would be a commitment to do anything with them."

 

 

 

Eventually she nods. "Yeah, should do it."

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"Yeah, we can get that done for you, it's really not a big deal. And it's cheap enough that it's a fantastic investment for peace of mind, a lot of people like getting them preserved just for that feeling of safety."

"Now, I think that I'll want to try going through some of the main HRT options with you. Some of them might be less appropriate due to your medical background, and others might have side effects that are dealbreakers. I have several compact tables with the regimens that I recommend my clients most often. If you could walk up and look at these?"

She points at some of the information-dense tables attached to the wall of her office, listing up quite a few different combinations of hormones and other medications together with their side-effects and how precise you have to be with your bloodwork. Then she sits down in front of a computer screen to look up more information on them, before managing to find a solution that's probably the best starting point for Sable.

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She leans close and looks through the tables carefully, nodding thoughtfully. "Y'all really have put a lot into improving the options here. Definitely better than what my old world has."

The resulting solution winds up with more reliable early breast growth and a bit of help overcoming genetic predispositions to a smaller bust, quicker fat redistribution, less risk of interfering with sexual function, and very good odds of preventing male pattern baldness. It also avoids the electrolyte issues that some androgen blockers like spironolactone run into.

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"Yup, it's common enough that you can get it as an all-in-one pill, don't even have to get it custom-ordered. It's totally OTC and easy to find somewhere, if you can't bring a fresh pill bottle with you before going on a trip."

"And this is a bit awkward to mention, but... there's a tailor. A lingerie tailor that really helps the trans community and people just at the beginning at the transition, you know, like you. And for the blood work, you're going to need to choose a snek. Most of my doctor friends insist on one of those Friendly Sting models, supposedly as painless as the blood work ever gets. I think that you're going to want to pay that little extra considering how much blood work you'll be doing with this new regimen."

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She smiles softly and appreciatively at the mention of the special tailor, then giggles suddenly. "Y'all have portable blood work kits, and you call them sneks? That's adorable!"

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"Yes, that's what they are. Well, I think there's more geckos because they're cuter and less scary for kids, so most hospitals use those? But even if it's a plastic gecko with all the bloodwork stuff, we still call them sneks."

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"Gosh there's so much care that goes into making everything comfy and nice and good here. Like so much more of the world is built around trying to be just that little bit kinder to people."

She flops back into her chair with a happy smile and a bit of a wiggle.

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"Well, I think that's the main points done. I think you want to go over to getting new clothes? Maybe especially some new underwear. And precut tape kits, if those are also a helpful tool for your needs."

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She nods. "That does seem like the next thing. That and however getting my other appointments works."

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"I can get you the address to the tailor I was talking about. It's within comfortable walking distance from here." She writes out an address on her phone, showing it to Sable. "She also knows about makeup routines and beauty products and hair and stuff, she really knows a bit about everything."

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"She sounds incredibly helpful. Thank you so much."

Sable notes the name and address down in her contacts, and saves it.

"Probably there aren't any hair appointments left today?"

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"No electrolysis appointments! And I get the impression that you'd want to have permanent hair removal on many parts of your body, which can't be done without the hair being grown out first, so a sugaring would get in the way of that, sorry."

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"Just so. Alas. Well, I'll have to book something for the morning. Anyone you'd recommend in particular?"

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"There's this other place, that a lot of my clients went to and liked, which does lots of other beauty stuff, too? But you can't really cross-compare different services, so I'm not sure they're really any better. I think they're really all the same, they use all the same equipment, you know. But I'll write down their address, too."

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"Shiny. Thank you."

That goes into her contact list too.

"Anything else you'd recommend for today? And how often should we book follow-ups?"

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"I don't really have any recommendations, in general? It's really up to what makes you feel nicer. For the longer-term, I think a slumber party would be nice and affirming, they sure make me feel sexy and awesome. In terms of follow-ups: I'll give you a dirty secret, everyone just follows a bloodwork flowchart anyway. Unless you get worried or one of the Meaningfully Worrisome side effects happen to you, you won't need to book any physical follow-ups. Feel free to call me if there's something you want to ask about, but I think that just telling the lab to send all the bloodwork results to me is all the follow-up that's really necessary."

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She blushes and sputters a bit. "A slumber party? Who even... I... what..."

Sable clearly has not considered the idea that slumber parties were a thing she would ever get to have.

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"Well, it's more of a long-term thing! I couldn't really come up with anything that I thought would be necessary on your end, so I thought about something that could be an example of something you might eventually like."

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"I mean, yes, but... do thirty-year-old women just get to have those here? There's no cultural pressure to be more 'mature' or something and not do that?"

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"I mean, it's considered mature to go to ritzy parties for rich nobles or investors and be all dressed up? To be clear, you don't have to be rich to have slumber parties these days, they just still sort of have that sheen."

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She just blinks for a long moment.

 

 

 

 

"The underlying logic, the foundational beliefs in this world are more different than I'd thought."

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"I mean, it's weird that the things rich people did decades or centuries ago are meant to be proper behavior for everyone today? But culture is weird like that."

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"It's... the basic things that society prioritizes across all levels. In my old world, the high status things were demonstrations of capability, of unflappability, of ability to set aside 'childish comforts'. But here, one of those 'childish comforts' is a high-status thing that rich people do. And the phone store was structured sensibly, and there were so many different case materials for different tastes, and someone gave me advice to get a phone first before clothes so I'd know what size pockets to get, which implies that there's flexibility in pocket sizes. Everything is connected to these different foundations."

She has a bit of a faraway look on her face now, as she starts connecting all those points. 

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Sylvania just looks at Sable. "I'm happy that you're happy, there will probably be lots of pleasant surprises going forwards! But, I have other patients to see, and I think you know just about enough to start getting going. So... was preparing that initial hormone regimen and my tips for things that'd make you feel better everything you needed me for?"

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She blushes a bit and grins sheepishly, nodding. "Whoops, got rambling a bit there. Yes, that's everything. I'll leave you to it. It's been lovely talking with you today."

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"Lovely seeing you as well, miss! I'm sure you'll do just fine here."

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"Thank you! Bye for now!"

And off she goes. Next stop, the recommended tailor. She pulls up a route and hops into the subway.

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And just like that, she's outside a store with a bunch of mannequins out front, wearing increasingly fewer pieces of women's clothing as one heads from left to right.

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In she goes, a shy smile on her face. "Hi?"

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Walking in reveals what looks more like a showfloor than a real store, with mannequins wearing all sorts of dresses, skirts and lingerie, together with photos of models dressed similarly, spread out all over the shop floor. A woman, wearing a very short skirt and a black sports bra under a sheer top that reaches a few inches over her skirt, walks over to Sable. "Hi, who do you dream of looking like?" She gives her a wry grin.

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"Best question." She pulls out her phone, loaded with several images, and grins a bit in return. "Demented fusion between magical girl, princess, pirate queen, and manic pixie dream girl. So some middle ground between these things, but with the theme color being a dark orchid violet. Also, I'm told you sell lingerie that helps with tucking, and other such things."

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"Those are some stupidly cool-looking ladies, aren't they? You'll be looking very, very unique indeed... I think this will be an unusually long tailoring session. And one I'll really, really enjoy." She takes Sable towards several adjacent changing rooms placed next to a shelf filled with lingerie designs of all different designs and all different colors, including some with a lace-over-nude color scheme. Inside the changing room is quite spacious, with a wall-sized mirror and a wide bench with lots of space to sit down and place any clothes.

"I'll send any clothes you're wanting to try through the hatch. But before anything else, I'll want to take your measures. All your measures. You're free to take them yourself, if it'd be uncomfortable to have me doing them."

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"They really are absurdly cool." She blushes at mention of measurements, though. "I don't mind you taking them."

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"A lot of people feel better having their measures taken when inside the changing rooms; do you want me to do that for you too?" She makes what looks like a pen appear from a pocket in her skirt, before looking at Sable. "This tool means I don't have to touch anyone, I can just scan them, so that avoids any awkward touches."

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She nods with a shy smile. "Thank you. Also, my measurements are likely to change over the next several months. Just started hormone therapy."

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They walk into the changing room. "Now, you know, I can't get accurate measurements with that skirt in the way. It'll just take a few seconds, and I promise I won't make it awkward, OK? I can leave this here if you're wanting to measure yourself; it has the name of the body part that you'll measured, and you can ask for instructions while I wait outside, if that's more comfortable on your end."

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She takes a deep breath and drops her skirt.

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The tailor quietly and rhythmically moves the pencil across Sable's body, taking only a minute or two, before rapidly flicking it over her crotch and nodding very distinctly 2 times. "That was all your measurements taken, just like that! Now, ahh, I'll come back with some more flattering underwear for you to have on. Something really feminine, you know? In a cut that really flatters you?" She awkwardly makes her way out of the room.

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She blushes a bit more. "Thank you." And she pulls her skirt back up. 

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Very soon after, underwear in all sorts of different cuts are thrown through the hatch: some in all black, some in a combination of black and white, some with lace, and some in a very strange color combination: a nude color that matches Sable's skin uncannily, with a very sheer and thin, flowery lace, on the front of it. All of them let Sable tuck herself almost totally flat with an unexpected degree of comfort, although some of the ones with less material in front squeeze her more than the others.

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"These are amazing." She tends not to keep the very skimpiest cuts, preferring at least a little more coverage than that, but seems to love everything that's been suggested so far.

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"Amazing, you say? That's great to hear! Now, you'll be wearing more than that, of course. Are you in the mood for any dresses? Or do you just want the piratey jacket and magical-girl-esque skirt, at least for now? And do you have any thoughts on athletic clothing, for working out or other activities?"

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"Yes to all of it. And athletic clothing js a good idea. I want to get in better shape. I used to be a long distance runner, but my knees are a bit wrecked, so probably yoga or martial arts or both, instead. Maybe a swim suit too, since these panties work so well?"

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"You'll be walking off with a lot of clothes today, huh? I can happily get you some yoga pants and a swim suit; they can really feel so freeing and adventurous, you know? So, that's a pirate jacket, magical girl skirt, yoga pants and a swimsuit? And you'll want a bra, too; working out without one gets miserable quick. I'll try putting some of them together. The automated sowing and cutting machines work fast, but only so fast; you'll have to wait a bit for the pirate tops, I think."

After a minute, a skirt that reaches slightly above Sable's knees falls through the hatch. It's incredibly airy and breathable, and swishes a bit more than such a skirt would be expected to swish. A pair of grey yoga pants and a dark blue one-piece swimsuit, both of them well-designed to let Sable stay tucked comfortably, show up a while afterwards. Everything fits impressively well and stays in place once put on.

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"Gosh. Quite a convenient world this is." She keeps trying things on, increasingly impressed. "You're good at this."

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"It's not just me that's good at this, I'm using the knowledge and design and experience of tons of other designers, too!" She walks back, throwing in a few ruffled shirts and a leather-looking "pirate jacket" into Sable's changing room. "I'll throw in a fancy, tight, red dress next. Unless there's some other design you had in mind?"

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"That sounds great!"

She twirls. And then twirls some more. "Wow. I love how swishy this skirt is!"

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"Yes, it has, like, wind tunnel testing and things! Really awesome." She leaves Sable to try out various clothing combinations for a while, before throwing a slinky red dress closely fit to Sable's current figure through the changing room's hatch. "And finally, something that'll make you look really stunning, for when you really want to look like a bombshell."

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She tries the dress on and her jaw drops.

"I—"

There are no words. She hasn't gotten her hair handled yet, but... she feels more like herself over this past session trying on clothes than she has in years. 

A little sniffle escapes her. She keeps grinning, even as a tear spills down her cheek.

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"I can also get you some creams, and sunscreen, and various toiletries, deodorants, perfumes? I think that it's an easy thing to forget the importance of the cosmetics, as well. Not just the clothes you have on, but also a proper beauty routine. It makes you look even better, no matter how fantastic you already look. I... I think that you've found a very good place to start, at least."

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She nods. "Thank you. I'd appreciate your help with all of that. I know I'm not in a starting position I'd appreciate, but you're making a world of difference. Probably going to handle electrolysis tomorrow, along with maybe getting my hair dyed, if there are options that won't mess up my curls."

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"Oh, yes, there are plenty such options! They're doing nano-something hair dyes, these days. Hmm. Which address do I ship all the clothes, and all my beauty items, to? This is probably enough that it's worth paying one of the porter robots to carry all these clothes, but I'd need to know where to send them."

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"Eep. Um. Need to get one of those."

She pulls out her phone and starts fiddling with apartment hunting.

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She won't be able to rent anywhere larger than, like, 600 square feet. And all the cheapest units are on the 30th floor, or the 35th floor, in that general region. And they're all in complexes that barely have gyms and maybe a library that's just or two of those quiet reading nooks, with the bookshelves, let alone "real" common areas. And the bathrooms have those claustrophobic shower cabinets, where you're almost touching the glass if you spread out your arms.

That's the kind of place you live in, when you're on basic income in thomassia, while still having enough money left over for your other needs. But, well. Apartment hunting is at least a painless process; she won't have to think about deposits or dealing with landlords or anything else.

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Wow. This world is actually a good place.

 

 

 

 

Are any of them a short walk from the beach or the harbor or the marina?

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Yes, a few! They're not looking out on the beach, but there is one that's 4 or 5 blocks away, a few more 6 or 7 blocks out. And they're 500 square feet. But they are in Sable's basic income budget.

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Amazing. She takes one of the further ones. 

"Got an address now."

And she gives it to the tailor.

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A keycard gets downloaded to Sable's phone. She gets a message regarding her new apartment. "For security reasons, in case of software or hardware failure, please note that a physical key is also placed within the unit itself. Please keep it readily available in case it proves necessary during an emergency evacuation."

The tailor nods, waiting for one of the stronger porter-bots to carry all the things Sable just bought, as she prepares to load it with the wide variety of items that Sable has purchased. "Oh! Another piece of advice: you should try the softening cream. It helps with chafing or itching, and makes you feel less pressure on any body parts that you're, ahem, pushing together. It just makes things more comfortable."

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"Ooh, sounds handy. Thank you."

And then, when the bot has carried everything off, "I will definitely be back when things grow in more properly. Thank you very much."

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"You're welcome! Good luck is what I would say... but you don't need to be lucky when the new treatments are all working this well. You haven't even started on my makeup routine yet, and you're already a cutie!"

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Goodness she blushes at that.

"Awwww.... Thank you."

And then off she goes to find supper on her way to her new home. She catches the subway to her new neighborhood, then looks to see what little cafes and bakeries are in the area. 

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Well, there's one bakery where everything is extra-cute. With like, cat cupcakes, and strawberry-covered cakes. And there's this cafe with a historical theme, that's supposed to take place during the time when famous philosophers met there to change the world. There are old-timey newspapers and furniture that looks like it'd be used by an 1800s aristocrat.

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Oh she adores the cute one. She'll settle there and have a cup of cocoa. Is there a dumpling place in convenient delivery range?

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Thanks to the new robots, just about anywhere is convenient delivery range (they're able to use subways to travel even faster, in fact). All the cafes and bakeries, let you bring outside food. There's nothing stopping Sable from just getting some dumplings as she's enjoying the cocoa.

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Dumplings it is. Meanwhile, she'll book things for tomorrow. Can she book her electrolysis appointment? What about a hairstylist? 

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She can do both at the same place, even! Sable would notice that the standard electrolysis sessions all take 8 hours, which. Uhh. Is a lot of time for one session?

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Um. That's definitely unusual. Well. It's apparently usual here? Do they do the whole body at once? Do they have a way to make it not take repeat sessions? Plausibly she won't know until tomorrow.

The dumplings sure are tasty, though.

After booking that and finishing hereal, she heads off toward her new apartment.

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There's the same kind of elevator lobby as Sable saw last time, with many elevators inside of pillars taking her directly to her room. It's on floor 31, too low for the best views and too high up to get a good look at the ground, but why should that matter?

Anyway, the apartment is brilliantly designed to feel as spacious as possible, with a huge main room and an all-glass wall, together with a king-size bed and a very open-feeling bathroom. It kind of seems like thomassians are paranoid about claustrophobia, and try making all their apartments as claustrophobia-friendly as possible.

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The apartment is amazing. She twirls around in it for a moment, savoring the space. Does it have a kitchen, or do most people eat out? Presumably she has packages of clothes to hang up in.the closet, unless the robots are quite clever and did that too.

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There isn't any kitchen, just a microwave with a bunch of accessories placed above a fridge. Sable would have to hang up all the clothes herself. There's lots of space in the closet, though, including in a drawer under the coat rack. The coat rack even has a special 2-piece coat hanger that lets her hang her panties on the lower piece, instead of stuffing them in a drawer!

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Clearly this culture has embraced the comforts of delivery. Good for them. And that's quite the clever little closet, nicely efficient. Pretty soon everything is hung up.

She brushes her teeth, washes up, and gets into bed. Big day tomorrow.

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The electrolysis and hair clinic is a quick (the subway is really amazingly fast and smooth here) ride away, with a very inviting atmosphere. There's a nice-looking hair salon, lots of cute plants installed near the entries, comfortable chairs and everything else. A well-dressed woman notes Sable making her way in. "I guess you were the one ordering one of the electrolysis sessions? Please come with me."

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"Yep, that's me." She follows, automatic charm smile stretching across her face like clockwork.

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The room is quite open and spacious, with a white bed that looks like a hospital bed, while being much nicer and more comfortable. A pair of machines get taken out of a corner of the room, and the woman motions for Sable to lie down before lifting up what looks like an oxygen mask. "So, I want to know where the limit goes. How much hair we're getting rid of." She awkwardly reaches for a marker and holds it. "I do that by starting high up and making my way down, and you say "stop" when I've hit the limit of how far up I'll be doing the electrolysis."

She starts at Sable's hair, slowly making her way down before stopping for a moment just under her eyebrows. "The most common option is for me to remove absolutely every single strand of hair below this point, including all peach fuzz", she says. "Does that sound good to you? Or is there anyplace you don't want me to take everything? If not, I'll mark that with my marker and get you started."

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"Oh wow. I'll keep the eyelashes, but yeah, everything below that can go, peach fuzz included. Does it take repeat sessions, or does modern tech let you do it one and done?"

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"We do need repeat sessions, yes, usually just one or two more. We've been experimenting with upping the electrolysis current, hoping that it'd work more powerfully against hair cells, but it can only do so much. I'll be doing the max electrolysis current this time, though, to try getting as much as is I possibly can this first session. You'll still look beyond amazing for a good while afterwards, even if you're not completely finished."

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"Wonderful. Thank you so much. What do you need me to do? I presume clothes off and all that?"

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"Yes, clothes off, it's awkward on my part. And then you lie down here, and breathe in this." She points at the oxygen mask she's holding. "And then I'll be ready to start without worrying about you being in pain or squirming around."

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"Oh wow. Okay!" She strips down, lays down, and accepts being anesthetized.

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There's something strange about the anesthetic, it almost gives Sable a kind of high, before she's knocked out.

And she wakes up and feels really great and incredibly well-rested afterward, not even groggy or anything, without a hair of body hair to be seen. And there isn't even any hint of lingering pain at all. The woman doing the procedure smiles at Sable. "Nice seeing you awake again! I gave you enough of a buffer to not experience any lingering pain afterwards, I hope?"

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"Nope, not a bit! Just feel like I had the absolute best nap and woke up with all the hair gone. You did marvelously."

She hops up and checks herself out in a little bit of wonder.

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She didn't mention this, but she's also applied an aloe vera cream to various parts of Sable's skin to make it even softer and smoother. And she also removed any hint of stubble or peach fuzz on Sable's face, as well. It makes her skin feel very sensitive, but the hair being gone makes it so, so obvious how rough and coarse and uncomfortable it is to feel the hair being pushed against your body. Especially having the hair removed from Sable's bikini area, has removed a big source of discomfort and itchiness that Sable never even realized was there.

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"Oh wow. Just... Wow."

She gets to have this. She actually gets to have this.

"How soon should I come back for the follow-up?"

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"Probably two months or so? The hair has to be fully grown out, and the time that takes varies from person to person. But I think that you'd only need one more session like that, two more if you were very unlucky. And that'd be your last time ever, of course."

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She grins, excited. "Thank you so much."

As she puts her clothes back on, she asks, "Is there time to dye my hair, too?"

It's currently a messy mass of black curls hanging about her ears, having been very slowly growing out for a few months.

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"Yes, there absolutely is. What color are you thinking? We don't carry too much inventory, so we might have to wait for a bot to bring it from the warehouse."

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"Dark orchid violet." If readers think this sounds like the Pirates' moiety, that's because it is. "If there's a color picker, or a set of standard colors listed online, I can try to pick out the one I mean."

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"There's about a billion color pickers, I can show you the one I think works the fastest?" She brings out a phone from a hidden pocket in her skirt, putting it in Sable's hands. There's a square swatch in a corner, in a dark violet color quite similar to the one she's thinking about, but there's a circle of similar colors that she's able to choose from taking up most of the phone's screen, so she can get exactly the color she's looking for. Unfortunately, the exact color she wants is only in a warehouse thousands of miles away at the moment. But she can get an incredibly close hair dye sent to the salon in 15 minutes using a cargo robot. "And that's not just one application of the dye, that's a fairly big container that'll last a while."

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"Awesome."

She did not expect knowing the hex code of her favorite color to pay off this well.

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"So, let's just get a haircut and a dye at once, while we're still here?" She motions for Sable to sit on one of the chairs. "Can you get me a photo of your ideal hair, too? I want to impress you."

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She pulls out her phone and finds a curly-haired image. "This is probably the best we can do with my hair as it is now. The ideal I'm going for eventually is more like these though." And she shows two different images.

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The woman nods at Sable. "Well, it's just a question of waiting, then? I can get started on fixing your hair while we wait for the dye to show up, and then I'll finish up by dying your hair, does that sound fine to you?"

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"Sounds like a plan!" She settles into the haircutting chair and takes her glasses off.

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"Oh, those aren't fashion glasses? I'm kind of surprised, basically everyone does contacts these days." She begins working on Sable's hair, shaping it so the curls are all pretty at a very high speed. She shows an impressive level of precision and dexterity with her hands, quickly giving Sable the haircut she asked for. "I'll head off to grab the hair dye now, just wait a moment." She returns to finish off Sable's haircut and finishes off dyeing her hair as well. "Was that everything you needed, now that you're already in the barber's chair?"

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She grins, putting her glasses back on. "Nothing comes to mind. Open to suggestions if you have any, though."

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"Well, nothing came to mind for me! Outside of contacts. But you know, nothing to do while you're in the barber's chair!"

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"I'll definitely think about that! Thank you so much!"

And then, assuming she's all paid up, she'll head off. Lunchtime? Lunchtime. She catches a subway to the docks, looking for a cafe with a seaside view. On the way, she puts in the order for her HRT and her snek, as instructed by Sylvania.

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There are many cafes with a seaside view! Some more traditional, some more futuristic, some in maximalist colors full of anime girls of all kinds, others boardgame cafes with shelves dedicated to the owner and regulars' favorite fantasy and scifi-books. The breadth of options is really near-endless.

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Anime girls? Yeah, that's a good plan for today. She orders a chai, or something like it, along with a roast beef sandwich.

And she settles in to think.

She's in a lovely new world, with basic income and better transition and everything, but what is she going to do? She's not really used to stillness.

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There are a few people, stopping by to get something tasty to eat or something cool to drink, before making their way back to the water. There are a few rafts, a short swim away from the shore, where people are sitting around a table and talking to each other, enjoying the sun and their companionship. There really is a very strong sense of stillness, here.

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She tilts her head and considers. The rest is good for her, but she needs to find something to fill the time. She doesn't really process as well without someone to talk with. And she doesn't like her time being so idle.

Does this world have therapists? Also, she looks into yoga classes.

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There's tons of therapists, not really any licensed ones (it's seen as kind of unfair for anyone who'd be unlicensed), and a few yoga classes, although there's way more sparring tournaments, martial arts classes and spin classes than yoga classes.

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She picks out a therapist who seems open to pretty Out There situations, books the first appointment that isn't today, then looks at the spread of martial arts. Do they have something that seems more functional than flashy? With a decent mix of strikes and grabs, and maybe a bit of mixed weapon focus too?

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There's one therapist who claims to be particularly skilled at handling people who feel "isolated and alienated due to unusual situations", although Sable would have to do the appointments online, and the earliest appointment with her would be 4 days hence.

There's one uncannily MMA-esque martial art, it seems to be a bit of boxing but mostly grabs, especially methods of subduing or arresting attackers, and they have training in the use of bats and batons, so it's a martial art mostly used by thomassian police. There's also an obscene variety of martial arts that are basically just weapons training: pistols, sniping, swords, spears and every other weapon that Sable can think of.

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She books the four day out remote appointment, and then tries a different angle on the martial art search if they're going to have this much variety. How about a lightly curved sword like a saber, but mixing in a bit of hand to hand as well? Or wait... what's the legality of carrying a sword?

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No laws on swords, only laws on using them, in the form of a very, very severe fine that would drastically lower Sable's basic income if she "irresponsibly carried bladed weapons" (the helpful law making it concrete by listing a bunch of situations where you are GUARANTEED TO NOT have to worry about getting in trouble, that being where you're carrying your sword in an appropriate scabbard, informing all present about your intention to release it from the scabbard, and avoiding any slicing or thrusting motion not pre-announced before it being performed, or such motions done during a pre-arranged showcase with fully informed members of the public at a safe distance.)

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Huh! Any self-defense exception? Or is it assumed that you announce before drawing in self-defence too?

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Yes, you're expected to announce, if possible, when drawing in self-defense as well.

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Reasonable enough. Swords are probably expensive. Do sword arts recommend you own your own sword? Or is that only after you make some progress?

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They recommend you wait and see which style of sword you like best, before making such an investment. It's not that swords are expensive (you can get a stupidly sharp blade and a plastic handle at affordable prices), it's more that there's a very meaningful connection you get with the first sword that was really yours.

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Ah. These people get it. Good. Instincts say she'll like a saber, but better to try and feel it out, just to be sure. Are the classes affordable too? If so, she'll sign up.

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First class is free! If you're fun, so are all the rest, too. They're all ran by passionate amateurs, they're more looking for fun sparring partners than customers.

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Oh wow, that's great. Yes please. How often do they meet?

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Once a week. They've just met, so it'll be another week to next time.

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Very cool. Doesn't solve her immediate lack of things to do, but hell yes. How about sailing clubs? Or board game clubs? She'd consider parkour but her knees are fucked. Do they have anything to fix her knees? It's just wear and tear from impact.

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There are tons of sailing clubs, with small ships, and even submarining clubs! When it comes to boardgame clubs, there's a local branch of like, this globe-spanning board game club ran from a cafe where the goal is to have someone playing something there 24/7. There are operations and medications for helping with knee issues, but they can only do so much. Prosthetic legs have been quite a bit better than human legs for quite a while now, and there are special parkour prosthetics, but prosthetic cartilage and prosthetic knees remain out of reach for the moment, for someone who still wants to feel their toes.

An experimental trial of a new prosthetic supposed to be able to do way more than today's methods, but it's in DANGER CLASS 3 of 4, "considered major sacrifice for those outside particularly undesirable situations."

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Probably not going to try any of those experiments just yet. When does the sailing club meet? One that does small ships?

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Well, there's one meeting later today. Although they seem to take safety very seriously, so there's a good chance that Sable would have to wait until she'd get a combined wetsuit-flotation suit of her own before she'd be allowed to have fun racing on their boats.

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Sensible. Do they have links to a recommended version to order? Can she get it in her shade of violet, or something close? 

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They have a recommended tailor! It's a waterfront store that's a fair distance from the cafe she's in, and if she's willing to wait, she can them to make her an outfit in exactly her color, as opposed to just something very similar. They're a full-service scuba and watersports supplier, as well. So she can get scuba tanks or rebreather systems, full-face masks, kayaks or anything else she might want, although the jetskis and the submarine and boat builder are a 30 minute subway ride away.

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No, she is not going to buy a fucking kayak. Not yet. She doesn't have anywhere to put one, and she wants to focus on finding people first.

She finishes her food, puts the dishes on a porterbot's lower shelf, and heads off to the waterfront store.

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They have a lot of dense tables of information, and a lot of illustrations of models wearing their wetsuit-flotation suits, having fun in the water, as well as almost a diorama with different kinds of diving gear. Near the entrance, there's almost a vending machine of different kinds of scuba tanks; they're all made of heavy steel, so you don't have to wear a heavy belt, and they are pre-filled with all kinds of combinations of breathing gases, from normal air to helium-filled in case you ever want to go deep to pure oxygen with helium diluent for the rebreather users. Additionally, you can get custom-fit full-face masks designed to cut down on the CO2 buildup as much as possible while letting you breathe through your nose.

The man wears just a pair of shorts and a pair of dive goggles on his head, giving a real sense of him being an experimenter who's been diving for as long as diving was a possibility. "Hello, girlie. What do you wish to buy here?"

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She grins brightly at him. Gender euphoria is a hell of a drug. "Looking to get a wetsuit/floatation-suit to join this sailing club." She shows him the recommendation on her phone. 

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He nods. "Your tailor who made you that lovely outfit probably sent you your measurements to your phone; I'll put together something that'll let you stay safe and warm in the water in a jiffy, just give me your measurements and I'll put together the outfit you'll need for that lightning-quick."

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"Thank you! Think we can manage it in my favorite color in time for the club meeting?" She pulls up her measurements, along with the color on the color picker.

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"In time for the club meeting? I can get you something fairly close, but I'd need to order the material by plane from the factory if you want it to be exactly your favorite color. I won't be able to get the plane to ship its cargo here fast enough. But if the best material I have" he taps his phone, showing Sable a swatch of a color a few shades brighter than her favorite color, "is good enough, I can get it done in time, yes."

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"I can work with that!" She twirls delightedly in place.

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Then she pauses and tilts her head. "Are there any rules about what I can wear under that?"

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"You're supposed to wear nothing under it. It's tight, but not water-tight, so anything under it gets soaked and pushed against your skin, making you miserable and wet and cold. And it can be actively dangerous; cold, soaked clothing can be far more dangerous than you'd think, even beyond being absolutely miserable to have pushing against you."

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Oh. Oh dear. "Um. That's going to be. Complicated. I... I'm trans. And so that means I need special panties or bikini bottoms or waterproof tape or whatnot."

She looks down and blushes.

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"Well, you have the right kind of tape for this, right? I got told by one of my tailor friends that the new tape that gets used for this kind of thing is near-perfectly watertight. That's how my trans clients handle it. They can also get special underwear designed to be worn with suits like these, although the tape ultimately works better. I don't want to put something together I honestly can't, just so I can pretend I'm better than I am. So I really insist that you use one of those solutions coming from someone who's actually qualified for this."

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"The kits and tape're watersafe? Okay." Tap tap tap, tuck kit ordered. "Ordered."

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"Did you come from an alien planet? They'd have to make them work like that, otherwise they'd be near-unusable, wouldn't they?"

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She blinks at him, a bit shocked. "Eep? You're the first person to just guess it. Wound up here yesterday, came from a world that's not nearly as accepting of trans people."

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"Huh? What? How? That..." he stops himself, before walking off to make her the wetsuit/flotation-suit she was asking for.

He walked off to his workshop, returning with Sable's new outfit. It feels really amazing to wear, with the inside of the swimsuit using a fleece-like material that gives a sensation like being inside a blanket. The outside is slick and feels vaguely like a raincoat, if a raincoat could somehow be made less plasticky. It's quite formfitting, but still loose enough to give complete freedom of movement, and it's warm enough to make Sable feel like she's almost snuggled up under a thick blanket.

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While he was away, she pulled out her old ID and currency. "Wish I knew how," she replies when he gets back, "but I have no clue. Like this world better, though. This is the best wetsuit I've ever seen. Thank you so much."

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"Yes, I'm happy to deserve such positive reactions." Sable could see the little bot carrying the tuck kit wait outside the store, eager to deliver her the goods so it could continue on its rounds.

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She grabs it, resists the urge to give the bot a headpat, and heads back in. "Mind if I use your changing room real quick?"

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"Not at all, miss! It's just a few steps this way." He leads Sable through an impressive variety of diving equipment, before finally finding another changing room quite similar to that of the one from the other tailor. It's plenty spacious enough to let Sable apply one of the closely-fitted tuck kits (they were designed according to her measurements by her other tailor, like all the other clothing she's acquired)

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This world is kind of amazingly comfy. 

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She steps back out and twirls. "Ridiculously comfy wetsuit and a ridiculously well-fitted tuck kit, check. Thank you kindly, sir. Off I go to make friends in a brave new world."

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Sable can see a bunch of small sailboats at the pier, with tons of men and women dressed in wetsuits quite like hers. They're just talking with each other casually at the moment, cheerfully conversing about how awesome things went last time in their small sailboats.

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She walks up and waves. "Room for one more?"

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One of the men looks over Sable. "Sure, but a lot of us like going really fast and being on the edge of falling over. It's more a question of whether it'd be fun for you."

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"Hah! Yes please. Haven't sailed in fifteen years, so let's assume I've forgotten nearly everything, but I learn quick."

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He lets Sable step onto the boat, before untying it and letting it slowly build speed as the wind blows it forwards. He slowly introduces her to the basics of sailing small, fast boats like his, as it races over the waves.

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She laughs delightedly, everything coming back like riding a bike. "Oh I've missed this."

Her hands flow smoothly across the ropes, she leans hard into the turns, her grip is steady. She plays out the ropes when she needs to, and her sea legs are back like out-of-touch besties.

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He's impressed by how Sable's sailing skills return, noticing how quickly she manages to use the ropes and steer the boat. "You're a natural at this, you know that? You're really flying over the waves."

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She grins brightly at him, hands still on the ropes and the rudder, eyes sparkling. "Every time I get on a ship I feel like I'm coming home. Thank you for the compliment."

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"I'm glad to hear you're enjoying it! I think some of the quick submarines can be really fun to cut through the waves in, if you love flying on the waves like this."

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"I've never tried a submarine before. Worth a shot, at least." 

She trims the sail a bit as they turn closer into the wind.

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The wind keeps blowing them forwards, sending a strong spray of water all over Sable's body. The sea is calm enough that it stops the boat moving too unexpectedly, letting Sable control where she's going. Several people enjoying the beach are looking on at Sable in admiration.

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Well, let's give them a show. See if she remembers how this works. She needs a lot of speed going into it, but...

She turns to run entirely with the wind, easing the sail out all the way to build up as much momentum as she can. Then comes the tricky part. She has to trim and ease the sails very fluidly and precisely throughout, to keep her speed up. First she starts a slalom, dipping back and forth without losing speed. And then suddenly she sharply steers into a circle, using the momentum she's built up to carry her all the way through the wind not once but twice, before zipping back toward the docks and slowing back down.

By the end of it her muscles burn just a little at the unfamiliar exercise and she's sure any of these sailors could do better, but she's proud of herself just the same. 

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The man on the boat is delighted at seeing Sable steer it so well, cheering as she maneuvers it faster and waster through the wind and waves. "You're a natural, you know that? You could give most of the guys meeting here a run for their money! Name's Charles, by the way." After coming back ashore, he rushes to find his phone and asks to share numbers with Sable. Near the beach, another woman, dressed like Sable and swimming on her back, waves at her. "Can you send me on a ride like that some day? That looked so unbelievably fun!"

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She grins, blushes a bit, and exchanges numbers. "Oh, I don't know about that. I'm sure y'all have people who've been doing this longer and can do better. But I definitely had a lot of fun and plan to keep coming back."

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She blushes a decent bit more when the woman swimming compliments her and asks for a ride.

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But she breaks into a big grin and nods. "I'd love to. Name's Sable. Wanna exchange numbers when you get back out of the water?"

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"Or we can hang out some other time?", she continues. "I think you're looking really pretty in those clothes, too. I like how formfitting the outfit is. And the color, I think it's just fantastic."

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Did she just get hit on? She just got hit on. What.

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The shock doesn't get to stop her at all, though. She manages to keep is almost entirely internal, and replies with a grin. "Definitely. I'm new to the music scene around here. Would you like to grab a meal and a show sometime?"

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"Absolutely! Would you ever be in the mood to try out diving with me? They've put out a bunch of new chests to find, and I'm really excited to see what's inside them with someone else."

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"Ooooh. That sounds fun. I'll need to get a bit of diving gear, don't have any tanks, masks, or snorkels yet, but exploring with a new friend — and a pretty one at that — sounds like a great time."

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She slowly and elegantly makes her way out of the water, revealing that she's tall, with long legs and arms, long black hair that reaches her shoulders and slightly tan skin. Her facial features seem like a mix of many ethnicities, with Sable struggling to recognize which ones. "Yeah, doing it for the first time, and doing it with newbies, is such amazing fun. I know it's gonna be fantastic." Her suit, startlingly similar to Sable's is quite tight in the rear, like everywhere else...

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Ink and Salt she is so gay.

"Shared experiences always improve things like this, agreed. Goodness, I'm going to have to go back to the wetsuit guy. Do we want snorkel, tank, or free-diving for this?"

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"Well, it'd be very uncomfortable to free-dive or snorkel for the chests! But yes, it'd make sense to meet the watersports tailor. He has a huge supply and range of options. I'd really enjoy helping you pick out some gear, it's just that it'd be a bit late to get started with the process now, I think. But I'm very free to join you in getting some equipment and practicing in a pool tomorrow, if you're really eager!"

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"Sounds like fun! Meet at the store? What time works for you tomorrow?"

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"Around 9? That's enough time for a breakfast, too."

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"Looking forward to it. What's your name?"

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"I'm Helena, now I want to know yours."

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"Pretty name, Helena. Lovely to meet you. I'm Sable."

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"I have a very, very good feeling about making your acquaintance, Sable! It's gonna be so much fun to have someone new to introduce to the world of diving."

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"It's gonna be pretty delightful to get introduced. I'm excited about all of this."

She grinning pretty wide.

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"Anyway, I wanted to head home right about now. Watch a few shows, order something for dinner. Let me just quickly give you my info." She says a few numbers and letters, letting Sable know how to contact her, before walking off with her bags in a public bathroom. She emerges wearing a scarily short skirt and a sheer, white top that works to show off her black bra, before finding a subway and riding off to her own apartment somewhere in the city.

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Well. Today was one hell of a win.

Fuck yes.

She sits down on a nearby bench, grinning wide after a moment, and looks around.

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There are a lot of people on the beach, still; there's about a 50/50 split between wearing a wetsuit and wearing a bikini or trunks, and lots of people swimming or reading. The beach stretches on for quite a while; Sable can see a duo wearing some kind of training armor and sparring with swords a fair distance away. It's quite amateurish, but they're still swinging at each other ferociously.

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Well, off she strolls to go see. She'll admire the various beachgoers along the way, but soon enough she reaches the sword-fighters. They certainly have spirit. She won't interrupt.

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They're wearing padded bodysuits that covers their entire bodies, together with helmets made of some kind of mesh that flawlessly protects their heads and faces. And all this lets them swing their wooden-looking swords at each other with total abandon. It's a disorganized melee, with them constantly overextending and swinging at each other, but their enjoyment and excitement is obvious. They don't notice Sable.

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Gosh that's cool. She'll just watch until they pause on their own. They're clearly having a lot of fun.

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Eventually, they do get exhausted, and the turn towards Sable. "Hi! I'm glad you enjoyed our dueling." It's a male voice, and the man keeps his anonymizing helmet on for the moment. "Have you ever tried sparring like this?"

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"I haven't! I was planning to check out one of the clubs, maybe the saber one in about a week, but haven't tried anything yet. Sure looks exciting."

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"Well, yeah. You don't need to join any club to get some protective gear and wail on someone with toy weapons. We like not thinking about our defense, it's actually quite fun to just swing wildly and try to overpower the other guy."

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She grins and giggles. "Yes, there's something to be said for just going wild on it. Y'all certainly looked like you were having fun."

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"We sure did, miss! I bet you're gonna have some amazing fun if you ever get some protective gear and toy swords like us, and get to just swing it as hard and fast as you want without a care in the world!"

"Anyway, my other friend over there is off to play some board games in a smoking room. So I'll probably head off; I can't really wail on myself."

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She tilts her head. "Probably isn't anywhere to get that kind of gear still open, is there? When're you likely to try again?"

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"I don't follow a schedule? I can call you if I'm going out to have with another one of these battles where I'm just wailing on people, though. And can let you know if any of my friends wants someone else to spar with, too."

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"Sounds great." She'll happily exchange numbers with New Friend. "I'm Sable."

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"And I'm Henry! Nice to meet you, Sable."

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"Likewise, Henry. I should probably go find myself supper, but it's been lovely, and I hope to hear from you soon about a chance to beat each other up with practice swords."

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"Same here! It's a really great, satisfying workout, as well. I can really feel the improvement in my cardio!"

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"Looking forward to it, Henry."

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She pauses just a moment. Tilts her head.

"Wanna go find a meal together? I'd love to hear more about how you got into this, if you don't mind sharing."

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"Well, I was just about to head home! I'd be happy to meet up another time, if you wish. But I'm not quite in the mood for sharing a meal today, really."

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"Entirely valid. Enjoy your evening!" And she'll wave and head off to find a cafe near the water. Herbal tea, pesto chicken noodle dish, maybe finish it up with a little brownie?

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Ooh, she's lucky that she can order food from anywhere! A charming faux-1800s-aristocrat cafe offers both a fantastic herbal tea and amazing brownies, and the pesto chicken noodle coming from a ghost kitchen that had particularly tasty-looking images is fresh and delicious by the time it arrives to her table. The robot bringing it over actually used a subway to travel part of the way, to let it go faster while saving its battery and dodging people and cars above ground.

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Gosh. This world is going to spoil her. This is absolutely delicious. She takes her time savoring it, sighing contentedly.

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Eventually, after a while savoring that, people-watching, and watching the waves, she catches a subway back home. She has deliveries, doesn't she?

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That she does! There's a fair bit of space between the columns in a skyscraper, so any deliveries can fit quite well next to each of the elevators. The clothes and pharmaceutical supplies are contained in a few boxes placed next to the elevator leading into Sable's apartment, where they can quite easily slide along the floor and into the elevator heading up.

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She hauls everything in with a smile, and starts putting things away. Clothes get hung up, pills get set on the table, and then she starts with the instructions for her snek. Assuming it's all straight-forward, she'll mark down a "before treatment" reading.

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The instructions say to place one of the included vials behind the neck of the snek, turning it slightly until you can hear a click. Then, you find a place, like behind your arm, that's relatively insensitive, open the jaws of the sneck, and shove them against the area you're drawing blood from. After a 4 second safety delay, it takes the sample, loosening its jaws so it can easily be pulled off.

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This world is unspeakably adorable. She is in love. She takes her sample as instructed.

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Then, the sample is to be sent to one of the labs at the local hospital, where they'll give Sable and Sylvania the results of the bloodwork, to help ensure that Sable receives a safe and effective dosage of the hormones and other medications mixed into the (conveinently small and easy to swallow!) pills.

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She packs it up and signals whichever delivery bots are responsible for that, and then starts reading her pill instructions. Once daily or more? Morning? Evening? With food? Without food? Any other important rules?

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Once daily, evening, with food. There aren't any other rules to follow; the bloodwork is meant to include the interactions from her diet and lifestyle, so it'd be inappropriate to use samples taken in the morning. It's the same kind of small delivery bot used for delivering food to people, although the vial is to be packed into a very thick padded case to protect it on its way to the hospital and back to Sable.

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Well then. She'll order a last little cookie or three and a little bit of milk, to be entirely solid about having had it with food. What's the state of the art on Thomassia for keeping your pills handy for taking with supper? Pill organizer in your purse or something?

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Sable can easily buy a mini-size bottle of pills, letting her carry a few with her while minimizing their bulk, or place them in padded plastic bags to protect them if she carried them inside a purse or backpack.

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Then she'll order a mini-bottle and tuck it in a purse. Problem solved. The cookies and milk are delicious, the pill goes down easy, and then she brushes her teeth and curls up on the couch to read a little fiction before going to bed.

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The main genre of fiction here seems to be pseudo-biographies, containing various episodes from the life of a soldier, general or just someone present for many historical or fictional moments. One about a mom and daughter who lived through a century of their country going from poor to prosperous is incredibly engrossing, comparing how the mom spent all day carrying her daughter on her back when she worked on a farm and lived in a straw hut, to when her great-grandchild was sent to be cared for by the nurses at the nursery that was built into the skyscraper that her granddaughter lived in and recovered in after her birth. And thomassians quite possibly might have lived a life seeing the world change similarly!

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An utterly fascinating perspective on life here. She bookmarks where she stops, tucks into bed, and goes to sleep with a contented sigh.

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Sable wakes up, feeling quite amazing. The light in the ceiling gently brightened over a long period, letting her wake up refreshed, relaxed, and full of energy. The alarm, coming from her phone, is the sound of a pleasing, slow-paced song. She can easily wait a while on the wide bed, snoozing for a while longer, before finally waking up for real; alarms are generally set earlier than when you get out of bed, to give you some time to rest in bed before getting out.

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Yep. This world is totally spoiling her. Probably that's a good thing.

She lounges for a bit, luxuriating, then gets up and washes up for the day ahead. 

Once she's all freshened up, she gets dressed in a swishy skirt that comes to her lower thighs, a poofy blouse, some cute little wedge heels, and puts her wetsuit and a tuck kit into a bag along with the mini pill bottle. And then she's off for breakfast. She'll find a bakery near the watersports store and have some apple and cheese pastries, and maybe a cup of cocoa.

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They offer all three, while they're also baking bread in small batches through the day, letting a powerful, pleasant scent of fresh bread constantly fill the bakery.

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Gosh that's lovely. Cue contented sigh.

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A little before nine, Sable walks up to the watersports store and heads inside, perusing the various tank options.

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There are slightly smaller tanks, and some slightly larger, but they are quite similar. Beyond that, they're all made of high-strength steel, so they can handle quite impressive pressures, although they also weigh a fair amount. But that's helpful; it means she'll be able to wear a less heavy belt around her waist to maintain a neutral buoyancy.

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Well, she'll be curiously perusing these when Helena shows up.

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Helena walks into the store, quickly making her way over to Sable. "Hi Sable! I'm so excited to buy new gear for you and to get started with everything! Do you already have some idea of the kind of gear you'd like? A mask that lets you breathe through your nose, perhaps? Would that be a major feature on your end?"

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"Probably would," she agrees, turning to Helena with a smile. "Don't have a lot of thoughts about what kind of gear apart from that yet, though. I'm still feeling out the option space. I think I might prefer a larger tank rather than smaller, just at a guess?"

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"Well, these days we've basically gone totally over to rebreathers, so the big decision is basically semi open as opposed to one of the CCR rebreathers. Personally, I don't really dive deep or long enough for the extreme longevity of the CCR to really be the right decision, and a semi open unit is way lighter because you don't extra emergency tanks. I'm probably going to stick to the easier chests this season, so I doubt the CCR will prove at all necessary." 

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A smile of comprehension stretches across her face and she nods. "Aha. That makes sense. Probably I don't need the extra dive-time." She turns to take a look at the rebreathers. How long can the semi-open ones go?

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They seem to last around an hour, using an impressively compact tank and scrubber system. But the real advantage is their simplicity, safety and low weight if you're not doing super-long dives.

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She hums thoughtfully, then nods. "Yeah, semi-open should be fine unless I'm getting up to quite the mischief. You make a good point."

She looks back at Helena with a smile. "What else do I need?"

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"Well, the mask fitted to your face. Everything else is really commodity hardware you can just buy anywhere. So, it's time to get a face scan and try some 3D printed inner masks, see what's comfortable without having much dead space."

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"Okay! Lead the way!" She grins brightly at Helena. Gorgeous, interesting woman introduces her to a whole new hobby. What a life this is.

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She takes her over to the same man who tailored the wetsuit she had on yesterday. "Good morning, miss. You already have the wetsuit, so now I'll presume that you want a scuba mask so you can take it further? Please look at this." The man takes her over to a frame holding cameras looking at Sable from every angle, slowly creating an intricate and precise 3D scan of her face. Afterwards, he hands her what looks like oxygen masks made of a soft, transparent plastic.

"You'll want something that doesn't push against your nose too much, but still doesn't leave any room in front of your nose or mouth. Basically, it's supposed to not be touching you, but coming as close as it can without doing so."

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She holds it up and examines it. Does this conflict with her glasses at all? If not, she'll try it on right now.

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It does, in fact, bump into her glasses, due to how it also goes over her nose.

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Well. "Guess I'm overdue to switch to contacts." She takes them off and tries on the mask. How's the fit? Does it match what the guy suggested? How easily can she breathe?

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It pinches against the bridge of the nose, a little. And it leaves a bit more space than it really needs around the mouth and the tip of her nose, so the fit isn't quite perfect. It's not easy to breathe in, but it does let some air in through a few small gaps. Meaning it wouldn't be waterproof, or stop the air leaking out of her mask and into the water, causing much of it to be wasted.

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She frowns consideringly. "Couple gaps, pinches a bit here, and leaves a little extra space around the nose." She points out the locations of all of that. "Maybe shoulda had my glasses off."

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"Yep, that was just the closest thing I had just lying around. The 3D printer is currently spinning up, trying to see how small we can get that orinasal mask volume, without squeezing you uncomfortably." He waved at Sable for a moment, before walking off and coming back with a similar oxygen mask, this one with small pockets that followed the contours of Sable's nose and mouth closely. "This one shouldn't pinch your face and basically leaves no extra space around your mouth and nose, so you minimize the CO2 buildup. And it should be airtight until I attach the air supply port here at the front of it."

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Okay, she curiously tries that on. Airtight? Doesn't pinch?

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Yes indeed, it's both. And if Sable exhales, she'll find that it really produces a lot of pressure, because the air doesn't have anywhere to go. "That's basically the main fit done. You can also get it with more initial space, and then lower the dead space volume by using foam. I prefer doing it like this, though. The foam can get hot and sweat when you exhale."

"So, that's the inner mask. Next thing is choosing the outer mask, that this plugs into. You can choose to do something relatively old school, with basically a pair of goggles with this mask attached the bottom, or you can have the single-pane design, that shows more of your face. The second option makes you look better, but it's a bit less convenient; the air inside gets pushed up by the water, and it's harder to get a right seal. But the differences between any options are honestly quite small."

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"Hmm. Tough decision. Look cuter, or be practical."

She bobbles her head back and forth a bit.

"Which kind do you have, Helena?"

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"The cuter one! It's really not a big disadvantage, and those bigger masks that show your face are basically only an issue if the somehow slip off your face. They feel nicer than having the rubber of a traditional mask squeezing around my eyes, as well."

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She grins and nods. "Fair 'nuff. Cuter one it is. Got something close to my shade of violet?"

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"Yes, that we do. The plastic this is made of can be custom-dyed and made into a mask in exactly your color, or you can just buy this." He shows Sable a mask in a color that's a near-perfect match for her favorite shade of violet, with a wide glass window that shows off her entire face when underwater.

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"Ooooh. That'll do marvelously." Happy bounce? Happy bounce.

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"Well, that's the custom-part done. Next up is just plugging the mask into a regulator, and the regulator into the fully analog rebreather kit, and you're ready to explore the depths of the oceans while staying warm in your wetsuit."

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"Thank you!" She'll happily collect all these things, assembling them as instructed and intermittently shooting grins at Helena.

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The rebreather looks like an extra short oxygen tank, plugged onto the end of a normal oxygen tank. It becomes part of the breathing loop, and it comes with a fan system that constantly blows air through the loop. It creates a gentle flow of air in Sable's face, making it incredibly easy to breathe while keeping the air in the tiny, closely-fitted pocket surrounding her mouth and nose fresh and cool.

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It works! Cue bouncing and grinning. "Thank you!"

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Helena taps Sable on her shoulder. "It's going to be so fantastic to see how you react to diving for the first time, and seeing your first chest!" She thinks for a moment. "Honestly, with all the safety features and me being there, I'd be comfortable with you getting to slowly, and casually, dive for a really safe chest near the the surface. Do you feel as comfortable as I feel with you trying that?"

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Hmmm. Does she?

 

 

She does. She can read the guidelines on the way there, and she kind of trusts Helena. Already.

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"Yeah, let's do it! Got a link to the basic guidelines I should review real quick on our way there?"

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"The guidelines are about getting practice. Practice with switching over to your other regulator, practice with changing into your reserve mask, practice with how to try exhaling evenly if you're doing an emergency ascent... but you, diving for 30 odd minutes, finding a chest buried under a few meters of water? I'm not worried. And I'll be there, with my regulator, in case we need to quickly get out of the water. I'm not worried at all."

Helena makes her way over to a public bathroom, just like the one she walked into yesterday, presumably to change into the wetsuit that she brought. The entrance is a door next to a warm and cozy cafe, with wood decor and books all along the shelves on the cafe's walls. The bathrooms almost blend into the huge building. All the doors clearly mark them as unisex bathrooms; they have a very minimalist illustration of a shower head on them.

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Sable will check out a public bathroom as well. In she goes with her bag.

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It reminds her quite a bit about her own bathroom, actually. There's an extra-wide sink counter that'd be perfect as a changing table, together with a toilet placed against the room's far wall, and a spacious shower cabinet. And in the middle of it all, is a wide open room with plenty of space for Sable to get changed inside of. She'd also notice a medicine cabinet above the sink, with a table on a piece of paper attached to the cabinet doors, partially obscuring a wide array of colorful boxes kept behind the glass.

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Oh wow. This is impressive, as public bathrooms go. She gets changed, then steps out with a smile.

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She sees Helena, similarly dressed for the upcoming underwater excursion. She slowly waves at Sable. "You're looking very good in that wetsuit of yours! Excited to dive for the first time?"

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"Likewise, Helena. And absolutely."

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Helena walks over to the pier; the first chest is placed under it, under one of the beams, making it easy to reach. Helena slowly walks out in front of Sable, before turning around and looking at her. "Ready, Sable? Follow me!" She flops into the water, making her way down to the shallow ocean floor near the beautiful beach. She has a flashlight in her left hand, brightening the surprisingly dark waters, as she leads Sable on the way to the chest.

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Into the water she splashes! Oooh, it feels great. Even the rebreather feels good. She swims back and forth for a moment, then catches up to Helena.

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It probably takes just 10 minutes to find the chest; it has white paint on top of it, making it very visible under the water. Helena opens it, revealing a painting of the city in the chest lid, together with a wide range of small figurines of the city inside the chest itself. Helena grabs one for herself, before motioning for Sable to try getting one for herself. The figurine sticks itself incredibly well to her wetsuit, meaning that she won't need any pockets to carry it back up out of the water.

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She smiles wide and grabs a figurine happily, sticking it to her hip and then swimming a little circle around Helena playfully.

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Helena points a bit further down, revealing another white chest, before swimming in that direction. She turns to Sable for a moment, her mask letting Sable get a good look at her smile, before she starts continuing towards the second chest.

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She smiles widely back. Down she goes, following Helena to the next chest. It's always so neat to be underwater. 

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This chest contains an image, and figurine, of a boat instead. It looks like the kind of boat that Sable enjoyed yesterday, and it too, sticks perfectly to her wetsuit. Helena starts turning back, heading towards an ecosystem of kelp and bright, colorful fish that have started to form around a series of concrete pillars lowered into the water, somewhat closer to shore.

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She marvels happily at the boat, twirling in place for a moment, then sticks it to her other hip and swims after Helena, examining the area she's swimming toward. Is there a chest over there too? The fish are so pretty!

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There is indeed a chest, this one almost camouflaged between the kelp. It has an image and figurine of a candied apple inside, adding to Sable and Helena's collection. Helena chooses to slow down and marvel at the scales of the fish surrounding the two of them, spinning in place as she follows their many unexpected movements.

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Sable does the same, smiling warmly. They're really pretty.

So's Helena, but now is about the fish.

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Eventually, the hour is over, and Helena makes her way back up to the surface. She looks at Sable, her voice muffled by the mask. "That was so much fun! I want to try going deep, see how far this rebreather can take us." She looks at Sable with a glimmer in her eye.

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She grins and nods, eyes alight with excitement. "The fish were so pretty, and the figurines are so cool! And you're really graceful under the water. Out of it too, but especially diving. I'd love to go deeper with you."

She tucks her figurines into her bag.

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Helena nods at Sable. "Yeah, I'm going to invite you on a diving trip with one of my friends, I'm sure of it. You're a natural in the water, you know that?"

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She blushes and smiles. "Awwww, thank you! I'd love to."

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"Well, I've had some amazing fun for today, but I have some friends to meet fairly soon. I'll be sure to call you back once I've got a diving trip put together, and we're gonna have some amazing adventures together!" She smiles and waves at Sable, before walking off to a public bathroom and changing back into her sheer top that really underlines the bra she's wearing under it, together with the short skirt and the long legs to go with it.

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Before walking off to see her friends, she stops to talk to Sable. "Do you work out, Sable? Because being healthy and active and in good shape feels better than you'd ever think. There are gacha-gyms that try to simplify getting into the habit, and you can do martial arts if you feel competitive and like challenging others. I can help recommend places, if there's any kind of physical activity you'd like to try. I've done a lot of things in my time here."

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"Haven't in a while," she replies with a shake of her head. "Been meaning to get back into it, and have picked out a saber club to try in a few days, but want to get into a few more things, probably. Was considering yoga, or maybe dance classes, or something?"

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"Well, I can tell you my favorite yoga class, and there's a really great dance class I went to. They're both really good at introducing new people activities, so you're gonna fit right in."

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"Sounds great, thank you!"

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Helena hands over the info about the yoga class and the dance class she was thinking of introducing Sable to, before starting on her walk home. Both are a fair distance away, although the lightning-quick subway means that it won't take long to get to them.

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Oh, are those happening now/shortly? She'll go change into her normal clothes again while debating which to check out first.

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There are 3 hours, just about, until the yoga class, and 5 hours until the dance class. Sable will absolutely have time enough to do both of them.

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Wow, okay. Things are just always happening here, aren't they? She'll head toward yoga, then find lunch somewhere nearby. Burger with waffle fries sounds good today.

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Things are always happening, because thomassian cities all have high populations, making it possible to always find someone who's exactly who you're looking for. Riding the subway to outside the studio where the yoga class will take place doesn't take much time at all. Neither does finding a comfortable cafe to sit down and enjoy a delicious burger, sent her way through the ubiquitous delivery bots.

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Soon enough, after enjoying some deliciousness and reading things on her phone for a bit — during the gap she realizes she needs her athleticwear and zips home for yoga pants and such — she finds herself walking into the yoga studio right on time.

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Like yoga classes tend to be, the women notably outnumber the men. The instructor is dressed in all-white, impressing everyone with her ability to roll her shoulders and place both of her arms well behind her head. The first exercise is simply to sit down and attempt to reach your feet with your hands, stretching your thighs. The soft and smooth yoga pants don't get in the way even slightly.

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She would've been scared to do this, back on Earth. But it's easy here. Huh.

Streeeetch.

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Following this, there are exercises focusing on mobility in your shoulders: having them both behind your back, one with your hand trying to reach down, the other with your hand trying to reach up, moving them across each other. The mirrors against the wall makes it easy for Sable to check her form, and see how everyone else is doing, and the stretching is more satisfying and more pleasant than she'd expect.

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This is great. She's definitely coming back next week, she thinks.

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It's a very quiet and intense session; people don't converse, only focus on the activity. The next exercise is another trying to improve your flexibility in your thighs: you stand with your legs forming a 45 degree angle, bending over and attempting to touch your foot on the foremost leg using your hand. It proves a fairly intense stretch, as a matter of fact.

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Oooh. That's satisfying. One hell of a stretch.

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Next, following a succession of similar, intense exercises, the whole session is capped off by everyone leaning into the mat-like floor and trying to move their hands as far away from their heads as they manage, stretching both the arms and the back. After a few minutes, the instructor at the head of class instructs everyone to stand up again, swinging their arms around to release any tension. She nods at everyone appreciatively, hoping to end the session on a positive note with some approving feedback.

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Yeah, Sable would say she feels pretty positively about this. She's definitely coming back. Gosh. Yoga was pretty great. Pity she never would've felt safe trying it sooner. 

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But she's surrounded by lovely people and doing wonderful things. Let's not dwell, eh?

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The instructor looks around, trying to see if anyone looks or confused or has any questions, trying to make it clear that she's receptive and happy to answer any questions. After answering a few quick questions, she notices Sable's momentary reaction, and walks over to her. "You look like you were really concentrating on something, there. Was there something you were wondering about?"

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Oh. Someone caught that. "Um. I was thinking a bit about why I never felt safe trying this before. And then trying not to dwell on that, to avoid bringing down the mood, because this session was really great."

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"It sounds like the sort of thing that'd get in the way, and make the session less great, to me. Do you want to talk about it? I think that thinking about that kind of thing can probably cause some issues elsewhere. Why would you not feel safe trying this, you think? Are you worried about injuries from working out too hard?"

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Oh of course they think that. "Um. No. I... moved here from somewhere much worse, where it wasn't safe to be transgender. Many people in the country I came from shunned and shamed trans people, or even physically hurt them. Especially if they tried to participate in feminine-biased activities, like yoga. Still haven't gotten over having lived there for so long."

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"Where? I wouldn't expect any part of thomassia to be like that, or that people wouldn't move from there the instant they had the opportunity. But I can see how that'd be traumatizing. Do you want to... practice feeling safe? As silly as that sounds coming out of my mouth..."

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"I... This will sound very weird, but it wasn't on thomassia. I didn't know thomassia existed until two days ago. And I think I've been underestimating how hurt my old world left me." She breathes slowly, trying not to let her voice shake too much.

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"Hurt, in which ways, do you think?"

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"Guarded, worried people will decide I'm too weird and too trans and say something to hurt me, worried people will misgender me, worried all my hurts mean I'm burdening everyone around me, scared the basic income will suddenly run out and I'll have to go do a job that makes me miserable because my old world didn't have basic income at all, scared to even talk about all this because sharing this kind of vulnerability gets you hurt on my old world."

Yeah, there's no hope for her composure at this point. Her breathing starts to get ragged, a tear rolls down her cheek, and she hugs herself tightly. She's still gonna try, but stuff's slipping out.

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"Well, it sounds like some practice with vulnerability is in order! Would you give me a hug? It'll probably make you feel a lot less scared like that."

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She takes a shaky breath and nods, stepping closer to the instructor, spreading her arms wide, and hugging her tightly.

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Sable gets the hug back, as the instructor very carefully squeezes Sable while applying pressure evenly, gently moving her arms across her back. "Yes, this is what living in thomassia should feel like, always."

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She takes a few more shaky breaths, nodding. "Thank you," she murmurs.

 

 

 

"It may take a lot of hugs before it fully sinks in, I think."

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"A huge amount, I'm sure! There's lots of hugging at a slumber party, usually, if you think that'd help? I have a feeling that you're really tightly-wound, and finding some way to relax that would probably do you a lot of good."

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A rueful chuckle escapes her. "Slumber parties: another thing I couldn't have had in my old world. Adults were expected to set aside 'childish things' like slumber parties, and trans girls had a hard time finding people to go to one with them anyway."

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"Well, slumber parties were never much of a kid's thing here, only a rich people's thing. I think you'd like them as a kind of exposure therapy."

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She blushes, but manages a smile and nods. "How do people organize slumber parties on this planet? Especially when you don't know many people yet?"

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"Well, if you look it up online, you can find lots of people putting together their slumber parties, and they tend to be invite basically anyone that wants in. You could just ask them? I guess that it'd be uncomfortable to do one of them with someone new, but I think that'd just make it more therapeutic."

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"Yeah, you have a point. And people wouldn't mind someone joining their slumber party who might devolve into a teary mess at the drop of a hat?"

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"That'd just be cute! And I think they'd like you even more, for how brave you were being."

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Yeah, that gets more blushing. "...Okay. I'll sign up for one."

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There's lots of them, usually taking place inside of a skyscraper penthouse. Some of them even offer to let you rent out the main rooms of other apartments, to act as very roomy changing rooms, with you having all your clothes placed there in advance.

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Well, she'll sign up for one for tonight. She doesn't need the extra roomy changing room, though. She's used to bathrooms being half the size of what they have on thomassia, so changing in a rented main room would be absurdly spacious. She will do just fine with a bathroom to change in.

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The soonest slumber party is 9 days away, at the moment. They're a bit less spur-of-the-moment, so they're a bit rarer. "Come by cab, three-band system strictly enforced, wear your most intimidating, indulgently luxurious lingerie", the ad says when Sable looks for anything about a dress code.

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She looks up to the instructor. "What's a three-band system?"

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"It's actually kind of symbolic of the slumber party. You get a silicone band or wrist tattoo, that shows how comfortable you are with physical touch. They can be blue, orange or red, showing how comfortable you are with physical touch. Blue means 'only with explicit verbal consent', orange means 'trust my body language', and red means 'my safeword is safeword'. Slumber parties are really about leaning into vulnerability, and the three bands means that everyone gets to stay within their comfort zone while still being able to be vulnerable in just their underwear."

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"Oh."

 

 

 

"That's. Very good and helpful. Also scary, but that's the point."

She signs up for that one. She'll ask for a red band when she gets there.

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The yoga teacher keeps touching Sable for a few seconds more. Then she lets go and looks at her. "I want you to know that thomassia is a place of people that really, truly care about everyone. And they've managed to build a society that makes it so their care for everyone really goes to helping them, and keeping them safe and happy."

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She smiles weakly and nods. "It will take me some time to get used to that, but I'm really noticing that everywhere I look."

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She smiles at Sable. "Getting used to a world being much happier, safer, and more caring shouldn't take too long, should it? I think you'll be able to have a nice life here." She steps back and waits for a moment before continuing. "Goodbye for today! I hope my class was good enough that you'd want to take it again."

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"It really was. Thank you very much. I'll definitely be back."

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And then Sable gets into the subway and heads home. How much time does she have before dance class? She's not sure if she's up for it just now, she'll need a minute.

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She doesn't have much, just another 30 minutes when considering the time it takes to get to the class.

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Nope. Nope nope nope.

She orders a bunch of chocolate chip cookie dough ice cream, a big hot cocoa in a container to keep it warm, and looks for something like breakup music on her phone. She's breaking up with her old world and coping with the hurts it left her, and this is the traditional way to cope with a bad breakup.

And then she bundles herself up in a blanket on the couch in her nightie.

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She can get a tub of quite splendid ice cream, together with a fantastic hot cocoa from a nearby cafe, and can quickly find an emotional, intense piece of breakup music using her phone.

As she bundles up, everything around Sable feels somehow considerate: the couch is soft yet supportive, the blanket has a reassuring weight and a cozy fleece layer on the inside, and the incredibly light and silky nightie feels utterly delightful against her skin. And the huge glass window of the main room makes it feel open and spacious, so Sable feels like she has all the space in the world, just for herself, in this private sanctuary.

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She curls up and nestles into the coziness.

She exhales shakily.

A sniffle becomes a sob.

This...

Fundamentally, Earth societies mostly just aren't kind. They don't optimize for it. They don't prioritize it. The things they do that they claim are to help people are terribly broken and demotivational.

The US is not a society where it's okay to not be okay.

And...

She has not been okay in a very long time.

 

 

She bawls.

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She's not okay. She doesn't know when the last time she ever was okay was.

She hurts.

Great, wracking sobs shake her body, tears roll down her cheeks, and she rocks.

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Eventually the sobs die down, probably about when the ice cream and cocoa are arriving or a half hour after (she manages to put the ice cream in the freezer if she's still not ready to eat it when it shows up).

And after the sobs die down, she gets the ice cream back out, digs the spoon angrily into the tub, and huffs.

Fuck you, America. Fuck you, Earth. She has seen a world that doesn't suck, she lives there now, and she will never go back

America had no room to be a wrecked mess who needed time to figure herself out.

America was not safe to be trans in.

America had garbage for a social safety net.

America spent its time teaching everyone that their value was their economic contribution.

America gave no fucks about her or anyone else's happiness.

Earth and America, Sable has broken up with you, and she does not have high hopes that you'll ever get sane.

Fuck off, America. Don't call her.

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Angry, huffy, pouty ice cream eating continues. So does the break up music.

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The room, and everything in it, accommodates her. She has total privacy, so high up in the sky. The couch remains comfortable; the blanket reassuring. She has space, to sprawl out and be herself and make herself comfortable and sit any way she wants and stand up and spread out and never curl herself up or close herself off.

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Sylvania sends a text to Sable. "I'm curious about how much better you're feeling, with just the clothes and electrolysis? Have you done any activities that made you feel better, or maybe tried on some lingerie that makes you feel sexy? In general, do you feel like you're getting chances to experience being affirmed and euphoric? Because I think you should make that a priority."

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She sniffles curiously and looks at the text. Huh. Sylvania's a sweetie. And Sylvania is one of the people who encouraged her to lean into vulnerability more. Maybe....

She's nervous, but she sends sends a text back.

The clothes and electrolysis are helping bunches. Got compliments on being cute, made a friend or two, went scuba diving with a pretty girl. Went to yoga, which was pretty euphoric too. Was going to go to a dance class in a swishy dress after, but then the yoga instructor helped me spot that I'm kinda fucked up and traumatized from living on Earth for thirty-one years, so now I'm having a tearful "fuck you, Earth, I'm breaking up with you and never coming back" night, with ice cream and breakup music, as is the tradition of emotional girls having bad breakups where I come from.

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You're really making me want to hug you! ❤️ Do you think you need any kind of help or support to deal with it? I'm sure your neighbors would be happy to do a support standby.

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💜 Wouldn't say no to a hug. Support and hugs might help a lot, actually. Don't really know the neighbors yet, used to living in a world where unless you're incredibly lucky the neighbors are at best distantly tolerable. What's a support standby?

She sips her cocoa and eats more ice cream and listens to more breakup music and reminds herself that she never has to go back.

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It's a weird kind of pseudo-RP? It's basically them pretending that you're sick, and need intensive care, and they're the nurses assigned to you. And basically they try staying out of sight, while being ready to jump in and care for you, or hug you, at any time? Most thomassians think it's really cute and fun, and it feels really nice to be there for people. And of course it feels fantastic to have their support and help and Supply.

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That sounds incredibly sweet and adorable, and also my Earth trauma has me feeling really guilty and embarrassed about needing it, and about that being the reason why I'm introducing myself to my neighbors.

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I think you should introduce yourself to your neighbors anyway? And mention the support standby more offhand. Wait, Sable. I want you to go through a real beauty routine, you had one of those "prescribed" by your tailor, right? and really check yourself out in the mirror, experiment with clothes. Because I think that wearing something that makes you feel amazing would make this much more comfortable, and that knowing that you're making a good first impression would be really helpful when it comes to having those gender euphoria feelings.

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She looks around and gathers up the various beauty supplies her tailor picked out, looks at the beauty routine instructions, and starts setting things out in the appropriate order.

Okay, gathering everything for doing the beauty routine. How does a thomassian introduce herself to her neighbors? Is there a building-wide or floor-wide messaging system? Go knock on doors? Move the ice cream session to a common area?

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Well, each building gets its own message-routing number? So if you send a message to your building's coordinates, in phone number form, you send a message to everyone living in that building. You're allowed to say that it's only meant for people on your floor and elevator landing, but they'll still technically be able to see it. Although the etiquette is deleting the message unread if you specify that it's only meant for people your floor+landing. Alternately, you're also free to knock on doors.

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Okay, that's really cool. Thomassia continues to be saner than Earth in fascinating new ways. I'll send the building a message after I finish getting all done up to meet people. Would you recommend I floor-limit it? Also, how much do I explain about the "my home planet is a traumatic place and I have trauma from living there for the past thirty-one years" situation?

She slowly works through her beauty routine, everything from face wash to hair-styling to a bit of makeup and painting her nails. She picks out some really lacy lingerie, in black, and then starts looking through her closet to decide what outfit to wear.

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I think you should floor-limit it, honestly. And I think that you should wait a moment with the home-planet thing. I suspect that they'd see it as a high-context RP thing they're not sure about how to deal with.

The beauty routine is careful and deliberate; all the products come in similar-sized thin pucks, designed to be stacked, and to use the top product before moving on to the next, whatever product remains on top being the next one to try. There's an anti-aging cream, some nutrient cream, an exfoliant, aloe... they do try to minimize the amount of products used, but they do end up with a fair few different products needed for a truly fantastic result. Because they're commodity chemicals, they are at least very, very cheap.

And once you're done, you can just put all the products you're using back, starting with the one topping the pile of products that you used before finishing your routine with the product at the bottom of your original pile.

The magic of thomassian design means that even Sable's laciest lingerie keeps her tuck at once supportive, flat and comfortable, with the alluring "lace-over-nude" colorscheme. And in terms of outfits, she has quite a few; a few different skirts, depending on her mood. And also that slinky red dress... but really, the options are near-endless.

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Thomassia: kind of great.

And then she debates the outfits. Hmm. The swishy black pleated skirt, and the cream-colored poofy blouse, and maybe the piratical jacket overtop? She tries all that on and twirls.

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Wow, she looks kind of pretty

Wow.

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She snaps a picture of herself, curls styled lopsidedly to one side, bit of a daring grin on her face, skirt swooshed up just a little mid-twirl, and sends it to Sylvania. 

Okay. That sounds like a plan. How do I look?

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You're a dime! Knock em' dead! ❤️

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She sends a 💜 to Sylvania, then types up a text to the building.

[Floor 35 only please] Hi everyone, I'm Sable, the new girl in 3512, just moved in a couple days ago. Looking forward to meeting people. New to the area and don't have a lot of friends yet, so new friends are very welcome.

She looks over the message, waffles for a moment, then adds one more sentence.

(Coming off a bit of a bad time before I moved here, so hugs would be pretty great.)

Then she hums to herself. What if this is too much? Not enough? She screenshots the whole draft and sends the screenshot to Sylvania.

This look okay?

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Yup, that's plenty! After sending that message, I recommend that you also walk around, knock on doors, and introduce yourself to people. Tell them you'd really enjoy doing some RP, and asking if there's any RP premises they want to try.

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She sends the drafted message to the building, then sends a new one to Sylvania.

How do I tell which neighbors won't be bothered by knocking on their door?

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They tell you "Fuck off?" After you've sent out a message like that, it's expected that they see it and reply with "please don't knock on my unit" or something similar, if they're not interested in seeing their new neighbor.

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Okay. She takes a few deep breaths, watches for "don't knock" messages, psyches herself up a bit.

This is a place that cares about meeting people and being sweet to them. This is a good place. She's going to be okay. 

Here I go. Thanks for all the help. 💜

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And then out she goes to knock on a random door that hasn't sent a "fuck off not now" (if she's received any of those.)

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Sable has received zero "fuck off" messages or shouts so far (after knocking on her first door!) A man wearing a pretty pajamas opens the door and takes a look at Sable. She's able to make out a historical drama of some kind projected against and taking up nearly an entire wall in his apartment. "You look quite beautiful, miss! Were you looking forward to getting to meet some people and talk to them?"

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She blushes a bit at the compliment and smiles at him. "Thank you! And yeah, looking forward to meeting people, chatting a bit, maybe doing some friendly or supportive RP if people are up for it sometime soon?"

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"You'll find tons of takers for the RP! Although, on my end, I was really enjoying the drama I was watching, so you'll have to wait a bit for me to join. Here." He lifts up his phone, motioning for Sable to tap hers against his and share contact information through NFC. "They just need to tap for a moment, and I'll know how to contact you. Way less annoying than both of us putting each others' contact info into our phones."

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She smiles, taps her phone to his, and nods. "Thanks! Enjoy your drama!"

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"I absolutely will! And I think I might join you later, as well." He waves her goodbye and slowly closes the door behind him as he closes the door to his apartment.

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Okay, she takes a breath. That went well.

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Next door.

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It reveals a woman wearing a simple, grey dress. She smiles as she gets a look at Sable. "I saw your message! I'm always happy to meet new people and make new friends. Can you tell me about yourself?"

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Sable smiles back at her. "Okay! I'm Sable, I'm thirty-one, I like sailing and swimming, I'm planning to try dance class and sword-fighting soon, and I might try writing fiction eventually. I like helping people and seeing people smile. I'm also kind of fragile and emotional from a complicated bad time before I moved to Leakey Resort a few days ago."

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"That sounds really cool and exciting! Do you want to try some RP? I really like doing standby support, and I think you might appreciate it, too."

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She grins and blushes, a bit embarrassed but eager. "Yeah, I've never tried it before but I think it sounds great. I'd love to."

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"Then count me in! I don't have anything to do, right now. But I'm guessing you don't want to start on that, right this second?"

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"Yeah. Want to meet more people first, maybe see if anyone else wants to participate"

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Sable finds that quite a few of her neighbors want to participate, actually. She can choose around 3 or 4 different ones happy to be "assigned nurses" in her apartment, they don't think it'd be particularly wise to have more than that participating in the RP with Sable. 

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She winds up with a trio of cuddly, sweet, cute women, all of whom seem to have a pretty good sense for when someone needs a hug.

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The trio hide themselves in either the bathroom or bedroom, waiting for Sable to use her "call button" (pushing a button on her phone to send a message so they'll make their way into the mainroom with Sable, who's "sick")

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Sable nestles into her couch, a little embarrassed about the whole thing, but puts her breakup playlist back on, eats a bite of the last of the ice cream — she'd put the remainder away when she started getting dressed up earlier — and then looks down at the increasingly empty tub.

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She spent her whole life in a culture that shames people for not working, for being vulnerable, and for being different. And it marked her. She may learn and heal, but there will be scar tissue. Even just on her ability to be vulnerable.

Her breath hitches.

She lets herself feel it, lets it sink in that she's feeling something she'd be shamed for back in Louisiana, that she has support for it here, and then hits the call button with tears in her eyes.

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The trio emerge from their rooms, looking over Sable with concern and worry, before one of them advances before the others and gives her a tight hug. "Are you well? Are you feeling any pain or discomfort?" She squeezes Sable, quietly looking around, and keeps up the pressure, giving the others looks tacitly saying, "be prepared for a handoff, our "patient" needs 24/7 care".

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She looks up, briefly forces a brittle smile before remembering, letting it shatter, and shaking her head. "It hurts. It hasn't stopped hurting for years, I'm realizing, and only now am I letting myself feel it."

She leans into the hug.

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The hug continues, her warmth helping heat up Sable, and the pleasant pressure making her feel protected and cared for. "We'll care for you, we'll be here for you, don't worry."

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She sags in her arms. Her breath hitches in another sob. How the fuck does she deserve this? She doesn't, she couldn't, she hasn't worked hard enough, hasn't helped enough people, hasn't earned her luxuries.

But that's the lie. It's always there. You don't have to do anything to deserve comfort or care, even though her homeworld said you do.

Another sob. She squeezes tighter.

Would that she could forget.

Except she never wants to forget, because it's important to know that sometimes people don't choose to be kind, and that leaves scars. It's important to know how important kindness really is. Since she's lived through it's lack, she'll carry the memory, the scar tissue after she heals, to know the lack can't be countenanced.

Everyone deserves better. Even her.

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The trio take turns, hugging Sable individually or in a group hug, doing their best to ensure she constantly had their reassuring warmth all around her. "It's ok, you don't have to curl yourself up or anything. Open up, spread your arms and legs, sprawl out. You deserve to take up space, to make yourself comfortable, to be yourself and be open."

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She clings, and babbles, "how could they"s tumbling over "they don't know they're hurting everyone"s and tearing through "they don't care"s. She clings and hugs and rocks, letting them switch out but trying to always be in contact with at least one.

Over time she's a little less curled, though. Her posture gets tiny bits more open.

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"... do you need anything to eat or drink, miss?" They keep the hug going, doing their best to guarantee that she's always getting steady, even pressure from someone.

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It takes her a bit, to process that. She's actually let her vigilance down a good bit, so she can't interrupt her hurts to process inputs like she'd trained herself.

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But she manages to nod, and say, "yeah, a drink would be good, please. Would help. Thank you."

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One of them walks off, starting up a cup of tea in the microwave. Sable isn't sure how long it takes before she returns with it, holding it for her and letting her have a few sips. It is, by a significant margin, the best tea she's ever had.

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At the first sip, she looks down at it in shock, then babbles gratitude and appreciation and awe in between sips.

She's not really trying to be coherent.

The rocking comes back, for a bit, early in sipping the tea, but it fades by the middle of the cup.

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And then the hugs, and the nuzzling, keeps going. "Are you in the mood... for a steamy bath?" another one of them asks.

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"I—wha—yes?—but—"

She stiffens, looks down at her body, takes a slow breath as dysphoria old hurts roil.

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"The steam, and the warmth... it often feels amazing. I hoped that it'd make you feel better, to revel in all the warmth and the water spreading itself over you."

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It takes her a moment, but she manages to nod and mumble, "probably, yes, but... body? dysphoric..."

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"... I think you might need to wait, then. But... if you'll never be able to see all of you, in a mirror, I think it'll be tough to start feeling better. Maybe try having a look, and doing your best to love the body you're in? Just to try?"

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She takes a deep breath and nods, pushing against the couch a bit to try to stand up. 

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They take as much weight as they can off her feet, supporting her as they bring her to her bathroom. "You'll want some privacy for this, right? We'll be waiting right outside, always ready."

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She nods, then turns to face the mirror. As the door shuts, she frowns, and then starts stripping down.

It's only been a day since she first took the new hormone regimen, so she can't possibly actually be showing signs of fat redistribution yet.

But...

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Even her ex, back before she cracked her eggshell at all, said she had a nice ass, better than some girls do. And as she turns and examines herself in the mirror... she does.

Her face is... cute. None of the feminization has taken effect yet, but she has potential.

And all the awful hair being gone is pretty great.

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She looks between her legs. That... she doesn't know what she wants to do about that. Being able to tuck very well certainly helps. She's not... as bothered as she was. It's certainly a nice cock, as such things go. But. She doesn't know if she wants to keep it. 

She can manage not to be as bothered by it for now, though. That's a start.

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And her hair looks nice. 

Well...

She can accept herself. As a work in progress. With a lot of work to do still.

She puts her clothes back on and opens the door with a weak smile.

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"...I think you're starting to feel a bit better already, aren't you?" The trio smiles at her. "I think you'll do just fine! How about watching something sappy and dumb on the projector, if enjoying the heat from the bath isn't quite what you want right now?"

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She nods. "That sounds good."

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They grab their phones, turning on the projector camouflaged as a part of the ceiling, and covering one of the apartment's white walls with a menu showing a huge range of movies. Most of them are sappy biographical movies, about living through some interesting period of history (or fictional history). One of them, about a woman reminiscing on the life she led during her country's utterly impossible (fictional) war, catches Sable's eye a bit more than the other options.

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She points at it. "That one, maybe?"

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"Well, we're happy to watch it with you! Are you hungry enough that you want to eat something while watching it? We think it'd be really awesome to order 4 different dishes, and have a potpourri of options to try out as we watch the movie. Sound interesting?"

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She nods. "That does sound nice. Still need to take my evening pill, too, and it's supposed to be with food, so that works out. Do y'all mind picking? I think trying new things would be good."

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"Yes, we're happy to. Do you want us to start the movie now, and have the food arrive partway through? Or do you want us to wait until the food arrives before beginning the movie?"

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"I think the former?"

 

 

Yeah, she nods.

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"We're happy to get going, then!" She taps a button, and the movie begins instantly; there is no loading time or buffering. It starts with a camera floating above a huge grass plain, moving across a vast rice field, and zooming in on a family living in what looks like a medieval wooden shack. The youngest member, a girl, is looking on as her mother, father, and older brother are working in a rice field, while she plays with a crude carving of a horse.

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Awww. Cute kid. Farm life can be hard, but at least the kid gets to play some. She snuggles in and keeps watching.

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A few years pass by, and she joins her brother, working on the farm. It's clearly tiring, and she sweats profusely under the sun, but she clearly finds it satisfying in its own way. She ends her days, sitting around the fire, enjoying the simple food with her family. Once in a while, one of their neighbors walks over and plays music for them on a simple string instrument.

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It's a simple life, but it has its perks. She's lived out in a cabin in the woods before, so she gets it a little, but not the level of hard work farm life involves.

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Her life stays nearly unchanged for the following decade, when something strange starts to happen: a group of armed people start surrounding their farms, buying their food at good prices, trading them a powerful fertilizer in return. They also begin extracting tribute, but their life remains largely unchanged, still; they work around as much, getting to keep as much of the rice as they did before their arrival.

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Worrying. It seems to be stable for now, but that's a concerning situation.

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Similar to before, they see, but don't experience danger, as battles between two similar-looking factions have started on the outskirts of the farm they're all working in. The family sometimes pays tribute to one group, sometimes to another, although they struggle to recognize the difference between them. The war never affects them directly; they're allowed to just stay on their farms, but it's scary to hear the violence in the distance.

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She's never seen that kind of violence close up. She's seen violent crime, sure, even had a gun to her head once, but this looks more like war.

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Suddenly, on a peaceful day, the soldiers start raiding their homes, trapping the family outside of their house for hours as they search it for every grain of rice. The stare at the girl's father, as they portion out the food. They don't take any more in tribute, but make it as clear as possible that they could, that they have total control of his family's destiny.

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Oh no. She knew this had to be coming, and at least the soldiers didn't take more, but that's still such a violation, to have their home invaded and choices taken like that.

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A few more years go by, these too uneventful. But then, one day, the food stops going in. The family owns a few pigs and chickens, but only enough to fertilize the fields and give them a few eggs; they used to purchase fruit, vegetables and meat from elsewhere. But when they head to the market to buy ingredients these days, there is nothing to buy. They have a fair bit of money from selling their rice, but very little to spend it on. At least they're able to save up a lot of money?

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Oh dear. The economy is getting weird. War is such a mess.

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Eventually, things get bad. Very bad. The army returns, this time walking off with the money they've built up for months, explaining that they have a desperate, temporary need for money. They receive bonds in return, of course. Then they announce that they've stopped a group of monopolists gouging rice prices. So the family will start selling to them instead, for much, much less than they were paid earlier.

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Oh no. Pretty words wrapping a shitty thing to do.

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The little girl, and her family, struggle to feed themselves. The tribute was a fixed tax measured in currency, not actual rice, and the low prices have forced to work from the first rays of light to when it gets too dark to keep going. Everyone gets thinner, slowly. After the second year, they find out that one of their neighbors eventually starved to death under the crushing tributes. Our protagonist, the teenage girl, is starting to feel sickly and exhausted, all the time.

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Hold on, little one. It's rough, and the army tributes are crushing, but Sable's rooting for you.

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Eventually, more and more people living within the rice fields end up dead from malnutrition and illnesses. A blight destroys essentially the family's entire crop, but their neighbors share what little they have. Their rice-porridge has been reduced to being more water than rice, but they manage to tide themselves over to next year, as more and more of their neighbors die from hunger. The girl begins eating boiled bark and leaves with most meals, making it soft enough to chew on and swallow, if not actually digestible.

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Oh no. Getting close to the wire here.

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Suddenly, a chime arrives at the door. "It's the food!" One of the women watching the film with Sable walks off, returning with a huge portion of steaming fresh food for each of them. "You can get the fried chickpeas, or the garlic chicken, or the prawns in curry sauce, or try some of the lentils! It's all gonna be amazing, trust me!"

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"Thank you!" She starts with some of the fried chickpeas, since that's something she hasn't had before, only having had chickpeas mixed into other dishes rather than as the focus. Mmmmm.~

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Eventually, one day, the soldiers just... don't show up or ask for any money. The girl and her family slowly build up a cache, buried within the rice fields. They're hoping to someday have enough left over for a bad season. Everything is tense, and the pause doesn't feel like much of a relief for them. They're terrified that the soldiers will be back, worse than ever.

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Understandable. That fuckery would build up some trauma. 

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Their worst fear comes true. As if making up for lost time, a veritable army makes their to their village, ransacking every home and taking away many people to who-knows-where. The following day, famine returns to their village, worse than ever. The markets are barren, and their "debt" means that everyone in the village can barely keep anything of what they grow. As the season ends, our protagonist's mother and brother are both dead, buried in a shoddily-built grave on the edge of their land. They hear horror stories about cannibalism and desperation, as an overwhelming atmosphere of fear conquers the village. It feels like living in a nightmare, where they are surrounded by glass walls that let them see their freedom as they're trapped, their attempts at escaping the misery only resulting in them standing still, more exhausted than ever.

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Oh no! Calm before the storm, that was! Poor family, losing the mom and the brother like that.

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The following year, another group of soldiers arrive. They're followed everywhere by a military medic, and the soldiers are far friendlier than the soldiers she's seen before. Before anything else, the medic asks if anyone needs treatment, quietly offering some medicines and herbs, while soldiers talk about what's happened recently.

"The last regime divided the countries into parts to control them, making it impossible for one part to get goods from another part. This meant cities without food and farms without plows. This has resulted in a huge number of people dying, and plenty of farmland for everyone. We're looking for people willing to leave the farms and move into cities, where we desperately more people to keep the factories running. We're happy to accept volunteers, the more, the better."

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Well that's interesting. They're promising better things, and they're walking the walk at least a bit. Maybe they suck less? They're still soldiers, but... she knows a thing or two about soldiers.

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A few reluctant people follow them and join them, and those who remain split the fields between each other in larger lots. They're getting paid much, much more for the rice they're selling, and they can use the money to buy things like books. The workload has shrunk quite significantly; everyone is working on huge plots of land, planting the rice less densely. It all means that there's less work each day, and the money they're earning lets them buy fruits and vegetables in town (the food is coming in again!), with meat as an occasional treat.

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Well that's an improvement! Hopefully it keeps up? Hopefully things continue to get even better? Sucks how far they had to fall before things started improving again, though.

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Eventually, they get oxen to work the fields, and they're able to plow quite huge areas. Their income from selling the rice lets them buy lots of things: food and spices, books, decorations for their homes, and even getting a fireplace for their home, so there isn't quite so much indoor smoke. As more and more draft animals and modern agricultural tools get put to use, and the pay of those working in factories rise, more and more people leave for the cities, leaving those still farming with ever more land for them to cultivate, with animals doing most of the heavy lifting.

Decades pass, with life constantly getting better decade after decade. The protagonist is now a grandmother, but still working on the farm that now stretches over vast acres. She's not in the best of health, so the oppressive heat could be dangerous; she's never outside one of her air-conditioned harvesting machines for more than a few minutes, always in her special ultra-breathable cooling dress. Today she's chosen to drive down to the city, a metropolis of sprawling skyscrapers and beautiful parks, to meet her granddaughter who's just given birth, and is resting with her baby inside a private room larger than her childhood home. There are nurses everywhere as she visits the towering maternity care center, there to help the new mothers and their babies.

The movie ends with her driving her daughter back to her childhood home, now a multi-story mansion surrounded by a beautiful garden of bright green grass. The camera gets a look at the graves of her brother and father, now covered with offerings of food they never got the chance to enjoy, before showing us a view of her mother resting peacefully inside of a cryonics center, a pleased expression on her face at the prospect of seeing her daughter again.

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"Awwwwww! It got so much better for her! That's really sweet. Things did work out, in the end, and that's really nice. There are some similarities, too, between her story and mine. Really good pick, y'all."

She smiles and sniffles a bit. That was a good movie.

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"That's actually quite close to how things happened, before we ended up with the basic income system we have today. Essentially every famine comes from cutting of one part of a country from the food coming elsewhere, or mandating the food to be sold for enormously less than it's worth." They return to squeezing Sable some more. "Are you starting to feel better, and less stressed, and safer, now?"

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She smiles softly, snuggles in, and nods. "I am feeling somewhat better, yeah."

She... is not sure whether telling her story is a good idea. It might be cathartic, and it might provide her "nurses" useful information, and having people who actually know what the fuck she lived through could be nice. But. That could also be awkward as fuck and she has no idea if they'll believe her. It might be too soon.

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"What are you thinking about doing, today? Do you want to sit around at home, or are you in the mood for meeting people and heading someplace outdoors?"

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She's quiet for a moment, then replies, "I think staying home, tonight. Normally I'd love to go out to a board game cafe or something, but right now it feels hard to be around people who don't know at least a little of what's going on."

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"I can totally get that, it probably feels way safer and nicer to be at home with people you're familiar and comfortable with. Do you feel the need to stretch anywhere? Trying to take up as much space as you can can feel really empowering and nice, I think it's worth trying."

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She hums, nods, tries stretching out and and taking up more of the couch. It is oddly comfy. Doesn't quite hit the spot, though.

"That helps at least a bit, yeah."

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"I think you should try going further, taking up space, saying to yourself, "this is my space, I'm putting my comfort first, I'm sitting how I want" and kind of... spreading out a bit?"

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She sprawls out a bit further, then hums thoughtfully, something occurring to her. "I think sprawling out physically isn't doing as much as it could because I'm still being shy about sharing what happened to me. It's an outlandish story, but I don't think I can really feel like I'm taking up the space if I'm hiding that."

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"Well, it sounds like you have something you'd like to tell us! We're all ears."

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She goes and fishes in her purse for a moment, pulling out her old wallet and opening it up. Each piece of currency and ID and debit card gets spread out on the table.

"I'm not from thomassia. I'm from a world that doesn't know how to prioritize kindness, and has a lot of institutionalized cruelty that people just ignore because they don't believe that better is actually achievable."

The currency and social security card are worn and aged in a way that's very hard to convincingly simulate in a prop. The payment cards are of a design that thomassia either has never used, or hasn't used in years, and all seem to be less than three years old. And the lot of it references cities, states, and countries that don't exist on thomassia at all.

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The trio look at the contents of her wallet, equally stunned and curious. "Please go on, you don't need to be shy."

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She lets out a long, slow breath. "It hurts. There's so much to unlearn, so much to unclench. I spent thirty years without even realizing I was trans because I didn't have any examples to see to realize that it was possible to be this way. Even after I realized it, I spent my remaining year and a half on that world afraid to start treatment or even go outside in a skirt because the state I lived in was part of a region that treated trans women like we were predators, like we were making it up to harass cis women. And they were violent about it. Other trans women got violently assaulted for just trying to use the women's bathroom in peace. And that's not even starting on the pervasive economic conditions, the lack of UBI, the sabotage of other financial support programs, or the attitude that seeking comfort is childish in most cultures around the world."

She huffs out a harsher breath this time. "I'm hurt and angry about it. I'm exhausted. I've spent my whole life being taught that what I am is shameful, undeserving of comfort, unworthy of care or attention. And now I'm finishing my second day in a radically different world, and I'm simultaneously grateful and bewildered and not even sure how to explain all these contradictory instincts I'm unlearning."

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They instinctively wrap themselves around Sable, letting their warmth and pressure work as a reassuring layer of protection around her. "Do you - do you still fear anyone hurting you? We can tell you about the system of fines, we can get a guard from the police station to start living here if you want someone nearby to protect you."

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She snuggles in, but at the mention of cops she shivers a bit, shakes her head, and frowns. "No, having police here won't make me feel safer until I get a lot more used to this world. The things help the most so far are just seeing the acceptance and receiving comforting touch, even if I'm still struggling to get used to asking for it, struggling to get used to it being allowed. I think martial arts will help too, because that's not dependent on some outside authority that could turn on me or a resource that could be taken away."

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"...Oh. You have police trauma... that's horrible, but we'll accommodate you. You can have total acceptance, and all the touch you'd ever want. And I entirely see how martial arts would empower you and make you feel enormously better. Do you want a weapon of some kind? We have special exemptions to our weapon laws for the disempowered or police-traumatized, if it'd make you feel better, and we have more-or-less serious combined reenactment and militia organizations, if it'd make you feel more comfortable with the police being around."

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"Wait really? That... that could help a lot. I was planning to join a swordfighting club later this week, try out a few different designs of sword just in case my instincts about which I'll be most comfortable with are wrong. So an exception on the weapon carry laws would help a lot. I... wouldn't say I'm particularly unique in having police trauma, being from earth. Most ethnic minorities, most gay, lesbian, bi, or trans people, and lots of neurodivergent people have it. It's just a fact of life there."

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"Well, swords don't come under carry laws, it's firearms that have restrictions. We think it's very, very important that firearms get isolated from everyday life, and you have no need to worry that random people are armed. So we have very low actual-gun ownership rates. But there are other laws to cover actual crimes, and for someone who genuinely needs weapons to feel safe, it'd be inhumane to impose restrictions on them."

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She smiles softly and nods. "That... will help a lot, honestly. What forms are required for it, and what verification do I need to provide?"

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"Well, you need to show up to the police station, tell them that you need a gun to feel safe, and that you're happy to accept the bond and that you'll always keep it stored in a locked safe when not using it. Then they'll have someone install a gun locker in your home, and you're allowed to keep one shotgun to start with, and more firearms later if you get certification and training and join a gun club."

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She nods. "I'll have to try that. Might ask one of you to come with me to the station that day, actually, when I get around to doing it."

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"We're happy to be there for you! We really have very few live-gun owners in thomassia; most are happy doing reenactments, and feel safe enough with just police protection."

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She laughs ruefully. "And if you don't grow up in a world that necessitates a phrase like 'All Cops Are Bastards', then that's an eminently reasonable way to be! If anywhere I've ever been has a chance of having actually trustworthy cops, thomassia is it. It will just take me some time to get used to that and actually viscerally believe it."

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The one currently furthest from Sable nods. "We want you to know that we care. We being the three of us, and really, everyone else in thomassia. We would be ecstatic to have you feeling comfortable and safe when it comes to your bodily integrity and possessions."

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She smiles gratefully.

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And then a thought occurs to her. "Oh bother. Now I can't tell if my fear of cops or my fear of making people uncomfortable is going to win... I'll have to let that percolate a bit."

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"I think your fear of cops will fade fast, miss!"

"Now, do you want to somehow practice being more comfortable with vulnerability? Because then there'd be less anxiety just in everyday life. I don't really have any ideas for what that'd look like, though."

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"Probably a good idea. Best idea I have for that is bringing up whatever topic I can think of that both would be helpful and would make me feel nervous and shy."

She contemplates for a moment.

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"How does dating work on thomassia?"

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"Well, you use the same communication app that you used to contact us. You can either have, I guess, a message-routing number for dating, talking about your positive traits. Or you can try finding someone beautiful and charming on one of the chats dedicated to dating. There's also a huge number of cafes and other meeting places with dating events, because it's really helpful to meet people in person."

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She nods, still blushing. "And what if you happen to run into someone beautiful and charming in daily life, say when you're out with a sailing club for the first time, and then she teaches you all about diving the next day?"

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"Well, tell the person in question that you like them an extreme amount, on their phone, late in the day, where they have time and privacy to process it!"

"Oh, and I managed to remember something else. There's an interesting feature of windows in skyscrapers. You have switchable polarization. You can make it so you can see out, but nobody in other skyscrapers can see in. You get all the spacious feelings of huge glass windows, and the privacy of having the curtains drawn. Let me show you."

She walks over to a slider built into the wall. She drags a black bead on it towards the window, on the side of the slider that's colored black. All the windows in other towers visible from Sable's window turn black as well, making the buildings around her look like they're covered in inky black panels where there were huge windows previously, while leaving the view of everything else completely untouched.

"You can't see inside of their homes either with the polarization on, of course. You could walk around totally naked and they'd have no idea!"

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"Thank you for the advice on both points! I'm definitely going to make use of the window one when I develop a bit more body confidence."

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She looks down at her phone and blushes, then back up at her neighbors. "Would you guess now counts as late enough in the day?"

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"To tell them that they induce in you a desire to reproduce with them for the purpose of continuing your genetic line, yes!"

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She blushes and splutters just a bit. "That is simultaneously the bluntest and most formal phrasing I have literally ever heard for that in my life."

And the spluttering dissolves into giggling.

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They form a tight group hug in response to Sable's giggling. "Patient needs more warmth and oxytocin, stat!" one of them says as she gently nuzzles Sable.

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Sable sighs warmly and snuggles in.

Her neighbors are great.

Thomassia is great.

Maybe she should say any of this out loud.

"Y'all are great and I'm glad I wound up on this bizarre amazing planet and met y'all."

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"And we're glad that another soul can enjoy the warm embrace and support of a prosperous and caring society like ours!" They don't let up on the hug for a while longer.

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She sighs happily and stays put until they let go, because hugs are great and she spent far too long without them.

And then, when they do, she types up a message.

Hey, Helena, I just wanted to let you know I think you're gorgeous, charming, fun to spend time with, and I'd love to try dating if you're interested. No obligation or anything if not, obviously. —Sable

And then she sends it.

"Okay, girls, I did it. Nothing like taking a risk of rejection to practice vulnerability, right?"

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"Absolutely! I bet you're feeling safer already. Now, hmm. What were you thinking of doing before summoning us, miss? We're happy to be here, but we think that all this hugging is starting to feel... weird."

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"Good question. The plan had been a cathartic hour or two of crying and grumbling about earth being terrible and my never going back, but honestly I'm feeling better than that now. Instinct says I'm maybe okay, at least for a little while? Maybe I should see what thomassian games are like, either on my phone or at a board game cafe?"

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"I'm recommending a board game cafe, really. You can play just about anything on your phone, it's just that you don't get close to the same social benefit that you'd receive when seeing people in person."

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She nods firmly and stands up. "Okay then. Clearly it's time for me to touch up my appearance a bit and then head out."

Off to the mirror she goes for touch-ups and straightening out her outfit.

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The beauty products work like magic, leaving Sable looking healthy and youthful. Quite a bit more so than she did back in Louisiana... anyway, there's board game cafe within lightning-quick elevator and comfortable walking distance.

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She smiles at her nurse-RPing neighbors. "Thank you so much. I feel a lot better. Y'all helped so much."

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They smile and wave back. "We're happy to be there for you. Everyone deserves to feel happy and cared for."

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"Another reason thomassia is the best. Well, off I go. See y'all around."

And she heads out.

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Making her way through the huge skyscrapers, Sable finds a cozy-looking cafe behind a glass wall with a vaguely medieval theme. There are a few people playing various games on various tables at the moment, although things seem fairly quiet at the moment.

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In she goes with a smile. What did her quick web search on the walk over say the etiquette was? Find someone who doesn't have a partner yet or grab a game and a table? Something like that?

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Yes, find someone waiting with a board game placed on a table, sitting by themselves, or obviously not playing it with anyone. A young man sitting by a cardboard box with a bunch of different tough-looking pirates plastered all over it very much fits the bill.

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She walks up to him with a grin. "Ooh. I love pirates, but I don't think I've seen this game before."

She hasn't seen any thomassian games before, so that's conveniently true.

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"Well, yes. I'm sure you'll enjoy it. It's a name-historical Risk-style game. I think the factions are basically perfect in both balance and depth, so every game is really interesting." 

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"Sounds great."

She takes a seat across from him and helps with any setup that's still left to do, taking a look at the instructions to get a feel for how it's played.

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It is quite literally Risk, with soldiers and attackers and defenders and territories, but it's different because the characters get extra bonuses. One of them has a special ability that makes each player roll dice as if they had more soldiers, so you both deal and take much, much more damage, to give one example. The game also has ships that make nearby soldiers more powerful, and are necessary to move soldiers across water, which can be much quicker.

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Oooh. This looks great. She spends a moment dithering and then picks a faction, getting her army set up. Affecting an overdramatic voice, she teases, "Ready to bow before our piratical might?"

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"Well, let's see how mighty you end up being." He makes the first move, moving towards the center of the board, with all the strongest and most defensible regions.

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Sable moves toward a large and somewhat rich archipelago toward the edge of the board, aiming to make her stronghold there where she can focus on being a naval power first and foremost. She'll plan to intercept any attempt to attack her on the sea before it reaches her.

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About halfway through the game, it's turning into a stalemate. Sable's defensive bonuses make it difficult to take out her position, but she simultaneously does little damage back. However, Sable has a slowly growing lead, and will eventually win if she stays extremely defensive.

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She turtles up in her islands, surrounding herself with a naval patrol, sending out occasional raiding parties to bleed her opponent and rile him into smashing his forces against her fleets.

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His frustration builds up, and he ends up conceding after a few failed attempts at taking her position. "Well, I guess today just wasn't my day? Well played, miss." He bows slightly at Sable. "I'm quite impressed that you beat me like that." 

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She bows in return. "It was a pleasure, good sir. Well fought. You almost had me a few times, there."

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"I think you're just being nice, honestly. You played incredibly carefully and I just couldn't find a weakness after the first few fights went badly for me."

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She shakes her head and smiles. "Well, thank you. I think you're flattering me, but either way it was a fun game."

She taps out a quick order for a cocoa to-go on her phone. 

"It's getting late, but perhaps we can play again sometime?"

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"Very happily. Do you play board games often?"

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"It's been a while, but I'm getting back into it, yes."

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"Then I'm sure you'll have tons of fun playing here! Have a nice evening, lady."

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She smiles and waves at him. "You too."

She people-watches for the remaining moments before her cocoa shows up, then swallows her daily pill with a sip (she had a pastry during the game, so she still counts for the "with food" requirement). And then she wanders home, admiring the neighborhood and sipping her cocoa as she goes. She's still kind of fucked up, and she will be for a while, but she's definitely glad she landed here.

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Everything is so obscenely tall here! Unless it's a park, of course. But... the absence of low-rise buildings is so unfamiliar. And there's so much glass and huge windows! But they all look really nice and inviting, at least. There's a fascinatingly low number of cars, although the ones Sable does see are around the size of ambulances. There's also seemingly a total absence of street parking, with the streets being more sidewalk than road.

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Honestly, that seems like a much more sensible way to do things. Much more focused on making a habitat for people than cars, in so many ways.

Thomassia stop being so gorgeous and sensible challenge?

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Her walk home is blissfully short; it seems like just about square inch of first-floor frontage is some kind of store, or a subway entrance, or something else helpful like that. So things like restaurants or cafes or anything else is always incredibly close (although Sable somehow hasn't seen a grocery store yet...)

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Yeah, thomassia fails her unspoken challenge to find a way to suck. She loves this place. Even without grocery stores, since the absurdly plentiful and cheap delivery makes up for it. Okay, well, up she goes to her apartment.

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The elevator to her unit comes down lightning quick, and it's very, very spacious, like always. It zips Sable back up into her apartment, with the elevator opening to reveal the door into her apartment, right next to the door leading into her neighbor's unit.

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That's so different! She's getting used to it, but that's really different from what she's used to.

She steps inside, washes up for bed and brushes her teeth, and then tucks herself in with a cozy noise generator on her phone.

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The pitch-black bedroom makes Sable fall asleep quick. It's somewhat incongruous to have it be so small, but it still fits in a king-size bed and a warm, plush blanket. It's common to have the bedroom kept at a lower temperature than the rest of your home, to let you keep using a thick, heavy blanket even in the summer. The lower temperature, when under the cozy blanket, is just right.

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She sighs cozily and drifts off to an impressively restful sleep. She's always had trouble sleeping, but slowly getting used to the fact that she might actually be safe here seems to be helping. That's nice.

When she wakes up, after she collects herself a bit she sends a text to the neighbors who helped her yesterday.

Planning to try the gun ownership form, if someone has time to come with me as moral support at some point today. Any times in particular work for any of y'all? (Figured I'd ask y'all first, since you mentioned it last night.)

And then she sets about getting washed up and dressed and done up while she's waiting for responses.

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I can be there? I have an evening shift, so I can join you basically any time until around 18:00.

I work from home and have a flexible schedule; I'd be happy to take a break.

I run my own cafe, I can happily open it a bit later than usual, it's really a lifestyle business.

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That's a lot of positive responses. Um. I didn't really expect to get this far?

She grabs a dice roller app and rolls a d3. It lands on the one who works from home.

Y'all are great. And so kind. It's amazing. But I only absolutely need one person with me? So... [rolls dice] Sydney, unless the others particularly want to come too?

And then she's all ready to go, and heads down to a nearby cafe to grab a scrambled egg sandwich and a coffee to fortify herself with breakfast.

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I'll be happy to join you! I'm kind of curious about what the gun situation is like here, actually. I often totally forget that they exist, so I'm kind of curious about how the police handle everything to do with them.

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Om nom egg sandwich. It's pretty great.

Well, I'll be glad of your company, for sure. I'm just taking a slow morning at a cafe having breakfast, so let me know when works best for you.

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Honestly, I kind of want to get going now? I'm really eager and impatient to see what it's like!

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Gosh. Her neighbors are great. She pops the last couple bites of breakfast into her mouth, washes it down with her coffee, and stands.

Okay! I'll meet you down at the entrance to the complex, and we can head out together. There in just a few minutes.

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I'm heading down there now, should only take 10 minutes to get ready!

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Perfect. Enough time for a leisurely stroll back to the building, finishing my coffee.

And she does exactly that. It's a nice day out. She's really curious what guns are like in thomassia, honestly. It's going to be an adventure: slightly scary at points, and pushing her limits, but good for her.

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Sydney is cheerfully waiting at the base of the skyscraper, waving at Sable as she arrives. "I can drive you there, if you prefer? The gun safe could be heavy and awkward to bring on public transit. There's a pool of cars in the basement parking area, I can come out with one of them if you'd like?"

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"That would be a really big help, thank you!"

She bounces eagerly, if a bit nervously.

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"Sure, I'll be right back!" Sydney arrives with what looks like a hybrid of a transit bus and an ambulance: it's a van high enough that Sable can stand inside of it comfortably, with 4 rows of seats all having utterly decadent amounts of legroom. The open space inside it leaves Sable with ample room in all directions. "Come on in! It's got plenty of room for all your stuff!"

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She gets in with a grin. "Goodness, I've never seen this much legroom in a car before. Thanks for the ride!"

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"You're welcome! I don't use it too often, but I like driving people to slumber parties, and you're supposed to make an entrance in a car like this." She quickly rides on the city's streets, ending up outside of a police station after some 20 minutes of driving. "Just tell them who you are, that you need a firearm to feel safe, and that you're happy to pay for it if you abuse it. That's enough to let you get a rather capable shotgun." A male officer walks out into the station's lobby just as Sable makes her way in. "What can we do for you today, miss?"

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She takes a deep breath and nods. Cops usually don't cause problems when you visit them politely in their stations. Or at least not as many. This will be okay. She has Sydney with her. It'll be okay.

"I... have been through some stuff and need a firearm to feel safe. And I'll of course pay the fines if I abuse it."

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"Certainly, we can do that for you! Will you be happy with just a shotgun? The standard calibre is approximately 18mm. We offer a variety of ammunition types; what were you considering when it comes to those?"

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"A shotgun is an excellent place to start, though I would like to work up to a handgun eventually, after I go through all the requisite training and put in quite a lot of range time. As for calibers..."

She does a little mental conversion. Ah. Twelve gauge.

"The standard should be excellent. And I was thinking number two birdshot, to minimize the risk of wall-penetration while still having decent stopping power."

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"Excellent, excellent. I just need you to verify that you have sufficient cashflow in your basic income account to be able to pay for a potential abuse fine. Just the basic income amount is enough, don't worry about it! Number two... I don't think I know what that refers to. But the most powerful shot that doesn't pierce walls, that's probably the most sensible option, yes. Do you have thoughts on materials and models? Do just want the lightest firearm that fits within your budget, or do you have a materials preference"

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This is going well. She can handle this.

"I'd prefer reliability and straight-forward maintenance over everything else, and ease of loading after that. Pump-action over semi-automatic, likewise pump-action over break-action — if break-action is even still in use outside of reenactments. Weight is a tertiary concern after that."

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"Well, I think that reliability won't narrow your options much! In terms of straight-forward maintenance, I think that they're not very different there, either. Ease of loading, however, that's really a subjective thing. I'm somewhat surprised at your preference for pump-action, although they are hugely satisfying. And break-action is really only used for sports shooters.

Now, thinking about those constraints... hmm. There's somewhere between 10 and 20 live firearm owners here. They help each other maintain their guns and stuff, but there is no gun store, only one offering training guns. You'd have to order the gun you want to use, and wait for it to arrive. Is that acceptable?"

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She nods. "That makes sense, and that should be fine."

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"Certainly! The verification is done by you sending us a tiny, randomly chosen amount of money, to prove you control the account. Then we check its current balance and how high its basic income amount is. Then we automatically send the money back." He fumbles around and finds a phone. "You need to type in the verification account number..." He lists up a series of numbers and letters. "And the random dust amount is..." He says another random number. "And then, you're off to find the shotgun you'll use to keep yourself and your loved ones safe!"

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She taps the information into the banking app on her phone as he gives it to her, and sends the verification transfer. This is familiar, online businesses used similar methods on earth.

"Thank you."

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"You're welcome, miss! Now, go get a new shotgun that you can eventually end up knowing like the back of your hand!"

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She smiles shyly. "Will do. Do you have a recommended seller or installer for the gun safe?"

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"There's one guy that does both. I'll give you his number, tell him you want something for your shotgun and a pistol going forward. He's pretty quiet, really. But extremely reliable." He slowly says a phone number, with a few letters in it, for Sable. "He has a few different models, not a huge collection, but certainly something for your needs. We don't sell a lot of safes in general, here."

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She nods and saves the number in her phone. "Thank you. I'll get in touch with him on my way out."

And then she heads back outside with Sydney. She can be done with talking to cops now, right?

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Assuming there isn't anything else that she needs to handle inside the station, she heads out to the car and puts a hand on the door, leaning there with her head down for a moment and breathing heavily.

Fuck. She just did that. She talked to a cop and nothing went wrong. She hasn't talked to a cop since jail. Fuck. Fuck.

She just lets her breathing be a bit out of control for a moment, now that she's not in the station anymore.

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Sydney looks at Sable with a mix of confusion and worry. "... you should try out some of the training guns on offer, get something that helps you feel safe. You don't have to worry about people hurting you anymore. Even before you're armed so you can protect yourself."

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She pulls herself back together enough to talk. "Yeah, should at least try to borrow one and get some range time in today." Another heavy breath. "I can be functional in the station itself, especially since the cops back home weren't usually shitty to people visiting the lobby of the police station, but it's still nerve-wracking since the last time I interacted with cops wasn't nearly so pleasant."

She'll elaborate if asked, but... it's not a pleasant story.

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"...Let's go, then. Practice shooting stuff a bit. Something to take your mind off stuff that's much worse." She prepares to drive off with Sable, reaching an indoor firing range just a few minutes later. There's a casually dressed man walking in, turning his head to look at the car with Sable in it. He's wearing a relatively short white skirt.

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By the time they get to the range, Sable has bounced back and is rather excited. She smiles warmly at the man as she gets out.

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She can see the entry room before the firing range, with various pistols and long guns (with very distinct and obvious red squares of plastic tied to the gun barrels) kept in neat closets, with ammo above and below it. There is a small fee for renting the firearms kept at hand, as well as ear protection. It seems like the fee is for renting both earplugs and earmuffs.