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A Proper Love Goddess
golarion gets a better love deity than calistria
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Something has gone horribly wrong in the war against the Chaos Gods. They've penetrated far too deeply into the OTC. Some Tzeentchian scheme, no doubt. And it seems to be targeting the Rose Bowers. She can see it in the tapestry of prophecy, the way the timelines suddenly snap - 

She gets all the guests out in time. She's the target, not them. 

As for her Wings, well, they volunteered. 

The universe shudders with impact, and skips like a stone across the blind eternities until it settles in a completely different metacosmos. 

The dust settles for a hyper-instant, and then -

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State your name and purpose in Creation.

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Sunaira. I don't know yet. There was some form of planar realignment caused by a rival deity. Who are you?

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I'm in charge around here. Either sign this contract or I'll have to eject you from this planar sheaf. 

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She could leave, but this contract is deeply disturbing and implies the kind of metacosmos that needs attention like the Chaos sheaf. Sealed major deity of utter destruction used to force a world with evil gods to persist? Ugh, she hates ones like this.

Aura and her backups will handle the OTC; Aura's more powerful than this instance of her anyway. There are people here who need her. 

(And all the people she's dating are on board with the fact that she's a goddess and sometimes this kind of thing happens, so they will just have to deal with her being on a business trip for a while. The ones who aren't still here in the Bowers, that is.)

She doesn't like this club much but at least the management seems to be honest about what kind of a scene they're running. You can only do so much about a community where half the guests are assholes if you're not willing to shut the place down.

It's a scene contract; she negotiates.

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Look, it's the same contract for everyone - 

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I didn't consent to it. Look, I've got a whole additional afterlife plane for you to send petitioners to and ease the caseload. I'm not looking for special treatment, just to understand all the details of what I'm agreeing to.

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(There are some loopholes in the contract, for reasons.)

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Can you clarify the intent of this section? What risks am I taking on? Do I get a safeword?

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Look, the contract is in perfectly plain language, sign or don't.

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It was a long shot that she'd get a proper escape clause written in, but she is allowed to leave herself, right?

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Yes, yes, even if she plays she can still leave later. Within reason. No taking people on the material plane.

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Thank you. Alright, now that she has an actual safeword she will participate in this scene, even if it is kind of edgeplay for her. 

What's the protocol here?

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You pick a limited set of domains, a holy symbol, empower a limited number of followers using the allocations allowed here... 

The ruleset goes on for some time.

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Any universe where the local gods are this into roleplay can't be that bad. 

Alright, sign her up with the domains of Pleasure, Sacrifice, Love, and Kinks. The rose is taken so her holy symbol will be a pair of cuffs.

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Hey, she can't turn every pair of manacles into her holy symbol! That's cheating!

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Oh, hello. 

How about a whip?

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Nice try. You don't like actual slavery, you just play at it. You need to pick something that genuinely resonates with who you are.

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What, I'm the goddess of Kinks and I don't get to have the most basic of kink implements as my holy symbols?

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Asmodeus has prior claim on Slavery. Think of something else. 

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Ugh. Fine. 

I suppose contracts are already taken?

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Extremely.

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Alright, fine, I'm already using a blackberry in my iconography. We will go with that.

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No objection.

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Alright, that's established. The domains are fine. You're Neutral Good. Welcome to Creation, Sunaira. It's your turn.

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She surveys the board state. 

It's really kind of shitty. Cheliax and Nidal are both enemy strongholds. Fortunately she's kept Kinks as a domain, so she's getting... rather more of a good look at both than she would prefer to get. 

She's stuck with this limited game interface to interact with the locals.

Who would be a good candidate for her first cleric...?

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No, that's precisely the wrong way to go about this. She needs to get a sense of the other players on her team first. She's good at organizing. 

A few subjective moments later...

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Team Good:

Milani: Fiery. The Devotion and Hope domains have great interactions with her playstyle. And they both agree deeply on certain forms of consent. Also she's hot. She's still a little sad that she stole her rose, but it can't be helped; she did have it first. Really doing her best, as far as Sunaira can tell, just a bit unstable.

Cayden Cailean: Kind of reckless for her. The whole alcohol thing doesn't really play well with consent. She agrees with the whole slave-freeing thing though. That he shares the Love domain is more than a little Concerning to her! She admits he has some roguish charm, but he's not really relationship material. 

Desna: A sweet thing. Kind of off in her own little world, but means well. Her edicts to explore and express yourself through art and song are very sensible and the kind of thing that should exist in the world. She's good at pleasure, even if she doesn't see that the aim of it is to build a better world. There's some potential here to capture. 

Erastil: Very... traditional. He's good at the basic building blocks, though. There's some potential here. Really pretty decent relationship material, even if he is a bit stuffy. She can see why he's taken. 

Shelyn: RELATIONSHIP MATERIAL ALERT. She has a crush. The focus on beauty, love, art and music is super strongly in tune with her own domains. The issue is that she's really more focused on art than sexuality, even though sexuality is so deep and worth caring about. She's doing alright. Sunaira can do better, of course, but she is definitely paying attention to this girl. 

Iomedae: The power gamer of the team. Big into honor, big into doing what's effective. She can respect the sacrifices her people make, but good god does this girl ever need to get laid. Yes, she's ace. Yes, it's ironic that she did that to herself. It's sad, though. She respects it, but... Yeah. Good ally, bad lover. 

Sarenrae: A nice enough girl. Sweet, kind, cares a lot. She can vibe with it. Just not really her type? She agrees with all of it, it's just that her preaching of temperance and charity isn't really her area. She could definitely do worse in a teammate. 


Team Neutral:

Irori: Big on self-discipline. She can get into that kind of training, and the self-actualization aspect is cool. She could get along with him. The whole moderation thing is not her, but she can manage it.

Calistria: Hot, but don't. Way too unstable to be relationship material. They'll probably end up working together anyway because she's the natively-kinkiest of the goddesses on this plane. That's going to be a problem. Still, with some harm reduction efforts, she might be fixable... it's just that Vengeance domain that's really a problem. 

Abadar: Understands negotiation well enough, it's just that he's the kind of dom who doesn't respect a safeword unless it was explicitly negotiated up front and demands concessions in exchange. She's dealt with worse, but he needs some smartening up. 

Nethys: Don't. He's not sane enough to negotiate with. 

Gozreh: Annoying stone in the road of technological progress, but perhaps negotiable with.

Gorum: Another annoying third party. Anathema to her methods, in general. 

Pharasma: The GM, or so she's set herself up. Importantly not good.


The Opponents: 

Asmodeus & Zon-Kuthon: The worst kind of controlling rapist assholes. The kind of people who use kink to hurt people. It's never play with these two unless you're being toyed with. Fuck them.

Lamashtu: ALSO her direct competition over sexuality. What is with the evil deities on this plane. Why are all of them about sexuality and none of the good ones are really competing for it?

Norgorber: Represents the dark side of sacrifice, where the people who are sacrificed don't consent to it. Also needs to be dealt with but less urgently. 

Urgathoa: She is going to need to take Precautions about sexually transmitted diseases, isn't she? Ugh. That's a pain. This one is also a problem. 

Rovagug: You know, if she could just kill this one deity, who very deserves it, the whole game system collapses. Funny how that works. Trouble is, he's pretty tough.

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Okay, she has an actionable plan. 

Hey Calistria, can I talk to you?

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What can I do you for, darling?

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You know how if you seal wasps in a tube for a little while it buzzes and is good for use as a sex toy?

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Please, I wasn't born yesterday.

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Yeah, thought so. Ever thought of making that happen with a simple enchantment on a wand?

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I'm listening...

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It would be simple enough to inspire some mortal to invent. I'm willing to contribute to having that exist. Abadar would probably contribute to the intervention budget. I bet I can sell Irori on it too.

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Sell Irori on a sex toy? I'd like to see you try.

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Give me a moment.

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Hey Irori, do you have any followers who need help mastering their libidos?

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What? Aren't you a goddess of sexuality? Don't you want there to be more sex, not less?

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I'm also a goddess of sacrifice. If someone wants to give up their own sexuality that's their own business. Also, I personally love chastity play and orgasm control. So I have a bit of a personal interest, you could say.

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Get to your point.

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I want to introduce a simple tool that will make it easier for people to have orgasms when they want to and thus set aside their libido more easily. A need that is more easily met is easier to master. The tool can always be discarded later.

I'll trade you everything I know about long-term chastity play if you'll back the invention of this.

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That's a more than acceptable price. Deal.

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Calistria, I just talked to Irori and got his consent for the project.

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You're not lying to me, are you?

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Look, I'll make that legible to you in a provable way.

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Huh. Okay. 

I'm all for it.

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I'll approach Abadar, then.

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Hey Abadar, I have an idea for an invention I'm willing to sponsor on the material plane that I bet a lot of people would be willing to pay for.

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How much?

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Funny thing, mortals tend to value their sexualities quite a lot. So making this particular invention cheaply available could produce a lot of economic stimulus. 

Here's a schematic for a technological version. It's a very simple device. Think it's replicable with an enchantment?

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Inventions are expensive, and this one doesn't contribute to city building or larger development of the economy. What are you willing to pay me?

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Me, Calistria, and Irori are willing to put together this much intervention budget for it.

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Close, but not quite enough. Ask Nethys to contribute, he likes magical inventions.

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Fuck. 

Alright, she'll approach Nethys.

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Hey Nethys, I have a proposal for a magical invent- 

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Yes! But only because of your lover with all the selves. She was very convincing.

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Uh, what?

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Was I unclear? 

Go back to Abadar and say your piece.

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Oooooookay.

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Hey Abadar, Nethys agreed.

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Good. The most efficient way to do this is to get Desna to send a dream about it to a particular individual... 

Just a moment while I write the contract.

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This is wonderful! I would have sponsored it had I known.

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Yes, well, the point was largely to get the Neutral deities to pay for it.

Who are you sending this dream to?

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This particular mortal.

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Hey, I know her!

Have a Cleric level.

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And in an upscale adventurer brothel in Absalom, a casual devotee of Shelyn wakes from a wet dream with the image of a buzzing device pressed right against her sex, and the impression of a distant woman's voice... 

And discovers that she suddenly has a cleric level.

Clearly she's just gotten a dream from Calistria or Shelyn. About a sex toy. 

Wow, big responsibility. She had better not screw this up or she's fucked, and not in the nice way. 

She goes and talks to a wizard who's one of her clients.

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The wizard knows people who know people.

It's not a very hard invention, as things go. It's a little surprising it hasn't been created yet. But it'll take a little while anyway.

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In the meantime, she tries to channel her newfound powers through the medium of a songbird charm lent to her by a cleric she knows. 

It doesn't work. 

Not Shelyn, then. 

Calistria?

She tries again with a charm of three daggers. That doesn't work either. 

... some other deity?

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(She should be remembering about now...)

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There was something else, in the dream. The taste of... it was a fruit. Something sweet. 

She tries with an apple. It doesn't work.

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Getting closer.

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It tasted like... blackberries. 

She tries with the blackberry.

She channels positive energy. 

She's been chosen by a... new good or neutral goddess? Or maybe some obscure empyreal lord. With the symbol of a blackberry. And her domain involves sex toys. 

And she chose her. Even though she's a whore. 

Huh. 

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There she goes, her first game piece. The intervention was pretty cheap, since she was able to piggy-back on top of the dream Desna was already sending. 

Now let's see what she does.

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She doesn't know much. Just the taste of blackberries, the positive channel, the toy. The fact that she was chosen, and not anyone else at the brothel. 

She preaches a little. About the Lady of Blackberries, who believes everyone is allowed pleasure. That's a safe guess. That sexuality is not wholly the provenance of the evil gods. That a whore can be a cleric. She advocates for sex workers like herself. She keeps sleeping with adventurers. Word spreads. She doesn't leave the brothel; she's doing more good here than off adventuring. 

She doesn't feel like there's much more to share, yet.

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The wizard gets back to her with a prototype. It goes buzz.

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Whoa, holy shit, this is revolutionary. She can have an orgasm whenever she wants now.

She learns how to use it, and uses it on her clients. 

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Word spreads FAST. Everyone wants one once they've experienced it. 

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A few wizards get quite wealthy overnight. The design is refined down to a variant of Unseen Servant, a first-level spell. They can be mass-produced. So they are.

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More magic!

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More trade!

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More sex!

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And a few of the rods go into the possessions of certain clerics of Irori, who proceed to use them in distinctly off-label ways.

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And the balance tips a little more her way. 

She gives Kumi a second cleric level.

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She has been thinking about the spells the Lady of Blackberries grants her.

Over several days, she has been given... Spark. Touch of Truthtelling. Rite of Bodily Purity. Remove Sickness. Tap Inner Beauty. Remove Fear. And, oddly enough, Command and Forbid Action. 

She's healed a sister of hers at the brothel who fell ill. She used Touch of Truthtelling to vet a shady-seeming client and had a lovely time with them. Remove Fear and Tap Inner Beauty helped her with a client who had never had sex before. 

Command and Forbid Action, and Spark... 

She has a sense she's missing something, here. 

She takes Remove Sickness several days in a row and goes to several lower class brothels and heals the ill and preaches. She preaches about embracing sexuality if you are afraid. She preaches about honesty to the people you're involved with sexually. She preaches that whores get to stand tall and breathe free.

Eventually she goes out to the stone pier on the harbor and casts Spark, just to see what it does. 

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A single spark leaps out from her fingers and alights on the stone for a moment, and then is gone.

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... She tries it on her skin, just to see how it feels.

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It burns, but doesn't last more than a moment. 

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... There are striker boxes that can produce sparks like this easily. 

None of them are built to be easy to burn yourself with. 

She has a little money. She goes and buys one and removes the safety features. 

It can spark quite quickly when she tries, actually.

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Yes, good!

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Is the Lady of Blackberries a goddess of torture? 

That doesn't seem right, somehow. It doesn't match with everything she knows of her so far. 

... It was a little surprising, to feel the spark settle on her skin. 

Why did she want to know how it felt?

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Come on, you're so close.

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There are clients who like having their hair pulled, or their backs scratched up with her claws...

She's never hurt someone deliberately before, though. 

She tries it. 

She likes it. So does her client. 

She sells the modified sparker design as a sex toy to the church of Abadar. 

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For that you get a third cleric level.

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She's given...

Augury. Bear's Endurance. Owl's Wisdom. Conditional Favor. Hold Person. Silent Table.

She puts on Owl's Wisdom and thinks hard for a while.

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The Lady of the Blackberries likes to give her spells that compel. Command, Forbid Action, Conditional Favor. And Hold Person, as well. 

... Some people like to be given orders during sex...

The Lady of the Blackberries likes sexual variety. Different ways of being sexual. Like how Shelyn preaches that men can date men and women can date women, only... more so. 

The Lady of the Blackberries thinks that sex is an artform. Something you can study and get better at.

She's sort of like Calistria, that way. 

She goes and she preaches it.

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After a little while of this, Sunaira gives her Find the Faithful, Augury, and Remove Sickness.

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She's used to Remove Sickness days by now. She goes and finds people who've fallen ill in the brothels and sees to them as best she can. 

Find the Faithful is new. Augury is rare. 

It seems clearly like an instruction.

If she tries to gather all the casual worshippers she knows and address them collectively, is that weal or woe?

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Weal and Woe.

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That's a hard decision. Immediate consequences within a half-hour if she gathers a group of worshippers of the Lady of the Blackberry. But also benefits. 

What would the shape of that look like...

Well, it could forge a proper church. But at the same time, a meeting of whores from a dozen different brothels... is the kind of gathering that is going to attract the attention of the authorities. 

She is a cleric of a good or neutral goddess. She has certain protections. But it seems perhaps unwise to draw attention. 

After all, Find the Faithful is for finding worshippers of a secret faith.

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All true. But it's your decision.

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She's seen the conditions herself. These are her sisters. 

She prays quietly to Milani.

Then she goes to each brothel in turn. 

It's foolish of her, honestly. She's only second circle. This will ruin her career. Many of the people she will be meeting with are not even freedwomen. 

She does it anyway.

It's the right thing to do.

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They come to her, one by one. They seem to be led, haphazardly, by one of the common girls who she's always seen smoking a pipe. Aya, was her name. The pipe makes her nauseous each morning - Kumi has used remove sickness on her a few mornings when she has had no-one else to treat.

Her teeth are not so good. Her fur is matted. She is wearing her work clothes, a ratty dress that exposes too much. 

There are others with her. Some of them are breaking curfews set by their pimps.  

They gather around her in a disused lot in one of the worse parts of the city, all looking at her expectantly.

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"It's not fair," are the words that come to her lips, looking at them like this. 

"It's not fair that I get the protection of a goddess and a cushy soft job servicing the rich, while all the rest of you suffer. It's not fair that I have to talk my way past half your owners just to tend to your illness, even though they should care about the health of their so-called property. It's not fair that our profession means we're reviled and looked down upon. None of it is fair. We are our own people."

She crosses her arms. "I know every one of us has learned much from what's happened to us. The cruelty of the world. The care that sometimes comes unexpectedly. The joy and the pain of sexuality. Shelyn speaks of love but won't shield us. Calistria speaks of revenge, and blood for our hurts - but I know that only brings more suffering, and in the end death. We can be better than that. The Lady of the Blackberries knows us. The Lady of the Blackberries sees the art in sexuality, the power in it, the joy. She shares in it. She bolsters it. She has given me magic so that I can fuck better, half the time. Because she knows I love it. Because it satisfies something in me. But I know that it has not been a joy for all of you." 

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The crowd listens. Some of them nod. They stay quiet.

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She crosses her arms. 

"Why is that? It is because I can have the sex I want and you cannot. You're forced into it. I choose my clients. You suffer whoever you must. I get to pick. That should not be different. And every woman who's raped or felt up or fucked with by some asshole - they shouldn't be forced into it either. Calistria is right about that, at least. We should all get to pick. That's freedom. The Lady of Blackberries cares about freedom. And with, I hope, Milani's blessing, we can find that freedom. Together." 

She casts Find the Faithful. It tells her these are the Lady of the Blackberries' people. After a moment, it tells her each and every one is. 

It's a strange thing to look over this crowd and be responsible for them all. 

"Go," she says. "Quickly, before you're discovered. Remember each other's faces. If you see another in trouble, help. If you have coin, spare it to free those who need it. If you have shelter that's secure, offer it. We are only whores. We are replaceable if we vanish. No-one will spend scries on you. If you can, make your preparations and go." She tosses her coin purse to Aya. "I make enough to survive without this. Split it with those who need it." 

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Aya snatches the coin purse out of the air and nods sharply. She starts disbursing funds to the slaves among them, counting out enough coins for passage for each one.

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A guard is coming down the street. 

She is willing to be caught. She is a cleric, and is, after all, only talking. But some of these women are slaves and should not be out after dark. 

She casts Tap Inner Beauty and goes down the street. 

"Good afternoon, sir." She bows her head respectfully. 

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Aya looks over at the guard, and the group of worshippers starts to quickly disperse in all directions. 

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"What's this then? A gathering after dark in this part of town?"

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"I was merely attending to my followers," Kumi says. "It is a small church, associated with Shelyn's. We have yet to have a church building."

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"So you meet on the poor side of town in a random disused lot?"

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"Many of my worshippers are poor, sir, and some are sick. I prefer to come to them, as I am often more mobile than they are. It was simply the most convenient place."

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"You're dressed like a lady. What is that symbol at your neck?"

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"A blackberry, sir." 

She only needs to stall a little longer. 

"If you speak to the priests of Shelyn you will surely hear that I am not lying, sir. I am willing to repeat my statements under truth spell if you do not believe me."

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He harrumphs. 

"I think I will ask you to do so, madam."

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She will happily let herself be led away by the guard. 

Her people are safe. That's all that matters.

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Some of their masters are kind enough to let the matter pass. 

Some of their masters are asleep already, and will not notice their departures or returns.

The rest... are distracted.

She does what she can outside Cheliax, too. And these women may change more than they know.

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She is taken to a temple of Abadar, and a priest casts Abadar's Truthtelling on her.

"Repeat your questions," he says to the guard.

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An illusory key snaps into place over Kumi's forehead.

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"Why were you meeting with those women in an abandoned lot in the middle of the late evening?"

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"We share a common faith in the Lady of Blackberries, and it was the best place to meet. It's close to where they work."

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"Who is this Lady of Blackberries? What is her alignment?"

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"I don't know for sure. Neutral Good, I think. She could be Chaotic."

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"But not evil?"

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"She grants me a positive channel energy. An evil deity could not do that."

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"What was the purpose of your meeting?"

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"To proselytize."

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"What did you proselytize?"

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"That whores are people too and deserve to be treated with dignity and respect."

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"Was that all you did at the meeting?"

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"No. I also disbursed some funds to women who I felt needed it, and used Find The Faithful to identify them all as members of my faith."

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"Do you believe those funds will be put to any unLawful or unGood purpose?"

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"There are many purposes, some Neutral or Chaotic, to which they may be put; I cannot control what the charitable donations I make are used for by others. I don't believe any of my worshippers to intend Evil ends though. I intended and still intend no harm to Absalom or its citizens."

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"Do you know of any specific harmful or unlawful end these funds might be put to?"

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"Yes, of course I do. One of my flock has a drug habit, I fully expect she might use the money to harm herself. That doesn't mean I shouldn't have given her the money."

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"Which member?"

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"I respectfully decline to answer that question."

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The symbol over her head flickers out, its casting time elapsed.

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The cleric looks over at the guard. "Should I cast another?"

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The guard frowns. "Again."

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The cleric gestures, and the key flickers into place over Kumi's head again. 

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"I object to this treatment. I am to the best of my knowledge a Good cleric of a Good deity and I refuse to answer further questions."

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The guard frowns.

"You are not conspiring to commit any Chaotic or Evil act?"

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"I said I refuse to answer any more questions."

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"No" is a complete sentence, and should be spoken often to people in power. 

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"I'm going to hold you until your story can be checked with the priests of Shelyn. Come with me."

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She goes.

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And in the meantime, Aya boards a ship with a dozen women in new-bought clothes, on their way north to Andoran. 

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Well done.

She doesn't have another cleric circle to spare just yet, though. It is still only a dozen women. 

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Kumi is shown to a fairly well-constructed stone cell, and left there.

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Kumi's still there in the morning. 

What to give her?

Sunaira could try to break her out. Liberating Command is better than the shackles that Absalom uses while transporting prisoners, and Charm Person is in her domains. But she is not Milani; yes, the guards are enforcing an unjust law, but Kumi chose this of her own free will. And the chance she could actually escape is quite low. It's better for Sunaira's goals to drag the matter through court and bring as much publicity to the cause and the new faith as possible.

Kumi picked this scene. She's fine with being arrested. She's fine with being harassed. She's fine with being punished. She consents to all this. 

That's what Sacrifice is.

Sunaira sends her Tap Inner Beauty, Owl's Wisdom, and Remove Fear. 

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She supposes it was too much to hope for a rescue.

Kumi waits in the cell. She knows what the guards will be discovering around now. Her worshippers' escape will be traced back to her, and from there she is dead to rights on several charges under property law. 

It was still the right thing to do. 

She's terrified. 

She saves the Remove Fear, though. She needs that for when the guards come.

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It takes them a while.

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Meanwhile, a certain wizard client who's pretty fond of his favorite lay has found out about the news, and is hiring a lawyer.

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The guards arrive first. 

"You can cut the bullshit," the guard who brought her in yesterday says. "We've identified several missing women who were last seen in your company. Former slaves, all. You've been aiding and abetting slaves to escape."

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"I said I won't be answering any more questions."

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"You'll go before a judge tomorrow. The evidence is open and shut. You're sure you don't want to confess?"

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"I won't be answering any more questions.

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Fuckers don't respect a safeword when they hear one.

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"Suit yourself." 

The guards give her a hunk of bread and leave her alone.

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She is left to eat her bread. 

No-one will be coming to save her. 

She doesn't remember what the punishment is for aiding and abetting the escape of slaves. It can't possibly be anything good. Execution? No, surely not... She has too much to deal with here in the Material. It must be something less than that. She hopes.

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Eventually, her lawyer comes and speaks to her. 

She is required to pay a fine of five hundred gold pieces per slave she assisted to flee. There were eight. She is subject to a fine of four thousand gold pieces if the charges are sustained.

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Her personal vibrator is worth about a quarter that much. She didn't keep the rights to the design, she just transmitted the idea and took a finder's fee. The sparker's worth another five hundred. That's her major expensive items. She makes good money serving adventurers, but not so good that she can absorb another two thousand five hundred gold pieces. 

She cannot actually afford that and still pay rent. 

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They'll take all her assets, then. She'll have to declare bankruptcy. The remaining fine will translate to corporal punishment; she'll be whipped in public as "payment."

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Kumi breaks down laughing. 

She thought this was going to be hard.

Instead her goddess arranged a kink scene for her.

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Her lawyer is very confused by the sudden laughter!

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Kumi takes shaky breaths, giggles again, and presses her hand to her forehead. 

"It's okay," she says. "I just - was worried it'd cost me something that mattered."

She'll miss the vibrator and the sparker, to be sure, and they won't be easy to replace, and she's going to regret being so blasé about the whipping, but... For eight lives? 

That's a fucking bargain.

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"My recommendation is that we plead guilty and hope to get the fine reduced, assuming you can't pass a truth magic exam."

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"That makes sense. It'll reduce the amount of pain I have to suffer through. But honestly, I kind of want to force them to the whipping. Make the people see them bloody the back of a cleric of a good goddess in public for having the temerity to free women from their pimps."

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"I would recommend against antagonizing the court. You can't Regenerate a lost hand, not yet anyway."

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That sobers her. 

"... Noted. I will do my best to stay civil."

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"So, we'll enter our guilty plea tomorrow. You will have to ask for mercy if you wish to receive it." 

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Yeah, she gets it, Lady of the Blackberries, she doesn't know her own limits. This is the first scene of this kind she's done.

She will be good and not beg to be hit harder.

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The trial is the next day. She's hauled roughly to the courtroom and forcibly Dispelled before being placed on the stand.

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The judge looks sternly at her. "Madam Shiromusume. You stand accused of eight counts of aiding and abetting the escape of slaves. How do you plead?"

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"Guilty, your honor."

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Good. That makes this a little easier. 

"Do you have anything to say that might impact your sentencing?"

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"I was unaware of the punishment for aiding slaves to escape, and only acted in the interests of what I believed to be right and those of my Neutral Good Goddess, the Lady of Blackberries."

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Another name for Calistria? No, she's not Neutral Good. 

Calistria is probably paying attention to this verdict. And it's not going to be one she'll like. Damn. 

Well, you don't become an Absalom judge without expecting to make a few enemies. He'll just have to keep an eye out for wasps. 

Madam Shiromusume is saying this all under truth spell, so it must be what she genuinely believes. He's going to be wrung through the press for this one - supporting the sexual slavery of women is a terrible look - but the law is unfortunately clear and he cannot arbitrarily contravene it.

There's nothing to be done but to rule on the law as it exists. Good luck to this woman. 

"I understand that you were only doing what you believed to be right, but the law exists for a reason, and binds all regardless of their conscience. It is thus with regret that I sentence you to be fined three thousand Absalom gold pieces. Any funds you cannot produce from your assets will be converted to lashes at one hundred gold pieces per lash."

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"I understand, Your Honor."

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"Bailiff? Take her back to her cell until such time as her remaining assets have been liquidated."

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She is politely but firmly escorted back to her small stone room.

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She might just be able to cover that from her assets. One thousand five hundred gold pieces from her remaining assets after her magic items is... a lot. But maybe manageable.

She's not sure if she wants the lashes or not, now, honestly.

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This is when she'd usually lay a gentle hand on her scene partner's shoulder. 

She can't do that because of the protocol of the scene, though. 

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She waits. 

Before she goes to sleep she casts Remove Fear to give herself a small break. It helps her get to sleep rather than pacing her cell.

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Good girl, resting strategically. 

Tomorrow is going to be awful for you. I'm proud.

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When she wakes in the morning she has Remove Fear twice and Cure Moderate Wounds.

That is not a good omen.

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One of the guards comes to her after a few hours. 

"Your remaining balance, after selling your vibrator and striker, comes to seven hundred fifty eight Absalom crowns. You will be whipped eight times at noon in the public square. That's in three bells."

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She has nothing to do but wait.

When she hears the third bell, she waits until she can't stand it anymore and then casts Remove Fear on herself. 

Things are easier with it on her. 

She made a calculation at the start of this, and it was the right decision. 

She doesn't have to enjoy the pain. She just has to get through it.

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Her lawyer comes with her to the whipping grounds.

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There is a small crowd. She recognizes two of the faces in it; a couple of her free worshippers are present. They must not have been connected to her.

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The guard locks her in the pillory and leaves her there. She can't turn her head to look over her shoulder: she's forced to look out into the crowd.

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... Well fuck. This is kind of hot, in an awful way. 

She holds still and tries to keep her composure. 

The Remove Fear runs out. 

... It is ALSO pretty terrifying!!!

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She hears footsteps behind her and the soft crack of a whip - but she's untouched.

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She tenses up all instinctually. 

But she hasn't been touched. 

She is okay. 

She's okay.

Just breathe.

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A man's voice announces from behind her: "Kumi Shiromusume. Failure to pay fines resulting from the aiding and abetting of runaway slaves. Eight lashes."

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It's going to happen any second now.

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The whip cuts the air, and slams into her back. It digs deep into her skin through her top, cutting a line of pain from her waist to her shoulder.

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She cries out. It hurts like a motherfucker. 

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"One," announces the man behind her.

Another line of pain comes down across her back. 

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It's sharp and tearing and fierce. 

Six more. 

She's already falling into the pain a little. It's not like the play she's done with the sparker. It's on a whole other level.

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The strikes fall rhythmically on her back, one after another, blow after tearing blow. 

The pain only intensifies, until it blots out everything else.

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By the seventh stroke the pillory is the only thing keeping her upright. 

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The man holding the whip lays one last heavy stroke into her back, and then steps back.

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Her lawyer comes forward and helps her out of the pillory.

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She doesn't have the strength in her legs to stand: she falls to her knees and cries hot tears onto the ground in front of her. Her back burns like fire.

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"Heal yourself," her lawyer nudges her gently.

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Right. She can do that.

She reaches for her channel, and lets it pour out into the gathered crowd. The positive energy half-knits her back. 

Right, Sunaira gave her Cure Moderate Wounds. 

She heals herself again with the prepared spell. 

That fixes her. 

She straightens, wearing her ripped-up clothes, takes a deep breath, and steps down off the platform and walks for home.

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The crowd parts for her.

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Well fucking done.

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She returns to her job. She has forty-two gold and a week to make rent. 

She isn't going to make it, she's pretty sure.

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The next day, a man knocks on the door of her apartments.

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If she goes to answer that, Weal or Woe?

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Weal.

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She answers her door. 

"What is it?"

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"You can call me Pen. I work with an abolitionist newspaper out of Andoran." 

There's a bronze charm of a tankard hanging at his neck.

"I want to publicize your story. Are you willing to answer a few questions?"

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"Why, yes. Please. Come in, sit down."

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He smiles and joins her. There isn't any furniture, so they sit on the floor.

"So I've heard rumors about the Lady of the Blackberries. You say she instructed you to do this?"

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"Not as such, expect perhaps by picking me instead of someone else..."

She explains the basic story, and what catechism she's been able to scrape together from her goddess' hints. 

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Pen listens, and takes notes in shorthand. He gives her little nudges when she seems to be starting to freeze up.

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The whole story comes pouring out of her. 

It helps. It's hard to talk about the whipping, or the time she spent in jail - how can she explain this eithout making her goddess sound like a freak? - but she manages. 

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Eventually Pen sets down his pen and nods to her. 

"I'll see to it that your story is told," he says. "Best of luck to you."

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"Thank you for your time," Kumi says automatically. 

She shoos him.

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He goes.

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Time to go to work, she supposes. 

She changes into her best remaining dress and goes. 

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She works. She's off her game today, but Tap Inner Beauty helps. It's not going to be enough money to pay rent, but what else can she do?

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At the end of the work day, there's someone to see her. 

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She recognizes this woman. She was at the whipping yesterday. She doesn't know her though.

"What can I do for you?"

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"I thought what you did was very brave," she says. "And I heard that all your property was confiscated by the guards. I - you don't know me. I was the girlfriend of one of the working girls you saved. She left without telling me. But I heard, and..." 

She looks down at her hands. "What I mean to say is, if you need somewhere to stay while you earn a little more money, there's a spare room available for you. It's where my girlfriend used to stay when she was off work."

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She doesn't know this woman. 

She's going to trust her anyway. 

"Thank you," she says. "I - I'll do my best not to cause trouble."

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"You and I both know that's not going to hold for long. But I'll do what I can to help. It's what the Lady of Blackberries would want."

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Oh. 

So this is what it's like to be saved. 

Thank you, Goddess. 

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Honestly, thank her when she actually spends something. She didn't even have to nudge here.

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"So what's your name?"

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"Rose. Let's get going."

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She goes. 

Rose's apartment is smaller than hers, and less well-maintained. But it's more than enough. There's furniture, even. 

She's going to be okay.

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And in the background, the news spreads...

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She notices the uptick in Caydenite clients almost immediately. Any adventurer who cares about slaves at all is going to want to sleep with the whore who's freed eight of them. She makes good money. Cayden's people are good customers, too. 

She doesn't go meet her worshippers again just yet, not with the guards still watching her. Rose does that for her. 

She loses her old apartment, but she doesn't need it. Rose is a decent enough roommate, and she's able to contribute to rent now. 

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Every day, Rose comes back saying that a few more people have joined the congregation. 

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And the word eventually filters back from Andoran that all her escapees are safe, thanks to the existing abolitionist organizations there.

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Aya has a Cleric circle now, and she's shepherding the church in Andoran. Thanks to daily Remove Sicknesses, she's even starting to kick her drug habit. 

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And eventually Pen comes back.

"I'm seeing a lot of interest in this new goddess of yours," he says. "I'd like to run an article on the tenets of her faith. Have you ever thought about setting down some of what you know?"

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She hasn't really thought about it, no, but it would obviously advance the cause of her Lady. 

"That's actually a good idea. Let's see what I can set down."

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"Where would you like to start?"

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Where to start, indeed? 

"I believe that the Lady of the Blackberries is first and foremost a goddess of..." She searches for the words. "Pleasure, especially sexual pleasure. She values sexual variety, trust that's well-placed, sex being done in a safe and healthy way. She's sponsored the invention of multiple magical sex toys, encompassing ones that cause pain and pleasure both. She believes that everyone is entitled to pleasure and satisfaction in their lives, and that the art of indulging in good things is worthy."

She bites her lip. "I don't think she approves of addictions - Aya is being encouraged to kick her smoking habit - so not every kind of pleasure is good. I would say she values the kind of pleasure that's an artform. That inspires people to be creative and build on themselves. That makes people stronger, instead of weaker. I bet she approves of happy marriages. She might care about love."

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Pen looks up from his notepad. "I can't see how she would not, if she's all about the kind of pleasure that builds people up and makes them stronger."

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"Yes, it's obvious that she's a love goddess in retrospect. But she's not like Calistria or Shelyn, she's kind of a strange mixture of both. She cares about passion like Calistria, but also about commitment like Shelyn. She must have known that I would choose to free those women, so she intended that. She made it sexual for me, made the punishment more bearable by letting me see it in a way where it advanced my goals and was actually kind of hot. There's a way she makes sexuality grant strength and I don't quite have my finger on it. She likes... people in cornered situations, kind of like Milani or Cayden, except she likes it when people choose to be bound. You could say she's honorable, but not like Iomedae: she doesn't care if I'm evasive with a town guard, she sees the point in that. She likes it when people help those who need it."

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"You seem very cheerful for someone who's been whipped and lost her apartment and most of her possessions. You consider that to be an acceptable price?"

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"Yes, and I would gladly pay it again if I had the chance to."

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"I probably won't publish that, it's best if the authorities aren't breathing down your neck. But it's worth considering that perhaps the Lady of the Blackberries intended that too."

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"It was my choice..."

Kumi frowns. "She seems to care a lot about having or not having the choice to do something. She's fine with putting yourself in bad situations so long as you walked into them with open arms. I guess she cares about freedom?"

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"That makes sense."

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"There's something else there, though. Something I can't quite put my finger on."

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"Do you want some time to think about it?"

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"That might be best. I don't have all the pieces yet. You might want to consult with Aya, in Andoran."

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"I will. Thank you for your time."

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"It's less than nothing."

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A few weeks later, in Andoran...

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"So that's what Kumi had to say. What do you think about it?"

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Aya strokes her lips with her thumb, and frowns.

"I got my first cleric level when I decided to try and kick my smoking habit. I reckon that wasn't a coincidence, not together with Kumi going through her whipping and ending up better off for it. The Lady of the Blackberries is about - sacrifice. The good kind of sacrifice. Giving up something pleasurable because it's bad for you, or suffering pain because it's the right thing to do. She cares about pleasure, but also restrictions on it so that it doesn't become vicious. That's what separates her from Calistria and Urgathoa."

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"That fits. I'll add it to the catechism I'm compiling. Is there anything else you want to add?"

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"I think that's all I have to add. I have people to look after, so I'm afraid I don't have more time for you."

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"Alright." 

He publishes his article a few days later. 

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And things start to piece together a little. 

The story's been out for some time. The strikers and vibrators are in many adventurers' bedrooms now. She nudges, very gently.

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Calistria's helping the strikers and vibrators spread as well. They're powerful tools for her domain.

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These strikers are cheap, but heat-stones already exist which are better for actual torture and more practical as a piece of soldier's gear. He sees no reason to ban them but also no reason to promote them. They're not cost-effective.

The vibrators are banned though.

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Ooh, another way of causing pain! They can use that. It's mild, but every little bit counts.

The vibrators are banned.

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Of course. Zon-Kuthon and Asmodeus have to ban them because otherwise their people would get to have something good and pleasurable, and they're both gods of suffering. 

She has just been handed a tool to get the powerful to reconsider their allegiances. She gets to hit them right in the sex life.  

The vibrators are purchasable in many, many magic item shops. And even evil people are tempted by orgasms. 

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Banned just means the common people don't get to have them. Haven't you understood the first thing about tyranny?

The nobility just have to hide them, which they are already used to doing.

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Okay, that was a little less effective than she hoped. They're too expensive to proliferate down into the commoners' daily lives. 

Zon-Kuthon, what about you?

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I said they're banned. Really for real. For everyone. Pleasure has no place in Nidal.

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Oh, good.

It has to be this way. Genuine pleasure in a place devoted to self-mutilation and suffering is more than mere good sensations. It's relief. A form of temporary escape.

Fuck him up, Milani.

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With pleasure.

She makes a sparker model with a hidden vibration function.

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Okay, the sparkers are banned too. They were pansy little things anyway.

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Huh. Seems to me that there were a number of people who liked those in Nidal.

It would be a shame if any of them were to circumvent the ban.

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Suffer and die, bitch.

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You can't get rid of an implement of pain without corrupting your own damn theology, you asshole. People are going to notice. And that is a thread that I can pull and pull and pull.

She makes whips with vibrate functions too. It's not so hard to adapt a wand enchantment to the handle.

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He can't ban enchanted whips, the country would collapse. 

He orders inspections of all enchanted whips for illicit magic. He makes examples.

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Have fun doing that to your most senior church officials and half your noblemen. You've made it so every family owns several cantrip-enchanted whips. They'll play shell games with you. 

Face it, you've lost this one.

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Every enchanted whip in the country must be registered with a fucking Cleric. And liscenced.

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Yeah, I think I declare victory at that point.

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You fucking go, girl.

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Eh, you were backing me up the whole time.

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Yeah, but it's politer to just accept the credit.

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I think that's as far as I can push it with my current budget. I could try weaving the vibrate function into more objects - knives, maybe - but it's probably not worth it now that Zon-Kuthon's building liscensing capacity for magic items. That solution will scale a bit.

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How much would it cost to put it on knives? 

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About this much.

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Hmmmmmmm. 

Normally that's a bit of an edge case for me but I'll sponsor it. Generalizing the enchantment probably will have some nice knock-on effects. Abadar and Nethys will like it. Calistria will definitely like it. Give me a second to whip up a coalition. 

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These things are great. Please, take my budget. I want a dozen in all different forms. 

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Your lover ripped up a piece of paper for me so I'll contribute. Next time she will have to set something on fire.

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Iterating on inventions is what I do. Who knows what industrial uses a vibrating enchantment could be put to. Querning flour comes to mind. 

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Should she try Irori... he might value being able to make such a tool more discreet. 

He might oppose it, though, based on his inclination to moderation. 

She'll leave him out of this one.

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The bargain's heavier on her this time, but it's more than worth it for a fully generalized vibrating enchantment.

She makes the deal.

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Hey, you! Have a vision!

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Of course Nethys knows the best wizard for the job. 

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With the newly expanded enchantment, Milani's able to do more damage to Nidal. Enchanted knives. Enchanted swords. (It goes in the pommel.) Amulets that vibrate. Rings that vibrate. (They can be worn on many body parts.) Inspect and register every damn magic item in the country, you assholes. 

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Bitch

Zon-Kuthon tries, he really does. 

Asmodeus, help me with this one?

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Lol no. The strong survive and the weak perish. Get good.

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Ugh. 

He can't register every single magic item in the country. 

He can't just make every magic item in-house, he doesn't have the wizards for that. 

All he can do is make examples of the people he catches.

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You fucker. You're trying to get in my way?

Fuck you. A plague of wasps on your new registration bureau.

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Lol noob.

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Says the god who is ALSO BANNING MY PRECIOUS VIBRATORS. 

GO DIE IN A FIRE.

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Okay, ow, that kind of smarts. Usually Calistria is a little easier to get on side than this. He can vibe with vengeance. It's just that she's preoccupied with this fucking lust thing and suddenly that's a liability.

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Tell me about it.

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Did I ask your opinion?

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She's out of intervention budget to spare, but Nidal is starting to show some cracks. 

She'll leave this part to Calistria. 

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Calistria assassinates the head of the new vibrator inspection agency. They go to Hell.

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Wince.

Nobody deserves that.

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No, nobody does. 

You're doing good work here. She's discreetly incorporating a few of the new vibrators into the personal effects of her officers where that would be less costly than trying to seductionproof them in other ways. Irori is helping. 

This isn't a place where she has a unique advantage, but she has seen an uptick in useful intelligence out of Nidal. A handful of outright turncoats who were able to escape the country, but more to the point the noble families are spending resources on getting their hands on vibrators and not using those resources on Evil. The additional strain of registering all the magic items in the country is lessening opportunities for Nidal to seize important purchases, tying up the resources of Zon-Kuthon's church with busywork, and causing internal unrest due to squabbles over status. Calistria's vengeance is only making things worse for the internal structure and has thus far been mostly members of Zon-Kuthon's church.

A whole noble family has been Maledicted in the inevitable internal purges, and they were some of Zon-Kuthon's more competent people. It's not something to celebrate, but should be noted.

Zon-Kuthon's hold has weakened, just a little, and this has been the result of play mostly from just Milani and Sunaira. 

They should really be talking to Cayden and Shelyn about followup. 

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Sunaria inspects the escapees.

One of them is a tattoo and scarification artist who couldn't help making her designs more beautiful than the Nidalese church approved of. She has Nidalese kinks, but is trying to unlearn them. 

Iomedae, I estimate it's worth this much to inform this particular woman of the Lady of Blackberries.

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I'll cover it.

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She'll cleric her later. This one doesn't need powers to matter just yet.

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She's beautiful for someone from Nidal. 

Her face has been badly burnt, but the way it healed looks more striking than ugly. That's her most obvious feature until she smiles. Then it's clear that her teeth have been filed into points. It's harder to notice that she covers most of her body with her clothes, or that she's missing both her pinkies. She hobbles; she's been lamed. Her eyes are milky and grey, more like a corpse's than a human's. 

But with a walking-stick in her hand she still stands taller than most people in the room. There is a presence to her. Something that even Nidal couldn't entirely stamp out of her. 

So. The Lady of the Blackberries. 

She's needed. She knows the aesthetics of Nidal. She knows what its people find striking. She knows how to subvert that, make it slip in Zon-Kuthon's grip. She just needs time and resources.

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She will have both, and a Regenerate if she wants one.

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She does not, thank you very much for the offer. Just get her to Absalom and don't make her walk too much.

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Her passage will be paid for. It costs far less than a Regenerate.

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Eventually...

Weal or Woe if I answer the door?

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Weal

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She goes and opens her apartment door.

The scars take her aback. 

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"You're the priestess of the Lady of the Blackberries?"

Ember taps her free hand against her thigh.

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"I - uh - yes. Who are you?"

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"Ember Scar. Formerly of Nidal. I have something that I need to discuss with you."

She doesn't fidget. She has the affect of a stone statue. 

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This woman's teeth are sharpened. Good gods, how does she eat without suffering intense pain?

Kumi's heard stories about Nidal, but it's different to meet someone from there in person. 

She offers her hand. "I'm Kumi."

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Ember looks at Kumi's hand like it's a turd.

"What am i supposed to do with that?"

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 "You... shake it? I guess they must not do that in Nidal."

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"I will never understand foreigners' obsession with touching people at every opportunity."

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"... You had better come in."

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She comes in and closes the door behind her. 

"I understand you are the priestess of a goddess who understands pain and suffering. Who cares about the artistry of tattoos and scarification."

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"Is that what you did, in Nidal before you came here? You were a - body artist?"

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"Yes. But the Church wouldn't let me produce the designs I wanted to. They were too symmetrical, too purposeful, too..."

She pauses. It's definitely not a fumble. She is merely considering her words. 

"... Too good to be allowed to exist."

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"... I see."

Clearly her goddess has sent her a wake-up call. 

"And you want me to help you distribute your designs?"

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"I..."

She swallows. 

It's hard to say it, now that it could actually happen. 

She nods. 

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"It could be dangerous to disttribute Nidalese aesthetic outside Nidal. That is not - I don't want the people who hurt you to get more purchase in the world through your art."

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"... What kind of category is that? You might as well say 'people who are alive.' Everyone hurts people."

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Kumi has no idea what to say to that. She's noticed the missing fingers, now, and she's beginning to deeply suspect that this woman has more scars beneath her concealing clothes. 

"Most people do not deliberately cut off body parts or - sharpen people's teeth -"

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She frowns. "Why not? It is not as if you need your pinky fingers."

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"I - doesn't it hurt to eat with those teeth of yours?"

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"Yes. So? It is not as if I cannot bear it."

A note of pride tinges her voice.

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"... Normally people try to avoid pain."

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"Life is pain. If you avoid pain you avoid life. It is pathetic to not be able to face up to the whip when it is time to."

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Oh. 

This woman - 

She still thinks of all the pain she went through as necessary and right.

"When were your teeth filed?"

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"When I turned sixteen."

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"How old are you now?"

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"Thirty-one."

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She probably hardly remembers what it was like to eat without pain. 

Her body must ache constantly. Her leg doesn't bend right, hence the cane. The burn scars on her face. The sharpened teeth. 

But she's made the pain part of her identity, now. She's proud of being able to suffer so much and pass through it unbroken. 

The society that did this to her is beyond sick. It's barbaric. 

"Did you need education in how to - bear pain - when you were sixteen?"

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"Yes. I had not learned the cane, yet. I was whineging about my leg. Children do that."

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"You agreed to let your teeth be filed?"

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"My family thought it would be good for me, so yes."

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Lady above.

Who would do this to their own child?

"I... see..."

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"You are discomfited."

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"Yes. No-one should have to suffer pain on a daily basis, and having that inflicted upon you by your own family, who are supposed to support you - that's beyond twisted."

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"They did support me. Do you think they enjoyed my whining in the days after? No? They suffered for me. That is what it means to support someone."

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Lady. It's not even wrong, that's the problem. The justification is all twisted. 

"They and you suffered needlessly -"

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"No. The pain has made me stronger. I am the woman I am because I am good at suffering."

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"That does not mean you should be - subjected to as much suffering as possible."

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"I think that is where we differ."

She still has not taken a seat.

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"I..."

She pinches the bridge of her nose. 

"Who gave you the burn marks on your face? Was that your parents again?"

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Ember's lips turn up in a sneer. "No. I did it myself, like a lady."

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...

What do you even say to that.

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Then the penny drops. 

"That must be why they look so good."

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Ember's lips curve up slightly. 

"Yes," she says. "Most cannot bear to do it themselves, or have poor precision. I am the best."

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It's awful that she felt she had to do this to herself. 

It's beautiful that she made meaning of it anyway. 

It's awful that that was then used against her by the people who made her burn her own face.

"I agree, that is quite the accomplishment. I wish you had not felt the need to do it, though..."

Ember was in an impossible situation, it's fairly clear.

And she chose to make a very visible statement. One that could have gotten her killed. 

And she survived.

She sees why her Lady sent her this woman in particular now. 

"We have a lot to talk about."

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"We do, yes." 

Ember stands as straight as her lame leg will allow her to.

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"Please, sit then. Make yourself comfortable."

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Ember scowls. "Pfah. 'Make yourself comfortable.' I am not so weak as to favor an injury. I will stand."

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"You use a cane."

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Ember scowls even deeper. "It is regrettably necessary."

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"I see." 

She hates what's been done to her, even if she sees it as her own weakness doing it. That's an in.

"I insist you sit. I do not wish to cause you more pain than necessary."

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Ember places her cane in front of her and braces both hands on the bare pommel of it. 

"No. Are all the Lady of the Blackberries' priestesses as weak as you?"

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No, we just don't believe that suffering builds character.

Kumi bites back her affronted reply.

Instead, she turns her back and shrugs off her robe. 

The whip-scars from a few weeks ago are exposed all along her back, a set of fine silvery lines where her fur has still not regrown.

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Ember's voice comes over her shoulder. "Ah. So you do know pain. I was beginning to wonder."

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Kumi shrugs her robe back into place, and turns to face Ember once again. "I took those scars to save eight women who were slaves. Prostitutes. I could have avoided the whip had I not stonewalled the authorities as to their location. They are free now." 

She crosses her arms. "Outside Nidal, such things are more rare. It is not an everyday occurrence that one must face the whip or else give up something they care for. Nonetheless, I know what it means to suffer for another's sake."

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Ember purses her lips, then nods sharply. 

"I see. Perhaps you have something of value to offer after all."

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"You hate your limp."

It's not a question.

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Ember's eyes widen for a moment before she schools her face still. 

"It is a part of me. We all have parts of ourselves that frustrate us."

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"The hands are simple enough. You do not need your pinkies. The teeth you can cope with. You can eat soft foods. The burn scars you did yourself. But the limp..."

She crosses her arms. "It doesn't just hurt, it impairs your function. In a simple, obvious way you cannot ignore. Every time you move you are hobbled. And so you cannot help but recognize that it is a weakness."

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Ember stares her down. "What of it?"

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Kumi has seen enough girls who've been hit by their clients to make a guess at diagnosis, and if she's right...

"It is a muscle injury, yes? The shape of your leg is right. It does not seem to be broken."

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Ember raises an eyebrow. "What does it matter?"

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"If it is only a muscle injury, I can rid you of it. Without taking away any of your other - modifications." 

A Restoration should be good enough to heal that kind of injury, and business has been good over the last few weeks. She can afford the small quantity of diamond dust for this.

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Ember looks at Kumi. 

"It does not slow me overmuch."

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"Liar. If we are to work together as partners I want you fully functional."

That is the kind of brutal logic she is used to, yes?

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Ember braces her hands on the head of her cane. Her wrists flex, once.

"Well enough. When?"

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"The temple of Shelyn is open right now. We will go together."

She doesn't have the funds physically on her, but if she explains this is the Lady's business the cleric will almost certainly let her do it on credit.

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"You let another goddess do your work for you?"

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"That is a strength, not a weakness. Come. If you can keep up."

She stalks from the room without a word more.

She has to project power, has to speak this woman's language. If she gives an inch Ember could reconsider and the opportunity will be lost.

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Ember exits behind her, a little slower than her even with use of her cane.

"Enough," she calls, once Kumi is three strides in the lead. "You've made your point." 

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Kumi slows her pace and comes to walk by Ember's side, lowering her pace. 

"I thought so." 

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"You are infuriating."

Ember says it with a smile, those sharpened teeth of hers bared.

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"I try to be."

Kumi leads her on.

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The temple of Shelyn has a courtyard garden where the priests treat patients. There is a small ornamental stream, flanked by roses and dahlias beneath a shady beech. A small bench rests amid the trickling water. In every direction the view is of pristine blossoms. A gardener's rake and wheelbarrow sit on a small plinth to the side, with a scatter of fallen leaves and petals in it that seems almost artistic in these surroundings.

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Ember stops in the middle of the courtyard and looks.

She has never seen flowers deliberately cultivated before. 

It's frippery - 

No, it cannot be. 

She recognizes something. The hand of an intelligent creator who chose to make this look...

She doesn't have the word.

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"Beautiful, isn't it?"

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"It is the difference between your scars and those others have put on their faces. If it causes you pleasure to see it, it is beautiful."

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"Pleasure." Ember's tone makes no bones of the contempt she holds for the word.

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"Yes. We will have much more to say on that later. For now, we are here for a purpose."

She steps across the square towards a priest of her casual acquiantance. 

"Excuse me," she says. "I am Kumi, cleric of the Lady of Blackberries, and this is Ember. She has a lame leg. I wish to purchase a Restoration for her."

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"I was told you might come. I have the spell ready. If Ember will let me lay a hand on her injured leg...?"

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Kumi looks over at Ember. "Do what he asks."

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Ember has gone completely rigid again. 

She lowers herself slowly to the ground, and presents her lame leg as straight out in front of her as she can.

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She looks like she's expecting to have the leg broken, not healed.

She nods to the priest of Shelyn.

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He squats, pours a fine powder over the injured leg, then places his hand firmly on Ember's knee.

Over a few seconds, the limb straightens beneath Ember's clothes, and fills out a little more. Destroyed muscle is being replaced.

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The priest of Shelyn raises his hands. "It's done. Try and stand?"

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Ember grasps her cane, and levers herself to standing. 

She tests the limb. 

It holds her weight. 

She looks at Kumi and nods.

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Good. If she does nothing else here it has been worth it.

Now she should give Ember a few days to get used to her new mobility in her limb. That will put more doubts into her head. 

"Do you have somewhere to stay here? An inn?"

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"Yes. I have enough coin to pay my passage."

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"Go, then. Relearn your sense of balance and your range of motion. I want you to test your healed limb thoroughly and make sure it is fit for service. We can meet again in two days; that should be long enough to prove it good or bad."

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Ember doesn't disagree. 

"Well enough." 

She's leaning less hard on the cane, now. And there is a ghost of a smile on her lips.

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She must be repressing so hard right now.

Kumi just nods. "You know where to find me." 

She walks away.

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She will linger and look at this garden a little more. What is its purpose? There is something that calls to her about it, but she does not understand it. 

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People come and go around her. More patients who need injuries healed. People appreciating the garden. 

She gets a few stares. Her scars are very striking.

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... they can tell she is attached to this frippery, can't they. 

She leaves, cane in hand. It is never permissible to be seen becoming attached to something. All things but pain are impermanent. 

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No-one follows her. She is back into the city and free to do whatsoever she wants with herself.

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She heads back towards her inn. It's a simple enough test walk.

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Notice it. The simple absence of pain. The sounds of the city around you. Hawkers in the market. Salt off the inner sea. The simple repetitive motion of each leg, a steady rhythm. 

You've never had the simple joy of walking where you wished. You could not go where you wished, and you could hardly walk. Now both are mended. 

Isn't it obviously better?

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She walks so easily now. She expects the familar hitch with each step, the pull of her muscle that's never quite healed since she was a child. 

She misses it. 

It feels like a friend has deserted her. 

She walks a little faster. 

The pain still does not come.

Come now, surely you can give me pain if I try hard enough. 

She speeds up. Her feet beat the pavement in time, one after the other. 

Still she feels little. 

She breaks out into a flat out run. 

At last, there's what she was looking for. 

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And here is your inn, darling. Closer than you ever felt it was before.

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The sight of her inn pulls her up short, panting, her walking-stick trailing in her hand. 

She's filled with a raw, wild exultation she usually only gets when she's cutting into someone's flesh. 

She feels good

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She sees Ember suddenly light up in her godly senses, a brilliant flash of release

Got you. 

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Her body is exhausted and aches absolutely gloriously. She has to pause and take long breaths against the wall of the inn.

She aches all through her thighs and legs and in her chest. 

She could have had this all her life. This raw, wild, glorious pain.

Instead Nidal hobbled her. 

The absolute bastards

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She goes up to her room, leaves her cane on the far-too-soft bed. 

She eats. The pain recenters her. 

The high of running fades away and only the hurt in her limbs and chest remains.

It's different, though. A little more like the scars on her face. 

The anger fades a little. 

Only suffering is permanent. 

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... she's being deceived by the pleasure. This won't last. Her leg will be worse again tomorrow. 

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Better get good use out of it today, then. 

She leaves her cane in her room and goes out into the city.

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Poor thing. Still waiting for the other shoe to drop. 

In Nidal this would simply never happen. Their priests are not in the business of undoing damage. 

Learn, dove. Fly free. 

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There are so many things to purchase in the market. 

Even very basic things have pointless designs on them. Fireplace poker with a twisted handle. Bags and clothes with embroidery. Trinkets to wear on the body, bracelets and necklaces. All in materials that are pleasant against the skin, that are comforting to touch. She finds herself feeling the texture of a cotton shirt for longer than she really should. 

Fripperies, all of it... 

The thought doesn't quite settle in her head. 

It's better, this color, this variety. It's more vibrant, in the ways different kinds of pain can be vibrant. There's meaning to each piece. Even buying something unornamented is a statement here. 

Everything is made so well. Things are symmetrical, sturdy. Better for their purposes. 

The purpose of it all is to bring her pleasure...

She has the sense that she is brushing up against something far bigger than her, something she could have known, or should have known. 

It's terrifying. 

She moves on from the market and keeps going.

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She sees Ember in sparks and flashes. Moments of appreciation, quickly smothered each time.

She's learning.

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There is more city to explore. 

She finds herself on the docks, looking out at the ships. 

The white-sheeted schooners and fishing boats, all lined up in a row. 

Every one of them has so much personality. There are names painted on half of them. Who names a boat? Who cares about a name enough to paint it on? 

The harsh, racous cries of seagulls overhead startle her, for a moment. But they... 

She kind of likes them. 

There are too many likeable things about this island. It's honestly overwhelming. She's never had to hold her defenses so firmly before.

She doesn't care about any of it. She doesn't.

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You poor thing. You're trying so hard, but it's impossible.

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Ember goes back to her inn. She passes a woman in a dress with a pattern of poppies on it, and a man with a beaver-skin cap smoking a pipe, and a dozen other folk doing things that make no sense to her. 

It's constant. Now that she knows how to see it she can't help it. 

She goes back up to her room.

She sits, straight-backed, in the center of the room. Her legs burn from all the walking. It helps. 

She has control over herself. 

She has control over herself. 

She won't break. 

She won't... 

She looks down at her own clothing, the ragged grey wool that clings close to her body. There's no lining on the inside. It scratches with every motion. 

... It's familiar. 

It makes her feel at home. 

Fuck, not even the things she brought with her from Nidal are safe. 

Not even her own body is safe now. 

Because of that woman.

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Isn't her struggling delicious?

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Yes, but not in the way you mean it.

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She breaks. 

She's broken before. As a child. Years and years ago, when she was first lamed. Children break, it's what they do. 

She sits on the hard floor and cries, ugly uncontrolled tears that stain her cheeks and shirt.

She doesn't want this but she can't stop it.

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She's still mine. Can't you see the damage that's been done?

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You don't understand, and you never will.

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She shucks the damn scratchy clothes. All of them. It hurts, pulling them off over her scarred body, but she rids herself of them. 

She lays down on the soft bed and pulls the covers over herself. 

She is going to suffer for this, but right now, she doesn't care. 

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Isn't she just the most pathetic little thing?

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She's not pathetic. You're just cruel.

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Oh, that was a compliment. I like when they break.

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I like when they get back up again. 

We are not the same, you and I.

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Yes. You're weaker. You only pretend to enjoy it for different reasons. You love pain. You exult in it. You're every inch as cruel as me, you just claim to have good reasons for it. 

You'll lose, and every person you care about will suffer in hell, and you will enjoy it. 

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If you really think that, you don't know me at all.

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Eventually the tears pass, and Ember falls deeply asleep.

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Rest well.

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Ember wakes in the morning in the too-soft bed. 

Her legs ache. Her skull pounds.

She shoves off the blankets with an ugh of disgust and sits up. She rubs her scarred face with her four-fingered hands. 

She can't believe she was so weak. What was she doing

She roots in her raggedly-stitched pouch and gets out her knife. It's dull; she has no sharpening stones for it. 

She kneels on the hard floor in a stress position for her already-burning legs and she starts to cut at her thigh. 

She knows how to do this without risking permanent damage. And the pain is immensely clarifying. 

She feels relieved to have her leg back when it was injured before. As if it cannot be lamed again. As if it matters. 

Pain is the only constant in the world. She knows that. 

She will lose it again. 

She cuts herself, and accepts it. 

Her old barriers settle again, reassuringly solid. 

It's all frippery. None of it is real. Only the pain is real.

Blood runs down her thigh and pools on the floor.

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Eventually she is herself again. She bandages the wound and moves. There is a pained hitch in her step again; she takes up her cane again. It's familiar.

She puts on her wool clothes, goes downstairs to the inn kitchen, and has gruel for breakfast. It is cheap. Efficient. Flavours are frippery. 

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Ember has faded greatly from Sunaira's awareness again. 

She doesn't have the budget to push further. All she can do is hope.

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She has a mission. She has designs to publish.

If Kumi will not help her with that, she will do it herself. There are pencils and paper available in the market.

She goes to the one stall she needs, buys exactly the materials she wants, and returns to the inn. There is a desk. She stands, leans over it, and sketches. 

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I see her, Sunaira. She's sketching her scarification designs.

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Thank you.

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She stays in the familiar four walls of her room, and sketches. 

It's frustrating, which means she's doing it right. She's unfamiliar with tools of this make. The stump of her right hand's pinky rubs against the paper and aches with every motion. 

Gradually her designs emerge.

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She can just see the subtle gleam of satisfaction. Like water catching a passing light at midnight. 

If those designs are published now, it could genuinely harm her. That must be what Zon-Kuthon wants, to spread the practices of scarification and tattooing just for the sake of more pain existing in the world. It normalizes what he does in Nidal. It makes it more acceptable. 

She could lose this one.

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Ember works on her designs all day, filling her desk with the creations of her mind. Sharp, intricate designs of many overlapping cuts. Scarification and tattooing done together. She goes and purchases a set of inks and fumbles her way through several more pieces with colors. 

These designs aren't good enough. They're not quite what she imagined. 

Only pain is eternal. 

She tries again, by candlelight, sacrificing her sleep to the task.

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Slowly she fades into Sunaira's senses again. 

Ember doesn't realize it, but she's been captured by the flow. She hasn't eaten since breakfast. She's pouring herself into the work, into creating something, even though it pains her. And that's Sunaira's domain.

She watches, and does nothing. 

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Eventually, Ember lies down on the hard floor and sleeps.

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In the morning, she gives Kumi Cultural Adaptation, Abstemiousness, and Cure Moderate Wounds.

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Kumi has been gathering information on Nidal over the last two days. Unfortunately, many of the documents are written in Shadowtongue, so she has only had a little under two hours with the originals. Still, a picture has nonetheless emerged from translations and survivors' accounts. 

There is hardly any such thing as a luxury in Nidal for common folk. Ember's instruments of pain are one of the few recreational outlets she would have been allowed, since that serves Zon-Kuthon's ends. The poor woman doesn't know how to have fun without harming someone. Pain is eternal, pleasure fleeting. Any attachment to anything significant is cut away. 

One hundred percent chance Ember's back is a tapestry of whip scars. Fifty fifty chance she's been infibulated. There are doctrinal disputes among the Kuthite clergy on whether it's better to maim people so they can't have a sex life or keep that very sensitive bundle of nerve endings intact to inflict more pain on. Zon-Kuthon appreciates a variety of ways to make people suffer, so that both sides can hate the other and feel like they got a better deal. Envy is one of his domains. Either way, sexuality is not the way forward. 

It's a difficult case. She's prepared, today, with a handful of real blackberries and several documents in Shadowtongue to serve as material components for the inevitable spells. Abstemiousness is obvious - it'll reduce the pain Ember has from her teeth and give Kumi an excuse to feed her something sweet - and Cultural Adaptation should help to bridge the vast and yawning gap between her experience and Ember's. 

The Cure Moderate Wounds comes as a slight surprise, but she takes it as a message - Ember's wounded. Probably self-inflicted. Kumi will have to interrogate her about it. 

She's not really looking forward to this meeting, but it's deeply important. 

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The knock comes at her door. 

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Cultural Adaptation. 

She answers it. "Good morning."

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Ember stands on the other side of the door, favoring the opposite leg from yesterday. "What does it matter if the morning is good or not?"

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"Ignore it, then. If it doesn't serve a purpose to you."

She steps back from the door and ushers Ember in. 

"I wanted you whole," she says, in tones of reproach.

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Ember tsks. "It is only temporary damage. It will heal."

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She wants to offer to heal it with Cure Moderate Wounds, but she has an instinct that touching Ember will discomfit her. 

Instead she channels positive energy. It's the Nidalese way: do not ask, just do.

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Her steadying pain disappears. 

This woman is infuriating. She tries her best not to show her irritation.

"So," she says. "My designs."

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"Yes, your designs. Show me."

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Ember leans her cane against the chair next to her, and pulls off her rough pouch. Reaching into it, she produces a sheaf of papers.

"Here," she says.

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Kumi takes the sheaf of papers and leafs through them.

Most of the designs are simple and stark, abstract. Straight lines, easy to cut. They form patterns a little like the tracks of animals, or like waves. 

There is only one piece of representational art in the whole set; a feather, lovingly rendered in black ink. It's noted on the paper that the vanes are scarified, and the flats are tattooed, giving a raised appearance. 

Most of Ember's exposure to beauty would have been through simple, natural things. Nothing manufactured at all. And representational art is obvious. A simple pattern of cuts is more plausibly accidental. Just an incident of habit. Less likely to draw punishment. 

... These designs have deep potential. In Nidal a design like this could become representative of resistance. Of finding beauty even in the pain. Many Nidalese people are forced to ritually scarify. Giving that act meaning beyond mere suffering is a potent possibility. Double-edged, but any spark of hope... 

She looks up at Ember. 

"These are..." Not beautiful, she'll reject that. "Meaningful. They represent a kind of strength, do they not?"

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Ember smiles, showing her filed-down teeth. "Yes. They are. They mean - 'I will not break.'"

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Kumi pages through the sheaf of papers. 

The crows' feet design is striking, even to her. And the meaning... 

She needs to reach out.

Don't say she "would like to", don't bring preferences into it. This is going to hurt, but she's tough. It's only pain.

"I should bear one of these designs," she says. "This one, with the crossing lines. The meaning is appropriate."

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Ember's eyebrows leap. "I did not expect you to volunteer."

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"Some pains are genuinely worth suffering."

She's lost a little ground in the argument, but the rapport she gains over this will be worth it. And Ember's designs are genuinely beautiful, both in meaning and execution. She wants this. 

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"I have my knife with me. Shall I do it now?"

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"I don't see why not."

She goes over to one of her chairs and sits, then rolls up her right sleeve to expose her forearm. "Here," she says. "From the wrist to the elbow. I want to be able to see it."

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She nods, and pulls out her knife. Going over to the side of Kumi's chair, she kneels and makes ready for the work. 

The dull point of her knife traces along Kumi's skin.

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She inhales sharply at the cold touch of the metal, but does not draw her arm away. 

This is going to hurt.

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Ember positions the knife, and begins to carefully cut.

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It's not as bad as the whipping. That's about all that can be said for it. The dull point of the knife cuts a little raggedly, bringing bright, sharp pain to the fore all along her forearm.

She holds her position as best she can, but isn't able to prevent her breathing from becoming a bit laboured.

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Ember gives her a deep and genuine smile, full of very pointy teeth. 

She keeps cutting.

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Kumi grits her teeth, waits, and bleeds on her nice chair a little. 

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It takes a while to complete the design. There is much forearm to cover. 

But eventually, the work is done. 

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As Ember puts away her knife, Kumi casts Cure Moderate Wounds, and the damage heals into a neat pattern of cross-hatched silver scars. 

It's starkly beautiful. 

"Thank you," she says. "I consider it a gift."

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"It is nothing. It was good to see how you bear pain." Ember smiles. Her gaze lingers on Kumi's forearm.

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"So there is no debt between us, I will feed you for today." 

She gets up from her chair, takes the bowl of blackberries from her icebox, and casts Abstemiousness over them. 

"Eat these and you need not consume anything else today."

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Ember looks at the berries and raises an eyebrow, but takes one, puts it in her mouth, and bites down. 

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Got you.

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It's intensely sweet, and rich and filling and delicious. It doesn't hurt. 

She wants another one.

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Kumi looks at the expression on Ember's face, and extends the bowl. 

"Another?"

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She shouldn't. 

She absolutely shouldn't accept this poisoned gift. 

But all of a sudden all her strength seems to have left her. 

"No," she says softly.

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"The way the magic works, you must eat the whole handful to be fed for the day."

It's not even a lie.

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"... Alright."

She takes another. Rests it on her tongue. Bites. 

The juice floods her mouth with sweet, sticky richness once more. 

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Kumi is going to hold out this bowl until it is empty or Ember refuses more clearly.

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She eats, one berry at a time. She takes her time. 

The pleasure passes, eventually, as all pleasure must. 

She pushes the empty bowl away.

"There," she says, keeping her tone as businesslike as she can. "It's done."

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You can hide how much you enjoyed that from my priestess, but not from me

It must hurt terribly, denying yourself like this. Why do you do it?

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Kumi simply nods and puts the bowl away. 

"Your designs are good," she says. "They are beautiful. They bring me pleasure to look at. And I think they do the same for you, do they not?"

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She freezes. 

This woman - 

Her thoughts jumble together all at once.

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"It's alright," Kumi says. "To care about something is not a weakness. It is a strength. If you had not cared about these designs, would you have left? Would you be the woman you are? Your designs have given you a purpose, and that purpose has made you strong when others have failed and broken. You are strong because you have something you care about. More than pain. More than yourself, even. Something you have to do."

Kumi shows her freshly-scarred arm to Ember. 

"Let me help you accomplish it."

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... it is so, so tempting to believe. 

She thinks she half-believes it already. 

But this woman doesn't know her. Even if she bears her design. Even after the blackberries. Even after the leg. She doesn't understand her. 

She can't. No-one can. There's no such thing. 

She shakes her head. 

"... I need time to think," she says. 

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"May I keep your designs, for the moment? We can meet again tomorrow."

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"They are nothing. Keep them."

She picks up her cane and her supplies and goes to the door. 

"I will have more for you tomorrow."

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"I'm looking forward to seeing them then." 

Kumi gets the door for Ember.

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"Goodbye."

And she's gone.

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... she thinks that went well.

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A point to me. Your foremost cleric is permanently scarred now.

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Ow.

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Yeah, I thought you might say that. Shall I hurt them both more? Ember is so close to falling apart completely. I wonder how she will feel when she realizes that she's actually been the victim all her life.

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No, don't -

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Here, have a little nudge.

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Fuck you. 

I guess I can't counter that.

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Face it, I win.

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We'll see about that.

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As Ember walks on her way back to her room, she passes a man begging in the street. He's missing his right arm, and has a long, scraggly beard. He fixes her gaze with eyes full of deseperation.  

"Spare a little for a cripple," he calls to her. "Spare a little?"

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She goes past with hardly a glance.

Pathetic old man.

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"Will you not help?" he calls after her. "You're the same as me!"

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She doesn't even look back. 

She returns to her desk in her room, and she sketches.

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I can see her, Sunaira. 

She's troubled. Trying to process something. I don't know what it is.

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That'll be Zon-Kuthon's nudge. 

Let it be for now. She's strong.

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Alright. I trust you.

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She can't focus on her designs. They all come out looking like broken bones. Jagged, pointy. Snapped. 

The lack of a limp is obviously better. 

If her leg had been broken

She looks away from the thought.

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A crow flits past her window, cawing raucously.

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She startles, and puts a line right through her design. 

"Damn," she swears. 

She starts again.

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You're sure about this? She's having clear trouble processing.

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I'm sure.

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She sketches. The patterns come together slowly.

She can't seem to get off this theme of breaking. She sketches shattered glass, snapped branches. 

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I see where this is going. It's not a good place.

I trust you.

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Thank you.

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If her leg had been broken as a child, she simply would never have gotten it back. There were dozens of people like that, with bones that never set right. People she looked down on. People she spat on. They were weak.

The man with the missing arm that she didn't give anything to - could that have been her?

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She sets down her pencil.

If her hand had been crippled, could she have sketched? Could she have learned her trade? There were people crippled that way in Nidal, too.

Would she have found a way?

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No, you wouldn't have. 

You "escaped" because I wanted you to, not because of any "inner strength." See it. See how you've been broken again and again and made to like it. Doesn't it hurt so much? Isn't it awful? 

And it'll all happen again. You can't escape me. Suffering is eternal. 

Just give in. You're mine forever.

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She wouldn't have. 

She would have become every inch as pathetic as that man on the street. 

She's not so different from him. 

Every single one of the people she looked down on was someone just like her.

It feels like a kick in the chest. Her breathing hitches. Her hands tremble. 

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Oh, it's a joy to feel that searing pain.

He doesn't need her anymore, not after scarring Sunaria's high priestess with his marks. All she has to do is break and Good won't be able to adapt the designs enough to matter. More fools them if they try to distribute them outside Nidal. 

Not only that, it'll tear Kumi's heart out to have gotten so close and lost her. She's invested, now. Two birds with one stone.

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She's pathetic. She's awful. She's participated in maiming others, breaking them so that they don't ever recover. She's carved designs into flesh over and over and over. All because she was too weak to stop it.

She breathes out hard, goes to her bag and pulls out her knife.

The pain will recenter her. Only pain is real.

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I can't see her anymore - 

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I can.

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She bares her body again and starts to cut at her other thigh. 

She doesn't make a very good job of it. Her hands are unsteady. Her breath is catching in high rushy gasps.

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Is she okay?

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No. Zon-Kuthon has taught her that when she's "weak" she must be punished for it. 

But she's looking for control, and sacrificing her body for it, and so I can see her.

It's a dangerous situation. 

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The pain helps her focus a little. It has an accord with the hurt inside her. It feels right. 

Ember sets the knife carefully aside. 

She doesn't want to cause permanent damage.

She doesn't.

If she's pathetic all along, then it doesn't matter. She'll break in the end. She's breaking already.

She might as well just curl up in bed and cry.

She leaves the knife on the floor, hobbles to the bed, and flops down into the covers. She pulls them tightly around herself, pressing them in hard against her skin.

She sheds tears. 

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She stopped. She's seeking comfort.

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I want you to suffer more. More and more and more. You can die when I've squeezed all the juice out of you and not before.

I want to see you break. I've been putting it off for a while. 

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You're a heartless bastard.

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You're cute when you get defensive. I can see you hurting, too. 

She'll suffer and die and be mine forever.

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She cries, and stays in bed, and hides. Her blood stains the sheets. 

She hasn't bandaged herself. 

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She'll bleed out eventually.

You'll miss her, won't you?

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No, I won't. Because she's going to live.

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And how do you suppose that'll happen?

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Because my cleric is about to do a wellness check. 

You told her Ember self-harms.

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Kumi knocks on Ember's door. 

"Ember?"

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Ember will stab herself before she lets someone see her in this state.

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Liar.

She doesn't want to die that badly. You taught her it was better to stay alive and suffer.

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She can't school her voice still. 

"K-Kumi?"

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"I was looking at some of your designs and I wanted to talk to you about them, can you come to the door?"

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"I - I'm busy." 

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"Ember. I know what you're doing to yourself. You miss your lame leg, don't you?"

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"I said I'm busy.

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"I'm not going away until I see you at the door again." 

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Ember swears under her breath. 

She gets out of bed, throws on her clothes, staggers to the door and opens it schooling her face as still as she can. 

"Fine," she says. "You've seen me. Now go."

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There is an obvious bloodstain on Ember's skirt by the thigh and she looks haggard as fuck. 

She channels energy. 

"Why do you hurt yourself like this?"

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She grits her teeth, sharp pain flooding her mouth. "It is none of your business."

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"I think it is my business, actually, when my work partner insists on laming herself and damaging her body." 

She crosses her arms. "You've been crying, I can see your eyes are red. I say this not to say you're weak but to offer to help. There are better ways of healing than hurting yourself more."

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There's no such thing as healing.

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And that is where you are wrong, and why I win this one. 

You wanted her to fall apart? That's step one in putting yourself back together. 

You've spent budget on things I wanted. You fell for an obvious bait because you couldn't help but want to hurt me and her and Kumi. 

You lose.

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Kumi offers her hand to Ember. 

"You've been suffering all your life. Isn't it time it stopped?"

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She stares at the hand. 

After a long, long moment, she takes it.

She steps back from the doorway, and lets Kumi see the bloody knife on the floor, the bloodstained bedsheets. 

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"I knew it."

Kumi squeezes Ember's hand once, reassuringly. 

"Do you want to tell me about it?"

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"No."

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"Do it anyway."

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"... Alright."

She lets go Kumi's hand, and goes and sits on the bloodstained bed.

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Kumi comes and sits next to her. 

"Kon-Zuthon doesn't believe in suffering that builds you up. He just wants people to hurt. Whatever you've learnt, it's because of a god who wants you, personally, to be damaged and weakened and lose your capacities and ultimately die, so that those who cared about you then suffer the pain of grief."

Kumi looks Ember in the eyes. 

"You're playing into the hands of someone who wants to break you every time you take that knife to yourself, Ember. So why do you do it? There must be a reason."

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It's hard to say it. 

"... Pain is real," she says. "And it - feels right? It clarifies me. It gives me something to focus on. It's intense."

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"They say that in Nidal. Pain is the only real and eternal thing. I think they are wrong; pain comes and goes like many other things. The Kuthites teach that suffering is life, and they have control of the country, so they infict much pain. But even despite their hold, beauty endures. It cannot be killed either. You found the inspiration to make your designs, to mark yourself in a way you found striking, to escape and do something else other than suffer. And that puts the lie to the idea that pain is the only eternal thing, if you can find beauty even in a land where everything is deliberately ugly and stark and bleak."

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"It - fills me up, it drives all the thoughts out of my head. It shuts up my doubts. It's overwhelming in a way few things are."

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"And pleasure does not do the same thing?"

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"I -"

She pauses. 

The berries... 

"Until today I had never encountered pleasure intense enough to make my mind shut up."

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"That's because you shun it. You've been taught it can't be as bright as pain, that it's inherently inferior. But that is wrong. It is a bald-faced lie told by Zon-Kuthon to ensure that all his victims suffer more and have less relief."

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"It seems the truth to me."

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Ah. So she does not have a sex life. That won't be a fruitful avenue, but there are other kinds of bright sensation.

"Has anyone ever played with your hair before?"

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"... Why would I want that?" 

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"So no."

She raises a hand. 

"May I demonstrate why that has not happened for you?"

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She bites on her back teeth. 

... She is strong. 

She can endure it, whatever it is. 

"... You may."

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Kumi slowly lays her hand on the side of Ember's head. 

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She freezes.

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Kumi strokes her scalp very gently, letting her scarlet hair run through her hand. 

Stroke, stroke, stroke, stroke, stroke.

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... She's never been touched so gently.

It feels good.

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Kumi traces a finger around Ember's ear, and then slips her fingers deeper into her hair, taking long, smooth strokes. Her other hand comes up and joins in the petting.

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She feels warm, and embarrassed, and a little floaty... 

It fills up so much space. So much of her mind is just occupied with the simple, smooth motions. 

... she feels vulnerable.

She forces herself to stay.

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Kumi strokes and massages all along Ember's scalp. Soft and sweet. No scratches; she doesn't want to muddle the message. Just very gentle pets. 

A small smile comes to her lips.

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Ember closes her eyes, focusing on the sensation. She's too weak to do anything else. 

It feels soft and bright and steady and beautiful. 

It makes her want to curl up and rest under soft covers. 

She's never been so weak, and yet it doesn't hurt. 

It doesn't hurt hardly at all.

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This poor woman clearly hasn't had any form of real intimacy for years. 

She will stroke and touch and pet her for as long as she needs.

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She falls into it a little. 

It's so bright

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And it's going to last so long. As long as she needs to make it feel real.

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Eventually Ember finds herself leaning a little against Kumi. She doesn't remember making the decision to do that. She wouldn't have chosen to do that. It just sort of... happened. 

She pulls away as soon as she realizes it.

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Kumi smiles sadly at her. "Too much touch?"

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"... Yes."

She runs a hand through her own hair. 

It's not the same. 

"... Everyone outside Nidal gets to have that?"

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"Yes, and brighter things still. You remember the blackberries. The garden. Everything you would dismiss as fripperies. They exist to bring pleasure, of one kind or another. It is each and every bit as deep as pain."

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... 

She's been decieved, all along. 

The evidence is inescapable. 

She closes her eyes and takes slow breaths.

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Kumi very slowly reaches out, not quite touching her. 

"May I continue?"

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She nods just the barest amount.

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Then she can have more soft scalp massage.

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She cries, eventually. 

It's not awful though. It feels like cutting her skin. It feels like a release. 

The hurt passes, and the pleasure remains. 

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Poor, poor woman.

She's safe now, though. 

She'll make sure of it.

"I'd like to stay with you," she says. "Help with your designs. I'm no good at sketching but I can tell you what I think of them. Or you can rest in the bed, and I'll stroke your hair some more."

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She takes a breath.

"The second thing."

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"Brave. Alright. Lay down."

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She does. The bed is soft. The sheets are soft. 

She pulls them up to her chin.

She hasn't let anyone see her this vulnerable since she was a child.

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Kumi sits next to her on the bed, and gently pets her hair.

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She closes her eyes, and eventually she falls asleep.

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Now is probably the most dangerous time. Zon-Kuthon knows he's losing, and he's an utter bastard. She'll be needed to make sure nothing happens. 

She picks up the bloodied knife, slips it into her robes, and sits vigil.

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Your move.

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He's spent down his resources, and is already fighting on the home front in Nidal. Milani and Cayden are continuing to keep most of his attention occupied. 

He can't afford to stop it.

You bitch.

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Got you.

She laughs, just a little.

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No-one disturbs her in the night. She sends a message via the innkeeper and has one of her flock stand vigil outside the door while she sleeps herself.

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Yeah, she expected that.

They're in the middle of Absalom. It's unlikely there'll be an attempt on Ember's life. But there's no reason not to prepare.

She shakes Ember awake gently.

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She startles, but then seems to recognize where she is.

"- What's happening?"

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"I'm going to be taking you to the temple of Iomedae, just in case. There are more powerful clerics and paladins there who'll be able to protect you from reprisals by the Kuthites. We'll be moving in a group; I've brought the worshippers I have on hand."

She gives Ember a small smile, and offers her her hand. 

"Together?"

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She takes it.

"Together."

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They leave the room, hand in hand.

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There's a man in full plate mail and a helmet outside the door. 

The symbol of Iomedae is stamped into his armor. 

"Priestess." He nods. "I'm here to escort Ms. Scar to Iomedae's temple. Your worshippers went and fetched me while you were asleep. My name is Marit."

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"I will be accompanying her the whole way, if you do not mind."

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"Of course."

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She looks over at the worshipper she called to take second watch. "You recognize this man?"

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"I do. I got him myself. I don't think I'm under any charms or compulsions either."

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"It's the best I can do under short notice. Let's go." 

She squeezes Ember's hand.

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Ember smiles wide. 

"Now this," she says, "I understand."

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They walk through the city with the paladin at their side. A cordon of a half-dozen worshippers escorts them, keeping space between Ember and the crowd.

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The precautions are adequate.

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The priest of Shelyn they know is waiting for them.

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So is Pen. 

"I hear you have some things for me to publish," he says with a small smile. 

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Ember smiles. 

"I do."

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She hands over one of the designs she has to Pen, one to Marit, one to the priest of Shelyn, and keeps the rest for herself. 

"Here," she says. "It's best these are distributed so there's more of us to carry on the work if need be. I have notes on the common factors and the implications as well, in triplicate. I didn't know how many copies I needed to make." She hands over a set of notes to Pen and to the priest of Shelyn as well. 

She looks at Ember. "Ember, you've already won. Your designs will be published in Nidal. But the more information you can share with all of us, the better."

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Pen takes the notes and immediately begins transcribing them to shorthand on a small pad as they walk towards the meeting room. 

"Simon, you should go put your design and notes copy into Shelyn's archives immediately. It'll do more good the more people see it." 

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The priest of Shelyn nods. "If I'm not back in an hour assume I've been waylaid."

He departs.

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Ember nods. It's practical. 

"So," she says to Pen. "Read the notes and I will supplement them."

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This is church business. Real church business, that can really change many people's lives. 

To think that a month ago her biggest worry was that some client would turn out to be abusive...

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The paladin stays close and watchful.

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Pen reads, and asks clarifying questions. His pen stays busy. 

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Ember replies, short and curt.

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Nothing bad happens. 

She just squeezes Ember's hand and keeps her talking.

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They find a space in a meeting hall, and Pen takes even more copious notes.

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Kumi chimes in with some small things she's noticed as well, and gives her own perspective on Ember's work. 

(She thinks it's beautiful.)

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Ember smiles at her across the table. It is hard to hear the compliment, but - now she recognizes it as what it is.

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All throughout, they're guarded by the stoic Marit. 

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Eventually the priest of Shelyn returns, unharmed. 

He has many questions about Ember's design work and how she learned to sketch. He suggests small adjustments. But mostly he learns.

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Ember seems to find a connection with him. She's never had anyone else care about her work like this. 

She is happy to provide all the details that everyone asks for.

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And very eventually, the meeting breaks up. 

"What will you do now?", Kumi asks. 

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"I think I will go to the temple of Shelyn and learn more about artistry and beauty." She smiles slightly. "Simon has very interesting ideas on shading methods in tattoo ink."

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"Good luck to you, then." 

She squeezes Ember's hand one last time. 

"You can always return to me if you want to learn more from the Lady of Blackberries."

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"I may do so. But for now, I want to learn about other arts."

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And off they go, on to their separate lives, each a little changed for the meeting.

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Say Milani, I got you a present.~

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A whole new form of protest art for Nidal? What a wonderful gift.

I'll put it to good use.

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Mwa.

Give Zon-Kuthon my regards.

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I think he knows already.

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Kumi gets her third cleric circle the next morning. 

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Finally, she gets to send an actual representative. 

Here is Planar Inquiry for your first third-circle spell.

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Well that's a clear instruction. 

She's really looking forward to this. She doesn't know the Lady of the Blackberries' name, or her actual story, or what she's like as a goddess beyond her own guesses. She knows none of her history, or even her alignment for sure. She assumes a lot. She knows little. 

What would be appropriate as an offering...?

She goes and purchases a selection of massage oils, perfume, berries, nice candles, and small artistic offerings, then tops it all off with a modified sparker box. The sparker alone ought to be a strong enough offering to get a significant servant from the Lady, someone who'll know something.

She goes back to her small apartment, lays out the candles in a small circle. She sets out the berries in small bowls, and uncorks the massage oil and perfume and sets their glass bottles next to the circle. 

She lights the candles with the sparker box, then lays the sparker in the center of the circle. The scent of honey, blackberries and cinnamon fills the room. 

There.

She prays, and lets the magic do its work. 

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A purple-skinned woman with horns and pointed ears appears in the circle. There are tendrils hanging from her cheeks, and each of her legs is digitigrade and ends in a cloven hoof. 

She's wearing a long red dress with a deep V neckline, with a ruby-and-gold pendant settled between her breasts. 

She has the kind of cheekbones you can only get by magic, and a soft, meditative expression.

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She's never seen a person who looks like that before. 

The horns and hooves are surprising, and look a little demonic or perhaps fae - but the overall impression is very put-together and calm. The purple skin is weird. The silver hair is par for the course with angels. 

What manner of creature is this...?

"Hello?", she says tentatively. 

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"Hello," says the woman in the circle. She reaches down, picks up a bottle of perfume, scents it. She smiles slightly, the kind of smile that you practice in front of a mirror until you get it just right. 

"You have questions?"

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She had a list prepared, but the surprise of getting someone who looks like this has knocked them out of her head. 

"What's your name? Who's the goddess you serve?"

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"Ishaza. I serve the goddess Sunaira."  

She can't answer questions that Kumi does not ask. Such is the game of the gods.

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"Is the goddess Sunaira the same goddess I call the Lady of Blackberries?"

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"To the best of my knowledge, yes."

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"Why does she use the symbol of a blackberry?"

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"On the plane Sunaira administrates, there are three layers - the Rose Bowers, the Blackberry Gardens, and the Gates of Night. The Blackberry Gardens are where anything good and pleasurable can be done without worry, without restraint, freely as you wish. To mark individuals as belonging to that layer, to say that they have accepted the chance of surprises in a world without unwanted suffering, Sunaira marks them with a blackberry stamp on their right wrist. She chooses this to represent that they have eaten of something tempting, and come away with juice on their lips, so to speak." 

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That is a lot more information than she expected. Sunaira has her own afterlife plane?

"Sunaira has her own plane?"

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"Yes, she does."

She's wasting spell-time on confirmation, but Ishaza can't say that.

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"What is the name of this plane?"

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"It is called the Rose Bowers, the name of its first layer."

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"What is the Rose Bowers like?"

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A nice, open-ended question. 

"It is a place where the law is simple - do you agree to do it? Does it harm anyone? If all agree and it harms none, then you may. It is a world of sexuality, hospitality, and measured freedom. It is a world, of its own - as rich and full and varied as the material plane, but curated such that only good comes of all things. It grows, flourishes, and builds. All who go there long return a little changed, a little more themselves. Once Sunaria allowed anyone to come and go as they pleased, subject to a small charge; but thanks to the work of other gods, now the rules are different. It is meant to be for everyone to indulge in whatsoever they find pleasurable and good, for as long as they wish."

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It sounds a lot like Elysium, only perhaps more structured. 

"What domains does Sunaria rule over?"

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"Originally, none, in a world with different gods and different rules. But now she has taken up Pleasure, Love, Sacrifice, and Kinks."

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"Pleasure, love and sacrifice are clear enough to me, but what is kinks?"

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"Kinks are - sexual preoccupations. Activities that cause sexual pleasure for one person but not another. For example, this striker box -" 

She picks it up and sparks it. "If I were to find being burnt by a sparker box arousing, you could say I had a kink for pain. Pain arouses me. Sunaira's way of seeing the world has many specific words for different things that cause arousal in some."

She knows many of those words - masochism, sadism, dominance, submission, bondage, discipline, not to mention very specialized vocabulary such as pleat and alertion - but it would go against the god-pact for her to share any specifics. Sometimes a concept itself is enough to be dangerous to transmit. 

This is a world without the social technology of kink and consent, even if Kumi is learning fast; she can only hope to nudge and help her rederive it on her own. 

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"I see. Can you share some of those words with me?"

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"I cannot. It is like with Abadar and Axis. There are things too Good to be allowed to be known on the Material."

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... That's actually a really reassuring thing to hear, as a cleric of a good goddess. It's sad, in its way, but the idea of goodness beyond her reach is deeply valuable.

She needs to pause for a moment to consider her next question.

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Ishaza waits. Every second is gone forever, but she has no other actions permitted to her.

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"What does Sunaira preach? What are her tenets?"

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"Be kind, first and foremost. Embrace sexuality and sexual variety. Find your own way of expressing yourself both in and out of bed. Honor agreements and promises, but be willing to give of yourself if it is the compassionate thing to do. Offer yourself up to willing restriction and the joy that comes from having roles you love. Discard roles that bring you no joy. Be honest with those who rely on you socially. Speak earnestly, from the heart. Find intimacy and commitment with others. There is more, but I was never her priestess."

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"I was under the impression that Sunaira valued freedom. Does she?"

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Kumi's asking about consent, though she doesn't know it. Ishaza can't use that word though. 

"It is more accurate to say that she values non-coercion. She believes in people being able to make sacrifices in ways that make them more Good, such as the way that paladins of Iomedae take oaths - but it is deeply important to her that the people who take those duties do it knowingly and of their own choice."

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"Does she care particularly about whores in some way? Why might I have been chosen as her priestess?"

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"I don't know your situation, but taking a guess, it would be because you are a whore who is treated well, enjoys her job, embraces her sexuality, is kind to those she meets, has a depth of sexual experience and knowledge that lends well to kink, and accepts the sacrifices she has to make for her job. Someone like that would have more knowledge of who Sunaira is than any other kind of person."

Ishaza folds her hands together. "Sex workers are special to Sunaira because they work in a very intimate capacity but are also often deeply mistreated by the people around them. Thus they are doubly knowledgeable about her domains and part of them."

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She talked to Pen a little before this for interview tips. He seemed the person who would know. 

"What question are you hoping I would ask?"

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Good question. Unfortunately she's quite restricted here.

Still, there is one question.

"Where does Sunaira come from?"

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"Where does Sunaira come from?"

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"Originally, there was a goddess from another world not unlike this one. There she played the games of the gods, as they are ever played. They called her the Lady of Embers. She was the goddess of flame and beauty and the kindling of the self."

Ishaza twines her hands together. "Eventually, there was an irregularity in her game. A mortal arrived from outside her cosmos. They had invented a device that let them Plane Shift over greater distances than normal. They allied with her, and showed her many things that were wondrous even to her."

"The goddess fell in love. She wanted to use the wonders she had been shown to create a new world that was all her own. So she gave to the mortal a spark of herself, a seed - and bid her to nurture it in another world, where it would have the freedom to grow where the other gods could not go." 

Ishaza smiles. "I have to skip a bit, here. But the daughter-Goddess, Sunaira, grew great and strong in worlds that were safe and ripe for a deity of their own, where no other goddess had ever gone. She learned the temptations of the flesh from mortals, because she was shaped like them and had no restriction from being with them every day. She had a thousand thousand of herself and devoted them all to good works and pleasure and intimacy. There were still difficulties, but she had strong allies and little competition."

"Eventually she returned to the world of her mother and claimed it for herself, as she was far stronger than any other deity there. She made the Rose Bowers of it, a paradise and a remembrance. And she continued to explore and transform the worlds."

"Eventually, she found a world where there were powerful evil gods. Her mother-goddess threw herself into the conflict, and was ultimately destroyed. But Sunaira learned, and grew, and fought. And for five centuries she battled back the evil gods with her allies by her side. She made her people ageless, strong, possessed of even more wonders than they had before. But she always took some time for pleasure and intimacy, even when the campaign was at its worst. Her lovers had comforted her when she had lost her mother."

"Not so long ago, the evil gods she was fighting played a trick on her. They forced her back into her own domain, then threw it far, far, far across the worlds, away from everything she had ever known. And there she found a world that reminded her of her mother's, and fell in love all over again."

"She has faith in her allies. She believes they will win without her. For now, she is here to heal this world that reminds her so much of her mother's, for what was once lost."

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There's not much time left in the spell. 

"Thank you."

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Ishaza picks up the sparker. 

"Be well."

And she disappears, along with all the offerings.

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Kumi writes it all down, as best as she remembers it. 

... offer yourself up to willing restriction, huh...?

She has an idea. It might be very foolish, but - 

She goes and talks to a friend of a friend.

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Caprice is a fifth-circle wizard associated with the church of Cayden Cailean, and as such, doesn't have a lot of time on her hands. Most of her time is spent adventuring and supporting combatants in the field. 

However, today she's on holiday in Absalom. She has a heavy purse of gold with her and is taking a load off. She still does a little casting on the side, maintaining Mage's Private Sanctums for the church and making permanent Dancing Lights for nobles' residences to raise money for charitable causes - but mostly she's resting. 

She knows Pen casually through his newspaper, and when he came to her with a representative of the Lady of the Blackberries and asked her to meet at the Church of Shelyn's temple, she was happy to listen. The idea felt wrong at first, but the more it was explained to her the more good she felt about it. It feels like she's getting one over on someone.

"You have the name?", she asks Kumi in a quiet chamber in the Church of Shelyn's basement. 

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"Yes, but it's vital you not share it with anyone else."

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"Of course."

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"It's Ishaza."

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She casts Lesser Planar Binding with Ishaza's name. 

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Oh hello, someone is trying to force her into servitude. 

She fails her will save deliberately.

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The promised goat-horned woman with purple skin appears in her circle. 

"Okay," she says, as forcefully as she can. "I want you to instruct the temple of Shelyn as much about sexuality and Sunaira's catchesism as you can within the duration of this spell."

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She has to resist that. It's a spell for compelling service, not for summoning allies.

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Yes, yes, the rules say she has to fight. But she can fight to lose.

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She grins.

"Make me."

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Caprice throws the weight of her soul against Ishaza's in a blunt, no-nonsense contest of wills.

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She pushes back precisely as much as the contract of the gods requires her to, and no more.

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It's not actually an easy win. She is a fifth-circle wizard with her highest score as intelligence. Ishaza is a minor outsider, but she's almost entirely built towards passing opposed Charisma checks, and she is resisting. 

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It wouldn't mean anything if it wasn't a real contest.

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Ishaza: (1d20 +4 (Cha) ) = 9

Caprice: (1d20 +2 (Cha) +6 (Deal) ) = 22

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Ishaza is overmastered and brought to heel.

"Fine," she grits out. "I'll do it."

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"Wonderful."

She feels the binding settle.

"Go teach." 

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She gets another chance to break free because that's such a loose command.

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She deliberately fails her will save again.

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"How's the binding? Not too restrictive, I hope."

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It's relevant to her orders to answer this question. She's supposed to be teaching about bondage, after all. 

"There's enough play in it that I can answer that question with some creative interpretation."

She can't straightforwardly say "well done", when she tries, but she's supposed to be teaching Sunaira's catechism so she can make statements about her opinions. "Sunaira would be proud."

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"Are you comfortable?"

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"Yes. That's very important to ask, you're doing well already."

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"Have you done things like this before? Is this common for Sunaira?"

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"Yes, I have. It's a kink thing. Sunaira loves willing restriction, so this kind of scene is common for her."

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"Being resistricted in ways you want is a kink thing, then. And being hurt or hurting others in ways both parties like is a kink thing too. Are those fundamental somehow?"

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"Do you still need me?"

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"Only in the sense that I feel more comfortable with a fifth-circle wizard present."

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"Sorry, but I'm leaving then. I'm on vacation."

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"Thank you for your help."

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"I hope it's worth it. Good luck!"

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Kumi nods, then turns back to Ishaza as Caprice departs. 

"So as I was saying...?"

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"Yes, suffering pain and restriction in ways you enjoy are somewhat central to a certain conception of kink as an activity. Sunaira in particular enjoys them because they hook well into her domain of sacrifice."

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"Can you tell me what that conception is?"

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"No." She still has to derive it herself.

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"We'll come back to that, then. What kinds of things can be kinks? Do they all have to involve sacrifice?"

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"No, anything can be a kink. It's just something that some people find arousing that most people don't."

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"I see..." 

Kumi gets out her notepad. 

"Teach me, please."

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Ishaza nods, and begins.

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Ishaza still has to talk sideways around some things, but with hours of interaction Kumi can feel out the boundaries of what she's allowed to talk about and what she isn't.

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She can still stress basic, common-sense things, like the importance of good communication. 

Kumi's independently invented sadism and masochism, so Ishaza's able to give her her words for those two things once she develops the ideas more. Bondage and discipline are harder to derive; Kumi seems to think they're all one thing, which in a sense they are. Kumi settles for calling them both "Restriction", and they move on from there using that as a stand-in. It's not actually important to rederive exactly BDSM. 

Consent is hard to express as a unique concept separate from basic common-sense knowledge, especially when she can't mark it as important by giving it its own word or specifically discussing agreeing to things beforehand. It's like watching Kumi trying to discover the concept of human rights from a bunch of court rulings. It's not trivial, even with Ishaza nudging her in roughly the right direction.

In a real sense, Ishaza is playing a very old subgame here. There's a whole set of rules about what summoned representatives can and can't say about technology to prevent every iteration of the game being played from immediately devolving into the most advanced world in all pharasma's creation. Gozreh would mutiny - that's giving the game to Abadar - but Abadar and the other gods nonetheless want to be able to inspire inventions. However, no god wants every god to be able to send a dozen innovations that build their strategy. What an individual deity's representative can do is thus subject to a game of implication and insinuation from ostensibly general advice. The more the mortals have to work for it, the more can be transmitted... but it's a laborious process, and slow.

Eventually Kumi has to go sleep. Ishaza doesn't need to, so instead she talks to Shelyn's church. 

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Meanwhile... 

Shelyn, do you have a spare moment?

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Yes, I do. What can I help you with?

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We need to talk about the situation with mortal babies. Why are there so many of them and why do most of them die? I've been informed from the contract of creation that the GM hates it when that happens. So why does it keep happening? 

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Zon-Kuthon has the Loss domain and draws a huge amount of power from infant mortality. He's also one of the primary contributors to sealing Rovagug. If he stops powering the Star Towers then it's war with the Rough Beast all over again, and maybe this time we lose. So any attempt to prevent babies from dying gets vetoed by him.

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So the whole table is being held hostage by one problem player?

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No, Gozreh also supports it because it's "more natural" and because he doesn't want a boom in the human population. 

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Shouldn't Pharasma have just kicked both of them? She's the GM?

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Not with Rovagug there as a potential issue.

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I see. He's that powerful, huh?

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Pretty much.

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Okay, that might explain why so many babies die, but why hasn't reliable birth control been introduced? Why isn't reversible sterilization a cleric orison?

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That's a thornier issue. Lamashtu is the main player against, because her "mother of monsters" domain extends to all unwanted children, but not so strongly so that a coalition couldn't compensate her, maybe with a forced fertility orison... it's just that that is equivalent to anteing the fertility of every mortal as a chip in the game.

That maybe wins us Osirion, but it means Asmodeus gets to only give children to loyal supporters of his regime, and Lamashtu and Zon-Kuthon get to force people to bear more babies they don't want. It doesn't even fix the child mortality problem.

It's much more of a questionable investment than fixing child mortality.

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Does Lamashtu have the power to release Rovagug too?

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According to the play contract, yes.

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But she isn't directly involved in the Dead Vault?

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She is not.

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Isn't Pharasma the one who enforces the game contract? 

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Come to think of it, yes.

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So why hasn't she kicked Lamashtu over being so obstructionist on this?

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You know, that's a really good question.

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Hey Pharasma, why haven't you kicked Lamashtu over being obstructionist on birth control?

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You know how many wandering monster encounters she contributes to the game? Someone's got to play them. She takes off a huge GM load. Enough that I'm not going to just kick her. If you want to introduce birth control to the game I'm all for it, but play the game, not me. Negotiate IC, don't start drama. I'm just a referee.

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("Neutral Referee." Yeah, right. Slimeball.)

Alright, fine. I'll think about it.

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Hey Iomedae, you're better at this min-maxing thing than I am. Is introducing birth control to Golarion worth it in souls saved?

I know we lose a lot of women to the lower planes over abortions and infanticide, and lot of people in general over abusive relationships they're stuck with. A lot of suffering also happens on the Material due to gender relations issues, particularly in Osirion, and that feeds multiple Evil deities power - Zon-Kuthon and Asmodeus with a side of Norgorber. And that's without getting into the softer effects of it. 

Is it worth the cost?

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Yes alone, but consider the knock-on effects. You would have to compensate Lamashtu with souls to get it past her. It would cause societal upheaval; those predictably damn many people in their pursuit. Galt is an instructive example. And then there are the inevitable reactions from Urthagoa and Asmodeus.

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So in the full reckoning...?

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It's probably not worth it. Otherwise I would be doing it already. 

I'm sorry.

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That was not the response she was hoping for, not from a player as dedicated and serious as Iomedae. 

Still, if she's being thorough, she should get the whole team's opinions on this one. 

Hey Milani, what's your opinion on introducing birth control to Golarion? 

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Trying to bribe Pharasma about something, are we?

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I mean it's clear she'd support it. But seriously, it would massively reduce the number of women who go to the lower planes due to abortion, generally reduce suffering, and probably do a lot of good for Osirion. Multiple neutral gods would be in favour. Even Lamashtu, the major opposition, is potentially bribable. 

The issue is, Iomedae and Shelyn seem to think it wouldn't be worth it. What would you say to that?

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What did Iomedae say precisely?

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"Probably not worth it."

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She fits a lot of assumptions in that "probably." You must remember that she's a lawful good goddess and so she assigns higher costs to upheaval and social change than most people. 

Did she give me shit about Galt? I bet she gave me shit about Galt. 

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She gave you shit about Galt. 

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I knew it. 

In any case, the thing is that in cases where new ideals come forward there is a higher variability. You get more of a bimodal distribution of outcomes than a bell curve. And Iomedae is quite risk-averse: she likes sure bets when she can get them. She doesn't gamble with people's lives when she can help it.

What's your plan for bribing Lamashtu?

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The idea is some kind of fecundity spell.

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That's a bad plan. Commit forces to attacking her rivals in evil instead. Urgathoa and Pazuzu both have beef with her; I recommend you make an under-the-table deal against both of them as part of your bribe, since they have Excess and Temptation respectively and will both be pains in your side with this strategy anyway. Iomedae won't have considered that option, she's shaped herself too honorably.

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That... would clearly help in multiple ways. What can we do about making it a clean transition so fewer people are damned?

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I'm not even going to pretend to have advice that works there. It's chaotic by nature, too many people are involved.

It would be a gamble. If you win it, you win Osirion and a lot of long-term payoff potential, at some large finite cost in souls. Having a more Good Osirion puts the evil gods on the back foot - Cheliax gets a good portion of its grain from there - and also reduces the number of souls who go to Hell as a result of Lawful alignment.

I'd be willing to risk it.

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Thanks for the advice. Is there anyone else I should talk to about this?

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I have more advice first.

Pharasma likes to play neutral, but I bet you could get her to rule that responsibly using birth control is slightly Good. Abortion is Evil, it stands to reason taking steps to avoid it is Good. That then could go on to tip narrow cases. It's a tiny little thing, not enough to piss off anyone, and lets her pretend neutrality, but it'll add up over enough cases. 

Calistria will be so in favor of this it isn't even funny. Take some of your bribe for Lamashtu out of her. You have her over a barrel here, she'll never be able to get together a respectable coalition for this on her own given her track record of instability and double-dealing. It's only right that she should pay her fair share. 

I'll back you on this. Cayden will too. Talk to Kofusachi about it. Talk to Erastil. If you can convince Erastil you've got a case then I think you'll almost certainly have a good shot of making this work. 

Good luck.

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Thank you. I'll talk to Kofusachi next, then.

 

Hey, Kofusachi, I don't think we've met? I didn't factor you in originally since I'm focusing my play on the Inner Sea region, but Milani said you would have advice on introducing birth control to Golarion?

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Typical, always typical! You play in one region and you get narrow, you think it's the only region that will be impacted by your deals. 

Still. How do you want to introduce birth control? 

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A cleric orison for reversible sterilization, ideally.

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Let me see, let me see...

It will probably loosen Yazhing's hold on Kaoling. I can't see any way Fumeiyoshi or General Susumu would take advantage of it. I think Lao Shu Po is the largest issue since she will use the opportunities for seduction and blackmail. But it is still a small impact. Lady Lang Loi will use it a little, but that's the cost of doing business - she's not on our level.

Daikitsu will support it since it makes sex workers' lives less unpleasant. Qi Zhong will support it because it's a magical medical breakthrough. I'll support it because it'll help everyone out with having more sex. 

Nalinivati might oppose a little, but I can talk her around given that it's reversible. You should really talk to Qi Zhong, this kind of work is exactly what he's best at. 

Incidentally, did you think you were the only deity of pleasure on this world?

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No, I thought there was also Calistria and Shelyn. I've never spoken to Qi Zhong before either, or any of the Tian Xia players besides you.

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Ha! That's a laugh. I would be grinning right now if I had a body to grin with. Yes, I'm the major established player for this domain. We should share notes. I mostly play in Tian Xia because it is somewhat more stable and thus easier to implement new good ideas in, but if you're taking that role for Avistan and Garund I don't mind at all. Many hands makes the work light! 

Incidentally, I would love to see what you're doing with your divine domain. Do you mind if I stop over and take a look around?

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Please, feel free. Anything to help a fellow player who appreciates the finer things in life. 

 - Oh, one second. I was about to transfer you all my notes, but consulting the contract it says you hold Discovery among your domains. That must be why you want to come over. 

Well, why not? I've always said there's no substitute for direct experience.

 

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Let's take a moment and learn together, shall we?

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Yes, let's.

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The nice thing about the god-contract is that the majority of all deities' power is conserved under normal circumstances. 

This means there are a lot of spare resources to spend on other things the deities find worthwhile within their own planar domains. 

This is presently being abused to the hilt by Sunaira and Kofusachi to have a truly staggering amount of interaction in the portions of themselves that are bound not to interact with creation directly. 

This Sunaira and this Kofusachi will go on only a little changed. A relationship on Golarion is a resource that must be deliberately developed "at the table", according to the god-contract. But within moments there is also a world where Kofusachi and Sunaira have had a full, deep, and abiding relationship, taking advantage of temporal compression and an incredible degree of multithreaded processing. 

That relationship is not actually well-describable in human terms. It's too deep. In a real sense it is the history of its own entire universe, governed not by physics as we know it but by the interplay of passion between two deities whose whole beings are devoted to finding new and exotic ways to enjoy themselves. 

Imagine all the good relationships in the history of earth; consider the variation of social roles, of interests, of cultural circumstances, of familiarity with various skills and pieces of knowledge, of personality in all its forms. Now, without taking away a shred of that variation, imagine that every single one of those romances was between the same two-ish people, each with as many bodies as they wanted, such that the sum total of the history of earth was expressed as shared moments. Imagine the depth and richness of care from millenias of experience, the in-jokes, the situations set up just to get a laugh or a smile. Imagine how far you'd move the world if you could for someone you truly cared about. 

Now imagine them both in a simulated environment they coded themselves to their exact specifications, with incredible dev tools, and that building the sim is also part of the fun. 

You could deeply study a whole branch of philosophy and still not get very far on what exactly's going on here. 

Some rules of thumb: 

- If it's less fun than a healthy sex life, you're doing it wrong.

- If it's less fun than playing on your own modded Minecraft server, you're doing it wrong.

- If it's less fun than learning an art or science that you're passionate about, you're doing it wrong. 

- If it's less fun than a life that incorporates all of the above, you're doing it wrong. 

Even if you're just building their love-world from the components of a human life, you can look at what's out there. Taking photographs of public art. Identifying snowy owls from their calls. Reading Omegaverse porn novels from AO3. Hunting stags. Tibetan throat singing. Circumnavigating the world on a one-person boat. Walking up a mountain to the rotating restaurant at the top, then taking the gondola back down. Learning how to identify twinning in rocks. Collecting bottle caps. 

They're not perfect at having fun, any more than you or I would be. But they've got a lot more tools than we do, and a lot more space to explore. That's the joy of being deities in their own realm.

All that said, this Sunaira and this Kofusachi have to spend real resources when they take a little time away from the board to fuck. 

They do it anyway. Some things are just obviously worth it; it's only a sliver of power to have a minimal-bandwidth interaction, and you learn so much about your allies from sleeping with them. It's really pretty efficient for the potential upside.

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Now, I could write a whole thread about Sunaira and Kofusachi's first time on Golarion; but we have limited space, and I don't feel I could really do it justice. 

But for those at home who want something to imagine, even if it's deeply flawed and not really at all like the real thing:

Consider a wandering monk (Kofusachi) who accidentally heavily offends a witch by coming on to her (Sunaira), so she curses him to turn to animate chocolate and sics her pet land-jellyfish (also Sunaira) on him. After a harrowing near-escape, he's caught by the beastie, which paralyzes him and slowly starts to digest him. It hurts, but in a good way. 

As he begins to succumb to this predicament, a wandering priestess (Sunaira again) happens upon him and drives off the jellyfish-thing. There's a hurt/comfort scene as she gently heals what of the damage she can and tends to the paralyzed monk. As he recovers they share a few kisses and the priestess is tempted by his chocolatey aura, but valiantly resists. 

They camp overnight. Eventually, the witch catches up to him and there's a heartfelt remonstration with her to break the curse. Having done it in a moment of annoyance, she relents. They share breakfast. Kofusachi puts the moves on her again, not having learnt his lesson, but the priestess mediates and prevents there from being further issues. She asks the witch why she was so annoyed and she admits that it's because there was some truth to the accusations. 

From there, it devolves into a foursome between the wandering monk and everyone he's flirted with so far. (Including the land-jellyfish.) They decide to adventure together as a party. Wrap scene. 

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Also he totally worked a jealousy/jellyfish pun in there.

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You seem to enjoy lots of things, don't you?

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Quantity has a quality all its own sometimes. 

Anyway. We were discussing business. That's my second-favorite activity. 

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Yes, we were. You said I should speak to Qi Zhong?

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Yes. He is the ideal god for you to go to about a health intervention like this one. He generally deals more with disease and infirmity directly, but if you bring this to him I'm sure he'll listen. 

In fact, I will grab him right now. Hey, Qi Zhong, there's a goddess to see you!

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Yes, yes, what is it?

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One of the Avistan players wants to introduce birth control to Golarion through a simple reversible sterility orison. Here she is; her name is Sunaira.

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Hello.

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It's a pleasure to meet you. I see you two have been getting along well.

I have considered this intervention on one or two occasions myself, but it has never seemed as urgent as attending to disease directly. I have seen some of the suffering of people deprived of children by illness, however...

I think I could implement the orison you intend in such a way that it would restore the ability to bear children to those who have lost it. Is that in accord with your goals?

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What do you say, Sunaira?

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I think that would be worth it; it's better to give everyone the choice.

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Then you have my support.

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Wonderful.

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I'll handle Nalinivati. She should be easy to talk around given that we'll be implementing fertility-restoration as well. 

I'll leave the other continent's players up to you.

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Alright. I'll do my best. 

 

Well, then. Time for the real test. 

Erastil, are you free?

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Free as I ever am. How can I help you?

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I want to introduce a simple cleric orison for reversible sterility to Golarion. If used on a barren individual, it would allow them to bear children again. 

Milani said that you would be the god I should use as a sounding board for this.

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Alright. Let's suppose for a moment that I am a farmer in the hinterlands of Brevoy, near the Stolen Lands. The closest city is a ten-day hike down a cart track through wilderness haunted with Thyalcines and the occasional bandit. I run a small farm with my wife, my daughter, and my two sons. I know everyone in my village of thirty families and everyone knows me. There is a local priest but he's only first-circle and has absolutely no book learning.

How does this new orison make my life better or worse?

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... Setting aside for the moment that you can stop having children yourself if you wish to, it means that you don't have to be as afraid of your daughter or son having a child out of wedlock. They might still get into trouble with some other neighbour's kid, but they'll be less likely to ruin their entire life over it. You can have them sterilized young and ask the cleric to reverse it when they come of age to manage their own affairs.

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Is that the outcome you were hoping for?

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... I hate it, but I acknowledge that in many ways it is better than the current state of affairs.

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Do it, then.

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You're not going to wait for me to argue about it applying to animals as well? 

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Who said you were convincing me? The effect of being able to only have as many children as you wish to is enough to determine the matter. 

What is more important is that you take the time to reflect on the impact on individuals who you never intended to affect, who have no part of the wider game, and who likely never will be part of it. The common cases. Not what will happen in Nidal or Osirion, but what will happen in the whole world as a result of your actions.

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... I think I would like to consider more test cases.

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I think that would be wise. Would you like me to produce them for you, or would you prefer to do it yourself?

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Let's collaborate on it.

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Alright. Let's say I am a trader from Casmaron. Vudra, specifically.

I trade up and down the Matra River in my own small river-boat. I mostly carry pottery, textiles and grain between the various mahajanapadas. I have visited several cities - Radripal, Valishava, and Lipror - as well as a multitude of farming communities that scatter up and down the river. The local rajahs tax me every time I move between their lands. 

Let's assume for a moment that I want to have this orison cast on me. Who do I go to?

 

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I, ah...

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Can you name a single Vudrani deity?

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No.

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You should probably fix that. I know Irori plays in that region, perhaps he can introduce you to some people.

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Alright.

Irori, do you have a moment?

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Yes, what is it?

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I want to learn more about the Vudrani deities and that realm of play.

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I approve. You should speak to my nephew.

Gruhastha, could you introduce this new Goddess to the Vudrani player-base?

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Of course.

Here is a data packet of information on several thousand Vudrani deities, ordered by degree of importance.

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I'm not downloading that, that costs far too much intervention budget. Can't you just give me the top dozen or so?

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Knowledge is its own reward, but I understand if you merely want an overview. Here are the top hundred major ones. May you use them well.

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Thank you. I'll go through this on my own time.

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It's been the length of Ishaza's first stay, now, and the picture she's getting has become clearer. 

There is a concept of kink-as-an-activity-in-itself that she's starting to piece together. It deals with delving into individuals' preferences and personal sexual proclivities, their fantasies, their wants. There's subdomains to it - sadism, masochism, restraint play. Any given activity that people enjoy could potentially be its own kink. It hooks into Sunaira's domain of sacrifice because it's like you're demonstrating your love for someone by being able to endure play-harsh treatment for them.  

Sunaira has been sending new spells. Detect Desires, Nap Stack, Remove Disease, Voluminous Vocabulary, Suggestion. Kumi helps her flock translate survivors' accounts from Nidal out of Shadowtongue, cures particularly nasty cases of disease, and provides more time for whole groups of junior casters who can't afford their own Rings of Sustenance just yet. 

She eventually saves enough from taking wealthier clients with Detect Desires and Remove Disease to purchase a Ring of Sustenance. That lets her take more clients, and fairly quickly pays for itself. The use of Detect Desires also teaches her much more than she even already knew. It turns out that many of her clients have personal oddities they never had the courage to bring to her. 

She's starting to enter into a whole new world now. She's not just some local priestess anymore; she's the head of a blooming church, composed of a whole set of less-experienced clerics in their first circles, not all of them worshippers of Sunaira. 

It's a lot of responsibility. 

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Rose is a first-circle cleric of Sunaira now. She's mostly working on translating documents out of Nidal using Voluminous Vocabulary bestowed by Kumi, but she contributes casts of Remove Sickness and Comprehend Languages and Create Water. She sleeps in Kumi's Nap Stack on nights she has it, along with many of her patients who are trying to recover from their illnesses. 

The church of Shelyn is starting to run out of space for everyone who comes to see her and Kumi, these days.

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She considers. Currently she is in an awkward arrangement, working out of the city's only temple to Shelyn. It's in the Ivy District, on the edge of Ivy District Park. It's a quarter mostly inhabited by the nobility. It's safe. Her apartment is in the Coins, but a relatively good district of it. Her old place of work was there too, and relatively good as well; her madam kept the guards close with coin and that solved many of the issues that most working girls in the city face daily.

Alright, let's go district by district.

Ascendant Court. It is the obvious place; all the major cults and temples are there because everyone who tries for the Starstone goes there. It is loud, bustling, full of pilgrims. A wonderful place to trap the ecclesiastically unwary. She's going to stay well away from it at all times. The last thing she needs is to attract the attention of some sixth-circle wizard who feels personally affronted by her presence. 

The Precipice Quarter. It surely needs her ministrations. Entrance is also completely banned, and for good reason. The area is cursed in an entirely non-metaphorical way. She could try it, but she would likely die to no good end. Perhaps when she is stronger. Much stronger. It can also be struck. 

The Ivy District. It's beautiful, it really is, built as it is around its park and Shelyn's temple - but it's too good, too already-cultivated. It's full of nobles and full of art and doesn't need her. 

The Petal District. Far, far, far too expensive for her. She'd never afford the rent. It can also be struck. The Wise Quarter has the same problem.

Eastgate. It's a good neighbourhood, a safe place to grow. Gentle. She wished one day she'd move there. But Rose's apartment in the Coins is good enough for her. She could afford a more comfortable life, but... For now, she doesn't need it. And so too should she not put her shrine here. It isn't needed, just like in the Ivy District.

Westgate. Very traditional, and could potentially use her help. But she doesn't want to be a piece in the gates' rivalry, and she would inevitably become so. It's also a little like the Ivy District in that it doesn't need her help.

The Foreign Quarter. If she wishes to tend primarily to the Nidalese residents of the city, this is a good choice. However, there is a distinct aura of Cheliaxian influence in some quarters, which is a definite drawback. It has a greater variety of simple joys than anywhere else in the city. She should consider it carefully.

The Puddles. It's sinking, it's soggy, it's diseased, it needs help. The streets are flooded for half the day and it's slowly starting to die. There's rumors of goblins and a cult of Norgorber. It desperately needs her, but she doesn't have the skills. Even with all her people at her back, she's unlikely to be able to heal it. Is it worth it...?

That leaves her best two candidates for last - the Coins and the Docks. The Coins has Mudhaven, which needs the help, and it's full of businesses of various legalities. There are fewer brothels than on the docks, but still many, and the sheer variety of mercantile services on offer is enough to make a temple of a pleasure goddess able to acquire almost anything they need. Unfortunately, guard presence is... Token, at best. She'll need protection if she's going to operate here, or else to own nothing worth stealing. It does have the advantage that she grew up here and knows it better than anywhere else.

The Docks are similar, full of sailors and travellers. The guard presence is better, though. There are plenty of gangs in the darker corners, including one that plays for Cheliax, and she'd have support from the Firebrands. It's also the section of the city with the most whorehouses and taverns per yard. 

It seems to her that the decision is between the Foreign Quarter, the Coins, and the Docks, with a potential chance for the Puddles. 

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Before she was a priestess herself, she had aspired to work at the Silken Garden in the Petal Quarter. Now that she has the clientele to do so... She doesn't care to. 

What does she want her new temple to be? Would it be like the temple of Shelyn, dedicated to beauty? Like Calistria's pleasure salon in the Ascendant Court? A simple soup kitchen, like the Guiding Hand in Mudhaven? A place of healing, like the Temple of the Shining Star?

She doesn't know what she's doing.

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"Rose, do you have any thoughts about the new temple? What makes the most sense to you?"

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"It should be like Calistria's. That draws people, the obvious lure of pleasure. We should put it on the Docks and outcompete the local brothels. Most people prefer their working girls to have some sense of class. There's more chances to free slaves there, too, and the watch is actually competent enough to protect us. Get Calistria's temple to extend a loan for the premises and get a place on Besmara's Boardwalk. You'll have the people to run an effective business, of that I'm sure."

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"What about distributing healing and so on?"

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"Kumi, you're taking territory. Just by existing you change the game. You'll be attacked and stolen from and shoved at. They'll try to get you to default on your loans. They'll probably try to assassinate you. You've been doing little more than any other third circle cleric of Cayden Cailean up till now. Trying to establish a new place of worship? You'll need help. Serious help. Take all the help you can get and focus on stability. Reach out to all your allies. You're making your first real play here and that's not going to be easy."

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"... I guess you're right. I've got to take this seriously. I'm third-circle, after all."

She claps her hands together. "Let's call a proper meeting to discuss this."

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"I'm with you there."

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Around the same time...

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Someone has finally seen fit to inform her that an entirely new Neutral Good afterlife plane has become coterminous with Golarion.

This is very welcome news. It hasn't been a very good century for what-is-now-called-Andoran. She hardly remembers to breathe, some days. Her books and her students keep her sane, despite the fact that she's had to be on a constant war footing for the past several decades.

She is deeply tempted to go and speak to this new priestess - Kumi is the name in the reports - and grill her for every piece of information she has. She could Greater Teleport to the temple of Shelyn in Absalom, she's been there. However, this would absolutely panic everyone involved, and that would make her presence unfortunately obvious to the least skilled at tradecraft among the Chelish.

She doesn't have to reveal her identity, of course. She could present as a prostitute come to hear the word of this new goddess, which would be a laugh. But unfortunately for her sense of humor, there is a far more boring, sensible, spell-efficient option, which is to summon a weak outsider - a so-called "wing" - from said plane in a sealed pocket of her own personal demiplane where there is no chance of anyone interfering.

Lesser Planar Binding is only a fifth-circle spell, so it won't even interfere with her security preparations overmuch.

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Someone is trying to force her into their service. 

Nothing's scheduled. She resists. 

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Can you beat a 17th-level wizard's spell DC?

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No, she really can't.

She appears in the circle.

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Felandriel surveys her capture. 

It's another silver-haired woman, with black goat horns. Not dissimilar to the first outsider that was summoned, but without the purple skin. 

"Hello," she says. "I'm sorry for the call, I don't usually do this. I simply wanted to know more about the Rose Bowers."

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She'd been told to expect this kind of inquiry eventually. The rules are that you play nice. Even if Cheliax learns of the Bowers, there's little they can do about it. The information she carries benefits her side to know it more than her opponents learning it benefits them.

"Alright," she says. "I'm listening."

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"I wish to bind you to answer any reasonable question about the Rose Bowers and its inhabitants. You may refuse to answer any question, but I bid you remain until I am satisfied there is no more useful information I can gain from you."

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This summoner, whoever they are, is playing gentle. She's been told that if she was summoned by Cheliax she'd probably be tortured and then killed, so... 

"Let me go and then I'll tell you what you want."

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She bears down with her will.

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Felandriel: I'm just going to say A Lot since she's fully buffed and I can't be bothered to build her complete buff stack for this purpose.

Madeline: (1d20 +4 (Charisma)) = 23

Felandriel wins.

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It's kind of thrilling, honestly. 

But she succumbs.

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"Now," Felandriel says. "Tell me everything you can about the Rose Bowers."

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Later that evening, Kumi gathers a small council in the temple of Shelyn. Rose is here, as is Ember (now a first-circle cleric of Sunaira herself), along with Pen and Simon as well. There's a platter of mixed foods for the table - cheese, dates, yogurt, eggs, spicy chicken, honey and hummus, along with a selection of fresh fruit which of course includes a bowl of blackberries. 

"So," she says. "We need an actual shrine. The temple of Shelyn is getting too small to administrate both our flock and its established worshippers, and we need to establish our own identity as a separate goddess from Shelyn. No offense, Simon."

She lays a stack of notes on the table. "I've been considering the Puddles, the Foreign Quarter, the Coins, and the Docks for locations. Shall we go through each individually?"

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"That sounds reasonable to me."

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"No objection from me."

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Simon just nods.

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"Alright. Let's start with the worst candidate on the list - the Puddles. The place is flooded half the day and smells of low tide the other half of the day. Major supportive organizations are the Consulate of the Platinum Band, which worships Apsu, and the Church of Saraenrae's Healing Raft. According to all reports, conditions are squalid, crime-ridden, and awful, with the Healing Raft running out of resources within hours each day. If we want to minister to the poor, this is the ideal place, but the nomarch of the place, Haigen Topkick, is notoriously corrupt. There's no Watch presence worth mentioning. I followed up on some rumors about goblins - they've made a market in the area, but seem to be fairly peaceful. More concerning are rumors of a murder cult of Norgorber. Nothing substantiated, but..." 

She shakes her head. "It's a horrible situation, but I don't think we have the resources to genuinely help at this point. We'd succumb to the awful conditions just as much as the rest of the people who have the bad fortune to live there."

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"I have to agree. You need a safer location than that for a new temple."

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"Yeah, I think this one is strikable pretty easily."

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"I don't know enough about the local conditions to overrule anyone else on this."

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"You might know more about the next one on our list, Ember. The Foreign Quarter. It's a whole collection of enclaves from a dozen other nations all crowded together. Major supportive organizations include the Grand Lodge of the Pathfinder Society, and the Lodge of the North Song-Wind, dedicated to the followers of the great mage Jatembe. Guard presence is fairly strong. It has a single, very notable flaw: It also includes Devil's Garden, the city's largest Chelish enclave, which is still monitored by the agents of House Thrune."

Kumi frowns. "The last thing I want to do is piss off House Thrune at this early stage. If we attract the wrong kind of attention we could be very in for it. On the other hand, the thought of aiding the Nidalese enclave is tempting. What do you think, Ember?"

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"Don't try it. You will die of an accident and not even help anyone. I've spoken to some of those survivors and they mostly wish to be left alone."

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"I'm with Ember on this one. We really, really do not want to piss off the Thrunes."

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"We'll have to eventually, but now is perhaps not the time."

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"Discretion is at times the better part of valor."

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"Alright, moving along to the serious candidates now. The Coins. It's the central market district of all Absalom and as such an excellent place to do business. Major supportive organizations are the Guiding Hand, a soup kitchen in the Mudhaven rookery, and the Saucy Wench, the personal favorite dive of the local nomarch Kythes Finch. He has a weakness for pretty women, which would be useful to us. However, crime is rife, especially down the Red Silk Route, in Mudhaven, and near the slave pits, which are also in this district. We could do a lot of good here if we could improve conditions for the local working girls and help prevent crime and slavery, but in practice the local guards are too corrupt to provide real protection against all the sharks in the water. It also has the Second Labyrinth in it, which is a Chelish loyalist establishment by all accounts, operated by House Tevineg. Once again, it would seem we may run afoul of Cheliax."

She picks up a hard-boiled egg and eats it in two bites. "It's worse than the foreign quarter, which paradoxically makes it better on some measures. We could make this work, I think, but we would need real support, ideally directly from Nomarch Finch."

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"I don't like the Chelish presence, and we'd end up paying protection money to Kythes Finch, too. I still prefer the Docks." 

Rose picks up a blackberry and eats it.

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Ember surveys the assorted foods, and finally takes a handful of blackberries. She tilts her head in thought as she moves the squishy berries from one hand to another, feeling their texture. Then she pops one in her mouth and chews. 

"I think that it is better than directly attracting the attention of House Thrune, and much good could be done by it, but we would need proper backing and support that won't shift."

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"Pen, you've been quiet. Did you have any comments on the Puddles or the Foreign Quarter?"

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"It's alright. The Puddles, the Docks, the Coins, or the Foreign Quarter for the new temple?"

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He tilts his head for a moment. "The Docks would be my vote. There's a pub down there that sometimes caters to Caydenites, and a thriving abolitionist group - you know them, the Firebrands, I shouldn't have to convince you. There are temples to deities there but they're all neutral ones for sea and storm; you would fill a niche. And yes, there's a gang affiliated with Cheliax - you can't escape House Thrune's influence in this city if you try - but they're a proxy of a proxy, much healthier to tangle with even if they are in fact a bunch of slavers and violent killers." 

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"It sounds like you know a certain amount about this gang...?"

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"They're called the Gylou Sisters. Female membership only. They're rival propagandists to some of my contacts in the city, we've tangled before. They take orders from the Chelish embassy but are mostly in it for the money."

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"I see..." 

Kumi takes a slice of cheese and eats thoughtfully. 

"Do they have competition we could bolster?"

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"The better option is the Dockside Dozen, which contrary to their name have almost a hundred members. Rumor is they have a noble patron as well, to stand up to the Chelish like they have, but no-one knows who it is for sure."

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"It sounds like we have fairly good information on the Docks..."

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"Let me lay out the rest of my notes. The docks are a hub for prosititution and a certain degree of crime. Most of the people here are laborers and merchants making a quick dollar off of tourists. Supportive areas are Besmara's Boardwalk, which is a tourist district with several disguised brothels with Firebrand influence. Lifter's Mooring is the station house of the Dockworkers' Union, and would likely support us. There's another Firebrand establishment as well, the Mithril Chef. The Watch presence is also actually present, at least in the tourist areas."

"Drawbacks: the aforementioned gang, and also the presence of the Devil's Own Shipyard, which is run by House Dureanz - loyal Chelish subjects, again - and employs plenty of muscle. Can anyone connect these two dots for me? Is it that obvious that the Gylou Sisters are sponsored by a noble lord?"  

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"It is in fact that obvious. As you said yourself, who wants to piss off House Thrune?"

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"It is increasingly looking like not pissing off House Thrune somehow is not an option available to us."

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"Chelish noble houses infight all the time. You'll be safer in the Coins or the Docks than in the Foreign Quarter, I'd say."

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"So we're back to the Coins versus the Docks. Both are crime-ridden, both have Chelish presence, but one of them has notable sources of support - the watch, the Firebrands, your tavern dedicated to Cayden, the Dockworker's Union - and the other does not."

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"Told you so."

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"It seems fairly clear that the Docks are the better option."

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"I think that's settled, then. The Docks, likely near Besmarra's Boardwalk if we can find a storefront to rent."

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"And we're settled that the basic form would be a brothel, yes?"

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"I think so, given the location."

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"In that case we'll have to get a license from the Courtesan's Guild. Which means dealing with Lady Dyrianna."

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"Who is this Lady Dyrianna, and why is this an issue?"

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"She's the high hetaera of Calistria's cult in the city, as well as the Guildmistress of the Courtesan's Guild and head of House Avenstar. She's... every inch the ideal Calistrian. She's a freedwoman and is rumored to be involved in the 'accidental' deaths of several prominent slavers."

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Pen smiles slightly. "You could do a lot worse for an ally, I'd say."

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"I have personal reasons to dislike her." Those being that she runs the higher-class courtesan's establishments as essentially her own personal information-gathering apparatus, but Kumi knows better than to state that out loud. 

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That is absolutely not terrifying at all. 

"I don't think I can trust anyone else with that negotiation. It'll have to be high hetaera to high priestess."

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"You'll have to go to her. She has you over a barrel, more or less. You can't operate a reputable establishment without her say-so in this city."

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"I'll have to talk to my old madam, brush up on the process and the current political situation in the Guild. Present things as well as I can."

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"Alright, so you'll reach out to the Courtesan's Guild. I'll see about talking to the Firebrands - they're unreliable, but they have their fingers on the pulse of the properties on the docks. They'll know somewhere we can buy out."

Pen picks up a sheaf of notes he's scribed during the meeting and puts them into his satchel.

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"So the Dockworker's Union would be me and Rose together, then?"

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"I've got the experience as a laborer to speak their language, and they'll respect someone with your scars. It makes sense to go together."

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"You'll want to bring security on the Docks. The Firebrands can probably help with that."

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"I'm capable of defending myself from ordinary threats," Pen says. "Hazards of the job. I'll see about getting a few Firebrands to escort Rose and Ember to the Dockworker's Union."

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"I doubt there's anything I can do to protect myself against Lady Dyrianna if she wants me ruined or dead."

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Simon frowns, but nods. "I doubt that anything would happen to you in her temple, in any case. She has a reputation to uphold."

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"Comforting." 

She looks over at Simon. "Is the church of Shelyn willing to send a representative with me to see Lady Dyrianna?"

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"I'll speak to Eleena. She'll likely want to come herself."

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Eleena? The High Priestess herself? She's not going to turn that down. "If Lady Woodsong wishes to offer her aid I will hardly refuse." 

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Simon hides a small smile, but nods. "I'll ask her."

He gets up from his chair, taking a slice of cheese with him. "Let's get to our business, shall we?"

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Isn't that her line? 

Well, he is a fourth-circle cleric. Technically he outranks her. Not that she's counting. 

She nods. "As you say." 

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Simon smiles. "Come with me, then, Kumi. Eleena should be interruptible for this."

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And the meeting breaks up.

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Eleena Woodsong turns out to be a half-elven woman with a bright laugh and an easy smile. It's easy to relax in her presence; she seems to make the world around her just a little easier with every word she speaks. 

"I wouldn't worry about Lady Dyrianna's reaction," she says to Kumi. "She'll have heard of your work to free slaves, and as a hataera she has an obligation to every courtesan in the city. I have no doubt she's been trying to force out the illegal brothels on the docks for some time; you'll be a perfect instrument for her."

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"All of that makes sense, but somehow I doubt it'll be that simple in practice. Lady Dyrianna's affections are notoriously fickle."

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Eleena tilts her head from side to side. "There are her affections and then there is her business sense. I believe the Lady to be many things, but a fool is not one of them."

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"When shall we go meet her?"

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"I see no reason not to try now. I expect she'll be expecting us."

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"Alright, then."

It's out of her hands, now. It was always going to be, from the moment she called the meeting. But she can do her best to steer.

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Meanwhile...

Sunaira has ended up getting the full list of vudrani deities from Gruhastha (apparently this does not actually cost her anything) and gone through it in exhaustive detail. 

There are too many deities in Vudra, many of whom have extremely limited portfolios. Nonetheless she perseveres. You never know what might be hiding in the details. 

For example, there is the Lady of the Blossoms, Arundhat. Her domain is the proper use, display, and disposal of flowers.

Hello, Arundhat?

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Ah, yes? What? Who is this?

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You don't know me, I'm an Inner Sea deity. My name is Sunaria, here is proof of my Neutral Good alignment. My domains are Pleasure, Love, Sacrifice, and Kinks.

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Oh, uh, hi! I'm Arundhat. I'm also Neutral Good. My domains are, I mean is, Flowers.

Here is an iris for you. It represents - you know, right? So many mortals are so bad at this.

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"Your friendship means so much to me." Yes, I know.

Thank you very much.

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So what did you want to talk to me about?

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Flowers, what else? 

It's good that you tend to flowers and care about beauty and meaning, I agree entirely with that. But there was a small line in the information Gruhastha gave me. It said you are a patron of herbalism?

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Yes! So many people don't expect flowers to be useful! There's so much that can be done with them!

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Have you by any chance worked with the parsley family of herbs before?

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You mean the ones with estrogenic properties? Yes! They're so useful as a contraceptive when prepared alchemically!

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Oh, wow, I absolutely did not expect you to say that. Your followers have reliable birth control?

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Yes! But, um. Only in Sikari, and right now I'm having a lot of trouble with swarms of rabid macaques spread by Lahkgya.

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Lahkgya?

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Yes. He demands bribes to keep him from destroying things and steals whatever he can get his hands on. His portfolio is Monkeys.

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Let me guess, Chaotic Evil?

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Yes.

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Monkeys, monkeys... I could have sworn I saw the name of another deity of monkeys...

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Ragdya. He's Neutral. He helps sometimes, being an opposing monkey god, but he hasn't really fixed the problem.

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Let me see. I bet that if you could spread your knowledge of herbalism a little farther, you would quickly gain enough strength to defeat Lahkgya. It's just that right now you're too hard-pressed to, yes?

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That's pretty much the situation, yes.

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How about I empower a cleric to help you deal with the monkey swarms and disease so that you can send one of your people to go teach?

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That would be SUCH A BIG HELP.

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Done. Let's kick some macaque asses together, hm?

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Thank you!

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Well, this changes her strategy a little. If she can spread birth control in Vudra... Well, it's unlikely to proliferate back to the Inner Sea region in any reasonable length of time, but it will help tip the balance in her favour. 

More to the point, however - there is precedent for reliable birth control on Golarion. She's not introducing an invention, she is merely spreading it. And that costs notably less. 

She should take this preparation to Qi Zhong immediately; he will know how to nativize it to Tian Xia. 

Qi Zhong, are you there?

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Yes, I am. What's the trouble?

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No trouble. I was just speaking to a Vudran deity of herbalism - Arundhat - and she gave me this herbal preparation of an estrogen-based alchemical contraceptive. I thought you should see it.

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Oh! Oh, this is beautiful. Arundhat must have put much of herself into this. I can adapt it to use dong quai - you would call it female ginseng. It will take a little work to popularize, but I expect Kofusachi will back its production. 

It will still be a somewhat expensive alchemical preparation, but it is likely to be far more affordable than the alternatives. 

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Thank you, Qi Zhong. Whatever you can do in this regard would be very much worth it to me.

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It is nothing. Anything to ease suffering.

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I'll see how you're coming along with it in a few weeks. Thank you again.

If she's spoken to Vudran and Tian Xia deities about this, perhaps she should also speak to Sarenrae. That would likely be a useful measure.

Sarenrae, I have here an alchemical preparation from parsley that acts as an effective contraceptive. Are you interested?

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Yes, of course I'm interested. 

May I see?

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Here you go.

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This... could vastly empower Calistria.

I would proceed with caution, Sunaira. Calistria is not the kind of deity I would wish to empower. She rarely if ever gives those who slight her a chance to redeem themselves in her eyes.

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Your opinion is noted. However, don't you think that the price of spreading this is worth it? 

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I think it has a chance to prevent many evils in the world, but will primarily be the province of those already wealthy enough that such things are not outside their means. It will not help the downtrodden so much as those who are already comfortably well-off. 

Nonetheless, I acknowledge that it has significant value. 

If you wish to take it to Calistria, I will not stop you. And if you do, I will sponsor it as well. But I urge you to consider your actions carefully.

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Is there something in particular I'm missing?

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This particular alchemical preparation would also work as an abortificant. It's not its intended use, but nonetheless it would function as such. And if it became widespread in that role it could be a victory for Evil. I suspect Calistria would not care. 

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I believe that people do their best when given a free choice.

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So too do I. Would Calistria offer that? 

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... I believe so.

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Alright, then. I won't stop you. Good requires many visions if it is to be whole.

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Thank you, Sarenrae. 

I believe I will go to Calistria now. 

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Go in strength, and be well.

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Say, Calistria. I have something else you might like.

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Don't tease me, darling, let me know all about it. Is it another sex toy?

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Better.

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A kink practice I haven't thought of?

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Better!

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A weapon? Something sharp and bright to throw back the prudes with? 

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Precisely.

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What is it, then, darling? I simply must know!

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It's an effective alchemical contraceptive.

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Oh my

And what do you want in return for this creation of yours?

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Let's just say a similarly-sized favour. You honor your favours, don't you, dove?

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It is fundamental to me that all those who aid or harm me get exactly what they're owed. 

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I can see you making that legible to me, yes. 

Alright. Here you go. You owe me. 

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A thousand thousand thanks.~

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The Wing - her name is Madeline - has been very helpful to her investigations so far. She has a pamphlet of basic catechism and enough information to affirm that Gating to the Rose Bowers is likely safe. Madeline will be staying in her circle for some time yet.

Felandriel doubts she'll be seriously surprised by anything the Bowers has to offer, given the rules of the gods' game, but it's worth spending a Gate to strike tuning forks and distribute them. It's an opening for Sunaira, and she intends to give her as much surface to work with as possible. 

She collects a journeying party of people she trusts. A few competent clerics of the Churches of Abadar, Shelyn, and Iomedae, along with a few of her better and more trustworthy students to provide for the way back.

She raises the Gate, aiming for the first layer of the Rose Bowers; she lets everyone else through, then follows herself.

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She appears in a noble residence, looking out onto a hedge maze through a picture window. There's leather and mahogany tables and chairs, brass chandeliers full of Continual Flame lights. The floor is carpeted in a deep red shade more fixed than any non-magical dye. There is a bar across from the window out to the hedge maze, though there's no obvious alcohol at it. It looks a bit like a very, very upscale inn, save for the lack of any obvious staff.

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Within a round after they arrive, another Outsider teleports in behind the bar. 

"Welcome, honored guests, to the Rosethorn Inn." she says, curtseying slightly. "Much is available to you here."

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The traveling group look at each other and seem to unanimously agree to let Felandriel deal with the Outsider. 

She approaches the bar. 

"Good evening," she says. "We come peaceably, to strike tuning forks and allow further travel and trade with this plane. Do you have an object of significance to the plane that I might handle?"

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Ishaza nods, and a blossom unfolds before her on the bar; a many-petaled rose that settles out into a flat, perpendicular surface at its top. 

"Rest your tuning forks on the blossom's surface, and they will be attuned," Ishaza says.

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Felandriel lays out a half-dozen on the surface, and watches as red light gathers around them and is captured between their many tines. 

She picks up her forks again and places them back in her bag of holding. "Thank you."

She tilts her head. "You said that much was available to us. Are you making an offer of trade?"

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"Not quite. The rules are simple: you may experiment as you wish within the Rose Bowers with all its amenities, but may not leave without paying for what you take away. Unfortunately, due to certain compacts, that includes knowledge of any magical device or object; as such, you will be prompted for payment before doing thorough examination of any object here." 

She spreads her hands. "I wish it were not so, and that we could offer you all our wonders free of charge; but those are not the conditions we operate under." 

She runs a hand along the top of the blossom. "However, I do have one item that is yours, now, free of charge, Felandriel Morgethai. For the service you do us in spreading the word of this plane, I offer to you now a rare and potent flower, the cuttings of which will still grow on the Material." 

Behind her hand, a scattering of star-shaped cyan blossoms appear, each no larger than a fingernail. She gathers them up and places them into a small leather bag, fine enough but wholly mundane. This, she offers to Felandriel.

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When a good goddess' direct servant says they have something for you, you take it.

She accepts the bag and conceals it on her person. "Thank you." 

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"Now, I have a few items you might wish to explore the uses of..." 

A whole array of talismans and potions appear all across the bar. 

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She nods. "Thank you for the offer, but I'll return another time." She has a tuning fork now, and the locals are capable of teleporting to her. This gift must be important to Sunaira, otherwise she would not be spending budget on it. She must analyze and distribute it immediately, much as she would like to stay. As ever, her life is strange and her work is never over. 

She nods to her collected party. "Enjoy yourselves," she says.

And then she's gone. 

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"Alas," Ishaza says. "Well, all of the rest of you, stay a while. We have many interesting diversions..."

It's time for her to seduce a cleric of Abadar. 

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Not long after...

Kumi walks through the halls of the Pleasure Salon of Calistria, her head bowed, her motions hushed. All around her, quiet conversations occur on long divans; above her head, great stained-glass windows depict lurid scenes. She passes a statue of a woman on her knees, her face buried in the sex of another. A wasp nest settles in a small grotto above it, full of soft buzzes. 

She looks the part of any other hetaera, but none disturb her as she walks through the halls with Eleena at her side. Though few of the clients recognize her, the air of solemnity that Eleena carries through the halls makes them hesitant to approach; and of course all the hetaera know of Kumi. The blackberry at her neck tells them all they need.

She is met at the end of the hall by an obviously high-ranking hetaera. 

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"Sarielle," Eleena says. "It's good to see you."

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"And I you." She smiles slightly. 

"Lady Dyrianna will see you in her office on the third level," she says. "I am to escort you."

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"Lead on." Eleena smiles slightly.

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Kumi stays respectfully silent in the presence of her betters.

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Sarielle leads them up two flights of stairs, and through a hall full of wasp nests larger than Kumi's head. The wasps are thick in the air, but none of them sting. 

The third floor is quieter, with no guests. Continual Flame lamps light the hallway. 

Sarielle comes to a door and knocks. 

"High Hetaera," she calls.

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Eleena glances at Kumi, and stays.

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She's petrified, but she has experience with controlling her fear now. 

She breathes evenly and does her best not to let the stress show.

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"Come in," calls a woman's voice from beyond the door.

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Sarielle unlocks the door with a key from her robe, and enters.

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Kumi and Eleena file in behind her. 

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The woman sitting behind the desk has dark skin, long ears, and the circular brands of a many-times-sold slave marked all along her right forearm. The brands start at the wrist and proceed all the way up to her elbow, where they are then hidden by her dress. 

There's a ferocity in her eyes, a presence that's deeply oppressive. Even at rest, this looks like a woman who has ordered the deaths of people and enjoyed it. 

She wears a simple band of enchanted adamantine across her forehead, an unornamented but obvious marker of her power and status.

"Eleena," she says. "Welcome. It's good to see you shepherding our young protégé." 

She turns to regard Kumi. "Kumi Shiromusume. I have heard much of you. It's a privilege to finally meet you in person."

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Kumi ducks her head, uncertain how to deal with the flattery. "It's an honor to finally meet you as well, Lady Dyrianna."

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Sarielle curtseys to the high hetaera, and shows herself out of the room.

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"It is the least I could do," Eleena demurs.

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"So," Lady Dyrianna says. "There is much to settle between us. I am sure you have a Guild license you wish to apply for - why else would you come to see me after all this time? - but before we begin business, I have some personal remarks I wish to share." 

She leans forward on her mahogany desk and steeples her fingers. "Kumi Shiromusume. You freed eight women from durance, offering yourself up to the authorities in exchange. That is worthy of a hetaera." She rubs the brand on her right wrist. "I will have justice for you and for those women, in time."

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Kumi ducks her head, not able to keep her gaze from lingering on the many, many brands on Lady Dyrianna's wrist. "Thank you, milady." 

You don't question the High Hetaera when she says she will give you justice.

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Lady Dyrianna's voice quiets a little. "They sold my daughter," she says. "And because of you, those women will never have to go through that pain. That comforts me, a little. I will not be satisfied till every slaver is ruined, but it eases my burden to know I have allies like you."

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What do you say to that?

"I'm sorry," Kumi says quietly. "No-one should have to go through that."

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Eleena simply nods, as if she's heard this story before.

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"No," Lady Dyrianna says. "No-one should." 

She settles her hands one atop the other on the table. "As such... I am strongly inclined to give you excellent terms on a property on Besmarra's Boardwalk. It just so happens that an illegal brothel was recently discovered operating there, without any guild license, staffed primarily with slaves. The property was forfeited to the Church of Calistria in the court case." 

She smiles slightly. "I am inclined to lease the resultant property to you for five years for the sum and total fee of one gold piece."

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Eleena's eyebrows rise. "That is remarkably generous."

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"There is a catch, as always. The property is in a shambles, having been not taken care of properly by its former owners. The furniture will need to be entirely replaced, as will the carpets. Sections of it need repainting. The remodeling to make it sanitary and livable is estimated to come to slightly over ten thousand gold pieces."

She raises an eyebrow. "House Avenstar is willing to extend a loan for said amount at three percent, with no interest for the first year."

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"I see." 

Eleena crosses her arms. "And in five years?"

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"Then another arrangement will need to be made. I do not expect that the Church of Sunaira will wish to be operating entirely out of a dockside brothel five years from now."

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It seems like a very good deal. Suspiciously good, in fact. 

"And I would retain entire control of the hiring and firing decisions of my establishment?"

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"It would be your leased property. You may do with it what you will. The Guild license requires a certain minimum standard of care for one's employees, but I do not anticipate it to be difficult to reach for a woman such as yourself. You've experienced those standards for yourself in the Coins, have you not?"

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"I have."

This is a suspiciously good deal, and yet she still can't seem to find where the real catch is.

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"I would like to write in a clause for an agreed-upon maximum rent upon the renewal of the lease."

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Lady Dyrianna coolly regards Eleena for a moment. 

"Very well," she says. "It's a reasonable clause."

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Kumi has a distinct feeling she's out of her depth right now. 

She watches and listens.

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Lady Dyrianna reaches into her desk and pulls out a prepared pair of contracts.

"These should settle the matter. I recommend you review them thoroughly."

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"I would like these reviewed by a lawyer whom I trust, rather than by myself."

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"Of course," Lady Dyrianna says. "A sensible precaution."

She looks over at Kumi. "Then, if there is to be no agreement on said matters today, I have a small parting gift."

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Kumi raises her eyebrows. "Go on?"

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She opens another drawer of her desk, and takes out two small glass vials. One is full of a thick amber liquid, and in the second rests a single small cyan blossom. 

She places the cyan blossom on the desk. "This is a flower from the Rose Bowers. It is an unusual blossom. It propagates quickly in the presence of positive energy, and has useful properties as both a contraceptive and an aphrodisiac. I believe that if planted in a room where regular healings occur, this single blossom should provide enough of its kin that its properties will be freely available to all your staff. The name that has so far been attributed to it is Sinflower." 

She then presents the ampoule of amber liquid. "This ampoule is full of an alchemical contraceptive formula that was recently divulged to a House Avenstar alchemist in a dream. It is cost-efficient, being estimated at only fifty silver a dose due to using the common parsley plant in its preparation. Unlike the Sinflower, it requires no magical upkeep. I gift you the knowledge of this formula and a sample to reproduce it from. House Avenstar expects to be selling it within a week." 

She rests her hands on her desk. "Let it not be said that Calistria does not repay her debts."

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Eleena's looks at Kumi seriously. 

"Should you take the blossom, or shall I?"

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"I'll take the first cutting. You'll have more clerics to propagate it with."

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Eleena nods, and picks up the vial with the small cyan flower. 

"You'll have it," she says.

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Kumi takes the ampoule of amber liquid, and curtseys to Lady Dyrianna. 

"Thank you."

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"Put it to good use."

She waves her hand in a dismissal.

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Kumi passes the contract to Eleena, gets up from her chair, and goes.

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They make their way back to the Temple of Shelyn in silence.

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"What do you think of Lady Dyrianna's offer?"

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"It seems quite generous."

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"Yes, it is generous of her to offer to let you pay to renovate her damaged property for her and establish a satellite brothel on the docks she can take over in five years when you move out." Eleena's voice is flat. "Or do you plan to take the restoration you've done to the building with you?"

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"I..." She frowns. "What if we stay, then?"

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"Then she has leverage over you as your landlord, something she would enjoy the privilege of for the five years up until then as well. She wants to make you a satellite branch of her church with some funny ideas, not an organization that could compete with her for dominance of her Guild."

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"... What about the contraceptive, and the Sinflower?"

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"A genuine gift, but worth less than you might expect. She already is producing the formula; she's left you to have to rederive it from your sample. By the time that's done she'll own the market. Certainly, having your own supply and the knowledge that this is coming is worth something, but she's deliberately helping less than she could. As for the Sinflower - it's clearly designed by Sunaira to help her church, and as such would you keep it out of the hands of the people it's obviously intended for when they will surely obtain it eventually?"

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"I see. Is there any chance we'd get a guild licence from her if we turn down this deal?"

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"Not a hope." 

Eleena runs a hand through her hair. "The contract will be clean. She has you where she wants you. Just... be slower to assume good intentions. You're becoming a piece in the War of Strings now. Try to keep up."

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Kumi nods. 

"I hear you."

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"Assuming we go through with this, we'll need contractors. And a sense of how poorly off the building is. I know all the designers in the city - there's no question we'll be able to make it beautiful at a relatively low cost. The issue is making it safe and structurally sound. I have less connections there. Some set designers who might know people." 

Eleena crosses her arms. "I don't want you to owe money to Lady Dyrianna if you can help it, but the more labor my people invest the better I make her property. Either way she wins. We could argue the improvements give us partial ownership of the building in court, but the city's lawyers are mostly owned by Norgorber and I don't want to give him an in. Not to mention that winning a case against Lady Dyrianna is... difficult."

She sighs. "I think in this case we just have to accept that Lady Dyrianna is going to have some leverage, whatever we do, and work to mitigate that as best we can. It's probably better to do the renovation as cheaply and well as possible - after all, you will be using the building for some years even in the worst case."

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"Perhaps we could give the work to people from the Docks? The Dockworker's Union is theoretically on our side, here, and ought to have decent carpenters and builders. And it might buy us a little goodwill."

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"It might, yes. There would have been Goodman Hugen of House Candren until a few months ago, but... he's disappeared, and I don't want to burden his inheritor with our troubles. She has enough problems. You normally might consider Lady Adrielle, the harbormaster, but she's in bed politically with Lady Dyrianna. What do you know about the Citizens' League?"

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"It's the political faction that's in favor of both elections and religious freedom. Popular on the Docks and in the Coins. Headed by Lady Adrielle, as I'm sure you're pointing out." 

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"Politically, it's an alliance of many of the dockside noble houses, the Dockworker's Union, the Firebrands, and Lady Dyrianna. Along with the cult of Norgorber. They don't advertise the Norgorber part, but it's natural given that it's the religious freedom bloc. Dyrianna supports it because if you ban Norgorber, maybe you don't stop there. Perhaps you then go on to ban Calistria. She has never been a comfortable goddess to host."

She interweaves her fingers. "If you wish to work on behalf of the dockworkers, the lower classes, the courtesans - then you will inevitably become a part of the Citizens' League. Your selection of allies is entirely drawn from it."

She looks seriously at Kumi. "Do you believe that the Cult of Norgorber should operate openly in Absalom?"

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Ugh, politics. There's a reason why she never became a hetaera. 

"I can honestly say I've never considered the question."

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Eleena gives her an unimpressed look. "Think about it."

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"I can't say that I'm in favor of Norgorber having the ability to manipulate people and control the city to such a degree that you can't get a lawyer who isn't a Norgorber cultist. But at the same time, I'm sympathetic to Lady Dyrianna's fears that if you ban Norgorber, perhaps other politically inconvenient deities are next. It feels like a victory for Asmodeus to say that you can't worship who you want."

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"I recommend you come to some clarity on this issue before your political alliances depend on it. Or else you may end up believing what your allies do completely by accident."

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Kumi nods. "Thank you for the advice, Lady Woodsong." 

She fidgets with the fur on her right arm, petting herself a little. 

"May I take some time to go speak to my priestesses?"

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"Of course. I'll get your blossom to you as soon as it propagates."

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A few hours later, once everyone's returned from their personal expeditions...

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The anticipated meeting in Shelyn's church has come. 

It's awkward. She can feel Simon looking over her shoulder now, after Eleena was so kind as to remind her that she is an ally and not a fellow priestess of her faith. She's got a lot to hammer out today and she doesn't know that she wants Shelyn's church to know everything she's saying. 

Nonetheless, she has no options to schedule this meeting more clandestinely; it's known to Simon that it's expected, and if it vanishes abruptly it'll raise questions. She'll just have to stick to business.

"Ember, Rose, Pen." She nods to each in turn. "Have you had success?"

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Pen nods. "I was able to contact a cell of the Firebrands that operates on Besmarra's Boardwalk already. We talked a bit, got used to each other. They were cautiously optimistic. I think you'd like them if you met them - one of them did my caricature. We discussed the possibility of hiring bouncers and security from them and they said that if the establishment was a legitimate temple of a good goddess they'd definitely have someone up for the job."

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"So far so good. Ember, Rose, what did the Dockworker's Union say?"

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"We met the union leader - a man called Guyton Grerton - and discussed the possibility of support with labor and supply. He said that so long as we paid fairly and offered decent working conditions he'd be happy to lend us some of his people. We compared scars."

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"He was very affable in person. Easy to get along with. You can see how he's gotten far in politics, especially with his story."

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Kumi raises an eyebrow. "His story?"

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"His legs were broken by an improperly balanced load, and the nobleman who ran his business - Ptarnex Dexarion - refused to provide money for magical healing. The dockworkers all liked Grerton, so they pooled funds for proper medical attention and then sued Dexarion for compensation. The case is still before the courts, but it looks like Guyton may win."

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"I see." Kumi nods. "I spoke to Lady Dyrianna. She's willing to give us a guild license for a brothel, but has conditions. She'll loan us a property of hers on the docks for up to five years before we have to pay rent... If we repair and restore it so that it's fit to live in again." 

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"Any chance we could buy it from her?"

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"Not a hope. She's willing to provide a loan for the restoration work, however, and Eleena believes that she can handle the design and beauty portion of the work for a low cost. The issue is restoring the property to a livable state, which will take more than artists. The thought is that we'd hire the Dockworker's Union to see the work done."

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"There is a Carpenter's Union, Kumi. They cost more, but we shouldn't skimp on vital structural work."

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"Oh. Uh, of course."

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Rose raises an eyebrow. "I'm surprised Eleena didn't tell you. They operate out of this district, even."

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"We'll have to send someone to speak to them, then."

Kumi sighs. "So, the coming agenda - review Lady Dyrianna's contracts. Talk to the Carpenters' Union. Tour the property that Lady Dyrianna is offering and see what kind of work will be necessary to restore it. Is there anything else obvious I'm missing?"

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"If we're going to have a temple, we'd better have a plan for what we're going to teach at it. We need to sort out the details of our catechism and make a proper reference text. Impromptu lectures on kink and freedom and the inherent value of whores isn't going to really cut it in the long term. We need some actual principles."

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"Also, you need to meet personally with both the Firebrand leaders and Guyton Grerton, I'd say. Take their measure as your new allies."

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There's an opening for her here. 

"I'd like to schedule a meeting to discuss catechism with just the clerics of Sunaira. How about we do that back at my apartment after we finish up here?" 

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"Smart." Rose smiles slightly. "I'm all for it."

 

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"Of course."

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Pen just nods.

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Simon looks up from his note-taking, opens his mouth for a moment, then closes it and nods.

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She'll leave the Sinflower and the alchemical ampoule aside for the moment. 

"There's a lot to accomplish and not much time to do it in. Let's get moving, everyone. Pen, here's the address of the property Dyrianna is lending us, go have a look at the exterior and see if you can see the interior. I'll write you a sealed letter to show you're acting on my behalf. Simon, Eleena will want to talk to you about a matter of business on my behalf. Rose and Ember, let's go have that catechism meeting." 

The sooner she's out of Shelyn's temple, the sooner she'll be able to discuss Eleena's politics with Rose and Ember where she can't be overheard.

 

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And the meeting breaks up.

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They reconvene in Rose's kitchen, the three of them sitting around the same table she'd eat at. The late afternoon sun streams in through the small window on the south side of the room. 

Kumi picks at her fur, her back tense, her tails curled up against her body. She's not sure how to start this meeting.

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"So," Rose says. "What's eating you? What's this meeting about, actually? I'm guessing not catechism."

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"Eleena pulled me aside and gave me a talk about my politics and I realized kind of abruptly that I've just been trusting most people to... see reason, I guess? But she asked me if I was with New Absalom or the Citizen's League and I didn't know how to answer her. I ducked the question, pretty much."

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"Ah," Rose says. "Politics. Let me guess, she's with New Absalom and thinks you're with the Citizens' League."

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"I had honestly not considered the question. I hate politics, I've been trying my best to stay out of them."

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"Don't tell me you're with the Optimates."

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"I am not with the Optimates."

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"I am sorry, I am not following at all. Who are these factions? What do they believe?"

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Rose looks at Kumi. "I guess we'd better explain it to her."

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Kumi nods. "You'd know the current camps better than I do."

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"Okay, so. There are two major political questions right now. Slaves and cults. These give rise to three major factions: the Optimates, New Absalom, and the Citizens' League. 

The Optimates are the status-quo faction. They want to preserve the system that "currently works." They're pro-slaveholding and pro-freedom-of-religion. They're heavily backed by Chelish interests, entrenched noble families who don't like change, and the Vault of Abadar."

Rose raises her eyebrows. "Then there are the two reformist blocs, both of which are anti-slaveholding but which are divided on the question of the Cult of Norgorber. New Absalom is anti-Norgorber and anti-slavery. It's the position of the middle classes, more or less. It's backed by the Arcanamirium, several merchant consortiums who are blatantly smugglers, and a few noble houses who are younger wealth. It's also in favor of increasing land taxes and reducing tarrifs - in general it's anti-old-money. I wouldn't be surprised that this is Eleena's position."

"Lastly there's the Citizens' League. It's pro-freedoms in general. No slavery, no banned religions. It's backed by the Church of Calistria, the Cult of Norgorber, and most of the city's common laborers. As such it's the obvious faction we'd fall into."

Rose looks at Kumi. "So we're likely in the awkward position of being across a political divide from our largest ally so far, the Church of Shelyn."

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"Ah. I see."

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"We've already committed to an anti-slaveholding stance, but the question of Norgorber and freedom of religion more generally is one that we haven't considered basically at all. I'd like to hear your opinions on it."

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"I... In Nidal, there is one religion. And it is Zon-Kuthon. I think it is far better to have the choice."

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"I don't think we have the resources to fight both Norgorber and Cheliax simultaneously. We're still a small faith."

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"Yes, but do we have the resources to go without the Church of Shelyn's aid?"

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"Eleena won't just dump us overnight. She's a fellow Good cleric, and agrees with us on the slavery question. There's room for mutual respect here."

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"And if she would drop us for bringing Sunaira's word to those who most need it, better to find out now than later. There is no virtue in running from pain."

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"That makes sense." 

Kumi sighs. "Alright. I'll give Eleena my response tomorrow."

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A moment later, there's a knock at the door.

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"Rose, could you go see who that is?"

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Rose goes and gets the apartment door.

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"Hey," Pen says, leaning against the doorjamb. "I've just come up from the docks. The place looks ratty as hell from the outside. There's guardsmen posted. They said they had instructions to admit Kumi if she wanted to see the property, but not anyone else, not even someone bearing her seal. You're going to have to go in person."

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Kumi nods. "Alright," she says. "That can be our last task for today. Thank you for your service, Pen. I'll take Ember and Rose down."

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Pen nods. "Don't mention it."

And off he goes.

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And so Kumi, Ember and Rose all pile into a camel-drawn carriage for transportation down to the docks, paying a few coppers between them for the ride. 

The trip's uneventful; they pass a Chelish tavern and the Carpenter's Union guild offices on the way, and finally stop near Besmarra's Boardwalk, in the touristy part of town. 

Kumi alights, and looks out across the bay towards Pilot Island's grand lighthouse. It dominates the bay, far taller than even the largest ships, and glows with enchanted light bright enough to even be seen during the day. 

"Alright," she says. "Let's have a look at this condemned whorehouse."

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Rose steps out behind her and takes up a position to her right.

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Ember smoothly takes Kumi's left-hand side, her gaze scanning the bay. She seems a little distracted.

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The trio proceed along Besmarra's Boardwalk together as a loose group, Kumi flanked by her impromptu bodyguards.

Kumi pulls a note out of her pocket and looks for the address of the property Lady Dyrianna offered to her.

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"Kumi -" 

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Kumi bumps into something about shin-height, and almost stumbles.

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"I'm sorry ma'am I didn't know where I was going -" 

A rattily dressed child scurries a foot away and looks up at her. "You're not angry, are you?"

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Oh, this old routine. 

She still has her ring of sustenance and her coin purse. 

"Go on," she says, shooing the child away. "Get. I don't have anything for you today." 

It breaks her heart to say it a little, but she knows that this urchin won't get to keep anything she gives - anything she hands to her will end up in the hands of adult criminals. 

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"Sorry ma'am, I'll go, sorry -" 

She darts into an alleyway.

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Kumi risks a glance down the alleyway. She has Rose and Ember to guard her.

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Halfway down the alley is an older girl, perhaps fourteen, smoking rolled qat leaves. She looks at the younger girl and gives her a raised eyebrow.

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She just shakes her head.

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And then they're both behind her as she goes on down the boardwalk. 

She knew it was a mistake not to change before she left. She's still in her courtesan's robes and it's making her a target - but the last thing she wants is to still be on the docks come evening. Tradeoffs.

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A woman in an intricate veil who's sitting in a large and gaudy cart by the side of the road perks up as she sees Kumi pass. "Your fortune read, madam! The future unveiled in a flash by the one and only Scarin Saloli, Sorceress Extraordinaire!"

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She walks by without so much as saying a word.

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The woman calls after her. "I sense deep ill fortune in your future, madam! There is much danger to come for you!"

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Yeah, no. There's no such thing as a true prophetess since Aroden died. She's cast Auguries, she knows the limits of magic. She will just keep walking and ignore this con artist.

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"There is doom for you! So much doom! Immense pain!" The fortune teller's voice rises, a little desperately.

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Rose stifles a small giggle.

"I think she knows she's losing a sale," she whispers to Kumi.

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Kumi smiles back and nods. 

And on they go.

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They pass a hawker with gills on her neck and a distinctly fishy appearance. "Treasures!", she calls. "Honest salvage from the depths of Absalom Bay! Crystals, coral, fossils, foreign coins, shells, pearls, azlanti debris, reagents!"

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Now that's a little tempting. If she has time after this she might stop by and see if there's anything interesting to purchase.

For now, though, she has a mission. Onwards she goes.

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"Test your luck, test your skill!" Calls a half-elf under a sign of a pair of crossed knives over a target. "Knife throwing! Knife throwing! Test your aim and win valuable prizes! Come now, foxy woman, don't you want to see if you can put a knife through a target? Perhaps your scarred friend would like to give it a try?"

The barker flips a knife on his finger as he makes his pitch, a cocky grin on his face. "Come now, won't you try it? Only one silver!"

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She looks over at Ember.

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Ember is eyeing the knife in the barker's hands with an expression of distinct interest. 

"- Do you mind if I have a try?" she asks Kumi. "I know we're on a business trip and all, but..."

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Ember? Trying something fun? She has all the time in the world for this. 

"Go ahead," she says. "We can spare ten minutes."

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"That's it, my ladies, step right up! A pewter ring if you can put a dagger through the center of this target right here down the lane. Give yourself a chance and see if you can throw with the best!"

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Ember smiles despite herself, and offers up a silver piece to the proprietor. "Here," she says. "I'll have a try."

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"I knew you for someone with a talent for the knife! Here you are," he says, handing over a throwing-dagger. "You've got three shots. Take your time and do your best!"

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A half-orc standing at the other side of the throwing booth looks up from a sketchpad and smiles slightly. "Don't let my brother fool you. Quick and direct's the best way to go at it. Throw whenever you're ready."

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Kumi raises an eyebrow.

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"You two are brothers?"

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"Mmmhm. Same father, anyway." The half-orc watches Ember as she lines up on the target, the dagger firm in her hand. "You know, I would say your friend here really does know something."

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Ember is a picture of focus as she lines up her shot. 

With a single firm flick of her wrist, she throws the dagger end over end. It flashes through the air, sinks directly into the center of the target, and sticks.

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The half-elven proprietor claps. "Well done, well done! Here's your ring!" He passes Ember a small, simply ornamented ring with a wave pattern on it. He looks over at Kumi and Rose. "Would you two like to try as well?"

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"Oh, why not." Rose smiles and hands over a silver piece of her own. "Give me a shot."

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The proprietor pulls the knife out of the target and hands it back to Rose. "Here you go," he says. "Three shots!"

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Rose lines up on the target and readies herself as best she can.

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"Your posture is off. Don't try and spin it deliberately, it'll happen on its own if you get the throw right."

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"Alright." Rose adjusts her grip.

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"Try it!"

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Rose flicks her fingers, and the knife goes flying down the lane and bounces off the target hilt-first.

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"Awwww, bad luck. Again!" He hands the knife back to Rose.

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Kumi looks over at the half-orc. "So who are you two, anyway?"

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"I'm Quar and he's Galamere. Thinking you'll come back again sometime?"

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"Perhaps, yes. We're planning to start a business near here."

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"Much luck to you with that," Quar says. "Place could use a few more honest businesswomen." His hand moves on the sketchpad, flicking through motions.

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"What are you sketching there?"

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"You, actually." He grins slightly. "An extra prize for if your girlfriend sinks this throw."

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Kumi looks back over at Rose, who's made her second throw while she wasn't looking. "Good luck!"

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Rose throws the knife a third time. This time it sticks, but in the very edge of the target.

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"Aw. I can't give you a pewter ring for that, but my brother'll have a sketch for you. Quar?"

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The half-orc steps forward, peels the top sheet of his artwork off, and passes it to Rose. "Here," he says.

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Rose looks at the sketch on the paper and breaks down into giggles.

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Ember looks at the paper and raises an eyebrow, but a small smile comes to her lips as well.

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"What is it?" Kumi leans in.

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Rose turns the page towards her, and reveals a caricature of Kumi. Her flowing courtesan's robes have been exaggerated into a floppy trailing bathrobe, and her face has been made up with what looks like five pounds of makeup. Her snout is long, and her mouth is full of teeth. Her bun hairstyle has been exaggerated too, looking like a knitter's pincushion. 

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Kumi blinks, then laughs. "Yeah, that is what I look like!" She claps a few times for Quar's talent and smiles at him. "You have a skill."

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"Thank you," Quar says smugly. "It's good to meet a lady with a sense of humor about her appearance. Want to make a try at the knife throwing?"

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Kumi shakes her head. "No, I think I've got to get on to business. Maybe another day."

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"You're sure?"

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"I'm sure." She gestures to Rose and Ember. "Let's keep moving, girls."

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"Aw. Alright." Rose follows along.

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Ember follows without a word, still playing with the pewter ring on her finger.

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Finally, after passing what seems like at least a dozen more hawkers and places of business, they arrive at the property. 

It looks awful from the outside. It pretends to be a tavern, but the outside's paint is peeling and it smells distinctly of qat leaves and smoke. The tiles on the roof are all higgledy-piggledy and more than a few have fallen into the alleyway. There's a bored-looking guard posted outside the door.

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"Halt," calls the guard. "This property belongs to Lady Dyrianna. Do you have a pass to enter?"

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Kumi nods. "Yes, I'm in talks to rent it from her and renovate it. My name is Kumi Shiromusume, I sent a messenger?"

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"Ah. Yes. Well, the property is a shambles but you've a right to tour it. Go on in. Your companions will have to stay outside."

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"I'm not going into that abandoned building alone, do you think I'm an idiot? Anything could have taken up residence."

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"Mrrrm. Alright, you may bring your companions. But only tour the property, you understand?"

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"I understand." 

Kumi steps past the guard and in through the door.

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The former brothel's front room looks like the most run-down tavern Kumi's ever seen. It's heavily water-damaged; there's a bucket beneath a hole in the roof and the floorboards are rotten and swollen. The wallpaper is smoke-stained and the chairs and tables have visible mold. The whole place looks like it should be condemned and torn down, not repaired.

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Ember comes in through the door and looks around. 

She snorts. "Could be worse."

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"How?"

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"It could have been fire damage. The water damage is relatively localized. You weren't going to use the old furniture anyway. You'll have to repair the hole in the roof and rip up the soggy floorboards, and replace the wallpaper and the ceiling tiles, but the bones are mostly solid."

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"I dread to think what the rooms for the girls were like if this is the common room."

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"Let's go look together."

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Rose is still looking, in something resembling abject horror.

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Kumi passes around the moldy furniture and the water-damaged floor, and goes on into the back of the establishment. 

There are rooms, back here, each with a single mattress on the floor stained with distressingly nameable fluids. There's a lot of qat residue. Some blood. Some mold. Some other kinds of stains. She startles as a rat runs across her vision. 

"Great," she sighs. "It's rat-infested."

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"At least they're not giant rats. That would have been an adventurer problem."

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Kumi can't keep the distaste off her face. "We're going to have to hire an exterminator, in any case. Or perhaps a druid through the Church of Shelyn. All the bedding will have to be burned with precautions as well, none of it is sanitary at all."

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"I have seen worse. It is repairable."

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"I do not want to know." 

Kumi passes down along the hallway and comes to the room at the end, which is... An office. 

It's free of smoke stains, free of water damage, and has a quite imposing desk with a glass top and a leather chair that seems to be intact as well. There's filing cabinets that look to be mahogany. 

"Of course the fucker who ran the place kept his area clean, intact and well-appointed." Kumi snarls the words and has to clench her claws into the edges of her hand. "Fucking bastard."

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"It is the way it always is."

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"Bastard," Rose echoes.

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Kumi takes a slow breath out. "Still, it's a small windfall. This office would be usable almost as-is. It'd be a start."

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"Yes. It would be."

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"All in all it is less good than I hoped but less bad than I feared."

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"The bones are mostly intact. It will serve, with enough work put into it. We'll have to rip out the bar and all the furniture." 

She takes a long breath. "We'll heal this place."

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Rose nods firmly. 

"We will," she says. "We will."

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Kumi wakes in the back room of the under-renovation brothel, where the former owner once slept. Her familiar bed is comfortable, but she's still getting used to the noise of the docks at night. 

She gets up and paces over to the old desk and her new papers, flipping through them out of habit. Most of them are invoices and bills of sale; she's spent a little over half a thousand gold so far, mostly on the roof. 

It's a lot to deal with. She wishes that Ember and Rose would have agreed to sleep in the brothel with her, but neither of them wanted to have to listen to the construction noises all day. At night she's alone bar the pair of night watchmen Pen hired for them through the Firebrands. 

She goes over to her room closet and shrugs on her priestess' robes, then kneels at the impromptu shrine she's set up in the back and prays to the Sinflower in its small pot. Small pieces of coral and glinting glass ring it, little treasures bought from Jossie Slimfin's stall.

She uses Ishaza's catechism, with a few of her own additions.

Sunaira, guide me with your kindly touch. Let me be kind, caring, beautiful and whole. Let me bear for others what they cannot bear themselves. Let me make the world a brighter place and bring joy to those who know me. Let me delight in everything the world has to offer, but never forget that the best thing is to share that with another.

May all those who have suffered learn joy.

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She answers with the familiar surge of power. 

I am here, she means. I am listening.

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Kumi checks through her spells. Nothing unusual today.

Thank you, Goddess.

She gets up and goes out to the common room to survey the status of the work. The roof's intact now, and seems to have held against the rain that happened overnight. A wide pit yawns beneath it, cordoned off by an improvised barrier; one of the floor joists above the basement was rotten through and needs to be replaced. 

There's no furniture in the front room anymore, or indeed in the whole building outside Kumi's room. Kumi saw to the burning of the old mattresses and bedsheets personally, checking the workers with Detect Disease to make sure they didn't contract anything from the filthy remains of the old brothel. The old carpet in the back rooms still needs replacing, but fortunately none of it detects as infected when she sweeps it. The building still smells of qat residue and smoke and is nowhere near presentable, but it is at least safe for her to stay in while repairs proceed. 

Rose and Ember should arrive in a few minutes to discuss the plans for the front room. She hopes they'll be able to reach an agreement today; the work on the joist is going to be done soon.

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The night watchman posted in the front room nods to her, his fingers drumming on the hilt of his rapier. "Good morning, Ma'am," he says, with a deferential nod of his head.

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"Good morning, Leo." She nods to him and passes out through the front doorway.

The harbor is still just as beautiful in the early morning. She can watch the sun rise over the Precipice Quarter and not have to think overmuch on the conditions inside it. 

She looks up and down the docks for any sign of Rose or Ember.

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And here they both are, dismounting from a camel taxi a dozen paces down the dock.

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Ember's still wearing the pewter ring she won, and is serving as Rose's bodyguard with a hand on a dagger at her hip.

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She doesn't walk the few strides to join them. There'll be an urchin with some diversion. You just don't go anywhere alone on the Docks. 

"Good to see you two!" she calls instead.

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"Good to see you as well!" Rose calls back. She smiles, and hastens her pace. 

A few moments later she ducks in underneath the eaves of the building. 

"So, night owl," she says. "Get anything useful done?"

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"We can discuss that inside." Kumi smiles and gestures for Rose to join her.

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Rose enters the brothel, trailing Ember behind her.

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"Mind the hole in the floor." Kumi takes a wide path around the opening into the basement, and goes into her back office.

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Rose and Ember come in and stand before Kumi's desk. 

"So," Rose says. "Catechism."

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"Catechism," Ember echoes. "And the front room."

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"Yes, well, it's really all one problem, isn't it?" Kumi sighs. "Let's go over it again, see if anyone's moved on their positions."

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"I want the front room to be useful for Nap Stack and for doing mass healing," Rose says. "We're a good-aligned temple, we should be providing healing services. Make a proper shrine of it, or else everyone's going to mistake us for just another Calistrian brothel. We need to show that we're different. That means services, theology classes, the whole nine yards."

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"Rose has a point, but I think it is most important that this temple be a place where people can be... comfortable. Not a place where they must listen to sermons or deal with large crowds of people. It should be quiet. Full of beautiful things. A relaxing place. A joyous place. Somewhere that you can just... be, for a while, and leave your cares behind. I do not want the business or worship aspects to prevent someone from finding real joy."

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"Both of you have points, but I must stress that we're all clerics of a goddess of sexuality and that the entire reason we arranged to lease this building rather than another was so that we could have a proper courtesan's guild license. The whole point was to outcompete the slave-based brothels at the docks with superior service and help the area become more safe. And we have a large loan that we need to pay off somehow, so there is going to need to be some kind of business here in order to make back that money."

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"Yes, I'm not arguing that we shouldn't be a brothel. But there has to be some way to make it clear that this is a house of worship and not just whores."

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"I must admit that I am still a little confused as to the purpose. Rose has said that it is for... sexual pleasure, as a service... but there has been almost no discussion of acquiring the proper implements for sex."

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"We need to get the place up to standards before we think about sex toys. We won't get any customers no matter how expensive our sex toys if we can't clean the place and make it look attractive. Speaking of which, we need to speak to the Arcanamirium and get some junior wizards in here to prestidigitate the smoke in the carpets and walls away."

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"By sex toys, you mean... daggers, whips...?"

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Ah. Right.

"I think your definition of sex and my definition of sex may be strongly different. Please explain what activities you mean by sex."

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"It is - the things I do, the designs - that is sex. We've - you asked me if I wanted to cut my design into you, you said it was meaningful. That - In Nidal that is sex."

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Kumi blinks. 

... "Oh." 

So that's why she said it was good to see how she bore pain. She'd written that off as merely another piece of Nidalese propaganda. Apparently that went deeper than she thought. 

"- are we in a relationship?"

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"I - what?" Ember frowns. "Yes, we are both priestesses of the same goddess...?" 

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" - outside Nidal if you have sex with someone generally there are - courtship rituals around that, and you become attached for some time -" 

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" - I would bear suffering for you, if that is what you mean."

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"We really need to talk through all this properly. But alright, I will take that in the spirit it is intended. I'm going to - try to refrain from assuming that you're assuming -" 

She presses her hand over her right cheek and jowl and rubs the side of her muzzle. "Ugh. Okay, so - there is a set of things that are generally regarded as sex outside Nidal, generally involving gentle touches between the legs and on the breasts, for women. I would say "sensitive areas" but I know that you hear something completely different when I say that. I mean sensitive in a way that's pleasurable, like when I pet your hair. You try to cause so much pleasure for the person that it overwhelms them and they have a - release. I think you know the sense of - overwhelmingness - from what you have done with me and in your past but usually it's been pain for you. Sex among people who are not from Nidal is about pleasure instead. And I - given what you've said so far I deeply suspect you've been deliberately injured in the areas I'm describing so that touching them is not pleasurable. But it is pleasurable for most people." 

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Ember's eyebrows slowly rise. 

"I think I have a small understanding, yes. For me sex is about... overwhelming the person who is receiving pain... But those areas can be involved, yes. You are correct that I do not experience touch in those areas as pleasurable. This different kind of sex is still an important thing for non-nidalese people? I had not expected there to be a - pleasure-based alternative."

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"This is such an important thing to our goddess that it's one of her core domains - kink, the variety of pleasurable things that can be done during sex. I know we haven't really discussed that part of her catechism yet, I've been avoiding the subject because, uh, I had absolutely no idea what your experience was and didn't want to bring up something that could be very painful to you emotionally - but it is important that you know that you are missing an important part of the mortal experience -" 

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Rose coughs. "Uh, Kumi -"

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Kumi pauses in her explanation. "Yes?"

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"I'm not interested in sex, as far as I can tell. It's part of why Lilian liked me, I wasn't going to ask her for the same kinds of things her clients did. It's not a universal thing."

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"I - nonetheless, Ember hasn't had the chance to try it.

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Ember frowns. 

"If it is as you say..." She crosses her arms. "I think I would like to try this alternative."

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Oh great, now she's blushing. Ember and Rose together have completely knocked her off her game and she's going down a complete tangent. 

"Then I recommend that you see the church of Sarenrae and receive whatever treatment is necessary to heal your injuries in such areas, and then, um - we can talk about it. It... I think it is important that you understand this, as a Cleric of Sunaira. So I would... encourage you to try."

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Ember just nods.

"Returning to the matter at hand..."

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"Er, yes."

Kumi tries to recall what she was saying before she was completely knocked off track.

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"The front room."

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"Right, yes, thank you Rose."

She takes a long breath and runs a hand through her hair. 

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"Alright, so. The front room. I think that it makes good sense for it to be a combination shrine and lounge. A place to rest and wait for a courtesan. The shrine should be reasonably fancy and clearly not an icon of Calistria.

We do scheduled channels and worship meetings in the front room - thank you, Rose - but we do them in the morning and early afternoon, never the evening. During the evening we focus on brothel business. 

As for dealing with Nap Stack and more targeted healing, we set aside one of the back rooms as a magical clinic and rest room. We cast Nap Stack on Fireday of each week for our people, as well as on any day that it is purchased by an individual or group. If the slot is not used for Nap Stack, we channel it into the Sinflower to make more. We can organize a group buy-in system if need be."

She looks at Rose and Ember. "Is there anything wrong with this plan?"

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"It's not ideal for Nap Stack efficiency, but I can see it working. We'll have to figure out how to make the shrine distinct from Calistria's - the Shelynites should know some things about design and be able to help us there. We still need to come up with something to actually say during worship meetings, but scheduling them and channels for the morning and afternoon makes sense."

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"I have no objections."

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"Good," Kumi says. "Glad we could sort that out."

She looks at Rose. "Let's get to work, shall we?"

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"Of course."

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"As for you, Ember - go talk to the Church of Sarenrae. I'm serious about this."

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"Of course." Ember bows slightly.

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And the day's work begins. 

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Later that day...

"You did not have to come," Ember says stiffly. "Surely there is some business you need to attend to?"

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"Kumi says, and I agree, that it's going to be... an adjustment for you. And there are few things more important to our church than making sure you are okay and safe through the whole process."

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Ember looks up at the high minarets of the Temple of the Shining Star. "I am strong. I can bear it."

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It sounds more like she's trying to convince herself than anything else.

"Nonetheless. You always bring someone to advocate for you when you seek serious medical treatment. That's just a rule of how the system works."

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"I see..."

Ember passes through the shadow of the massive sundial outside the temple, and enters. 

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The temple is crowded with pilgrims and Seekers. Sarenrae's church oversees the Test of the Starstone, so the hall is full of men and women in armor. 

Towards the front, a cleric holds forth on the beauty of redemption and the virtue of mercy.  

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Rose guides Ember past the congregation and into a small office at the side of the temple. There's a sitting area, crowded with the injured and sick; she nods to the receptionist, takes a seat, and gestures for Ember to join her.

"We'll be called when they're ready to see us."

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Ember settles into her chair, sitting rigidly, tapping one four-fingered hand against her other elbow.

"How long is the wait, usually?"

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"Some hours, generally. There is only so much powerful magical healing to go around."

Rose settles in. "Would you like to talk?"

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"I do not think so."

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"Then here are some copies of documents translated out of Shadowtongue that I need corrections on."

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"Ah. Efficient." Ember smiles slightly, showing her sharpened teeth. "I approve."

She takes the sheaf of papers and begins to leaf through them.

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Some hours later, a priest comes down through the rows and stops before Rose and Ember. 

"We're ready to see you," he says quietly.

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Rose accepts her documents back from Ember. "Thank you," she says.

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Ember stands and nods. "I am ready."

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They're lead into another small room, and the priest nods to Ember. "So," he says. "What are you here for today?" 

His gaze flicks down at her missing fingers.

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"We are here for a Regenerate today," Rose says. "Ember is a Nidalese survivor."

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The priest nods. "I had suspected so. It will be a somewhat longer wait for you - you'll need the Scion Lady's personal attention. She will be here in around an hour, after she finishes leading her congregation." 

He looks over at Rose. "As for payment...?"

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Rose fishes in her purse. "I have a promissory note here from the Church of Shelyn to cover the cost." She shows it.

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He inspects the paper and nods. "I'll cross-reference our records." 

He steps out. 

Church of Shelyn, are these women legit?

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Yes, they're legit.

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He goes back into the room. "I've checked the records. You are Ember Scar of Nidal?"

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"Yes."

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"Then there should be no issues. The Scion Lady will see you in a few hours."

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"Very well."

Ember settles in to wait again.

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Rose nods to the priest and returns to her translation work.

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Some hours later, a woman wearing a jeweled circlet enters the room. She surveys Ember thoughtfully. 

"Good afternoon," she says. "You are seeking a Regenerate?"

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"I am."

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The woman nods. 

"The process is not painful, but can be deeply disconcerting to experience as new flesh grows in. It only takes around a minute to fully restore all lost function. You will lose all injuries or scars you bear, including tattoos or deliberate scarification such as you bear on your face. Are you certain you wish to proceed?"

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Ember hesitates for a moment, then finally nods. 

"I am certain."

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"I will have to touch you to trigger the spell. Where would you prefer to be touched?"

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Ember extends a four-fingered hand, palm up.

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Lady Xerashir taps it once with a finger, the fleetingest of touches. 

"There," she says. 

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For a moment it seems like nothing has happened - but then there is a very alien feeling, and a new finger surges into being at the end of Ember's hand. 

The energies of the spell roll through her body in a single wave, and the finger on her other hand grows back. Her teeth creak and surge and fill out again. The scars beneath her clothes wash away...

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... and she's left with no marks on her face at all. Her eyes are no longer cloudy, and the deliberate burn scars have gone. 

She feels naked.

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Rose smiles. 

"It's a big adjustment, isn't it?"

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"I - yes." 

Ember seems to shrink into herself a little. 

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"Everything is intact?"

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"Much of the damage was done to her when she was quite young, so she doesn't have a baseline. Nidal."

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"Ah. Yes." 

She nods. 

"I have other duties to attend to, but I will send a priestess to ensure you're seen to."

The Lady sweeps out of the room.

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And a junior priestess scuttles in, looking chastened. 

"Er, yes, hello. Thank you for waiting. The Lady can be - Brusque, at times." 

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"It's alright. She has many demands on her time." 

Rose looks over at Ember. "Do you feel well enough to walk?"

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Ember touches her unscarred face with her five-fingered hand.

She's doubly unused to this. 

"... I believe so," she says, her voice carefully neutral.

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Ember smiles. "Are you hungry at all?"

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"A little."

In truth she's starving. They've been waiting over lunch.

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Rose reaches into her purse and pulls out a crisp apple. 

"Here," she says. "Eat this."

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She knows a challenge when she hears one.

Ember takes the apple and scowls at Rose. Then she takes a big, sharp bite. 

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... There's absolutely no pain. 

What.

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Rose looks at Ember's face, then back at the junior priestess. 

"Is there a quiet place nearby where we could take some time to ourselves?"

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"You can have the room for another fifteen minutes, but there's no parks in Ascendant Court. I would head to the Ivy District."

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So far, so unhelpful.

"Thank you." 

Rose stands and looks at Ember. "Let's go together."

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Ember nods and stands, still holding the apple. 

She takes another testing bite. 

Still no pain. 

Something, some emotion, squirms deep beneath her skin. She forces it down. This is neither the time nor the place. 

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She'll hold together until she's somewhere safe and then she'll fall apart completely. Rose recognizes the signs. 

"Let's go back to my apartment and pick up food on the way," Rose says. "We'll eat when we get there."

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"That seems reasonable."

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Rose leads her out into the city. They pass through Ascendant Court and into the Coins, stopping by a street vendor to pick up a large piece of roasted goat, served with leavened bread with honey and hard cheese. Rose carries the food, leaving Ember to worry at her apple. 

Eventually they arrive at the steps of Rose's apartment again, and Rose ushers Ember into her rooms. 

She goes through the bagful of food and lays it out on the kitchen table on her own plates, offering cheese, goat and bread alike for Ember.

"Here," she says. "You must be starving. I know I am."

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She'll rise to this challenge too. 

She takes a seat. 

She takes a moment to consider the food. It smells amazing, full of herbs she barely knows.

Frippery, says an old part of her. Worthless.

... She can just eat this. 

She can just eat this.

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Rose just watches, and doesn't push.

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She cuts a small slice off the end of the slab of roasted goat. 

She spears it with her fork.

She eats. 

It's absolutely delicious. Better than the berries Kumi fed her. Better than anything she's ever tasted before. 

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It is so, so hard not to break down and cry in front of Rose.

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"It's okay," Rose says softly. "I know it's a lot."

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She doesn't know how to handle this. Nobody ever taught her how to handle - kindness. 

That's what this is. Kindness. She has the word now, from her work with translation. 

The foreigners are... on to something.

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"... I need some time to think." 

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"... to cry, you mean."

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"... Yes."

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"You can cry on me if you want to. It's okay to be alone, but - I heard that Kumi petted your hair, and I wanted to - offer you that option."

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.. Right. She can just have that. 

"I think I would like you to pet my hair."

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"Then you shall have it. Bed in my room?"

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" I - would like to eat - but I don't - I can't - It's too much."

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"It's alright. We can come back to it." 

Rose pushes back her chair from the table and goes into her bedroom.

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Ember trails after her. 

She sits down on the edge of the bed. 

It's hard.

It's really really hard.

But Rose... wants her to be strong.

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Rose reaches up, and gently strokes her fingers through Ember's hair.

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It's good.

It's really, really good.

She could do this and the - goat leg - 

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She breaks down and cries.

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Rose nestles her against her side, and takes her hand from Ember's hair and instead gently rubs her back. 

"It's okay," she says. "It's - it is okay to need time. It's okay to cry. I won't hurt you for it. It's okay."

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She had thought she'd figured it all out. That she'd - realized it, that it would then just be over

It's not over.

She rests against Rose and cries her heart out.

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Rose holds her. Patiently, calmly. Not doing an inch more than she asked for.

"Yeah," she says. "I thought it might be like that."

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Ember pulls away from her touch, after a while. 

"I -" She takes a slow breath. "I feel -"

She's never had to analyze her own emotions before. 

"Bad. I feel bad."

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"What does it feel like, physically? What's your body telling you?"

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"I feel... almost pain in my chest. It's hard to breathe regularly, my breath wants to rush. It feels heavy in my gut and my body is all tense."

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"Fear, I think. And sorrow. And maybe a tinge of guilt."

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"I just -" Ember runs a hand through her hair. "I feel naked. I'm - unscarred. You couldn't tell that I'm from Nidal looking at me. I could - vanish into a crowd and tell no-one where I'm from and they wouldn't guess. I'd just be... another person. Another foreigner."

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"Yeah. Those scars you bore, some of them mattered to you. And some of them were crippling you. And you still need to - figure out which is which."

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"It's not right for my skin to be unblemished. No daughter of Nidal should be without scars."

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"And who taught you that?"

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"My family." A note of warmth creeps into her voice, even now.

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"And they learned that from...?"

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"... The kuthites."

The words feel like a dagger in her heart.

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"It's your choice to bear or not bear scars, Ember. But you must remember that you've been taught deliberately to harm yourself by the priests of a god of suffering. It's not harmless to you to scar yourself. It's part of how they get you to accept that you're theirs to hurt."

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She gathers herself. It's hard to get through to this foreigner, especially when everything is so hard. But she has something to fight for, here.

"It's - It's my art, though. Kumi says my designs are beautiful. That I'm able to - make something good from it."

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"Yes. And she's accepted one of your patterns on her own body. It's not an either-or thing. I just want you to stop and think before you do anything new to yourself. Before you harm this body you've been given anew."

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"... I understand."

It would be so grounding to hurt herself right now. She feels adrift. 

But she said to Kumi that she wouldn't, so she won't.

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"May I pet your hair some more?"

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"... You may."

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Rose tangles her hand in Ember's hair, and strokes. Gentle, gentle.

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She is not supposed to care about the fact that the goat leg is getting cold. 

She waits a few minutes, but her will breaks in the end.

"... Can we go back to the meal now?"

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"We can. We absolutely can."

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Rose gets up from the bed, and leads Ember back into the kitchen, where she sits at the table again.

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Ember comes and joins her. She's regained some of her previous composure.

She sits and tries some more of the cold goat leg. 

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... It's less overwhelming when it's cold. There's still far more depth of flavour than she's used to, but it is no longer the best thing she's ever tasted. 

She eats a piece slowly, taking time over her chewing. 

It's still so strange to her that it doesn't hurt. 

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Rose cuts a slice of her own piece of goat and smiles. "Try the bread and cheese."

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Ah, yes, bread. Bread she is used to. It's a little more fripper- a little better than gruel, and only somewhat painful to chew. 

She rips off a piece and bites.

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... There's spices in the bread too.

She was not expecting to taste anything other than the warm rich flavour of well-baked bread, and this... is more than that. It's a little like the goat leg.

She could have been eating this all her life.

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She chews slowly. Swallows. 

"... People outside Nidal..." 

The thought takes a moment to come together. 

"... Think bread without spices is bland. But it is not. It is - rich, full, pure. But this bread, it is..." 

She touches her chin. 

"It is better. But I wonder what it is like to think that bread is always like this."

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"We eat unspiced bread too. But I think you're right. The richness and variety of good things outside Nidal means that we appreciate simple things like unspiced bread less."

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She tries the cheese. In Nidal this would be a high luxury, but here it's everyday. She feels - beyond spoilt. 

It's creamy and a little sharp. The flavour is solid. It drowns the last of the lingering herbs in the bread. 

It still doesn't hurt.

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"I think that... outside Nidal, people are not grateful for... not being in pain. The Kuthites would say they are weak because of this. I think..."

She looks down at the plate of food. 

"... It is more complex."

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"Most people take the absence of pain as the default state of their lives."

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"I think..."

She takes another bite of her piece of goat, chews, thinks. 

"I think that I am... better at pleasure than foreigners are. In a way."

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Rose snorts. "Says the woman who has to be actively convinced to let anyone touch her and who thinks roast goat leg is a delicacy."

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Ember gives Rose a flat look. "I am still learning. But most foreigners do not stop, think "it is good that I am not crippled", "it is good that I am not in pain." They assume it is the only way they will be. I..." 

She pauses.

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"Have experienced so much awful shit that it makes normalcy seem good by comparison, yes."

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The corner of Ember's mouth twitches up. 

"Just so."

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"I think that's still Kuthite propaganda, a little. Suffering makes you better than people who haven't suffered. But I think it's a step in the right direction from where you were."

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Ember nods, and goes back to her meal. 

It's a little easier, now. 

Eventually she finishes everything.

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"Would you like to go see Kumi now?"

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"Yes," she says with a small smile. "I think I would."

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About an hour later...

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The soon-to-be temple is in the middle of having its walls and floor presitidigitated clean by a team of laundry wizards when the knock comes on Kumi's door. 

"Come in," she calls distractedly.

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Ember enters, Rose trailing along behind her.

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Kumi looks up. "Who are - Wait. Ember?"

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She nods, swallowing a lump in her throat.

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"You look beautiful," Kumi says. "I was expecting to see you with a new set of scars..."

She runs a hand through her hair. "... It's good to see you. Are you here about the matter we discussed this morning?"

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She simply nods. 

It's a big step, trying something pleasurable deliberately, but... She trusts Kumi and Rose. If they think this is important, she'll go along with it.

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"We'll need real privacy. Rose, can you take over directing the contractors for me here while I take Ember back to my old room in your apartment?"

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"Of course." Rose nods sharply. "Good luck, you two."

She pauses. "Also, there's no bed there anymore, you moved it, remember? But I don't mind at all if you use mine for this."

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"Oh, yes." Kumi looks over at the very same bed which had been moved, now sitting through a door in her back office. "It's been such a mess managing everything that it completely slipped my mind. Thank you, Rose."

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"It's nothing. Go learn together."

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Kumi nods, and heads out of her office, leading Ember on behind her. 

"Back to the apartment," she says. "Sorry for making you crisscross the city like this."

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"It is alright. There is much to see and do in Absalom. I am still getting used to it."

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Her teeth aren't sharp anymore either, when she looks. She bets Ember's pinkies are back too, but she's not going to be so crass as to check

"Did you share lunch with Rose?"

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"Yes. It was... an experience. I am still learning Absalom food. I think it is better."

They pass out of the brothel-under-repair as workmen board up the hole in the floor again and an Arcanamirium apprentice slowly sweeps Prestidigitation along the deep soot stains on the walls. 

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Kumi falls in step with Ember. 

She can just imagine what that would have been like for Ember. Her first meal of solid food in fifteen years that wasn't seasoned with agony. 

"I'm glad you enjoyed it."

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"I am learning." Ember smiles.

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Jossie Slimfin calls out to them as they pass. "Kumi! I've got new stock in. Anything you'd like to buy?"

The gills on her neck flare a little as she gestures to her collection of bright, glinting objects.

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Kumi looks over at Ember.

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"I think we have something more important to do," Ember says. "Later."

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Kumi nods, and the pair walk on.

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Ember is quiet for most of the ride, but eventually... 

"My teeth always used to twinge whenever I set my jaw. The stumps of my fingers, whenever I flexed my hands. I accepted it as the way things were. Reminders that pain is eternal. But now I am in no pain when I speak, no pain when I grasp. I can eat meat and hard cheese, and more..."

She looks out at the bustling market of the Coins, with all its hundred kinds of vendors and people. 

"I have been lied to and crippled for all my life. It is - too big to feel all at once. But it is there, now. I am beginning to grasp the shape of what was done to me. And it makes me deeply, deeply angry."

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"I think that is natural. What was done to you was cruel and wrong. It is correct to be angry about it. The question is what you do with that anger."

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Ember nods, and lapses into silence again.

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Eventually, the cab pulls up outside Rose's apartment.

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Kumi alights, graceful in her courtesan's robes, and turns and looks backward to look at Ember. 

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She steps down to the pavement as well, looking up at Rose's residence. 

"Let's try," she says.

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"Yes, let's." 

Kumi goes up the steps and into the tenement house. A few turns of corridor; she opens Rose's apartment with her key and pauses to let Ember come in.

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Ember comes in and pauses in the kitchen. 

"So," she says. "How does this work?"

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"I..." 

Kumi stumbles over her words for a moment. It's hard to stay professional.

"... We'll need a bed for comfort," she says. "Rose volunteered hers, so let's go sit there together." 

She closes the door behind Ember and locks up, putting the key back into her pocket.

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Ember goes into Rose's bedroom and sits on her bed. It's a small room, barely large enough for the bed and a desk. A single window illuminates the room with the late-afternoon sun. 

It feels a little familiar. Basic. Almost Nidalese. The bed is still too soft, and the window is too large. But for a moment she can pretend to be somewhere she knows.

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Kumi comes into Rose's bedroom and closes the internal door behind her. 

She fidgets with the low-cut collar of her courtesan's robes, feeling the soft silk. The contrast between what she's wearing and Ember's rough-spun wool couldn't be more stark. 

She hesitates for a moment - next to Ember, or at the end of the bed? - before splitting the distance, sitting a forearm's length away from her. Close enough to touch her, not close enough that she is.

"So," she says.

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"So," Ember says with a small smile. "What are you waiting for?"

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She's just another client. 

Kumi exhales and gathers herself. "Nothing. It's just - delicate, I want to make sure you have a good experience. People have deep emotions about sex and sexuality. I want to help you, and that means being careful."

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Ember seems to consider for a moment, then nods.

"I understand."

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... It's that simple, apparently. 

"Let's start with something less intense. Could you... take off your shirt for me?"

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Ember shucks her rough-spun woolen top with absolutely no sentimentality. She's wearing nothing underneath.

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Ember's skin is smooth. Unblemished. She was expecting a patchwork of scars. She still hasn't caught up to the fact that she's been healed. 

Kumi's gaze runs up and down Ember's chest and breasts, assessing. 

"... Probably the best thing for you to try, to start with, is for you to touch your nipples."

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"In any particular way, or...?"

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"Stroke them lightly. Once you're comfortable with that, you can try pinching. That might be a good sensation for you, since you're used to pain."

It's easier when Ember's asking for help.

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Ember nods. 

She raises her right hand to her left breast, and begins to gently stroke her nipple, running her fingers around the areola and across the small nub. 

Her eyes slip closed for a moment as it stiffens beneath her touch. 

"... That..." 

She doesn't seem to have words. She tries a light pinch, then increases the pressure and rolls her fingers against each other.

"... It hurts, but..."

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"When most people say they enjoy pain, they mean pain that's like that."

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Ember nods, and continues to stroke at herself. 

It's an alien sensation to her. It's good in a much more raw and animal way than even the food or the running. There's an echo of the thrill she gets when she cuts into someone's skin.

Her body is giving her strange sensations. Warmth. A sense of hollowness between her legs. 

Her hand roams over her side for a moment, then back up to her breast. 

It's good to feel touch. Even if she's only doing it to herself.

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Kumi watches, and says nothing. 

Every touch that Ember makes to herself seems to sear itself into her brain. It's not like with her clients. There she can spend as much time as she wants, keep herself professional, be amiable...

She feels a hunger that she's never felt before. She's had sex, a lot of it, but right now she wants to reach out and cradle Ember's cheek. To press her lips to hers. Not to please her, but because she wants her for herself.

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Ember opens her eyes and lets her hand fall from her skin.

"... You were right to show this to me," she says. "Is there more?"

The ache between her legs wants the answer to be yes.

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"There is more."

Kumi rests her muzzle against her fist for a moment, then nods. 

"... How do you feel?"

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"Warm. There is a - not a hunger, but an ache. A... need for pleasure that wants satisfying."

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"Then go ahead and try to satisfy it. If you have trouble I'll tell you what to do, but... You deserve to discover this on your own."

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Ember shifts back onto the bed, and slips off her rough-spun skirt. Then she slips her hand in between her legs and presses the flat against her sex. By instinct, she begins to grind and rub.

Her eyes close, her mind focused. She doesn't sigh or even breathe particularly hard. This is far less intense than the pain she's suffered, and it will not overmaster her.

Her hips rock into her hand, and her fingers seek for the best place to touch. It doesn't take her too long to find her clitoris. Light touches are better than harsh ones, here. 

It's not unlike her experience hurting and being hurt... just better.

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For someone who's masturbating, Ember's practically a stone statue. But the stiffness of her body betrays her pleasure; she trembles just slightly with each touch, and that is enough to tell the whole story.  

She wants to kiss her. 

She doesn't.

She watches, and carves every touch into her mind.

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She touches, and strokes, and presses in, and is not satisfied. It feels wonderful, but she can tell that there's something she needs, some release she can't reach. She tries her best, but eventually frustration wins out over her attempts. 

"I can tell that I need more," she says. "But I do not know how to - It is difficult." 

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Kumi looks her in the eyes. 

She shouldn't say this.

She says it anyway.

"I can instruct you, or I can touch you myself. It is up to you which."

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It's hard to admit it, but...

"... I would like to be touched."

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"Alright." 

Kumi reaches out and gently taps Ember's hand aside.

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She uncovers herself.

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She lays the pads of her fingers against Ember's sex, and strokes. She focuses on Ember's clitoris, with touches of her labia as well. 

It feels like she's bridging some - indescribable gulf - 

She strokes intently, her whole world narrowed to one hand and the warm wetness pressed into it. 

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... She feels a flush rising to her face. 

Touch is wrong, pathetic, weak -

Suddenly it is obvious why the Kuthites said that.

She reaches out in turn, braces herself against Kumi's shoulder. 

Kumi's touch is intense, sharp, like fire but not, like being cut but pleasurable instead of painful -

Ember's thighs tense and start to jerk raggedly, the sensation overwhelming all her defenses -

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Kumi lets Ember grind in, maintaining the rhythm that's working as best as she can, and breathes with no small amount of heat herself. 

"Come for me," she whispers, so quietly that she thinks she's the only one who can hear.

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The words are unfamiliar, but she understands the instruction. Surrender. Give in. Many people have told her words to that effect, before. 

She gives up and moves. The pleasure flares all across her stomach and abdomen, leaping like lightning outward from her overstimulated sex. 

She lets out a long, panting breath, and leans heavily on Kumi, her thoughts overwhelmed with pleasure, thick and foggy. 

All at once, a brilliant flash of sensation drives through her whole body, hot and blissful, the most intense pleasure she's ever felt in one sharp break like a whipstrike - 

She clings to Kumi and makes no more noise.

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"Beautiful," Kumi whispers. She gently wraps her arms and tails around Ember's body, bouying her through the unfamiliar sensations. 

They stay like that for a while.

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It's so much touch. 

"... Thank you," she says.

She stays against Kumi. Her body is right and the Kuthite in her head is wrong. She wants to be held.

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Kumi very gently pets Ember's bare back.

"... I said it was important, didn't I?" 

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"You did." 

Ember lays her head against Kumi's shoulder, and stays.

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Meanwhile, Sunaira has been investing micro into Tian Xia. 

Her shrine in Akafuto has a third circle cleric of its own, and is rapidly spreading the knowledge of her alchemical contraceptive up and down the coast of Minkai through the lumber trade. She's introduced several more helpful alchemical preventatives and treatments with the help of Qi Zhong, and the concept of "safe sex" is spreading. She's even gotten Daikitsu on board to help her given her fondness for sex workers. 

So far, the response from the evil deities of Tian Xia has been muted. Lady Nanbyo is trying to spread plague, as always, but she's ahead of her. Fumeiyoshi has been annoying: his edicts to punish those who have good fortune, devour the pleasures of the living and encourage resentment have lead to a natural opposition to anything good for anyone. He's still not really fighting on her territory, though; like Zon-Kuthon, he envies those who have pleasure rather than using pleasure itself as a weapon. She's played this game a thousand times before, and it's not hard to manipulate his oni, as obsessed with physical pleasures as they are. 

Lamashtu has been more of an issue. She plays in this region too, and has been eager to pervert the treatments Qi Zhong develops to cause birth defects and miscarriages. She's been preaching to the whores who now get a better chance in life, especially those with trauma, and trying to convince them to take vengeance and birth monstrous children with her blessing. Ultimately it's the cost of doing business - the good done outweighs the evil - but every time a whore sides with the Mother of Monsters over the Lady of Blackberries, Sunaira's heart breaks just a little. 

Nonetheless, Sunaira is broadly on track to win the sexual revolution on the continent at this rate. No-one else here but Kofusachi is playing her game.

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Nonetheless, you can't spend all your time on micromanagement, or you'll lose track of the larger picture. She's been making discreet inquiries among her fellow deities for minor and not-so-minor players who might support her goals. 

There are actually quite a few.

In the Mwangi Expanse, Adanye of the hearth and Uvuko of fertility and change. There's also the option of Lubaiko, who's always good for a revolution.

In Arcadia, Kazutal, defender of her people and guardian of community.

Of the elves, Yuelral, patron of herbalism and magic; and of the dwarves, Bolka, guardian of marriage and love.

There's a whole set of former players in Osirion - Bastet and Hathor most prominently. She hears they're playing on another server now, but she might be able to tempt them to return with the right incentive.

It would be foolish to invite them all to one chat channel - after all, most of them have never heard of each other, and some of them are active rivals - but she can nonetheless make inroads. Most of these conversations should be fairly short, simply a few words in the right ears. 

She'll start with Yuelral and leave the former Osirian deities for last. Speaking to them could tip her hand to Abadar, and she doesn't want to do that just yet.

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Hey, Yuelral, you're a patron of herbalism, right? Have you ever heard of a goddess named Arundhat?

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I have not. Is she the one who made that wonderful birth control preparation that Calistria's spreading around?

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Yes, she is; she's a goddess of herbalism too. You should perhaps speak with her, pool your notes. She's Vudrani, from the jungles of Sikari. Here's her address.

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Thank you, I'll speak to her when I next have a moment's rest. Urgathoa keeps me busy, you know how it is.

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I understand. Good luck!

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That should pay some dividends in time. Next on her list... Kazutal. 

Hey Kazutal, this is Sunaira. I'm a Neutral Good deity of Love, Pleasure, Sacrifice and Kinks from the Inner Sea region. Here's my proof of alignment. 

I understand your domains are community, liberty and safety; have you ever given a thought to the sexual liberty of your worshippers? I've heard that you deeply care about devotion to things you love. Perhaps there is something we could collaborate on?

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Ah, yes, Erastil said that you might call on me. Something about a cleric orison for birth control? It's not really my area of concern, but I'm certainly not against it. It would help devoted couples not to end up with too many mouths to feed. 

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There's an alchemical preparation for that, now, which you might be interested in...

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Unfortunately this preparation doesn't use herbs native to Arcadia, and I'm not sure how to adapt it. It was a good thought though. You could try taking this to Cihua Couatl and seeing if they're able to adapt it.

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Thank you, I will.

Cihua Couatl, here are my credentials. I have a question: do you believe you could adapt this alchemical solution to use Arcadian herbs?

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Let me look at this...

I'm afraid I can't adjust it. While I am a patron of healers and midwives, my aspect as a protector is much stronger than my aspect as a healer. As such...

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I'm sorry to hear that. Well, thank you for your time.

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It's nothing. You made the attempt decisively, and that's what matters.

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Well, that was always going to be a long shot. She supposes they can't all be like Tian Xia. 

Let's try the Mwangi Expanse now. 

Adanye, are you there? I'm Sunaira; here are my domains. Have you ever considered the value of birth control?

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I have not. But given your domains, we have more important things to discuss. You care deeply about consent, yes?

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I do.

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I care deeply about self-determination. The right to follow one's heart, to be yourself, to have a space of one's own.

I've heard about you through Shelyn, and I think you're doing a good thing by spreading more modern sexual mores. Everyone deserves space to be themselves, and that is something that many women don't have in these times. 

I would linger by your hearth, if you would have me. You know the ways of my priestesses, yes? They make their homes in the temples of other deities.

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If Sunaira had a body she would be blushing right now. It's rare that she's approached by someone who isn't a deity of pleasure like her. 

As it is, she merely pauses for a hyper-instant to process before she says yes.

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And in a little corner of Sunaira's domain, a cat who is also a girl who is also a goddess curls up by the fire, and stays.

There are layers and depth to this interaction, as well. Adanye doesn't have the strength to maintain a full spectrum of connection the way that Kofusachi does, but many memories spool out nonetheless. Mostly they are of intimacy, rather than sexuality. Moments spent alone together. Adanye has always been catlike in that she lives in the presence of a deity but is never quite hers. She keeps her own counsel, her own place by the hearth. 

But she lingers, and for a while they are content outside this world. 

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This Sunaira remembers an evening in front of the fire, softly stroking the ears of a goddess who has curled up and gone to sleep in her lap.

It is enough to express something. This goddess is her true ally, who seeks to give all others a place they are accepted for their own way of being. She is young and weak, compared to Sunaira: nonetheless, the connection is deep. 

Adanye will have a place at her hearth.

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Adanye tells her of Murraseth, of her patronage to the amurrun (known as catfolk to most), and her relationship with Desna, goddess of dreamers like her. She is not a cat with a single owner. 

There is little she can do to add to Sunaira's strength, being occupied with her own small people; but there will be a paw print left in a corner of each of Sunaira's temples, to let her followers know that here is safety.

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And on Sunaira goes. Adanye has counseled her against speaking to Lubaiko - the Spark in the Dust is too bright, too chaotic, worse even than Calistria - so she will focus on Uvuko instead.

Here is her letter of introduction from Adanye.

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He doesn't speak to many other deities. Most of them are scary and loud and brash. 

Adanye speaks well of Sunaira, though. 

He supposes he'll listen.

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She lays out her pitch for a gradual transition to more modern sexual mores. It is in Uvuko's domains for all things to change, is it not? And he is a deity of fertility.

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He'll see what he can do while keeping this quiet from Lubaiko. She is always eager to start a new revolution, and this is a life-changing innovation; it will inevitably cause an upset when it's introduced to her sphere of influence. That's when things start burning down. 

Don't give this to Lubaiko, please. She just wants an excuse to light things on fire.

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... Yes, she will not give this to Lubaiko. That she was so driven by chaos was a detail that had escaped her until now.

Thank you for your time, Uvuko.

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Don't mention it. Just leave him to his work.

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She will. 

That leaves just the old Osirian deities and Bolka. 

She's been saving Bolka for last. She seems like a deeply interesting goddess.

Hello, Bolka. I'm Sunaira, here are my domains; Pleasure, Love, Sacrifice, Kinks. 

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She is the dwarven goddess of Beauty, Desire, Love, Marriage, Passion, and Committed Relationships. 

Bolka is an old player. Her portfolio is deep in a way many deities' portfolios aren't. 

She has a sense of Sunaira already. She's seen her impacts on her dwarves, the way that she's changed the landscape of desire. She approves. She's been spreading alchemic contraception on her own ever since Calistria passed it into her hands. 

New love is flourishing, and she owes a debt. She will see it repaid, in time. 

You can count on that.

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This is a time when being humble is worth it. She has less knowledge of this gameboard than Bolka; and they are, fundamentally, playing the same game. 

She will listen to everything Bolka has to say on how to play this board. She should have come here far earlier.

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It is enough that Sunaira's come here in her own time. Sometimes you just need to take some time to try it your own way. 

Here is everything she knows about passion, desire and beauty. May it do Sunaira good.

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Thank you. 

She takes time over it, but eventually she has to check back in on her play.

What's going on in the Inner Sea region?

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Sinflower and her alchemical contraceptive are being spread quickly. Calistria is in a tearing hurry to seduce as many people as she can. Prominently touched are elves, courtesans, and anyone affiliated with House Avenstar, which is mass-producing the alchemical formula. You can now purchase effective contraception from reputable vendors in Absalom and several other ports across the Inner Sea, particularly in Andoran and Taldor. Acceptance is slow in Osirion despite the efforts of Calistrian smugglers to spread the valuable formulation. 

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The Church of Abadar has received a large number of potions and elixirs from the Rose Bowers, and many of their formulas are being duplicated for use by the nobility. They're still novelties, but in many cases they're cheaper than permanently enchanted toys, so they have a market niche. 

It has also become generally known that you can now summon a Wing from the Rose Bowers for sexual tasks rather than risking a succubus. This has made a few summoners slightly more wealthy; regulation has yet to catch up given that the proponents of this are mostly powerful magic-users. 

Contraception is under legal debate in Osirion. The Pharaoh has yet to comment.

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The Church of Shelyn is spreading Sinflower discreetly as well, primarily recommending it to established couples who are having issues in the bedroom.

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Milani is fighting the good fight in Andoran, Galt, Cheliax and Nidal. She has little time to spare for the spread of contraception when Calistria is already doing her work for her. 

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Cayden Cailean is similarly occupied.

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So far, so good...

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There is also another kind of Sinflower on the market. It's called Black Sinflower and it's a hundred times more potent than the stuff those goody two shoes priests will give you. It's intensely pleasurable, highly addictive, grows from negative energy, and the first dose is free.

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Urgathoa.

She was wondering when she'd bite. She's clearly put a lot of time into reverse-engineering her carefully DRM'd blossoms. 

This is a real problem. It's going to give all contraception a bad name if this is what Sinflower becomes known as. 

She doesn't have an immediate counter. Excess has always been a thorn in her side. Generally she treats it with deep connections that matter to people, such that they're able to see that the option is bad, but Urgathoa's stolen a march on her while she was busy in Tian Xia. 

She will have to talk to Abadar and Irori about this.

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Okay, so the likely move and countermove here is that Abadar bans Black Sinflower or possibly Sinflower more generally, Urgathoa continues producing it anyway and smuggling it. There'll be a demand, at first because it gives an intense high, then because people are addicted. 

Urgathoa's put a lot of effort into this one. She must have spent quite a bit to pervert the inherently positive-energy based nature of Sinflower to instead run off of negative energy. Then again, Urgathoa is the patron of undead: making things run on negative energy that should run on positive energy is kind of her thing. 

Sunaira's first option for her defense is to introduce some other form of drug - either a medical treatment that helps with addiction or a safer alternative to Black Sinflower that still gives its characteristic high. She has the second already available, but releasing it feels like directly playing into Urgathoa's hands. The endless quest for a purer and stronger variant of Sinflower is Urgathoa's domain, not hers. 

A step-down drug is safer. She has such things in her collection as well - they're part of her domain of sacrifice - but again, Urgathoa is her better in the realm of drugs. 

If she's going to introduce that, she'll need real backing from a deity of healing who can contest Urgathoa on her own turf. Sarenrae or Yeulral. 

What was Urgathoa doing already in the realm of drugs? That matters to her assessment; sad as it is, if this is just one more tool in Urgathoa's large arsenal of narcotics and intoxicants, it might not be worth fighting specifically. It might be better to fall back on domains of community and support and help people with the problems that make them turn to Urgathoa rather than try to individually stamp out every new drug she makes.

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There is in fact already an entire nation just south of Osirion that makes most of its money from the drug and slave trades. It's called Katapesh. It's sponsored by Abadar, just like Osirion is sponsored by Abadar.

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... Maybe she should not in fact be relying on Abadar to ban obviously harmful drugs. 

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Among the drugs commonly available just in Absalom, there is Qat, Demon Dust, Succubus Kiss, Pesh, and Shiver. All of them have serious deleterious effects on the mortal body and all of them are addictive. 

This is, in fact, an ongoing problem.

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Ah. 

Okay, she is not going to fix this overnight. She is not going to overthrow the entire nation of Katapesh in a week, or rid the streets of Absalom of drugs overnight. It's a tragedy that Urgathoa is going to claim more souls using a tool she inspired her to, but she is going to have to fight this one in the trenches rather than coming up with one single, sweeping change that will make everything right

She needs a strategy here.

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... Moreover, this complicates things with Osirion. The last thing she wants is for Osirion to be so destabilized that the lot of bandits in Katapesh take over the country. 

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You know, on reflection, she's been typecasting Abadar as a strict, no-nonsense deity, but in Katapesh he doesn't seem to care at all about the oodles of vice that are present - because it's all legal there, naturally. 

When she considers Katapesh... Abadar seems to mostly give people what they want, societally or mercantilely. She's been confusing his followers in Osirion with the deity himself.

Maybe she should be working together with him rather than opposing him. He's still a fundamentally amoral deity, but they have shared goals in the sense of prosperity and trade...

And if Abadar says the worship of Sunaira is fine, then that will make the transition in Osirion much, much easier.

She should be talking to the old players from Osirion about now. They'll have home field advantage.

... Except that both Bastet and Hathor are chaotic good. If she involves them she's much less likely to be able to work together with Abadar.

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Hey Bes, you used to play in Osirion, right?

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Yes, I did. Why?

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I'm looking into introducing myself to Osirion. I'm a deity of joy, like you are, but like you I'm Neutral Good, not Chaotic Good like Bastet or Hathor. I want to avoid being confused for Calistria or other Chaotic goddesses of sexuality by the Osirian people. 

Do you have any advice?

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Use committed relationships. There's also a carve-out for bards and professional performers that you can take advantage of, that was part of my old domain. 

What precisely are you trying to do?

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Introduce birth control, primarily. Osirian women get a horrible deal and I want to improve their treatment.

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Sell it on the benefits to the community. Less neglected children, less extra mouths that can't be fed, less crime due to poor families not being able to care for their own. People want to have fun, even in Osirion; adapt your strategy away from sexuality a bit and use the nonsexual parts of that Pleasure domain. Love will probably also help. Try to keep families together. Reform is inevitable once birth control becomes widespread, but you can ease the transition and make it something Abadar might accept.

That's all I've got for now. Good luck.

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Can I convince you to come back and play again?

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I'm sorry, but I've got a ton of balls in the air in Kemet. The former-sultan-now-king's passed a decree where he's relegated parliament to an advisory role and it's really a lot to manage. Maybe in a few years more.

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It's alright. Thank you for the advice nonetheless.

Hey Abadar, what's it worth to you to resolve the birth control question in Osirion with it being legalized?

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I'm not really in the business of telling people what they should or shouldn't want. There certainly seems to be a demand for it, but the law's rather against many of its consequences.

That said, if you want to trade with me I'm listening.

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What price would you put on this? What's your opening offer?

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This much.

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... You know, that's actually worth it.

Done.

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Pleasure doing business with you.

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That was weirdly easy. If she'd been trading with Asmodeus this would be the time to count her fingers, toes and relatives.

Abadar is actually honorable in his way, though. She doesn't expect she got ripped off.

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... This doesn't leave her with enough intervention budget to really handle Urgathoa's Black Sinflower issue, but she thinks it's worth it anyway. 

For the moment it's out of her hands.

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The Ruby Prince Khemet III puts the question to his deity, by means of a Commune.

Should birth control be legalized in Osirion?

 

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Yes.

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This was a possible outcome, but nonetheless is surprising. Generally Calistrian inventions are destabilizing and bad for people's Law. 

But Abadar sees farther than they do, so if he says that they should legalize it, they will.

And so the Ruby Prince decrees that every married man may legally possess personal amounts of alchemical birth control. Alchemists may also possess commercial quantities of it with a license.

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It's hardly the sexual revolution that she wants in her heart, but it's a step in the right direction.

Women will be increasingly confronted with the fact that their intimate affairs are managed by men, down the path that this inevitably draws. There will be calls for further reforms. There will be protests, no doubt stirred up by Calistria. Milani might even get in on things a little. The simple availability of the formula in Osirion is a huge victory, when she thinks about it rationally.

It's slower than she would like, but she'll get there eventually. And it is a reform, which is supposed to be what she was aiming for.

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Now she talks to Bastet and Hathor.

Hey Bastet, I've heard you were the patron of unmarried women back in the Osirian old days. Recently I've introduced birth control to Osirion, and I was wondering if you'd come back and play, now that conditions are better for your playstyle.

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You introduced birth control to my old stomping grounds without even asking me?

Ugh, I can smell Adanye on you too! You're working together with her, aren't you? Trying to do better than me at the pleasure domain? That was originally mine before an upstart like you got into the game! 

Yeah, sure, I'll play. I'll play just to shove it in your face that I'm better at pleasure than you. 

Don't wait up.

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... Well that could have gone better. 

On the plus side, Bastet is going to play. On the minus side, she's personally annoyed with Sunaira and Adanye. Apparently the two cat goddesses don't get along. She maybe should have asked Adanye about that. 

... Hathor?

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Yes, hello. Bastet just ran off screaming about how some upstart pleasure goddess was introducing birth control to her old server without her. And working with her old rival Adanye to do it, even.

I assume that's you?

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Yes, that's me.

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Good on you. I might come back and play a little as well, blunt Bastet's worst impulses a little. She's always been wild, ever since we were kids. Not as bad as Sekhmet, but few are.

It's good of you to try and improve the lot of Osirian women. I'll put in a good word for you with the Osirians when I have the time. 

Good luck with Bastet. It's going to be an interesting relationship, that one.

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Thank you, Hathor. I'll do my best.

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Ember lies nude with her back pressed against Kumi's body. Kumi's hand lingers against the base of her ribcage, nestled in softly against her skin. 

She takes slow breaths, her eyes closed to focus on the feeling of being held. Kumi's tails wrap her thighs.

She feels vulnerable, but in a good way. 

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It's hard to stay slow, to introduce Ember to things one at a time. It's clear Ember needs rest and intimacy, but the longer Kumi holds her the guiltier she feels. Like she's getting away with something. 

She doesn't want to ever let go. 

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A while passes. Time has an ethereal, floaty quality when she's held like this. 

Eventually she gets up the courage to speak. 

"I... want to talk about my scars."

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"I was wondering about that," Kumi says. "Please, go on."

She'll do anything she can to help this woman. 

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"I miss them," Ember says. "Not all of them. But some. Some of them mean things. Meant things."

She lays her hand against the back of Kumi's and presses it into her skin. 

"Rose stopped me from scarring myself again. And now I am - confused. I do not know what is good and what is bad. I believe I should bear scars, but that is what the Kuthites want."

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"It's even in your name," Kumi says. "Ember Scar."

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"Yes," Ember says. "Scars are the only thing that is allowed to be beautiful in Nidal. They do not say it is beautiful, they use different words. But it is what they mean."

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"And so the Kuthites name you and your whole family after the things they find beautiful."

She wraps her tails in a little harder.

"Are scars beautiful to you?"

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"Yes," Ember says. "But it is because of the Kuthites. I find other things beautiful as well. Feathers. Flowers. Ships on the sea. You." 

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... oh. 

Could it be that Ember cares about her too? 

"Really, you find me beautiful?"

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"You have taught me beauty," Ember says. "How could I not?"

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Tears rise to Kumi's eyes for a moment, and then she buries her muzzle in Ember's shoulder and blinks them back.

"... I think you're beautiful too," she says. "It took time to learn you, because of your scars. But you're strong, and brave, and the things you create are powerful. Watching you find your way out of the darkness and the hurt... inspires me. It makes me feel that maybe the world can be put right after all."

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"If I had never been hurt, maybe I would never have met you. Maybe I would never have gotten to learn all this."

She shakes her head. "It is cold comfort. But I still..."

She squeezes Kumi's hand. "I am grateful for the pains you carry for me."

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"... That's how they say 'I love you' in Nidal, isn't it?"

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"It is."

To her it is a simple fact, one that Kumi has already demonstrated over and over again. They've had sex, twice. Kumi has healed her. Kumi has brought her art to those who it will help. Kumi has felt her knife and not flinched, and done it all to help her. Kumi has taken Ember's suffering and made it her own.

There's no greater expression of love in Nidal.

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"... I love you too."

It's such a relief to say the words. 

"You were saying, about your scars."

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"Yes, about them..."

Ember sighs and squeezes Kumi's hand. 

"I feel naked without them. I feel that I deserve them. But I do not want to give the Kuthites what they want. What should I do?"

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Kumi closes her eyes. It's easier to focus on this than the larger problem of what her and Ember will do from now on.

"Why do you want them?"

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"They... are my art. They mean things like "I will not break" or "I am strong". I think the ones on my face meant "I am beautiful." It is hard to go on without a... reminder. That I am of Nidal, that my heritage is to be scarred. Some of my old scars were given to me by my mother and father and were all I had left of them."

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"I think there are ways to remember without scarring yourself again. It feels to me that... If you scar yourself again, you are proving the Kuthites' point that suffering is eternal."

She strokes her thumb along Ember's skin. "I think remembering is worthy, and I would not stop you if you chose to renew some of your old scars for that purpose, so long as they were merely cosmetic. But I think it is braver to sacrifice. To say - "I will leave this part of me in the past where it belongs." That is giving something up, but I believe it is what Sunaira would want. It... gives you room to grow past it."

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Ember considers for a long moment. 

"I think you are right," she says. "Going unscarred is what Sunaira would want."

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Kumi nods.

"Would you change your name, then? No longer be Ember Scar?"

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"A good question. Perhaps I should change it to "Ember Shiromusume"? Since you are my family, now." 

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Kumi giggles nervously. "I, um - I think that's going a little fast, don't you?"

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"Ah, foreigners. It is alright. I did mean it as a joke."

She takes Kumi's hand and very gently bites it, just light enough to cause pain.

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In Nidal, that is a kiss. 

She closes her eyes and smiles. 

"Alright. What will you call yourself, then?"

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"If it is a sacrifice to Sunaira... Then my name will be Ember Blackberry." 

She smiles slightly. "It was the first true pleasure you gave me. And I think foreigners would look at me strangely if I named myself Ember pleasurable-sex."

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Kumi blushes and grins into Ember's shoulder. 

"I think so," she says. "Blackberry is a fine devotary name."

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"Then it is done. I will go unscarred from now on, and devote myself to Sunaira and to you; and we will see what becomes of me, in time."

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She has been waiting for this moment for what feels like forever, stockpiling shards of budget just for Ember. 

Ember? Welcome to third circle. You're Kumi's equal, now.

May there be joy and love and pleasure and growth in your future. 

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"- Sunaira just made me third circle." 

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Kumi grins. 

"Congratulations."

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And on the great gameboard of a thousand thousand worlds, white bishop takes black knight. Ember is but one of many that have fallen to her side; and in other worlds some of those pieces were decisive.

Zon-Kuthon has blundered a capture and is now down three points. Some worlds where they once contested are now Sunaira's wholly.

She is gaining strength, and Zon-Kuthon is waning. Golarion just hasn't caught up to it yet. 

 

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The next few weeks pass in a blur. Kumi finalizes work orders and brings in new furniture for the service rooms and commissions a proper shrine and hires working girls with the right attitudes and spares a little time, late in the evenings, to linger and do more recreational things with Ember. 

Ember has moved into the back office of the new shrine with her. Rose still commutes in, but Kumi's able to send Firebrand escorts to shelter her. The temple's debts mount, but with the Church of Shelyn's help the former brothel becomes a genuinely beautiful shrine. They discuss catechism and what to teach at the morning prayer meetings. 

Absalom spins onward. There is work to do, as there always is. The new temple will open soon.

But right now, Kumi is happy.

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Ember is still learning. She has the urge to cut herself sometimes when she is stressed. She sketches scarification patterns. But when the artists from the Temple of Shelyn come to paint their murals on the inner walls of the brothel, she watches intently. She eats spiced food, shucks her old rough-spun wool clothes. And late at night she learns pleasure ever more intimately. 

It's better than she ever dreamed life could be. 

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Rose serves the temple, and wonders if one day she will be reunited with Cytherea, gone away to Andoran. She occupies herself with work and day to day matters, guides her betters as their political advisor. She is not happy, but she is making a difference for those like Cytherea. And that makes it worth the pain. 

One day she will see her love again.

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It is a start.